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Interesting and great video from Jubilee: I thought I was heterosexual most of my life until I got out of a relationship on 2018 (I was 22), questioned why I felt that I was missing something in my relationships, contemplate for months if I was actually homosexual or bisexual until I got a experience with a man and it clicked for me, that I am bisexual. After that I could allowed myself to accept and love me even more.???? Share any experience if you feel identified. ??

Thanks for share your story @Loba.????? I think I’m in a similar percentage of your potencial attraction, maybe like a 60 female and 40 male, I need more experience with males tho.

+1 Before I touched any psychedelic, my first substance was MDMA (aside of weed and alcohol but they weren’t as life changing in my consciousness as MDMA). I was on like my 2nd year on college and I felt a bit lost and confuse with my life, I know already I wanted to be a artist but still. On summary, I took it close to a beach with a trip sitting friend. The trip started after a few minutes already, visually the colors were getting brighter and brighter, feeling a lot of fear because I din’t know what to expect, it felt literally like if a rocket is about to launch. After 30 or so minutes I was just up there trying to understand what was this feeling of overwhelming pure joy and ecstasy to the point that you want to cry. For the first time in my life (or at least that I remember of), I had this experience of “being outside of my head”. I was walking veery slowly and calming seeing other people dealing with their “struggles”, I felt people’s emotions like never before, I just wanted to hug them with unconditional love and said that I love them (thankgod my friend was there to guide me if not I would hug literally everyone lol, I hugged her and gave her thanks for everything❤️?). I ended sitting on the sand (away of being inside of the beach ofc, I was aware of keeping my distance even tho I felt the water was also giving me her unconditional love) and start crying, and during my crying I felt I started to purge traumas (like visuals inside my head, sort of blurry), and asking “what should I do to improve my life? What do I have to let go?”, and when the answer came, I was so in shock that I din’t wanted to believe it and it was that I have to break up with my girlfriend at the time, my mouth dropped. I had other insights like be more in love with myself, tell myself that I love me and everyone to the point of cry. After that night and sleep like a baby hehe, I still I couldn’t believe that that is what I was supposed to do, but I din’t do it, overtime the relationship became very toxic, I should’ve told her maybe at least a few days after the trip. After that experience I started to meditate more daily, try to reconnect with that experience of be here now in the moment, I had done it only like 4-5 times in my life and I’m getting to my 30s, I prefer psychedelics nowdays. I suggest to ALWAYS have a Test Kit, measure your height or weight and do the math by some number that right now I don’t remember that is gonna be your “enough for a good trip dose”. I belive I learn it from here:

@Gesundheit2 In my experience yes it was a change of perspective but at the same time a change on my baseline of consciousness. Instead of having almost 24/7 suicidal thoughts, you just not having it anymore, so by definition your baseline consciousness had changed. The thoughts of “what if” might be never gone or at least I don’t think about it but, is not as compulsive as before. This is the difference from having a “glitching” computer/mind vs not that much anymore if not none.

@Gesundheit2 I belive it does, someone can change drastically from being suicidal to not being suicidal, it changes overall the baseline of his consciousness, at least on my experience it seems it does, depending also of which one I work with.

@puporing Lovely????❤️¡Ahó!

@Matthew85 Thanks!??

@Danioover9000 Thanks alot, it was done in procreate.

@puporing Thanks!??

@OBEler I was dealing with suicidal thoughts and intense despersonalization symptopms a few years ago and I can confirm this, it helps brother.?? I don’t know anything about psilohuasca so this is new territory for me, gonna check it out. Best of luck for you guys if you trip together. ??❤️

¡Feliz cumpleaños @Leo Gura!????? I did these sort of quickie pieces, different versions. I know there is alot I feel I could improve with more time but, hope you like them (the spiral blush thing is just a reference for infinity/nature).

Nice, let us know how it goes if you feel like. I’ll probably do mushrooms again soon too, is been like 2 years since I took a pause on doing them. I been offered to do it in nature so, most if not all my mushrooms trips had been on my apartment alone, city area.

