Arkandeus

Exactly, we are reflections of each other If you are enlightened you see the higher selves of other people, even if at surface they are on a lower vibration Which is why so many who met Buddha enlightened on the spot, in his eyes was reflected to them a higher truth, their own higher selves Buddha did not enlighten people by looking down on them, he truly saw how everyone is equal We're all mirrors, the mirrors who see the highest truth, who have the highest vibrations, they lead and spread the upwards evolution of energy and love, but its a collective evolution of perspectives

Leo gura makes you think about all these concepts that he represents to you, it doesn't matter if you disagree about certain things, even if you disagree about everything he says, he brought you the opportunity to think and be conscious, to realize for yourself why you agree or disagree on certain matters In that way leo is a successful teacher

It takes about ten thousand hours to practice and master a certain ability You're just going to give up like that? Wouldn't it make sense that by far the most powerful ability in life, to attract realities you desire require at least a steady commitment? The only trouble here are oversized expectations to master magic in an instant

Stay in your stream, if you do not feel comfortable doing more, its allright For now this girl is in your life, you may have not approached her, she might be at a distance but she is present You have a bond with this girl, explore it comfortably, instead of worrying about what society says you should do What is the belief fed by society? See girl you like, approach her, make her your girlfriend Its so structured What's the rush really? Can you actually spend one second with this woman? Without worrying and planning how you can take things further, and taking things further always involve pushing yourself out of your comfort zone, this is what they call sound regular advice No, no, not for me This girl came into your life, into your comfort zone, your environment, your zone Why should you suddenly trash about, worry, dash, plan, get out of your comfort zone to get with her? She came into your comfort zone, and this is where you noticed her, where you liked her, and where you really see her as she is So if you get out of your comfort zone, to meet with a woman that is in your comfort zone, you get with a ghost, you chase after an idea, even if the relationship works and might bring you satisfaction, it will not bring you deep satisfaction Remember the very first time you noticed this woman, where was she, in your comfort zone or outside of it? So should you go or should you stay in your comfort zone? And yes maybe if you stay in your comfort zone you will realize your comfort zone is quite limited, it might feel a bit small,you might want to be able to ask her out comfortably, it is good, when you feel your comfort zone is lacking and small, it will grow by its own

Wow everyone here is pile-driving on @Mikael89 refusing to acknowledge his difficulties and suffering If he's stopped believing in himself that means he has plenty of reason to do so The way to help him is not invalidate his pain and tell him to tough up or worse tell him that he's a coward, not taking action First of all you acknowledge someone's pain, only if everyone in this topic admits that mikael has it hard, and that it's all right to give up, will he after finally having been validated of his pain in this world, reconsider taking the necessary steps to believe in himself The more you try to break him down, pin him as a passive being that is just giving up hiding behind excuses the more he hurts simply We all come from different background, with different personalities and soul purposes, some people get stuck Its a basic recognition of infinity, we all have infinite potential but we are not all in the same position, we don't all have the same tools and emotional experiences, some people simply get stuck, end of the story as he would say Its not their fault, they are not weak for it, we are all made of the same infinite intelligence here, thats truth If you want to help someone, do so decently and with open arms, or be fully honest about your ego-driven intents to mock and ridicule someone, at least they know what they are dealing with Those who parade trying to help while under the surface throwing daggers at their correspondant disgust me, you can't be both the hero and the villain, I guess I hate greed

What is special about Osho aside from the concepts that he discusses? I'm trying to learn about his enlightenment but I'm not so interested in concepts Does he have a special voice? A certain way he moves? A certain practice of meditation? Certain actions he did? How would you recognize Osho as enlightened without taking into account any concepts, any talking?

Fine? The only thing that keeps me going is that I have an easy method of suicide prepared and ready to go, a bunch of weights and ropes in my room, a city canal, in case things get really too intense, the option to be able to sign out gives me reassurance and control over the experience, I came really close to giving in a few times, at this point each day is a win I've tripped so far visually that people myself included look like aliens compared to what humans looked like before, yet somehow I'm able to somewhat function, yes, I'm glad for that I could try to write down how intrigate and hard this experience , believe me I didn't try, but I don't like to moan, which is why I like your attitude. You're right, the last shaman I went to who started my initial trip could offer me little advice, perhaps I could benefit from talking to another shaman, even if it is mere talking If I could push a button to reverse the experience , stop it, loss of insights included I'd push it, I would've pushed it a thousand times, thats how I know this experience is not exactly a gift, there is no value in power through self-destruction @Bryan Lettner Hey Brian, did your 6-8 months trip include visual evolutions? Or not at all

