Arkandeus

Last year in january I engaged on a ayahuasca trip with a shaman who hosted free ayahuasca sessions at his home. The trip was quite hard, it consisted mostly of energetic suffering but after a certain point, redemption was attained, the trip became consistent with visions and insights and divine states of being. That shaman, wanted me to become an ayahuasca shaman as well, he gifted me with the necessary plant material to brew my own ayahuasca and he gifted 2 small bottles with ready-to-use ayahuasca enough for one extra as soon as I got home. As soon as I got home I was indeed quite excited to have one more trip of ayahuasca, it felt like I was on the tip of the divine, the edge of divine and sacred realms, I could go there and perhaps finally find the energy to open up my heart to cure my social anxiety which is at the root of my depression and empty-feeling life. I toke a normal dose, and because I had only just done an ayahuasca trip I worried that it wouldn't be enough, that I'd be too tolerant to the effects, I somehow compared mushrooms to ayahuasca, I was foolish, I knew that my past experiences with dmt proved that it was the opposite the more you do the less tolerant you get. In another way I felt brave, so I toke a normal dose and a half, 1.5 dosage The trip was the most horrible and difficult trip and difficult moment of my entire life,I couldn't have ever imagined that life could feel this vividly bad, I landed in pure hell, I was on the edge of killing myself save for having managed to call 2 friends in the middle of the night to come pick me up before I jumped into the city canal to end it all. During the trip I finally understood that one horror story, about that one guy in England or America who did drugs and ended up tripping so bad he ended up attacking his own girlfriend and eating her face up. I could comprehend how one could be so pushed so far, how volatile and organic madness could push one so far, in that moment I felt sad for that guy but the psychological hell of feeling like I'm drawing dangerously close to being able to do the same thing had me heading straight to the canal to kill myself. I had discovered my greatest fear and hell, it is not talking to girls, nor getting hurt physically, it is ending hurting someone else badly despite my own will. It was a matter of saving other people at that point of the trip. And that was only 3 hours into the trip, luckily my friends came over to pick me up, they were 2 strong lads and I could focus on making it through the trip without worrying that I'd end up hurting anyone, my physical body was in safe hands. I tripped the whole night hellishly, and the next day the trip continued with moderate to severe intensity till the end of the day. My advice for those who do ayahuasca, do it in daylight, you have more energy, both physically and mentally,especially in case the trip is hard, do it with multiple friends, so that you don't have to worry about your physical body, in the case that you lose absolute control you want morr then one person to be able to handle your physical body at its unconscious superstrength. It may not seem obvious at first, but its there in the back of your mind, you cannot let go fully if no one sober and trusted is watching your physical body. After that day my life changed forever, constant visual and energetic waves of tripping, in retrospect I've been tripping everyday for the past months. In variation to my activities, states of being, thoughts, meditation, perhaps this is enlightenment but I haven't really read in this forum or anywhere about people who encounter daily changes on the level of a moderate lsd experience everyday. Somewhere it feels my enlightemment is guiding me through this madness which really feels like one long non-stop ayahuasca trip, for the past months I had to quit about 3 jobs because I couldn't hold them down like this. I had to be mindless as much as possible most of the time, my own thoughts would send me tripping into bad places, only recently has it improved and I have effectively recuperated my mind. The city which used to change every few days visually is changing at a slower pace now. It is still impossible for me to be out at night, any activities being out at night in this city that I live in, friends or not, once its night time I lose all my energy, and if I push it I'm left with a depression that sends me on the borders of suicide. Night-time is deadly for me at this point I had social anxiety before, now I had periods where anxiety flared so much it was pure hell going to the supermarket doing groceries, passing by people on the streets I had to literally sometimes brace my abs so that I would not be swayed too much by the anxious event of a passing by someone that is walking in opposite direction of me, just to brace my own body, to keep control of my own walk, as if a train passed me by. Feeling people's emotions a thousand fold, great anger and a wide array of emotions let me get over my anxiety, which is good, except now I seem outlandishly confident, even alien and now it seems everywhere I go people notice me, but even worse some people fear me, or are intimidated. I know that I intimidate no one who's intentions are with love, these good souls don't fear me, throughout this ordeal I seem to be in harmony with life. I seem to be employed lately as a merciless reflection, a punisher of some sorts. Anyone with an ego, who thinks they are stronger then others, who measures others powers, when they meet me and measure my power they meet their own aggression right back at them pure and unfiltered. I know not what these people feel when they see me and try to measure me but I know it is now they who wobble when I pass them by, who can barely walk straight anymore,it is they who fear People start racing me by on the streets or weirdly almost charging at me, changing seats in public transport, trying to keep an eye on me, grown men, grown women, everyone with an ego gets it. And I would feel guilty, making people fear in the city, literally sweating in fear,I saw one guy and he looked like he thought I was about to murder him. I never wanted this I felt like a monster at times..but then I noticed the only people getting scared are the snobs, the intimidating tough guy type, the women and men with ego, who think they're somehow better then everyone else. Somewhere I feel it is people like them with selfish hearts who get on on having an advantage over others who have made it so hard for sensible timid souls like me to live on this earth. I never thought my light work would amount to this, breaking ego's of snobs and intimidators and judgers Well somewhere it feels good, like justice being delivered, these people only meet the violence and aggression that they project onto others. To measure someone' elses power is aggression, defense is offense, offense is defense Those who focus on being stronger then others, will meet the reflections thats coming to them That is how my enlightenment has evolved in an urban setting, hopefully my ayahuasca trip will slow down more and more till I can have a normal life again What has maintained my sanity through these months is no doubt the belief in love, life has let it presence and love be felt many times, for that I'm grateful

