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@kieranperez Welp. More assumptions.

Yes, cuz admitting no one will really know you, sure is deception.

I didnt said I did? Only Kanye can truly know himself.

Yes, cuz you know Kanye so well...haha

@moon777light We did it

IS KANYE PEEPING ACTUALIZED ORG!?!?!??!

Raised by the infinity power, Raised by the infinity power, Raised by the infinity power, Raised by the infinity power, Raised by the infinity power, Raised by the infinity power,

@Leo Gura Have you? Not critcising, just curious. What has been your most profound experiences related to enlightenment?

@Prabhaker Thank you. So he was 29 when he first encountered suffering, and he left the palace at 29. How much time it did took for him to leave (weeks, months)?

@Leo Gura They are robots, Leo. Robots.

Thank you sir. I just wanna add more energies. Im not saying i dont show gratitude for this blessing but I want more energies. Calm is not pleasant energy. For me, its the absence of agitation.

Yeah, since 3 weeks ago till now, I have been feeling non-stop calmness. It never stopped. Even when I had my heart pumping (anxiety). the calmness was still there. My body is stiller than ever, I have less thoughts. I still have thoughts and traumas and all that but I feel calm in the midst of everything. I can think of my traumas and my body doesnt start shaking, still calm and still. Now this doesnt mean Im at peace, I cant feel emotions (anti-depressants) but I can feel energies and sensations on my body. So yeah. Took me almost 2 years of numbness and 12 years of depression to reach this state. I did it, now i want to be at peace. Haha. Funny how the mind always goes to the next moment but I dont obsess over it. I just try to live in this moment as much as I can.

@egoless I didnt say I was awakened. Read it, I didnt say I was at peace. Its just that for almost a month now, I feel calm eryday

@Prabhaker At what age did Buddha started to suffer? Was his suffering intense?

@LiakosN Its not a hell now, lol. I feel pretty calm eryday. I havent been diagnosed. I self-diagnosed. I just saw what others that had it, I had it in myself, so yeah. I can say that I had it.

Welp. I had almost all of these. I deleted the ones i didnt have. I only didnt have one haha

Everything is a belief until you got experience proving it over, and over again. Yes. I had a control problem. I remember when I was walking to come back home, Id check out my pockets 6 or 10 times to make sure I dont lose my keys. Today, that actually happened but it wasnt intense.

@starsofclay Your ego is in control. But, you have control over your actions, so, you can take measures to take the control back.

Then, why not stop giving them fuel?

nope, thats a belief.

@starsofclay Progress is slow. It took Jordan 29 years to beat the Pistons and when he was considered the greatest, he still practiced, didnt he?

@Egoisego You are not enlightened. stop it.

nope

Im quite aware. You mean OCD? If that is so, yes my arms would twitch, shake violently, i would have obsessive thoughts (even with me being mindful about them), my body would go from usual to really cold or hot, not as in a pleasant warm, my eyes would hurt. Now I live the same life and its all different. I dont know, I did some work such as meditating, disbelieving thoughts, contemplating, etc, etc. Nothing gave me this calmness, it all resulted in failure (which was very valuable because I could learn a lot, but failure is also apart of the progress which if you think about it, is it really that bad?). I watched a teal swan video, bla bla bla, pretty much said:"In the situation you are in (feeling suicidal) its either going to result in suicide or something else. So you have a choice, to quit this life or give your all". It had not reasonated with me yet. Then I watched some Douglas Bloch's videos about coping with with depression, I was feeling desesperate, so I decided to take a walk. da da da, there was the calmness.