Well you're damn right, I wish I could've find out that doing 1,5x a normal dosage could send one on a trip that is lasting 8 months and still going on, I found mentions of bad trips but nothing of the sort At the very least people reading this thread will know

No no What if the way to enlightenment is not to find a way to realize your current ideas or expectations of enlightenment But to make your very ideas and expectations about enlightenment grow, imagine even bigger What if your ideas and expectations of enlightenment are enlightement in its kindling form, and the grander you expect, and dream, these very ideas and expectations can end up forming the atoms of concrete reality Basically instead of trying to make the dream come true, dream bigger and bigger! Merely a suggestion

What if your expectations are met everyday? Everyday you have an idea of enlightenment and that idea is realized The Direction is then, how to have expectations beyond what you're expecting Love heals all!

@archi I have done a bit of research, it seems that both have indeed the potential to reset energy, but they also seem to enhance effects related to plant medecine, it does seem like rapé has certain strains with more specific effects Although I will not risk enhancing the effect , the safest bet is to slowly let my brain off psycho-active plants once and for all, and let it return by itself to its own mental ecology, if I were to seek another shortcut again I would have learned nothing from my initial disaster trip, but the more options one has the better, thank you!

@Bryan Lettner Listening to one of those videos right now, I think I might try L-Theanine, I have read about that supplement in the past. I'm also considering taking a multi-vitamin, any thoughts on interactions with what? The spiritual notion of letting go of all control seems quite flawed now, it is exactly what happened during my trip and these past months. Control is vital, in order to let go you also need control, it is a paradox, you need solid ground to from which you launch into space. Total loss of control is pure unrefined chaos, it is unconscious, it requires nothing of you, control itself is freedom, is choice, is as vital to creation as is letting go This is why set and setting,shamans and friends are so important to psychedelic experiences, the greater control there is the greater the letting go, although it feels quite vain to write about psychedelics now, I never intend to do them again

I am being honest in my humanity, for some reason I want to share the horrible and hard aspects on my experience first and extensively, Bryan's post helped me express my positivity on this ordeal, it is already here , it is why I made it so far, being very positive. Poetically this thread reflects my experience so far, a loooooooot of hardship and small boosts of hope and positivity here and there to keep me going

I'm not accusing you of trying that, I am warning you, from the feeling of the post it is very plausible that you would have subconsciously or even consciously attempted to do such a thing in the future. Not certain, but very plausible, which is why this warning completely eliminates that possibility for the good of your friend and the good of yourself or any other people you will come into contact with I'm being somewhat blunt and harsh because you're basically giving advice on how to manipulate people into doing psychedelics against their will, I know you think you know better then your friend and that you mean well You think your friend has limited understanding but from what I see you're even more limited in your understanding. I'm only treating you the same way you treat your friend. Psychedelics are dangerous, on many levels, they deserve respect, thats my opinion It may not be fun to be receive such blunt responses but imagine you'd have receive positive responses in this topic or even encouragement and ways and tricks to make your friend take psychedelics to help him overcome his "limited understanding" All it takes is one bad trip gone really horribly wrong for your friend for you to wish people would have cursed you out like a dog to discourage you from ever having attempted that, its all a matter of perspective

@Nahm What do you mean?

The most important part of psychedelics is setting and intention, basically vibration If you try to force your friend to do psychedelics through coercion or even telling him that he is weak for not doing it, you are setting the absolute worst setting and intentions for a psychedelic trip, you will send your friends straight into horrible bad trips, the very intention of the trip is dishonest and forced It sounds to me like you are scared to trip alone and dependent You do realize that psychelic energy is like a massive wave of energy, if you are tripping and your friend is sitting right next to you,he will be tripping with you in subtle ways, that is if he wants to sit for you, do not force him to sit for you either Frankly this post is despicable, you should have more respect for the well being of your friends

@Nahm I have meditated my friend, it is the only thing that kept me sane through endless waves of energetic sensory changes I still meditate everyday, so that I always see things from an empty space, only recently do I have the luxury to really start thinking again. When people pass me by on the streets they start coughing, humming, at rare times I even noticed men spitting on the ground as I walked away, people crossed my way, charged at me,started pretending, turning their bodies away from me as they passed me by as if something incredibly interesting was happening elsewhere I realize these everyday people dealing with ayahuasca energy in their life, that is why I do not take these events personally, they were sorta tripping, in hindsight perhaps through me ayahuasca is reaching people it never would get into contact with, maybe this has been my soul purpose on this earth, it feels like this might be it actually... I used to be a normal average guy on the streets, no one seemed to even notice I existed and frankly I was extremely glad with that, I liked to keep to myself in peace. I never sought this, this is not thinking, this is unfolding in reality I have many more examples but there is nothing to prove really, as long as we can all evolve together towards peace and harmony! @Bryan Lettner I fully agree, it is good you remind me of that, thus far it felt like I spend 4 years lifetime in 8 months, not resisting what is and embracing it is the only way to cope Even if this all ends in 4 months to me that might as well be 2 years more of this,I'm in this big time, I will accept it as it is