Indeed no-thing Can you ever truly see yourself? All one sees is roots extending like our arms and legz Even the reflection in the mirror is a root, one more complicated and complex you will never find yourself as a 'thing' In a sense we are a non-phenomenon, we are 'no thing' yet we are all that is, yet it is from here that we live You will never see your own face, yet it is from that unseen face from which you see

You are right to reject any beliefs that threatens you "If you don't.. then.. or.. to you!" Threats are false, you are a divine being that is freedom itself, you evolve at the natural course you merrily take on Plants do not sprint to grow out of the soil, which is why there is no plant race, there is plant life Lets simply live, all will fall into place like an harmonious song

A belief based on fear that causes you to avoid touching other people If this sounds divine to you, then proceed, if not then dont

Whether you call life a spade, a void, nothingness, whether you call life eternal love, an illusion or a godless atheist evolutionary world.....life is what it is, throughout all these concepts, life simply is what it is There could have been thousands of humans before us each and everyone of them describing what they believe life is, each in their own unique way with their own definitions and stories and workings.........in the end they are talking about the exact same thing, in the end they are describing the same thing The truth is not debatable, the truth is not discovered, the truth is not agreed upon, we live in the truth of what is, what is now is what's here, life is what it is One can continue debating concepts but know that that is a merry pastime, no concept will change what life is, those who seriously want the truth, it is here now, you are living it, and I do not condemn the hobby of debating because here I am taking part We are gods, and we jest

Proton, electron, neutron Particle, anti-particle, potential particle Positivity, negativity, neutrality Man, woman, child This trident completes us You cannot take one part (neutron, void, nothingness) and make it your identity which is why Ivankiss is mad You cannot take only the light (proton) either and pretend love is all there is to it We integrate light, shadow and void/infinity, with that we form a family, an atom, a seed, a cel, a reality

