Juan

I don’t know how old are your sisters but as a adult, let’s keep this shit straight ok?! I have no time for drama or skeleton in the closet. If I saw a family member talking shit about another fam, I’ll call them out in the spot! If what they said is not true of course but even if it was true, I would told them to try to understand better your cousin, we are all dealing with our traumas to a degree, let’s be more compassionate. ??? Also a note about forgiveness, even if I were right, I don’t mind said sorry if needed but the truth still stands.

Do you expect healing to be all positive and flowering singing kumbayá? Think again. It could be as hard as a literally exorcism, talking from experience. My only observation about this guy which I followed when he post it, is that this was his first ever psychedelic, so yeah it was expected to be insanely intense. He was thinking if I recall well to do suicide because he tried to heal from non-psychedelics options so this was his final option.

Haha!

Welcome to the forum! I wish I could give a good advice, you’ve done Ayahuasca and Salvia which I would consider “intenser experiences” compared to shrooms but if you upper your dose on them it could get to those substance’s levels. Idk if Gabor Maté have some reports in details about heroic doses but he talks about it briefly (over 7g+), not alone tho. For me, I think the highest I could go is around 3-4g, I’ve been higher up to 5g but it gets wacky af, idk if I get enough insights from that experience.

For me reality it just “Is”, nothing more, nothing less, every other explanation could be a plus, but it just “Is” at the end.

1+ If I see myself triggered by someone, the first question I ask myself is “why?” And keep observing the feeling like watching a movie for a couple of minutes, hours or days. Maybe I have to learn or accept something about myself.

Time for a Actualized forum 2.0 let’s gooooo???

Oh boy…

Maybe with @Leo Gura next upcoming game.

I was playing a game on the phone, Shovel Knight Pocket Dungeon, really fun and it creates like a new gaming genre because it’s like a puzzle strategy rogue-like tetris. The thing is that after playing I got the idea of what if there is a game with ZERO rewards? Would it be that popular and addictive anymore? Maybe there are games like that but right now I don’t remember any, maybe a story focus game or novel. But to spice it up the experiment, after you finish the game, now the game becomes rewarding, you lose the abilities you had on your first play through, now it feels really like a new game+. Idk just a thought for a game concept.

Since we are talking about the bible, here’s a good bit.?

I was just observing the game I was playing and it has a lot of rewards system in order to keep you engaged playing. So after a long session playing, I thought about the opposite side, why not a game that is more close to real life? You don’t get points by punching (aside of sport) and killing people. It might look boring af the game but, it’s closer to reality.

Don’t forget also Food Network haha, I loved to make my own food at that age.

It was both, without haven’t had cable TV and watch History channel specifically, I wouldn’t had started to ask those questions, maybe later on who knows, but at that moment, it was thanks by that.

What helped me to start to question the religion I was (catholic) was cable TV lol. I was on 7th grade (this was when Myspace was bigger than Facebook, so 2006) and I started to watch History channel where they talk about space, aliens, the pyramids/ egyptians, the world, etc. I was SO AMAZED by what is going on outside and inside planet Earth. After that moment I started to ask deeper question like “Why do I and people go to Church?, Is it mandatory to go to Church?, Do I believe in God? What is God really anyway? Who wrote the bible!?” And looking to Spiral Dynamics hehe, I started to penetrate stage Orange habits and beliefs.

I hope not sound so much of a asshole here but does it matter really to pay attention of your daily life to this dude? For me is like ok I read the news and move on. You can learn from it of course but dedicate your days, weeks or even months to this? Instead of doing something of higher purpose, I prefer that. Love you all guys! ?

The only rephrasing I would do is “YOU* are the Universe”, instead of “we”.

https://www.instagram.com/reel/CvXqwpntuQS/?igshid=MTc4MmM1YmI2Ng== I had to share it, it’s so good! ?️

If up to this day you don’t believe in Aliens or life outside Earth, even without evidence, you need to double, triple OR MORE check your ignorance.

Oh boy…

Looks awesome! When I get a console, I’ll definitely check it out. You might like how mind bending it looks@Leo Gura.

It’s been like 2+ years since last time I smoked weed and after working with Ayahuasca, Kambo, Rapé/Hapé and Sananga, it is now hitting different, I would said for now even better than before. I don’t feel the need to do it daily, I look it as a ritual now or more sacred, and sometimes it feels like it is sending me back to my ayahuasca ceremonies, it has a similar flavor, can’t point it clearly yet what is it but, I can appreciate better the vibrant colors on weed, enhance a bit more your senses, etc. I noticed some blockages in my body first time I did this past Thursday at a beach. Last time was yesterday, went to see the movie Oppenheimer with a friend (after meditating again at the beach), I was a bit paranoid at first because I din’t wanted to people see me high like this lol, but step by step being already inside the line of the theater I accept it and understand better that everyone is on their world so it din’t matter. But even being inside the theater and the movie already started, I felt forced to keep looking inside of me, I was contemplating stuff during the movie. After some time passed then I could focus on the movie although we got IMAX front sits which sucked a bit for me, I guess it helped to sometimes ignore the movie for keep contemplating.? Anyone feels similar coming back with the substance?

Haha wat??? So even @Leo Gura that does it is not awake?

Definitely! I would like later experiment with microdose LSD but I guess the ideal is getting it on liquid so I can measure the amount.