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@pluto Lemurian crystals. I have not heard them called that before. I have not checked my crystals for a long time but I do recall seeing them before. However I do have a Recorder crystal. I have not yet been able to experience anything from it as yet. Though I have not spent too much time with it either. Thank you for informing me about the 5D storage system in crystal (and in glass too). I just checked it on the Internet. Yes, I agree that the future will reveal more, not only about crystallography but how subtleties such as intuition are interacted with the material world (consciousness of the inanimate).

@FirstglimpseOMG There is a state of mind which I enjoy most of the time when I am cycling in race tempo mode. It is commonly called 'in the zone'. It is an awareness of every part of the body, its functioning on the bike, the bike itself, the surrounding environment, plus an intuition of what is about to happen next. It is an awareness which puts me into 100% efficiency, fearless, and doubtless.

While building the bridge I was figuring out what DC power supply will be needed for the diorama. Twenty-four volts will be used for the control panel lamps and all other lighting, 12 volts for relays and motors, and 5 volts for servos and logic circuits. I have designed and built many power supply units in my past. So this one was not too much of a problem. Printed circuit board layout and prepared for etching. Testing the voltage outputs. It felt good to turn the power on and not hear any load BANG or smoke from the circuit board. Or no blown fuses. Now that apprehension is over with. When it comes to electricity, it pays to check and double check again the circuitry before adding power to it.

Here is a painting I like very much. To me it is absolutely still and quiet. I often look at it to become grounded again. It was originally an exercise to see what I would paint for the new found feeling of serenity. At the time I had an AA mentor, named Frank, who was quite spiritual by nature. It was he who introduced me to contemplative type meditation to find me inner peace. When I finished the painting I stood back to contemplate on it. I found it to be quite frank. I laughed to myself about that and decided to title it Point Frank. Later I renamed it Serenity.

Every quartz crystal is unique yet within the esoteric community they are categorized by shape, colour, patterns, termination (points), and those more seriously by crystallography. Crystal wands are also seen as long slender quartz crystals on there own. They are not attached to anything, and used directly by one's hand. They are often called hand wands. Here are a few: Laser can be used to recharge a crystal. Here are two such crystals attached to a copper tube. The top one is mainly for reading energies; the other for injecting energies.

I have been in same situation. From that, I learnt that I did cunningly denied it to myself, that I was conditional after all, because I felt a loss of investment. Now I ask myself daily 'Can I let go of this relationship if my partner said goodbye?' This usually reveals any hint of expectation/investment into things to go MY way. This daily self appraisal helps me to see where my partner may wish to be conditional with me. My usual response to her conditioning is, "If that is what you want". She then knows that I am happy to go along with her wish, but also knows I will not go where it will compromise my truth.

Now for something completely different. In 1988 I got sober and clean. I had previously stayed sober for two years but then relapsed again. At the time of starting this painting I was on my second second year of recovery. I was afraid of an other relapse due to some negative thoughts of being jinxed or something like that. I decided to do a painting which would help me to be more determined to stay sober. It was a painting to find what sobriety meant to me. So it became a very symbolic painting. It took a month to paint. It is has helped to crystallize the importance of what alcoholism and sobriety is. I have been clean and sober since and I like to think that be doing this painting has helped me to stay sober.

Flittering Ego. Not wanting to be recognized as such. The ghost in the (human) machine.

Interesting post, yet I still imagine uncreated light as the energy source of reality. IMO, materialism, is the delusion of attempting to claim God for self.

So much for Windows calculator.

When I train or race (road cycling) I like any music with a 100 rpm beat.

@nightrider1435 Good on you. Keep going, one day at a time. Sometimes slowly, sometimes quickly. Just make sure you take more steps forward than backwards. If you were to change over night you might die from shock, or think that someone gave you a brain transplant. It takes as long as it takes. Accepting one's truth is a bitter pill for the ego. As long as you are going against the ego grain, you will shape up nicely.

@Dharam I do not think there is a magic pill for this one. Well not a fast acting one at least. One hundred people may apply for the same job, 3-10 may get an interview, only 1 gets the job. If you can get to the interview they already like what you have to offer. Get a list of most likely questions asked at a job interview from the Internet. Then find out what gets you to that interview (resume, etc). Here are a few thoughts for you to think about: Nobody is perfect, so forget about trying to get there. And if you did, then you would be all alone. The goal is to build up enough self-esteem to realize that you don't need it. Yet again, you may see this clearly and just let go of it now. Angels fly because they take things lightly. Keep it simple. Good Luck (luck = preparation meeting opportunity).