Now bear me with me, I know this sounds crazy and if this is the post that is too much I excuse myself for it Everything that I've felt in my life has been coming together and resonating with this I never believed in god, I was atheist, I never believed in aliens, all these ufo/abduction stories to me sounded like crazy people talk, but now I am here, through my path I've received elements and elements to finally let me form the big picture Various, different sources, dozens of channeled beings confirm this, my personal almost inexplicable experiences resonate with this The earth has been under influence from negative alien agenda for thousands of years and now this is old news, we're being liberated, detoxified, energized by positive galactic societies, our planet is literally ascending getting rid of all this crazy stuff, incoming mass enlightenment and higher vibrational society, contact with galactic families Honestly I seek to convince no one here, I'm not looking to prove I'm right or that anyone needs to believe this or believe me, I just ask those who feel called to integrate this to take a look at the information about the subject this is the best source I've found with the absolute most transparent compiled information on the subject, Ascension https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Ascension How earth was under spiritual attack (https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Alien_Machinery Human dna origins https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Diamond_Sun

Its like nuclear technology, it can be used to safely power a city or it can be used to blow it bits with millions of casualties Psychedelics are the real thing, the atoms of life, so just use common sense, you wouldn't play with fire, you use fire carefully when needed, same with electricity,no adult messed around with electric outlets, you use them for what its for with the appropriate precautions Common sense and following your gut feeling is whats needed "Blasting" yourself to enlightenment- mentality is like playing multi-dimensional russian roulette

If you feel, you remember it, you are connected with it Once you've tasted this piece of candy you can make your own candy, or rather you can make it that you taste the candy permanently without eating it But if you keep eating the candy you will not learn how to produce that taste, you have to stop eating the candy

A week now is as long as a month before activation To me new years eve is a loooooooong way, I aint even close yet There will be oceans of energy before I get there

Well you could end up healing/guiding these girls if you like them

I would like to explore healing abilities, lately I've had a lot of guidance towards that, I've never really healed in an important way before I believe I have access to latent healing abilities through vision, I would like to try this out if I may It would consist of anyone who feels called to this, to send me a message with a description of an area in their life they want to improve or struggle with, I believe the deeper the emotions shared the deeper I can connect, with that message , a recent picture of your face(taken the day of sending the message if possible,not obligatory) , I will of course respect privacy and not send that picture to anyone else What I will do is read the message, connect to your desires and struggles, then simply meditate on your "face" so to speak, by simply watching your face it is the most direct sending of energy, as I am viewing it through my vibrational lens This is a fun experiment for those willing, we can keep each other updated

meditate, and feel be conscious of your inner world, feel when you have meditated enough

Finally feeling the divine order, feeling the order of things, the bigger picture, the parts fit together and things are happening for a reason, that is certain, that is well felt How good it feels, to get in touch with order Not order of the mind, not order of the local plans and strategies, the Natural Order, one that is alive, one that you can ride like a wave of sanity

