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You don’t know that @Leo Gura, as if you knew anyone on this planet. I can’t speak a lot on such subject but I know in fact at least a person, a psychologist which is also working on similar subjects as you but deep in the amazon on his case, doesn’t post a lot online, that has worked with veery dangerous and unknown substances in order to deconstruct and understand reality, healing too I assume, keep it open minded brother.??

I listened glimpses here and there of the interview, will sit down better in my day off but so far, I feel Kanye says stuff that makes me said “what are you even talking about man?!” to the point that idk if he is even aware of what he is saying and the consequences of it.

I experience insanity in a outrageous way just once I think, was in a ayahuasca trip more than a year ago, it looked like a exorcism, I was speaking nonsense and moving very weird and random. I was aware of everything I was saying (without effort or input of myself) and what my body was doing but it felt literally like me (as a consciousness) watching a movie in a theater, not sure if it felt like that to you @Leo Gura, I even got to a point when I sayed my name, I could break the limit of what my name was and became all possible names hehe, I thought I wouldn’t comeback tho and thought I losed my mind forever, even started to think I’ll end on a wheelchair because I couldn’t take care of myself anymore, crazy stuff man. Hope you can ground well.????️

Since August, I been working on a health store supermarket, specifically in the deli area. I think I’m getting tired of the position, I don’t like to have headsets while I do other stuff on my area, I like to focus on one thing at a time, and not also have to listen unnecessary convos of my co-workers, I love them but, I’m aware of the shit talking habit. Back to the title of the post, I think I’m getting tired of being forced to socialize for 8-9 hours straight, calling out loud people’s food orders, I might want to consider to move to another same store but not having the headsets (and other situations), I feel a BIG difference when I don’t have them, I feel more aware of my space. My goal is to make enough money for purchase some art-tools (new laptop ? , etc.) and move out to a more private apartment or studio (I can hear my neighbors conversations, is tricky to get laid on my place without do too much noise??‍♂️). So yeah, my work is making me not wanting to socialice afterwards, just a reflection of these past months, I made some great contacts tho and observe my bisexuality at play which has been interesting to clear that up the type of people I’m attracted to.

Mike Tyson: “So, about this Toad…” Thanks for share tho, def will see it.

@puporing

@Tyler Robinson I’m not the only user that is saying to chill out, so clearly other people have different takes ok? Even from the people that I know of and take it either daily or almost daily, they have a very productive life, I understand that could not be the majority, so take it easy on me ok? Haha You seems reacting a lot against it, if you understand how addiction works, is not the plant persé the problem but, how people’s habits and daily life are designed, how much healed are their traumas, etc.

@Tyler Robinson then the title of the post contradicts this. You’re making a statement “is dangerous, that’s it, no but’s!” Instead of “could be dangerous”. I know it could be dangerous, like any other tool or substance…

Chill out indeed. Weed can be helpful in responsable ways, there is even documentaries on netflix where cancer patiences take it, it has helped a lot. ?? Weed the People on Netflix: https://www.netflix.com/us-es/title/81016247?trkid=13747225&s=i&vlang=es&clip=81109129

@Space so? There is nothing wrong making a minute of facts or tips/pro tips about something. I shared my tiktoko if you want to see some examples, there is a ton more of other people about almost any subject. The reality is that some people have patience to see hours about a subject, others no because whatever reasons, you’re at work, etc. It makes it easier to share you know.

I have Tiktok, I believe you can use it in a conscious and creative way, check out mine if you want for examples: https://www.tiktok.com/@artejusino Same by using instagram and youtube, I wanna inspire with my art and there is a lot of good information shared via tiktok, I was annoyed the same way like many of you guys until I started to use it and see results. There is pro and cons sure for being short, but that was also a good challenge for me of “being precise and clear with my messages” in a matter of seconds and minutes, stay open minded guys. P.S. You can upload now up to 10 min. so, doesn’t have to be limited in shorts.

Self = God = Strange Loop

And a final point hehe going here meta, if consciousness is infinite, isn’t a infinite of ways of making art?! I can’t imagine what other planet’s and galaxies’s art look like with materials that we don’t know yet!, assuming ofc there is life out there.

Adding another point, what about Taxi Robot Cars, Cooking Robots, etc. that works by themselves? It’s already replacing some humans, it will help for sure the people with disabilities for example, but I guess at this stage, these things has it’s limits that if you’re aware enough, you could use it as a advantage. In the long run, we gotta work with it rather than against it.

As a full time artist, I don’t feel afraid towards AI art, I could see it as another “human being” making his own thing, each human is unique, so a AI can be. I could use AI now to look up reference for my work, sometimes I don’t find the precise reference I was looking for, with that said, use it as a advantage. Yes some people will prefer use AI art to save $$$$, but I guess at this stage is not yet perfectly made so you can use let’s said 50 or so % of what you been looking to create using AI and make it your own twist. Again each human has it’s own style, make that so unique so is not easy to be replicated like others.

I’ll add this important detail but I had a history of porn addiction and masturbation, so when I got really bad on those times as previously sayed, everything got worsen, and you could said I was already a very social guy and still am. I have to talk with people on the art gallery expos in order to expand my connections, had a “ok/good” number of people I had hooked up with (nowadays I have to work more with that, focusing on making a lot of money first and feel independent enough so I can get my first car). Had gotten better tho thanks to the healing process.?????

