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@Moritz I won't answer all your questions, but I can maybe provide some insight. I have multiple higher dosages behind me on LSD & 1P-LSD. When you take a high dose, I recommend that you plan and prepare for a couple of things. Be at a place where you can be yourself, maybe with a close friend/girlfriend who can help you cheer up if needed. If you feel shitty, then I suggest you trip another time. One usually has less control during high doses. A tidy trip-space is neat. Make sure to have no obligations that day, it's a plus if the next day is also the same in terms of having no obligations. Having the phone muted/turned off or similar might be a good idea. Set your intentions for the trip. What do you want to get out of it? Make sure that you've enough food and water, and that the food you eat that day doesn't need to be prepared for long. On higher dosages, it might be tough to navigate and think focused. Maybe have some relaxing music at hand (best with headphones for better immersion), incense, an instrument, anything that can relax you and maybe get you into some kind of "flow-state". Use a journal, a camera or anything else to capture insights. I find that writing can be a bit tough, or more precisely the construction of proper sentences, so having a video camera might be better for some. Know how to calm yourself down, how to let go and surrender. This can be done by talking to yourself mentally, listening to a guided meditation/relaxation or similar. Test your stuff before you take it. Be prepared for an ego-backlash. Those can be brutal after a deep psychedelic trip, depending on the individual.

Good question, there are different kinds of salt, so I don't think it's fair to sweep them all under the same rug. I consume pink salt/himalaya salt, but aren't sure if there's much of a difference between the one I use, and the ones that most people buy in the local store.

I bought L-Theanine too a while ago, from "Now Foods", it had a weird smell too, but I ingested it. It didn't provide any noticeable effect(s) that could undoubtedly be attributed to the supplement, in my experience. I'm curious about the answer to your question as well.

My father "senses" wireless radiation and similar, and when he does, his body starts to shake/tremble. It looks like parkinsons, the body gets stiff and he feels dizzy/unwell. He wants to move to a place where he can somewhat avoid this stuff, maybe already this year. With 5G, this would probably just amplify his symptoms. If I somehow start to show similar signs as he does, I'll consider moving somewhere remote too (even if I don't, this consideration is still on the table).

I think its good that you want to wait till you're 20. The brain of yours is still in development, and usually its not adviced to trip at the age you're at, yet then again, I know too little about that, other cultures even make their children trip at a very early age. I'd suggest that you do what feels right for you.

Interesting, it seems like you "went with the flow", not clinging in a tense dogmatically way onto the practices, rather doing it more playfully. Yin Yoga and self-massages sound helpful, especially after sitting for long periods in meditative postures. There are times when even walking becomes difficult for me after meditation-sits for some time (even though I currently don't sit for hours on end), so this is something I'll dig into more.

Hello all. I am planning to do a 7-Day solo retreat in a friends apartment (he's not there during the retreat). I ordered books about Kriya Yoga from the booklist, and want to establish a kriya-routine before I go for the retreat. I'd like to know what you would recommend me doing during the retreat, and what to prepare for/things I should expect during the retreat. How does a typical 7-day retreat schedule look like? My current daily practice is... Concentrative meditation (listening to the breath and the spaces between), reiki-selfhealing (handpositions on body), practicing gratitude, compassion, loving what is. Some yoga asanas (from the Wim Hof course) - I'd like to partly replace those asanas with kriya-yoga. The deep breathing and cold showers is something I want to continue doing. I tend to do a bit of contemplation/self-inquiry during the day, but haven't a firm routine (yet). ------------------- Food and water is something that I'll stock up on (I thought about water-fasting, but I think that's too much of a hurdle for the first retreat). My phone will be turned off (unless my friend hasn't an alarm clock, then I'll only turn the phone on overnight), books need to be hidden away, anything that could be a distraction really... I'll bring a journal and a pen, for insights and noting what runs through the mind. ------------------- Worries and things that I might expect... It might be that the active kundalini gives me backpain or similar when doing the practices more intensely (although I have a reiki appointment tomorrow, maybe that helps). Becoming overwhelmed with negative emotions, afterall this is some kind of deep detox, and not following through. Trying to waste time by doing other stuff, daydreaming or anything that distracts from the practices. Loss of focus, mental clarity and concentration, big time. Feelings of heavy boredom, frustration, melancholia, restlessness, depression and maybe even suicidal ideation (Feeling depressed is normal for me, during the detox, those feelings might enhance/ego-backlash).