One can taste the freedom in those words

It is the most toxic concept around in the spiritual community, left and right you hear about law of attraction It is worse then what we've been taught by society At least in society you're educated that if you work hard for something, you can get it, you have to work hard,but you can get it Now this so called spiritual concept of law of attraction which is thrown about everywhere, you can't step a foot without hearing about it, this law is the carrot on the stick, this law is pure assholery Now in my spiritual path I find myself having to detoxify from these insanely sabotaging and enslaving beliefs, "To attract what you want, you must pay no attention to it, and if you're not attracting what you want, that means you're trying to hard" "Life will give it to you at the right moment, at the right time, you must be appreciative even when you're not getting it, and when you get it you must also be appreciative" I'm gonna make a quick simple scenario to display how utterly crazy this belief is, that is pushed by the spiritual community Imagine being a son or daughter and living with your parents, I use this scenario because this compares well, life is like the parent. One weekend you want to go to the movies so you ask for allowance. Your parents say no, we know best when its right time to go the movies. 2 months later, its the end of the exams and they say "hey I know you wanted to go the movies but we'll go to disneyland yay!". It doesn't seem that reasonable right? But time after time after time its the same thing, whenever you ask for something, you're told to wait and that you will receive it at a later date, and you receive eventually who knows when, most of the time you receive when you don't even care about it anymore, when you're not even excited about it anymore. Some spiritual people will jump out of the woodwork and say that thats good because life teaches you that you don't need these things and when it finally gives to you what you want and you see how you don't care about the thing you asked for anymore, thats success! Victory! Well fuck this shit, I'm tired of subscribing to such beliefs, whats the point, you're never getting what you want, and when you get it you don't care about it anymore, I don't need to believe that everytime I want something, some asshole up there is going to decide when its appropriate and where, if I want to go to the movies now, I want to go the movie now, not 6 months from now on This belief is extremely toxic, because the second you're not "appreciative" of this wonderful system, then you're told you will certainly not get it. Wow, what a belief, you're supposed to be grateful for chasing carrots all day, and when you receive something, its not in the shape you wanted it, because life always knows better, better be grateful.. or else. This belief is extremely disempowering, and its sadistic, you're supposed to be grateful for not getting what you want and waiting around, and if you're not, you'll never get anything, it takes all the power away from you...yeah perhaps its a good belief if you want to be appreciative of life, but you'll just end up as some puppet, forever waiting around for daddy to give you want when he decides so Yeah it might seem stupid to chose to take 100 dollars right now instead of being patient waiting 3 months for life to give me 1000 dollars, but Im not gonna spend my entire life waiting and never deciding what I get. The 100 dollars might seem meager compared to the 1000 bucks but at least in that moment I wanted the 100 bucks and I got the 100 bucks, thats what I call, a good moment, a sane moment. So yeah goodbye law of attraction,this belief goes right in the trashbin

I used to do a static meditation every day for 10min when I first got into spirituality, even did 30min to one hour sessions here and there, nowadays I do a static meditation once in a rare occasion, it happens completely unplanned for a random amount of time from 5 minutes to 1 hour and Im good to go for a couple of weeks to more then a month, I get WAY more out of less meditation which leaves time for new practices (note that most of my meditation is throughout the day dynamically) Time" itself is fluid, the more conscious and present you are, the deeper time dissolves,what amounts to a 65minute practice for you 2 months ago, may be as long and lasting as 3 hours for you now, 3 hours in 65 minutes because you are very conscious in that particular practice Doing a practice for 'x minutes' every 'y days' is already obvious that half of your awareness is robotic and fully asleep, not in the moment, not feeling whats happening This is fine for people who begin with a practice and are not advanced in spirituality and inner feeling, but I expect after 8 months its time to go off on your own and be fully awakened to your practice and know to do it when really needed

As long as you are lovingly conscious, life blooms in infinite ways, we all have our unique ways

@Nahm I shall keep that perspective in mind yes

Ever since my awakening I've wondered about enlightenment, it is not enough to fully enlighten by yourself, everyone else would enlighten to but how? How would we do this? I've had this on my heart and my mind the whole time, to see beyond just enlightenment of the self, Buddha and jezus did not manage to awaken everyone... Now I understand, they were planting seeds, I've received tons of information and confirmation, my personal experiences these past months confirm this, I can say this with the full confidence of my heart, the hEarth is awakening There are ships sitting above our planet from galactic families that are in 5th dimension, our civilization is one of the last with extreme duality, most of the universe is already in oneness/unity/law of one Most of the effects of climate change are due the earth's inner core shifting and spinning faster as we shift from 3D to 5D, this has been an ongoing process, friends from above are doing the necessary to prepare and make the planet ready for change, energy management, dismantling... At some point there will be an event , I believe in not that long, and the whole planet will shift once, everyone will awaken, and everyone who's already awakened now will help guiding the others,. I fully believe this, it makes sense, it resonates with every cell of my being, the endgame is on

No you are right to follow your excitment, flying and superpowers is exciting, there is an aspect of truth in that, there's truth in the story of superman, ironman or son goku and so forth There might be some ego, but excitement is always rooted in truth I get super excited at the thought of living in a world with pokemon

