Slade

Integrity- staying true to myself and others and not compromising in the face of fear. Being open and honest in my relationships. Not selling my soul to some job or staying in a toxic relationship. Honoring the deepest motivations within me and pursuing them fully.

So I have a goal of being at the Isha ashram in India by February or March, so I can focus on yoga for awhile. I have a few things I need to get done before hand and the primary one is to get a job and save up about $3k to be able to go. All I have to do is call a place I’ve applied to or go in and ask for a job, yet I feel resistance to doing it. I’m disappointed in myself because I’ve done way harder stuff before than ask for a job. I still have discipline for meditation, yoga, walking my dog, exercise, contemplation, and visualization. If I just got a job I feel like my life would be so much better and I’d feel a lot more satisfied being on my way to my goal. Maybe I just need to bite the bullet. Don’t hold back, if you think I’m being a little bitch then tell me. I need motivation!

I’m drowning. Drowning with the desire to drink on the weekends. Drowning with the desire to sit back and binge watch movies all day as I stuff my face with sugary foods. Drowning with the desire to blow a load into every hot girl I see. Drowning to escape this society. Drowning to get out of having to work under artificial lighting with nothing but the sounds of computers buzzing and people gossiping. The sounds, they’re tortuous. Priests speak of hell as some far off distant place but it can be found at your local Walmart. I watch as the zombies pick out their poison from the frozen food isle, how they walk past me with a 30rack case of beer that must be so heavy it’s the reason they have a hunch back. I watch as their skin seems to rot away under the fluorescent lighting. I watch as they take a vitamin supplement that reads “good for health” but it’s the farthest thing from nature you could consume. I’m drowning. I can’t bear to see it anymore. I fear that one day I’ll turn into a zombie like them and watch as news anchors bash on our president and I’ll laugh with them as I stuff my face with “gluten free” tortilla chips. I just want to be free. Free from this toxic life most people live. I want to be in heaven. Where I’m as free as the breeze that blows on my skin. Where ecstasy rains down on my body like a monsoon in the tropics, and I’m drowning in the unbelievable beauty of it. Where my love for life is stronger than the love I felt when I kissed the girl I thought I was going to marry. I want to feel the sounds of the forest like a symphony that vibrates my whole being into the rhythm of infinity.

I’m drowning. Drowning with the desire to drink on the weekends. Drowning with the desire to sit back and binge watch movies all day as I stuff my face with sugary foods. Drowning with the desire to blow a load into every hot girl I see. Drowning to escape this society. Drowning to get out of having to work under artificial lighting with nothing but the sounds of computers buzzing and people gossiping. The sounds, they’re tortuous. Priests speak of hell as some far off distant place but it can be found at your local Walmart. I watch as the zombies pick out their poison from the frozen food isle, how they walk past me with a 30rack case of beer that must be so heavy it’s the reason they have a hunch back. I watch as their skin seems to rot away under the fluorescent lighting. I watch as they take a vitamin supplement that reads “good for health” but it’s the farthest thing from nature you could consume. I’m drowning. I can’t bear to see it anymore. I fear that one day I’ll turn into a zombie like them and watch as news anchors bash on our president and I’ll laugh with them as I stuff my face with “gluten free” tortilla chips. I just want to be free. Free from this toxic life most people live. I want to be in heaven. Where I’m as free as the breeze that blows on my skin. Where ecstasy rains down on my body like a monsoon in the tropics, and I’m drowning in the unbelievable beauty of it. Where my love for life is stronger than the love I felt when I kissed the girl I thought I was going to marry. I want to feel the sounds of the forest like a symphony that vibrates my whole being into the rhythm of infinity.

Has anyone here practiced yoga consistently for a few years?

I practiced kriya yoga from JC Stevens book for 5 months and noticed my third eye becoming very active and I gained a lot of control over the Prana that flows up the spine. However I took Sadhgurus advice and decided I shouldn’t learn yoga from a book, and so I went and learned the Hatha Yoga that his foundation teaches about a month ago. After seeing how powerful kriya was I’m excited to see the results of Hatha Yoga after several months of practicing.

I second this. Idk where you learned your yoga routine from but if you do yoga incorrectly it can do more harm than good. It’s a powerful practice, which means it can be powerfully good or bad for you. I recommend learning yoga from Isha school of yoga. There’s teachers all across the world.

I visited the Isha center in Tennessee about two weeks ago and I spoke with some people there that have been doing inner Engineering and they said it has completely transformed their life. One fellow said his back pain is gone now because of it and he feels significantly younger. Everyone at the ashram seems so happy with whatever technique they’re using. I learned Yogasanas which was an amazing experience and has me stoked to take more programs like inner engineering and Bhava spandana. As far as Leo calling it “weak sauce” I wouldn’t listen to it. People are clearly getting results with it and Sadhguru is enlightened, not Leo. Lol

Don’t give yourself the option to fail. Commit that no matter what it takes, you will find what you’re looking for. Regardless of who or what tries to stop you, you keep going. “A man is only defeated once he abandons himself”

You don’t have a set life purpose. It’s not some secret that can be revealed to you. You have certain tendencies and directions that’s you’re interested in but at the end of the day you have to make a choice about what you want to spend your time learning about and practicing. However, psychedelics do seem like they can reveal to you some powerful stuff about what direction you want to take your life and much more.

If you were 60 years old would it be too late for you to do something that you love? Isn’t that what you really want is to do something that you love?

Maha Mudra im at the point in the kriya book where it’s time for me to learn maha mudra but I don’t seem to be felixble enough and it’s quite difficult. Has anyone had this issue too and how did you overcome it?

I don’t know if any of you have tried Sadhguru’s yoga namaskar practice but I find some parts of it quite difficult because I’m not flexible enough. Are there any specific excercises I can do to become more flexible or will the daily practice of it eventually lead to me being able to do the postures properly?

Some I use... I am courageous i explore life courageously i am happy I have amazing friendships i radiate warmth and affection I make people laugh and feel joy I am consciousness I am bold life is beautiful I see the beauty of life I travel whenever I want i travel wherever I want I am wealthy I am free

I feel my spine a lot more and sometimes I can actually feel energy moving up my spine and putting pressure on my third eye area. I feel better in my body in general after doing it for 4ish months now. I haven’t had any samadhi states yet but sometimes when I really put effort into the practice and it goes well I feel a deep sense of peace afterward and a slight dissolution of my boundaries. I think the biggest thing I’ve gained from doing it is that it’s really opened up my curiousity about yoga and now I want to study it a lot more and practice.