@Bryan Lettner wow dude, thanks! This really gives me hope, glad you're out of the loop , normal and healthy baseline life for the win It feels like I'm very slowly descending on earth again

Hey man you have to keep things in perspective, this is pretty intense Did you consider getting off the adderal slowly? With smaller doses, no need to jump the gun

@Outer Interesting information, thanks for sharing @dorg I've had times where I effectively was under ptsd from the heavy anxiety as Outer mentioned, and at rare times I'd be wrong about this pre-feeling and I was simply projecting inner fear, but as I got over my anxiety and my own fear stilled, I turned out right more and more all the time, and now I just know and feel most people emotional states as I feel mine. I want to say no children have ever been afraid of me, hell they seem curiously interested in me sometimes, and rarely do I meet teenagers who show fear. Once we get to adults though, I feel like stepping out into the city is like stepping into a battlefield. Feeling this puts me in a very tense state, I can't help it really, I become really intense just trying to hold these feelings, and on this example, a person heading towards me feels this unconsciously and gets even more fearful, and I magnify my intense state, I don't do anything voluntarily, their own feelings of distress are so powerfully felt I just become intense the same way you start sweating if its too hot. I tried to stop it but its like trying to stop your heart from beating, it just happens, and so it becomes a feedback loop, all this in an encounter of a couple of seconds on the streets. Writing it like this it does really feel like a sort of shamanic process, or some kind of energetic light work, and that with random people on the streets in a city, the ayahuasca trip seems so active that life will bring anyone who needs to experience a psychedelic event to me. This certainly does not happen consistently, certain people pass me by and absolutely nothing happens, just a dull and peaceful passing by, one of many millions in a city setting. I do become overly assertive in my speech when I'm in that more intense state of reflection. All these months going through flared up volcanic anxiety left me with a sort of ptsd at first, then came the more intricate understanding of power in this world I was too kind in this world, I must be a recent young soul on earth, arriving expecting a spiritually harmonious emotional social system where there is no need to defend oneself, where kindness and trust is enough to get going, why is there ever any reason and right to get angry or aggressive to someone? This was my motto since I was a little kid, in the years of my youth, pretty much my first two decades, I had only gotten genuinely angry at someone two or three times. This year goddamn, my anxiety left me like an emotional cripple, and I was pushed to the edge of being able to even perform basic duties like going outside and doing groceries, I had to get angry to push past whatever was holding me down. I thought I didn't care about people judgements, and that as long as you don't try to voluntarily sabotage or inflict physical harm to a fellow human being, you're free to think and look at the people in whatever way you want. You're free to judge, stare, leer, think whatever, that's the space I granted to other people, with love. But I started to get it was other people's judgements holding me down, attacking me, assaulting, restraining me in non-physical way. Violence does not start at a physical action, it starts way before with aggressive thoughts and perceptions. A country does not suddenly break into civil war, there is an emotional war, a non-physical ones,which escalates until it finally manifests into physicality. What is violence? When does it begin? How do I recognize it? These questions helped me get over anxiety. People who judge you, and look at you badly are assaulting you energetically, they're trying to suck your energy out and tie you down. Tough guys try to measure your power, they're basically trying to figure out if they could kill you if it comes down it, no physical act has been done, but energetically these guys are throwing wrecking balls and daggers your way At risk of sounding like a caricatural sjw, security guards triggered me big time, they used to win the fight they sought most of the time, leaving me with a sundered state of being. Bad security guys try to intimidate you instead of trying to keep a peaceful vibration, they are violent themselves. These fucking chumps think they're the shit standing at the entrance of stores intimidating everyone, they made it so hard to enter any store for me, you'd feel them scanning you, tracking you, under the guise of doing their jobs they're using the opportunity to energetically assault people. I despise this horribly They would win most of the time, confident in their heaps of muscle, nowadays though, I put these bastards right back at their own place, they feel how insignificant, weak and pathetic their power is when measured to the power of life and universal harmony, they have muscles, and I have the very atoms of reality at my side, because I have no side, ultimately if you're stronger then most men, life will find inhumane ways to reflect your evil, life always finds a way, and the arms with life can never be won. It is the same with Americans and Soviets in the cold war, with noblemen and noblewomen in France at the time of the revolution, you can get as powerful as you want, hold nuclear weapons, enslave men and women while you live in castles, nothing will stop your fear, nothing will let you rest, life always finds a way for those who want to make it forcefully and without harmony, thats a truth we all know deep inside, and what you dish will come around to get you, we're all one, to hold someone down is to hold yourself down I have found newfound respect for openly transgender people who in my opinion might be strongest beings walking on this planet. I always felt a certain strength from these people, now I really understand it. The problem with judging is that its very subtle, its harder to defend against it, or more appropriately to close of your energy to it, you can't be outside constantly scanning people's expressions like a madman or madwoman, to see if they're judging you, you develop the sensing with instinct and experience, trust in your own feelings. It takes a lot, to really break through social norms. At this point I can't forgive anyone who tries to judge and outstrategize others, if I did not overcome my anxiety with great anger I'd have killed myself, I was nearly unable , very close to not being able to cope with modern society anymore, I really was on the edge, I felt like some wild beast, all this time I had to be mindless just to cope with my constant trip and people were judging me aggressively, seeing my struggle judging me, staring at me, I was down, struggling, at my weakest, I had no mind to rely on and still people made it acutely worse, pushing me. Anyone who judges me in my eyes is trying to kill me, I take it nothing short as that, it is the truth of my experience, so I get as intense as to defend myself as if my life depended on it, and from this constant tripping my empathy is on permanent lsd level if not more, I can immediately tell who's judging me, they don't even need to be looking my way, one second, one look and I can feel what brewing inside. My vision through all this tripping has expanded to a sort of 180° degrees view, where I can see with almost 80 percent sharpness what is happening on my left and right about 10 feet from me while I'm looking directly in front of me. So I can literally see smartasses trying to look at me and track me down thinking I'm just some weird yet intimidating goofus who's staring off into space. Its one of the things that I hate the most. Ever since my vision evolved friends have noticed that I look as if I'm daydreaming, which translates to everyday people thinking I'm some sort of mindless absentee, a circus freak free for all to see, like a mentally handicaped person who's so far off the scale he doesn't even know he's the brief subject of people's vain entertainment in the everyday passings of life. Except I'm not, I'm present and I feel these people, things like that helped fuel great anger and ultimately a presence that reflects all aggression I realize I may sound like a madman who's seeing his own folly everywhere he goes, but I reassure anyone, and most probably myself, it is always the same type of low vibration people who get in trouble with me. My constant tripping has also brought me wonderfully magic moments with people in the city. I've noticed the good men and women who give the space to others to live, who radiate love into this world, they gave me hope and made me believe in humanity, ultimately, a loving society is possible, I see it in these people, we can get there together