Here's a playlist with pure solfeggio frequences UT - 396hz grounding chakra RE - 417hz emotional chakra MI - 528hz Sun chakra FA - 639hz Heart chakra SOL - 741hz Communication Chakra LA - 852hz 3rd eye SI - 963hz Universal connection We are light/sound, these frequencies are extremely healing, instantly modify your dna and everything with it, these frequencies are like super foods for your light/sound body, it is the most effective natural method I've experienced of healing/activating enlightenment,after meditation. It doesn't require you to do anything, this is physical cellular healing, chakra alignement, we are sound, and healthy sound heals us, this is light/sound healing technology You do not need to have headphones, it can even be on at a barely audible volume, at first these sounds may seem quite annoying because they are very powered in energy, as you get used to the vibration this stops, you may have headache if you listen too much, the second you start feeling a headache, put the sound off, let yourself rest and integrate the effects. Nowadays I can tell very easily when I've listened to much so I turn it off before even a headache begins, and turn it back on after half an hour or an hour. You can play this in your sleep, or throughout your day from your phone, or both Examples of which frequency to use if you are not familiar with chakra healing, these are my personal examples, always follow your intuition, excitement and explore and try Note that some have more examples then others as I have understanding of certain chakras then others FA - 639hz Heart connection to others, love for others, dissolving hate for others,regrets of past relationships, longing for new ones, healing current ones, awakening passion and joy, sadness UT - 396hz grounding grounding chakra, physical fear, fear of harm to body,fear of not having enough money, shelter, general overactive feelings of Fear, fear of losing grip on reality (very useful to use in a trip if you feel you're too far from reality, or after the trip to ground, also useful outside of trips if you feel too "dreamy"), needing more space, being in your shoes , (very useful against social anxiety) RE - 417hz emotions Sexuality, emotions, problems to control your emotions, healing of clusters of leftover emotional energies, like rampant anger, wrath, jealousy, disgust, past trauma emotions, MI - 528hz Sun/Fire Vitality, energy, confidence,physical prowess, body energy, athlete chakra, lion chakra, while ground chakra connects to the earth, the sun connects to your physical body, (very good chakra to heal for those with depression and completely depleted energies, I've been there), listening to the body, diet food drinks is related to this chakra (not the stomach chakra!) , so eating disorders or habits, bodily health, avoiding and resolving unnecesary physical disease (sometimes the body/soul seeks disease for a reason) SOL - 741hz Communication Chakra Singer chakra, actor chakra, self-expression, expressiveness, being able to listen to others, hear others better, being more truthful and hearing more truth, talking, LA - 852hz 3rd eye Infinity, other dimensions, seeing consciousness here and beyond SI - 963hz Universal connection Oneness/source, feeling connected to all things, receiving more influx of creativity,influx of information and influx of guidance from higher self and universe/source/god Often we're told the way to awaken is open the third eye but the third eye is not a priority chakra,it can be very useful to heal your lower chakras first before diving deeper, if you invest into paying attention to the colours of each chakra, assigning mental images to each chakra (like an image, an object a place, feeling, whatever) you can let your higher self guide you through signs if you are not sure which chakra to work on first

The observer effect Studies done with the consciousness of water Multiple personality disorder, people who's allergies and chemical composition change as their personality switches

Low level magic - a physical world with finite resources Base magic - breathing fire, making a lightning bolt come down, teleportation, making a house appear out of nowhere, flying, free unlimited energy Pretty much most of the stuff you see in harry potter,x-men,marvel universe, dragon ball, in video games These 'spells' are very easy to grasp, , we can "wrap our minds around it" as the saying goes, it fits in our current level of consciousness Higher Divine magic - living multiple lives at the same time consciously,being one oneness unity, incarnating in a life forgetting your spiritual identity, synchronicity with all things, living life with changes to your time and space Of course the ultimate magic, creation itself Imagine a blank paper, and you want to draw a house, do you see not start seeing the house as you draw (create) it? Perhaps seeing is creating, that would mean...you create reality everywhere you go, which means you imagine the people you see! How does that work? This is the highest spell, it'll take some time to debunk this one