I'd suggest that you share stuff even when the feeling of jealousy arises, the more you do it, the easier it usually gets and you might feel a bit proud of yourself for sharing even when you know that you might feel jealous/envious. "Comparison is the thief of joy", working on your emotions and the thought bundles lurking behind them, is a good idea. Practicing gratitude, love and compassion (there are meditations for that too) can turn things around for you. In a way, you're then practicing to be more self-less, by loving and accepting what is including your feelings that you perceive as "negative". It's all part of the journey of personal & spiritual growth. Contemplating those feelings and thoughts, writing down limiting beliefs and digging deeper into that would be beneficial too. You could ask yourself questions like... How would I feel, if I let comparision and jealousy be/go? - Would it maybe even accelerate my personal & spiritual growth? What would I lose & gain if I let go of it? What would happen if I accepted those things as they are? What exactly is this jealousy and comparison made of? - What is it in its nature? It's good that you've started acting, keep at it

@TheThingy I think tripping with others, and a person that can guide you has its pro and cons. A con in my view might be other people tripping alongside with you, besides the shaman who can guide you and offer advice which can be a pro. It's good to know the people one wants to trip with, and their behavior on the psychedelic of choice. Personally I like to trip alone, silence has a good impact when it comes to looking inward, one is less distracted. For me, tripping is a journey done by myself, for myself (there are times when I'd like to trip with other people, but it would be more for "fun" than doing focused looking, inwards). I've done trips outside amongst other people, and got easily distracted and somewhat anxious at times. I mainly do this when I want to make music while relaxing in a park (I live in a larger city, so there's always people around), besides that, tripping alone for me is favoured when it comes to introspection. Maybe tripping with those people might be good for you since they're experienced travelers, but idunno. Trippin' alone with a shaman would probably be a cool thing...

@Annoynymous Personal-Development is reframing your mind-set. I think "curing" mental health issues like PTSD, depression, anxiety disorders etc., may be a bit far-fetched for most, but PD certainly helps with changing how you see mental issues and yourself, making it easier to deal with those issues even upto where they don't bother you at all. This often requires hard work, and patience, depending on the individual.

25. May, 2019 ⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽༓☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅ Today I struggled getting quality/"normal hours" of sleep, again. This insomnia thing isn't fun in the long run. I woke up early again, maybe at 02:00 in the morning and went to visit the toilet in the bathroom and the sink, after that, I laid back down again, hoping to get some sleep. I can't remember how long it took me to doze off again, yet when I kinda did (half-asleep & half-awake +-), something surreal happenend. I was aware of me, still trying to get into "sleep mode" on the couch, after a while I heard some strange distant gibberish while still being lucid to some degree. This gibberish sounded like someone/some-thing, but I couldn't make out what it was. The dream-ego-me, became more curious and threw out some questions (sadly I can't accurately remember what those questions were and how exactly it went down). I seemed to get an answer, but still it was too distant to understand the reply. Eventually, I felt like if some-thing was really close to me, some sort of energetic force very close to my body and face. I only could feel the presence, throughout the whole thing, but there was no image of "it". Now, because of the closeness, I heard more clearly what was being said. She (female voice, an attractive one too) talked to me, and I felt an energetic surge of energy flowing through my body (mostly my lower-body). The body of mine was vibrating, tingling and showered with this warm energy. I also got aroused, and I perceived the experience to be somewhat sexual in nature for some time, but nothing like a wet dream. I remember that I asked many questions, and we were talking back and fourth, yet most of this slipped from my conscious memory. Many questions were not-so-great/weak, the dream-ego-me didn't ask many profound question if any at all. At one point, I even remember apologizing for asking too much. I think she told me to surrender, relax or something similar like that in reply (the memory of her reply is very, very vague and might not be what I think it was) There's one question that I asked, which I remember. I asked her for her name. She told me, I repeated it back to her. She told me again... I repeated it back to her, then once more time till I got the pronunciation right-ish. I made a mental note, to remember that name when I would wake up. I kind-off did, yet I am not sure how to spell it properly. Her name was something like... Hanhisis/Anhisis/Hanthisis... Shortly after I got to know her name, I started to become more lucid of the "real world", and told notified her about that. I didn't get a reply back as far as I can remember, and then was wide awake at around 05:00 in the morning. I was more awake than usual too, probably because of what had happened. I thanked "her/it" for the visit, and contemplated the experience. I managed to get some more sleep after that. All in all, this experience was quite interesting to say the least, I felt as if I had some sort of connection with another being, her. Maybe and hopefully, I'll meet her again ⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽༓☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅

