Arkandeus

difficulty is relative, for a depressed person to get out of bed can be as hard in terms of willpower as for a normal person to go jogging for two hours. the key is dropping the physical illusion one day I may feel great and like taking a cold showers and doing all kinds of activities and the other I may get up and feel like everything is a struggle. you can always be doing what's emotionally difficult if you understand your energy levels. one day it can be emotionally difficult to attend a social event, and the other day it can emotionally difficult simply to say hi to someone. one day it can be difficult to go running, the other it can be difficult to simply do a simple stretch. difficulty is always relative, private, and unique to your present situation, difficult does not mean impossible or draining, it just means challenging. you can be challenging yourself all the time, you have to realize that your energy levels and your comfort zone change all the time as well depending to your mood so sometimes you will seemingly need to do something ''small'' to challenge yourself and other time something ''big''. the illusion is that the ''big'' thing is better and more challenging, it is not, when you have less energy and motivation a small challenge is just as hard as a big one when you feel like you have more energy and motivation. this is the acceptance part, accept that you have no control over your challenges, they can change from how to you feel, from moment to moment. and your ego will have a hard time with this especially with the small challenges. just taking a shower or doing the dishes can be difficult, depending on your mood. it never matters what you're doing physically, it's not about hat happens in front of you, it's about your consciousness. you are constantly training your consciousness throughout the emotional periods of your life, to keep pushing, to keep walking forward. everyone knows how to make big steps, but the small steps are just as important and they are an art in itself. make big steps, small steps, it doesn't matter, as long as you keep walking, that's the lesson when you realize that the small step is just as hard as the big step the paradox vanishes

people are one of the most interesting topics on earth....we are basically apparitions of unique spirits with constant explosions of infinity and creativity. you don't have to participate in the conversation on the level that you don't want,but keep in mind you could participate in the conversation on a different level as well. you could do it spiritually, you could take the time to appreciate the love happening in front of you, these people toke 10 entire minutes to make other people and their activities the center of their life...what an act of love! you could also study their point of view, to you talking about others may seem irrelevant, but what it does mean to them?why is relevant to them? try to feel their emotions. on another side you could study the way they make eye contact during a conversation, you could study mouth movements, eye movements...there's really no wrong in doing that.you don't have to actively participate in a conversation, each. you can take this to infinity, everything is in the eye of the beholder

by society's standards this is the way on reaching a goal. but by enlightenment you do not need to focus on anything, just by following your natural instinct you will advance in your desires in all directions at once. it's like shining like a pocket light versus shining like a lightbulb. it is pretty much impossible for the conscious mind to plan an intense advance in all desires at the same, just by following your instinct it is possible, but it will seem like very random and it will seem to take you to random places and most of the time you won't know what you were trying to achieve there until the event is already over, this is really a matter of trust into your higher self. you can either chose to plan your own life or you can leave it up to your higher self by following your gut feeling. both are fine but the path of the higher self is more intense but rewarding. to follow your feeling in the moment is pretty much to relinquish all control, for someone that was used to doing plans all the time it was very hard,but I can guarantee you that this path is very rewarding as well. this is pretty much how the present moment works, how could you be one hundred percent in the present moment while still having to make plans about later? the present moment is you being a hundred percent absorbed in what's happening in front of you and your higher self is making all the plans for you and guiding you by instinct

I think this says a lot, maybe you're putting too much pressure on trying to become something, enlightenment is supposed to be a relaxing into that ''feeling/being'', what could possible keep you from sleeping when you feel like it if not for some construct of the mind? if you're trying to pinpoint a goal like ''this is my primary goal'' and ''this is my secondary goal'' you're still working within the boundaries of the mind, trying to ''be'' something, trying to be an identity, trying to be a purpose. nothing wrong with that of course, but as a heads-up you'll find this be a hinder why can't one moment your enlightenment work be your life purpose, and the next moment your physics course be your life purpose? why be limited to one thing? the ego does not like this because it is not solid, it needs a solid identity on which to build: ''I am the enlightened one'' ''this is my goal'' it also dissecting your life, ''this moment is more important then the other'' everything needs to be embraced, if you're doing the dishes or cleaning your room, that is your life purpose as well, but the ego does not like the sound of that, if you're taking a shit on the toilet, that is your life purpose as well,it the kind of things that make an ego scream. but you'll find these moments hurtful if you put words on it and try to grasp them and make an identity out of it. if you don't think ''I am cleaning my room'' when you are cleaning your room you will find a certain harmony,and same for everything else the less you try to fit your life into certain boxes and boundaries, the more your ego suffers, because truth is you are only what you are right now this second, which is all that surrounds you as well, if you're just sitting in your room, then that's all you are, a dude sitting in his room. and at the same time it isn't because the next second you will be something else, always changing, but never more then what you are right now

