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@Friend Yeah, I been feeling slight suffering on my heart but I have been distracting myself, doing things to make myself feel better.

Yes. If you feel the positive ones, yes they are. The thing is, I went to anti depressants because I suffered intensevely, everyday, almost all the day. I hope this doesnt repeat.

Havent masturbated in 3 weeks. I quitted porn and havent had any urges.

It was, im numbed by pills but i can feel calmness.

Ha, thats the same as how I feel.

Do yall?

Well, its not fucked. Its just an emotion\thought, nothign wrong with it. Actually, judging yourself and your thinking creates EVEN more suffering. I dont mean that you cant work on it tho.

I would probably have the same life, only that I would enjoy it to the fullest. Playing videogames...to the fullest. Enjoying the night...to the fullest. Making songs...to the fullest. Being alone...to the fullest.

Yes, but we can only see his body

No, you have control over your actions. If you did that, you CHOSE to do that, I didnt make you do that. Dont you see that you chose NOT to do that? See, you got free will!

@How to be wise Yes. Checkout Noah Elkrief, he has videos on how to disbelieve thoughts too

Yes, cuz you know me so well, haha

Leo, the Mr.We dont control over our actions. Im kidding but do this exercise (dont cheat). Put your hand in the middle of the air. Now, wave the hand to the right, now to the left, now to the right, now to the right. See? If you didnt cheat, youd see yo ucontrol that

You might be trying to control something you cant. Just focus on your life.

@How to be wise If, after meditating you go straight to the mental chatter, its no surprise. Im aware, at all times.

@How to be wise Well, nothing is guaranteed, of course.

Been doing the same since summer 2016. But I also used to meditate.

Yes, and some consideer themselves enlightened lol

Buddhism & Hinduism A state in which the individual transcends desire and suffering and attains nirvana. https://www.thefreedictionary.com/enlightenment

@Prabhaker Well, it also depends if people are aware another type of mindset\living is possible. It is not known to the mainstream.

@AlwaysBeNice Wathced it. @Prabhaker Yeah, we can all do it.

Well, he didnt really control his inteligence, so.

@Prabhaker Damn. So was the suffering so deep, that he had to leave that early?

Humn, if you were awakened, youd knew "narcissist" people dont exist. But yeah, I forgot, you arent. Do you feel resistance on your body? That also means you arent awakened.