April 2019 - (Exact date unknown) ⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽༓☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅ Another strange experience happened to me during sleep. I tend to pretty much always feel tired/sluggish, but on this day I felt a bit more tired than usual. After a sesson of meditation, I decided to lay down on the couch and try to get some sleep. I've tried sleeping mid-day multiple times, but I usually can't sleep even though I feel like it. I'm guessing 45 min or so had passed since I laid down on the couch, still no sleep and I wanted to get up but I kept still. Eventually, I fell asleep and one of the craziest sleep-experiences I had, occured. It was like a lucid dream, but more "real". My visual field was filled with geometrical patterns, abstractions, that I can't remember clearly. I felt an intense rush of energy, and my whole body began vibrating. This energy became stronger and stronger, the kundalini-flow that I had experienced in the waking state was just a breeze in comparison. This flow of energy, forcefully, started making its way up in three parts. The first wave of energy started at my lower spine and went up to the solar plexus (it felt as if the energy accumumlated at a certain point in the spine after each wave, just to "break" through what seemed like blockages and making its way upwards), then from there another wave of energy forced its way to the heart-/close to the throat- chakra and the last wave went up to the head. It didn't go all the way through the head, yet it was close. This flow of energy went through the body for a while longer, before it settled down into a calmer state. Shortly after it happened, I began to regain waking consciousness. I can't say that I felt full of kundalini energy when I arose from the couch, but a subtle flow of energy was still there to be felt (although I feel it most of the time, so I am not sure if it had much to do with that experience). I was quite surprised and in awe, this wasn't something I had read about online or in books. ⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽༓☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅ Original Thread:

2018 - (Exact date unknown) ⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽༓☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅ Before I go to bed (in my case sofa) I make sure to take antidepressants, those usually make me feel somewhat tired – without them I could just stay up all night long, and I meditate to further calm the mind. I did those things that day too. So, it all started by me trying to get some sleep at probably around 00:15. The mind seemed to be quiet to a certain degree, but I felt only a bit sleepy but not really as much as I usually do. I waited to feel more tired, but it just wouldn’t really hit me. I thought that I would just try to get some sleep anyway and laid down on the sofa. Time went by, nothing changed. I then turned on some music that usually does a good job helping me relax/sleep and I gave it another try. Time went by again, nothing really changed. I then thought that a guided sleeping meditation might do some good, so I tried that. Again… nothing really changed. I turned on a different sleeping meditation, you guessed it. Then I tried another one but… nope. It was probably around 06:00 by then, and I still had not gained a few minutes of sleep. I was frustrated at that point. I just switched back to regular relaxing music, and I started focusing on my breath, bodily sensations etc., with half open eyes, while lying there on the couch. This is where it gets crazy. A few minutes flew by, and suddenly I heard two voices. A male and a female voice. Both sounded like adults, maybe around 30-45-ish. They were first talking amongst themselves, but then the male voice talked to me saying things like, “Relax. Everything is fine, get some sleep.” Music was still playing in the background and my eyes were still half open, so confusion and curiosity kicked in. In my mind I went, “Wha… this is crazy, I can hear you guys. Can you actually hear me if I just use thought?” – on this the answer was, “Yes we can hear you." So I asked them questions like… “How is it where you are?” – the answer was, “When it’s night for you, it’s day for us.” The female voice by then also kept talking to me. I asked, “If you think of a place like… California, can you somehow teleport/travel to this destination?” – “Yeah, we can.” This went back and forth for a while. I started to get more relaxed, and those voices told me again things like… “It’s fine. There’s nothing to worry about, get some sleep.” Now, this is where it gets more “crazy”. While they were talking to me, and I to them, it felt as if I got a shoulder massage (a good one too). I just laid there with my eyes opening half-way now and then, and it literally was/felt as if someone was behind me, giving me a massage. Maybe 15 minutes in, I fell asleep. When I woke up I was just in awe. I mean… holy sh*t, everything felt so damn real. That’s really a point where one begins to question what is “real” in the first place. This is something I won’t forget in a long time. It's crazy how your paradigm of reality can just "melt"/overlap with things that you didn't really think were possible. ⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅∙∘☽༓☾∘∙•⋅⋅⋅•⋅⋅⊰⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅⋅•⋅ Original Thread:

For most people it requires hard work to see through the ego-fog and have breakthroughs (especially the first few times), only to see when "it happens", that it didn't have to require much work at all. The belief that it requires hard work, could be a hindrance to some, yet again, most people need to go through all that hard work to reach that point of realization.