@puporing Anytime sister, I might not be the best to explain the full details if there is like a scientific one hehe but, I also had eating hours before tripping sometimes but nothing heavy like a banana for example. To my understanding, if the stomach is empty then you can absord whatever you put into it at best with no interruption but that is my take. I feel like I don’t have a problem with having nausea anymore, I don’t know why some people want to avoid it, I know is unpleasant but, if you ever do ayahuasca, kambo or something similar, you’ll see that is a way how the body is cleaning itselfs or so to said, purge maybe traumas, etc., in my pov of course. If you want to avoid it that is ok too but, I think I got to the point that I had purged so much with other tools that I’m ok if I have to do it even on command hehe, sucks at times but, might be needed. ??

@Leo Gura I think these guys are a good example of what you’re saying: I like their content but man, I feel like for everything on this matter they need to find a explanation or at least a human world physics pov explanation, nothing wrong to do that first but, I get a sense that, to what degree do you really wanna believe on such matter.

@puporing I haven’t even thought about having abstinence before a mushroom trip but it would make sense to a degree if I want it to compare the “diet” similarly to ayahuasca. With mushrooms I just prepare a few days in advance and that’s it (like 5 days to a week). Optimal for me would mean that I had done most of my work done or organized so I can be relaxed before trip. Having mostly or at best everything organize before trip (have my rent up to date so you don’t get any worries during your trip, have a few days free after trip, food prepare if you get hungry during the trip, even tho I just eat fruits or raw natural foods). Aside of eat the shrooms with a empty stomach of course. I’ll trip once every 1-2 weeks, sometimes even once a month or few months! Some trips can be so life changing or existencial that you’ll need free time to intergrate.????❤️ @Yali, what are you trying to imply with this? That Leo should kill himself? I noticed that sometimes you go straight forward to respond some people like Leo and become “personal” with them to the point of confrontation, what’s up with that?

I’ll add to my post, there is a saying where I live on spanish but I’ll translate, maybe you guys have it differently: “In a informed war, people might still die, but lesser than uninformed.” That is how I tend to approach having a habit, nothing wrong also not having a habit a few times (having a break for example), is your playground so, have fun with it!

Having a Life Purpose, what you’d be doing if the forum din’t exists? I come here on my free time. If you have nothing else going on in your life, you’d be attached not just to the forum but to maybe other stuff. Something I been doing recently to help me “reset my mind” a bit is to turn off my phone for the day(s), be alone and see what I can come up with. Sometimes I start cleaning my place to eventually have a walk outside or keep doing paintings and such, but I also have a like a daily schedule that I prepare on my weekends (I sometimes see this like prepare for a “war”/week), investigate a bit about the power of habits, without one, one is probably just wondering around without short-term/long-term goals. ?????

Digital art: Traditional drawing: Graphic Design / Logo: Video Editing, Videography, Photography, Traditional Painting, a bit of Animation, and more ??❤️?:

@ZGROPIUS Are these really yours? They look dope af.

Is ok.

Tbh this din’t seemed as a joke at first, I don’t know what are you trying to intend with the post. It looked as a serious “emergency”. If you tripped just recently a few days ago, take it easy please.

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Anytime brother?????

@Michael Jackson Others could give a better and specific advice than me but in my opinion, is normal for the body to not react at first with some psychedelics, in order for the body to recognize what you just had put into it (happens the same for people with for example ayahuasca, they might not feel anything at all on the first or two sessions, maybe even more who knows), also consider your tolerance to psychedelics. I tend to wait like 1-2 weeks off and then trip again, but since you din’t feel alot I would assume you would like to wait some days, I belive the tool is already working on some level even tho we don’t feel anything. I don’t know if you’re in a hurry to have a experience with the tool but, take your time. ????❤️

Similar to other responses, 1g would be my advice, then little by little by .5 or 1g. I don’t know if you have a gram scale but be sure to have one just in case. I mostly trust who I buy these tools but, I had ocassions where they give something extra and I preferably like to consume a precise dosage or just be aware how much actually I’m consuming, unless I feel like a adventurer that day hehe (on low dosages), but I rather measure it first for not regret it later (also the potency of each shroom is gonna vary so this is hard to tell also). Have a good trip brother!