pierreb

Sudbury, Ontario, Canada. (4 hours north of Toronto)

Hey man... I wanted to send some support. I'm seeing a few things in your writing that you could think about: 1 - you loved painting. Think about that. What is it that you liked? The order? The steps? The process? those small things can give you meaning. 2- The meditation. I have been studying mindfulness for 2 years and it has helped me in a big way to deal with depression. I meditate daily 10-20-30 minutes. It is a lifetime of practice and I look forward to it now. It gives me that balance I need. 3 - The video about rockstar kids - what got you down? It probably triggered some negative feelings from the past. Remember the past is the past. You can't change it. you can only change how you see it. The meaning is still there for you, so you have to find a way to change that meaning. I would recommend two things as a friend and stranger: 1- Go and listen to some Alan Watts talks. He's amazing. All over youtube. 2- Go and do Jordan Peterson's Past-Authoring course. it's very cheap and will change your life. Watch his videos too. Start with 'Clean Your Room.' I hope this helps.

Mine is still messy and all over the place, but it falls somewhere in these areas... Finding my creative voice or outlet to have my say and be heard (art, film, writing); to share ways to help others; to affect change to teach and inspire people; to entertain and inspire others with my work; to travel the world connect deeply with many different people in my lifetime; to find a way to have the most empathy possible to understand how individual are all different but share common human values. Summary: Connect with people out there to do good things together.