@pluto Thanks for your response. Interesting word 'alchemy'. In essence we, who are transforming through self-improvement, are alchemists. Crystal therapy, and other modalities adventured for the search of truth, can be part of the recipe which transforms us. Especially if we do not claim them. Claiming them will crystallize us so to speak . Though I am presenting artifacts and stories, they only serve to discover the finer aspects of what is true.

It's best to grow up first.

Anybody who is not unconditional is in exploitation mode.

To perceive now has already passed because it always takes time to perceive. But generally, whenever I am active in doing something unfamiliar or risky.

Gave the bridge substructure an undercoat before covering it with a road surface. I left areas untouched so I can glue the terrain in place. The holes into the girder ends are for wires to act as contact points for power and signals to the bridge span. Fender piers/pylons are placed between bridge and traversing vessels. The central piers in the outer sets have a hole through them for installing (red and green) navigational lights. The outer pylons will be installed after the river gets painted.

Intuition comes to us with unexplainable conviction, similar to knowing the truth. Where the subconscious is more quasi and lacking conviction. My understanding and experience with intuition is that if I were using a pendulum and intuition presented itself, I would then already know the answer without further need of the pendulum. If I was relying on the pendulum then my subconscious is already filtering out the intuition, to let it search for its own answers from the mind. If I was relying on the love within me, even while using the pendulum, then intuition would have a better chance of presenting itself to my mind. So in this regard, if relying on the pendulum to provide the answer, and not wishing any negative programming, I would use the pendulum only with a loving heart.

Honestly, the first thing I always do is to have a lovely long hot shower.

@Soulbass Truman Show + Monsters Inc. is closer to the truth IMHO.

Attaching the girders. It is starting to look like a bridge. I am quite excited. The bridge model may actually turn out okay.

During an abuse, I would count the strokes. This gave me an indication of when it will more than likely stop. But one time the count kept going. About the 30 count all pain left the body. I looked into my fathers eyes at the stroke of 34, and he looked into mine. He stopped. and ran into his bedroom. I went into my bedroom to lay on the bed, but I soon found out that I could only lay on my stomach.... Forty years later I decided to revisit that episode via a quick pen sketch. I discovered three valuable things from this. My father at the time had surely lost the plot. He was insane with rage. I never thought my parents were subject to losing the plot. In retrospect of my own history, I could also relate to losing the plot. It was this relating that helped me to forgive his insane behaviour. During the abuse, when his eyes met mine he could see his own truth. Seeing his own truth snapped him out of his insanity. That is why he stopped beating me. I faced the fear and it ran away. Furthermore, when my endorphins took over the pain I realized that I was still okay. In other words, it is only my body that experiences pain. It is pain that tells me I have a body. But without the pain I am not the body, but something else. My mother did not interfere during the abuse, or any other abuse. She also witnessed the insanity of it all. Yet was willing to allow it to happen again and again. Was she that fearful of my father, or was there something else? I still have no answer to that and most probably will never know. So be it.

A tincture wand.

@MiracleMan If I was in your position I would go back onto the medication to help me to think better without those depressive episodes. Then start learning how to manage depression psychologically, such as Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT). I find that C-BT (Cognition effecting behaviour) used back to front B-CT (behaviour effecting cognition) helps me. Depression can put you in a hole, but getting out of that hole and be active can change one's thinking. That is why I like cycling around the country side. It refreshes me. Psychologically, depression often plays a tune about all the things that do and have not gone OUR way. It is okay if things don't go our way. Life is full of things not going our way. It is accepting and adapting to change which makes life interesting and exciting. Don't fear change. Change is our friend. Start learning and practice managing depression. When you think that your new skills are working for you, then tell the doctor/psychiatrist about your management plan and how it is working. Then ask to have the medication dosage dropped for a few months as a trial period. If depressive episodes no longer increase due to managing depression without previous dosage levels, then ask for another lower dosage. Eventually you may manage depression without medication. In my opinion that is a more prudent approach to managing clinical depression if medication side effects are a problem. However, there is a common misconception that some people with depression fall for. That is, they take the medication and start feeling well. After a while they think they no longer need the medication and stop taking them. After a few weeks they are back in the black hole. Then they go back on the medication which takes a few weeks before they feel better again. Some repeat this scenario often, which can add fuel to being depressed. It is a chemical imbalance of the body. To regain balance takes time. Exercise, nutrition, altered attitudes could reestablish the needed balance over several months or more. But in the meantime one needs some assistance through proper medication. This approach does not work for all people with clinical depression, so be prepared to accept that if it is in your case. However, I would give the above approach a go.