Experimenting with journaling here, I’ll still keep my deepest secrets elsewhere. So it’s been a month since I started a new job on a health store, I was being late with my rent (3 months to be exact), been stuck on finish some art commissions on time so that is why I look up for a job that I could relate. Since 2019 I been forcefully working on some healing process, if you see my first posts here on the forum, you’ll see that I was being WAY too out of touch with reality and being suicidal. I’m doing WAY a lot better now thanks to ayahuasca and people who guided me well to heal, there is still a lot to work on me tho, forever but, at least less neurotic and more connected with Being than ever before. My plan right now is just to make some money to satisfy some material needs, hopefully I’ll get some vacations or free time during the holidays so I can keep doing a couple of more ceremonies to heal, I’m not in a hurry like at first tho. Will be on the job at least a year, keep doing art freelance also. I hope to inspire others to keep going and show there is hope on our fkn darkest days, you just gotta dive deep inside of you, where all answers lies there. ?????

I’ll add, I was also on deny to have a 2nd job, is been 5 years since around finale 2017 that I decided to be a full time artist and it just sky rocket there, I just had to do some pauses since some disconnection and suicidal episodes in my life back on 2019. On summary, for some reason, when I purchase my flight tickets to continue my art career with a friend on New York (October from 2018), I disconnected from myself. How? Idk still today, it felt like, and this is gonna sound weird ok? It felt like as if “consciousness” disconnected from my head, as if my “awareness or consciousness” was unplug from my mind or brain and I became autopilot, it felt like if you turned the light of your room/awareness off. I roll with it for a month, I used to do a lot of law of attraction, meditation and affirmation everyday (at least mostly) since I was 18 (now I’m 26), and after purchase that flight, I just felt like if a “magnetism of consciousness” was pulled off my mind or head, I know this is weird to explain but that is how it felt. When I came back to my country after a month of try to survive on NY, had to change all my plans, couldn’t met nor live with my friend, I was still feeling the same so I started to work with my natural resources that I know: do camping on nature, do Temazcal, do low doses of some psychedelics, yoga kundalini, etc…NONE of them worked! And I was being vegan even before this happened (vegan since 2018 before the flight, din’t felt any of this before). So on january of 2019 I did for the first time DMT smoked with a few friends. If I recall well, not sure, maybe the person who offered the substance (the setting was on her apartment in front literally from the beach so it was safe, she had some dogs on her room tho), mixed a bit of marihuanna on the DMT. To sum up the trip story, after the 3rd hit, the first thing I saw was some doctors repairing my “mind or head”, or doing some kind of work, as if they understood what was going on and I was having a surgery... I saw all my life like a movie clip that could take infinite path and choices, when the dogs on the room barked I could see them on multiple colors running all over my head I guess. The thing is that by the end of the trip, I saw like my “3rd eye on a purple fire” (like the fire eye character from Lord of the Ring) burning and after the trip. The first few hours of the trip felt “ok”, you feel maybe like a fkn rockstar or at least that is how I felt, but I knew deeply that something wasn’t right, I was acting a bit arrogant I guess or narcissistic. On the around 2nd day, as soon as I woke up, I started to have suicidal thoughts automatically, like, I just woke up like that, and that is where I started to write here on the forum seeking for help and look up for professional help and they told me I was having a severe PTSD episode and depersonalization symptoms, I even started to lose hair by how stressed I was on those conditions! It was very fucked up and distorted all my perception on those times. That same year I started to work with ayahuasca and after my 1st session, the suicidal thoughts stopped, what happened there I think I’ll leave it on another post, but it was HARD tho. ???

Amazing documentary series about Magic Mushroom, LSD, MDMA and Mescaline, based on the book “How to Change your Mind” by Michael Pollan. They show some awesome researches with people that had dealt with PTSD, bipolar disorder, miscarriage, suicidal thoughts, cancer and other situations on a clinical setting and a brief history of the substances, 4 episodes only.

@acidgoofy I see, I have not yet experience 5-MeO so I can’t said much about it. ??

@Leo Gura Depends really I would said, I been in both scenarios where they gave me a too much of ayahuasca (full cup) in this case in a past which wasn’t a good idea for a beginner, but also taking it little by little I also screamed because it got to the point where it opened my “pandora box” of what I had to confront. So screaming and rolling around is gonna depend of specific factors imo, depending the traumas we gotta confront. ??

Oh ok, I see. I read the “I do not” from Leo as “Well I’m not doing pretty well these days” responding the post he did that Connor seems to be doing pretty well these days. P.S.: Sometimes I have to traduce some stuff to spanish so maybe the phrase has a extra meaning that I don’t know, thanks tho.??

Why @Leo Gura?

But Leo?! Jokes aside, I’m not so impress to a degree tbh. Since I was in highschool when I started to see Leo’s content (beginning of his channel) and listening to Eckart Tolle, I din’t vibe with her and still, something felt a bit off, so it happens with other creators. I can apreciate her insights tho, no doubt she has some valuable content, I remember this was when I was learning about chakras and emotions.

I came a long way before taking the vaccine because of my skepticism. I had to look up for a 2nd job so one of the places I was being interviewed it was required being vaccinated and I said “fuck it, what’s the worst that could happen?”. So I went to Walgreens and took it yesterday, today is 2nd day, so far the side effects of yesterday it was a pain on my arm where they put me the shot (after some hours), maybe some tiredness during the day so I took some naps here and there. The pain gotten so bad and annoying by night that it was difficult to sleep on some poses so I was flexible with what I could do and not force force the arm, even if I move it a little it was annoying. I would compare the pain if you had some sexy time hickey in your arm, well a bit harder than that. ???? Today I woke up with less pain in the arm and have a little of headache. I would prefer way a lot to do Kambo but of course it hasn’t been studied if it works for protecting us from such virus, even tho it boosts our immune system like a fucking sky rocket. Either way, we have to move forward in life doing whatever is necessary so, don’t be afraid to take it if you have to for some important choice in your current life, I might review here my 2nd shot in a few weeks. ?? Score: I’ll give it a, nah jaja…