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Here’s a nice lentil soup recipe I make In 30 mins that lasts about a week. Carrots, celery, onion, potatoes, kale, veg broth, Etc... https://minimalistbaker.com/1-pot-everyday-lentil-soup/ I spice it up with some cumin as well

Is this cowardly? I know its just my ego but still.. the scariest thing I could ever imagine is that “I” and all “others” are illusions inside God or the big “I”. Of which I’ve had small glimpses of and have fallen back into distracting myself from the total annihilation

@Fink Ployd same! Message me

Let whatever happens happen. But carefully observe yourself - silently, without judgement. Awareness itself is curative. Leo made a video about this.

other than meditation which is the most obvious and profound, I'd say healthy eating. Im experimenting with whole food plant based right now and feel fucking amazing. My body feels transparent and like its just gently floating here. It's seriously changing my life! Im already more confident, compassionate, and energized and I'm only about a month in.

I keep having really dark feeling dreams about the nature of reality. The one I had last night consisted of me knowing i've lived millions and millions of lives and the point was trying to understand that nothing is real. Im actually very scared of nothing being real. I love the world so much, my friends and family. I want them to be real I want it all to be real, to mean something. Im scared of it all being just me. So I get that thats what they're trying to tell me, showing me my fear. They're basically like someone who i consider to be "asleep" or just would never sit down and meditate looking at me and telling me "I'm you, this isn't real" and then I wake up into another dream and it happens again. Thoughts?

Im afraid of losing the world, but its like I'm being pulled and theres no stopping it. Truly tumbling down the rabbit hole

@Shin ha, ahh. yeah..:)

@Prabhaker seriously thank you. This is great

well looks like leo's new video is just right for you:) and me

To build a nice solid foundation I suggest starting with a basic 5 by 5 routine. So do your compound lifts (bench, squat,deadlifts) and do 5 sets for 5 reps for a couple months at least. Maybe 3 to 4 times per week, upper, lower, core. Upper, lower, upper, lower.

@LifeLife I've dealt with social anxiety too. Best thing thats helped me is probably meditation, healthy eating, and exercise. Start with meditation if you don't already and if you do, do more. Anyways, don't try and not to be socially anxious. Instead be ok with it as who you are and just let it happen. When it does just watch it. Keep watching and watching and over time it will start to dissipate. Also maybe try picking up Alan Watts' book The Wisdom of Insecurity, helped me so much. Social Anxiety is a bitch but a blessing for serious growth :-)

Yeah, I've dealt with depersonalization as well. its tough and can get very fucking strange. basically I had an experience where I was playing basketball with my buddies and all of a sudden it felt as if i were on an alien planet. And i remember just looking at "their" bodies and they looked like straight up organisms is as best as i can explain it. I couldn't really interpret language and it was basically just sound coming out of their mouths. their arms looked like tentacles and hands and fingers don't even get me started. I couldn't look at my own hands without getting intense anxiety for a while so i went home and just tried to close my eyes and nap it off. Couldn't look at my own mother btw. Id say it was a mystical type experience though, i had no clue one could see the world this way. But yes, it does go away. keep meditating. I think its just when you see the truth of reality and your conditionings slip away for a second your ego freaks out and since you feel like you're a separate self the world then feels alien.

Rochester, NY. anyone?? would love to meet some like minded people

@Erica me too, where abouts? Im near Rochester/Buffalo area

theres multiple planes of perception. none of which that are seperate from God. so it is a joke and it isn't, and it doesn't matter because for it to be a joke it has to be taken seriously and for it to be taken seriously there lies the joke on the other side of the coin.

... Isn't searching for a life purpose or pursuing your life purpose preventing you from attaining enlightenment?

yesterday something very profound happened to me. Earlier in the day I was mediating and had a deep intuitive feeling that my life purpose was to alleviate as much suffering as I could in the world, and that I wanted a job where I could do this and work with people. Specifically dying people is what came to mind. Anyways I was on my way to subway before I had to go to work (boring, unfulfilling 9 to 5), and the whole car ride was just thinking about how much I wanted to dedicate my life and time to alleviate suffering, and it felt really good, like for the first time I KNEW what I wanted to do, what my life purpose was. And so i got into subway and as soon as I walked in a man came right up to me shook my hand and told me his name. right from the start i could tell he was very high on something other than weed. Maybe very drunk. His eyes were glossed over, and he was stumbling and mumbling. I knew he was suffering deeply. He looked like he was about to cry and told me he was having a rough day. He said he had been jumped and they beat him up pretty good. He had a terrible gash on his thumb that was dirty and bandaged up very poorly. I was anxious because its scary being compassionate and loving towards people that aren't acting "normally" in society. The people in subway were annoyed and watching him like it was a funny show, so my ego was telling me not to take to much to this man. But I just put my hand on his shoulder and was just there, present with him. Not getting involved in his karma, and just told him to hang in there everything is going to be ok. He asked me to pray for him and have him in his thoughts. As i left subway i got into my car and just started crying. For at that moment it hit me how much suffering there is in the world and how deeply people can actually suffer. But I had an undeniable feeling that this was a message from the universe that this is what I need to do. It affected me so profoundly i can't really describe it. But in that moment in the car everything felt so perfect and beautiful, like my existence had meaning. And that the meaning of life is to grow with and through suffering. But now its the next day and I feel stuck. I don't know what jobs I could go for so i could work with suffering people. I dropped out of college but I'm not totally apposed to going back. It would just be hard. Does anyone have any recommendations on jobs or maybe even volunteer work I could do? Advice? thanks dudes!