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take a dive into David Deida's work. He know's alot about on how to express the masculine (also about the feminine)

seperate your confidence from your belifs, they are just concepts. play with them, take them lightly be confident in what you feel. know what you feel. know what you experience. there is noone who can tell you, you do not experience what you experience. be honest with yourself about what you experience. whatever it is, it's ok. If there is happiness, let happines be, if there is doupt, let doupt be, if there is desire, let desire be. Ultimately, it's just reality happening. everything is allowed. No denial. Acceptance is the way.

You can use DMT recreationally, no tollerance Which drug, you think, can not be used recreationally?

go and enjoy the city itself, you can meditate whenever your in places less exciting

much more likely - one deludes oneself with new beliefs after doing them. stay vigilant

even thought harsh, beautiful <3 Enjoy your illusion

This is probably the most obscure phenomena I've encountered so far on my path. It's been a couple of months now since it started. Often, while sitting in meditation, I spontaniously start doing metta (love, gratitute, kindness meditation) and as soon as feelings of love arise, my nose starts having tingeling sensation. The more intense the feeling of gratitude, love, beauty or whatever the more instense the tingeling in my nose. Often after just a few seconds of metta I have to sneeze. Interestlingly enough it feels like I sneeze out these said feelings. They are usualy gone or way less intense after the sneeze, I also observed this happens especialy if the positive feelings are accompanied with a touch of sadness of letting go something my ego was attached to. Just felt like sharing this interesting/funny little aspect of my current state

Fascinating report! Really looks like a big step forward. All best wishes for the integration further journey!

@ActualizedDavid just found this here, you could exchange findings together

Have you had MDMA before where you dosed with a scale? Your dipping technique could lead to overdosing/rly bad comedown if you dont know how much one dip of a finger approximatly is in mg. And did you test your substance?

You can start doing it by yourself. theres alot of instruction videos and guides for kriya or kundalini yoga on youtube or you can check out the kriya yoga books on leos booklist if you have it.

Are you talking dried mushrooms? For most people a normal does is waaaaay below 15g!

shamanic breathing, kriya yoga, finding truth

@IndigoGeminiWolf One can have one or multiple "experiences" of enlightenment but in general it "closes down" again as the mind takes over. So one can talk from past experience but not be enlightened. Also one can talk about it just after hearing about it ;P

Beautiful, thanks for sharing!

Well salvia can give you the experience of dying but you may just feel like you are a chair or some other object which will not be the experience of nothingness. And as others have allready mentioned you'll be likely to forget completly that you have taken anything in the first place, you'll very likely forget your intention. Salvia tends to part you completly from the part of your psyche that is able to cognize experience. For your purpose other psychedelics are much more likely to produce the result you would like to see. Higher doses of LSD or Mushrooms, 5-MeO-DMT are a much saver bet.

hahahah good luck. I had only small doses a couple of times back a couple years ago. It was actually not bad, had the giggles, and felt completly dumb and dissociated for a couple of minutes. But I guess you know the stories of people smoking larger doses, they come out somewhat traumatized and without any wisdom gained just having the most weird and unpleasent experiences ever. Not really recommendable, but some folks are just too curious

could you let go of your ideals of how a truthful person "should be"? observe closely if, when you make a joke, you actualy look down on the subject of the joke. You seem not to. I personaly make all kinds of jokes, even dark ones. I see no problem with them. But I am careful with what joke I make around which people.

thinking about this one too. I'm going for a retreat next month. I probably do it afterwards.

for deep friendships you (and them) have to open up your deeper layers. start asking questions about their lifes and how they rly feel about it, for example ask them what they are struggeling with? what do they love? opinions about polarizing subjects? key is to have genuine interest to get to know the other person. Don't judge them for what they say, feel or do, keep an open mind and have some emphaty. you could start by carefuly sharin something personal about yourself and see if there is a spark of genuine interest on their side. Observe attentively, but be careful not to overanalyze. good luck

Yesterday night I smoked some DMT I weighted 40mg on my scale and split it in 2 (one part a little bit bigger than the other). First I smoked to smaller part - smooth transition, CEV's, same "rooms" which I have entered in previous trips, smooth exiting in a quiet meditative state. After the peak wore off I loaded the pipe again. Right when I felt that this one's gona be deeper than the previous one I started cramping up and getting anxiety. To my surprise it got pretty personal. It took me into a place which I have known from Ayahuasca. It took me a while to relax into the experience, eventually I did. I let myself dissolve into the weird sensations and got to what I would call my subtle energy body. There I could see where trauma was stored in which body parts. It felt like the DMT was working on the traumas (just like back then with Aya) which felt unconfortable but healing at the same time. Unfortuanly, since smoked, it only lasted for a couple of minutes. Today I feel super sensitive and in need of silence. Anyone had similar experiences like this one? Thoughts?

I'm reading the book "persuing consciousness" atm. In the book the Peter Ralston (the author) says the following, which makes sense to me. He makes a clear distinction between enlightenment and transformation. Often people think that one includes the other, this is not a given. He defines enlightenment as "becoming conscious of whats actually true". Classic enlightenment referst to becoming conscious of the truth about Self and what Reality is. This realization does not necessarily bring change or transformation with it, it is simply knowing whats true. Even thought in most cases when someone has an enlightenment experience, some aspect of the mind changes but by far not all of it. Following: just because your aware of what the Truth is does not make you the best version of yourself

Experiment with it and find out what works for you. You can try in each phase of a trip to check in on yourself to see how you feel with music and without music. It might even change from trip to trip what kind of music you like to listen and when to listen.