You are in samadhi and you are seeing these fractals You think you're making a post about samadhi and fractals and I think I'm replying to a post about samadhi and fractals See beyond the storyline and see what is

uncomfortable situations, I too have sensed these voids, created by the existential burning desire for the presence of a woman or more women in my life. Enlightenment shines light, as such, we truly face our dragons, there is no heavenly relief in sight as one would expect from sudden enlightenment the likes of Eckhart Tolle. Not in my enlightenment at least, and seemingly not in the enlightenment as our good friends who suffer similar fates. What does it mean to long for a woman? Who is a woman, what does she mean to you? What do she look like, what does she do?.. Rather pointless questions when compared to these feelings the size of mountains pressing on my being, pressing for something. I take it one day at a time, an answer will come, to these longings, relief will come, one day at a time,I can make it one day at a time, patiently, the insight will come and our actions will finally be understood for their true purpose, our own systems, our own processus, our ways of life, will be revealed to ourselves, we are no failures, we are beings, moving forward

quite indeed,the points that you bring up are valid as long as we are conscious of what we're doing and we're honest with ourselves there is freedom to explore as we like to

all this in order to force a mystical experience? sleep depravation, caffeine this is seeking behaviour this is a very wise question the ends never justify the means

intiution are direct insights from your higher self which oversees infinite amounts of parallel realities, which is in direct telepathy with all other higher selves on this planet and beyond, meaning that the insights are in precise harmony with your desires, everyone elses desires and are truly for the most loving outcome the reason you cannot figure out an intuition is that you simply cannot fit realities worth of information and spiritual social networking into your conscious mind, you'd spend an eternity processing the background workings of a single intuitive decision which is why trust is important, you cannot know the know-hows and why-hows, just trust your intuition, why? because love, the universe wants the best for you only when the true nature of the universe is finally recognized and felt as love, can there be trust, which activates higher connection and harmony