@Anton_Pierre I've got a few things up my sleeve... Meditation (concentrative, mostly) - helps to calm the mind, learning not to get dragged into thought stories. Self-Inquiry/Contemplation into the nature of being, thought, concepts and emotions - helps to dig under the hood of those things, noticing that most of my suffering is caused by concepts, mental fantasies and assumptions. Psychedelics (LSD, for now) - helps me to be more animal-like, more "me" in some sense. Combining that with other points on here, I often get bittersweet emotional releases during the trip, and it helps me to see things that I might want to work at in terms of personal & spiritual development. Making Music (Guitar & Singing for me) - this helps me to get my emotions out, be it sadness or the brighter emotions. It's good to have something that one can freely express themselves, getting into states of flow. Gratitute and Love - this one is huuuge - practicing those things, made me feel more connected to what is, more confident and I worry less. It's easy to take what you have and what is, for granted, appreciating it, makes the experience of being alive more vibrant.

How's your reading comprehension? Do you need to re-read words and sentences often? You could learn how to speed-read, there are tuts on YouTube about that. Although speed reading is kinda cool, it might not be so beneficial for your reading comprehension if you struggle with that (I notice that within myself. I get lost in thought at times, and need to re-read stuff. Reading faster wouldn't be much useful in that case). But nevertheless, you could try speed-reading and see how things turn out for you.

^ This. I usually appreciate getting feedback, so that I can eventually adjust if I agree with that feedback. Many people dislike when others try to correct them, for example in their spelling. I used to correct others, and most of the time they were pissed off that I did, but a few actually showed appreciation for pointing errors out to them. If a person isn't open to it, and perceives feedback like that as negative (feeling "attacked"), then it's often not useful to correct them, unless they see the value in your words. I think criticism is good, it helps us grow, yet there are ways to convey that criticism in a more positive way. I think it's important to convey it so that it can be perceived as if you're authentically trying to help this person, not just simply trying to one-up him/her - making yourself seem more intelligent than the other/feeding your ego. I think nitpicking can be an issue and sometimes it's best to just leave it be, but some people value it too.

@AudibleLocket Go for it! Besides food, shelter (don't know how windy and cold it would be up there, so be prepared for that) and other camping-basics, a journal might do you good there, so that you can write down your insights. Have fun! Oh, don't forget to bring your wingsuit

@Beeman By removing all the concepts and ideas that you project upon that experience, or at least be careful when trying to conceptualize it. Your direct experience is all you have.

@Soul-lover 2020 The word nothingness (no-thing-ness), refers to God/Consciousness/Pure Awareness etc. (it has many labels). The very act of defining and conceptualizing those words, this doesn't hold/work since labels can't really accurately describe what they're pointing at. Language has its limits. You're trying to conceptualize what can't be conceptualized. Mental masturbation can be useful in regards to enlightenment, but at the same time it can be easy to get lost in the world of concepts, trying to understand and maybe to experience "God"-Consciousness from the perspective of the ego, which ultimately fails. The contrast between the paradigm/experience of ego-self, and "God", is quite radical.

@ivankiss Nice read, and congratz on your breakthrough!

@Eric Tarpall Your post is empty, what did you write?

Try it out for yourself, you'll figure out if it's doing you any good or not. Guided meditations and similar can have many benefits, so does meditation with just sounds, and without sound. That's also something that only you can find out yourself. If you take a large dosage of a psychedelic, this can hinder you to concentrate on the video, because of closed-eye visuals and wild enhanced senses/sensations. Lower dosages are in my opinion, better suited for meditation. You could try different dosages on different occasions, being mindful of how you react on each dosage, during meditation or similar activities. This is something that's highly individual, and I can't give you a definite statement about how your experience will be. See for yourself

@Dima logach Do it and see what happens, experiment with different stuff and see what resonates with you. When listening to guided meditations and similar while on a psychedelic, this often deepens my overall experience (especially on an emotional level), a new layer of depth emerges. Happy trippin'

@liquid If your chosen meditation object is your breath, then I recommend going back to it. If the mind gets tired of watching the breath and you want to get up, then you could focus on something else for a while instead of getting up. Take a few deep breaths, let go of tension, refresh the focus. This can be more difficult to do when you're on a psychedelic, especially on higher dosages when the closed-eye visuals and senses really get vivid/wild.