that's basically it, the more relaxed you are the higher your vibration is. it comes down to being as relaxed as you possibly can all the time, and try to relax even more, and never stress to stress is basically to vibrate ''I don't trust life, I'm afraid'' but you are always in control of life, you are not at the mercy of it. the key is understanding that your higher self works with infinite probabilities and continuously tries to test you in order to make you trust life more. the more you trust life, the more freedom and power you feel which is rightly yours. so these tests can feel hostile but they're really only there to grant you more freedom and power but for that you will be tested, and each time you have to trust, to trust is basically to relax, take your time afraid you'll lose your job if you don't do this? afraid you'll be hurt? afraid you'll lose a relationship? don't worry, relax, take your time, which means always be honest and sincere as much as you can, being honest is being free always take your time, never hurry or push yourself. there are infinite probabilities and ways in which you think the situation will turn bad will actually turn good, and this is in your higher self's power. you could lose your job, and end up with a more amazing job or project, or reconnect with a passion, you could lose a relationship and gain three new ones. or you could not lose anything at all. not to mention the infinite possibilities I didn't mention, I'm not even smart enough to describe a tiny percentage of what's possible. it never matters, it will always turn out in your advantage if you are relaxed. its basically this, a relaxed states attracts probabilities and situations that will benefit you and make you grow beyond imagination a stressful state, is basically you fearing life itself, you fearing your higher self, you fearing yourself, it is destructive, it attracts bad situations the key is understanding there is no such thing as a constant reality, there's an infinite pool of realities to pick from, whether you are stressed or relaxed,is the deciding factor in which reality you will navigate, it is impossible to explain how this works exactly but it can be felt, it is infinite intelligence at work there is not a single thing on this planet that should make you stressed, life is alive and it is built exactly around you and for you, it doesn't make sense if we think in terms of a concrete reality but if you see reality as multi-dimensional where each one of us can jump into different probabilities guided by our higher self the illusion starts to fall. peace&light

that is true,but unless you've already gotten rid of your negative beliefs it might be more beneficial to purge negative thoughts with positive thoughts. there's really no downside to being positive and there is never any upside to being negative. that is the only truth. you're here to accomplish your desires and be happy, that's what life is about. we as a society, think we can be ''realist'', observe our lives and take "conclusion''. but you're living it, you cannot take a step back, evaluate things and make conclusions like an observer. you're an active participator, you are in the frontlines, you have to make this happen when one gets really serious about being happy, they will know that there is no negotiating, if you want to be happy, you will not settle for anything less then being happy with your life. negative thoughts are useless, doubt is useless, fear is useless. somehow with the life you're living you need to be able to be happy, whether you're poor, whether you're sick, whether you're missing a leg, whether you're terribly lonely,don't let anything stop you this is about matter beyond the physical life,you cannot believe in your happiness if you put conditions on it. it is not up to us to decide what our happy life will look like, what form it will take, the circumstances surrounding it,but it is in our power to attain that happiness, we may not decide how get it but it is ours to take, we deserve to be happy. you just have to be able to drop the conditions, drop the illusion of your physical circumstances, drop the limitations, whatever is going on in your life, it doesn't matter, don't let it bring you down, don't let it make you think negatively. that's basically it, if you stop thinking negatively no matter what happens in your life you will quickly attain enlightenment, to not think negatively when your life feels like absolute shit is to love your life, it is to forgive the universe, it's to bear hope, it's to forgive this world, forgive yourself, forgive others, it's to believe in yourself, to believe in the good in the universe, it's to practice unconditional love, which is the key to enlightenment it's this simple in theory, in practice it's one of the hardest things on earth

I try to do that as much as possible, the key is really but I mean really to find the comfortable in the uncomfortable do something that's uncomfortable, but only slightly uncomfortable where it feels actually still comfortable. something that's out of the norm, but small enough so that you keep your cool. it's funny,but you're trying to make your discomfort zone comfortable, and the best way to do this is to find comfort in the discomfort, not to go full on ''I'll face that discomforting thing head on!'' rambo-mode. find the sweet limit where you're expanding the zone but you still find comfortable. this way it's not stressful to stretch your comfort zone, and you can keep doing it, even if it's small steps, and the more you go, the bigger your steps can be, suddenly you feel comfortable doing things that felt so uncomfortable before but you didn't even have to go through a huge phase of discomfort. it's really simple but its true, if you want to be more comfortable in your life then start being more comfortable, not more discomfortable the thing is we set the bar too high,a huge part of people not being able to tackle new challenges is not the base discomfort itself, but the huge judgement, the high standards, which bring an insane amount of discomfort that has nothing to do with the native discomfort. being uncomfortable is supposed to be a slightly unpleasant feeling but still manageable, not this dread and horror feeling which most people actually deal with and recognize as their discomfort. one has to see judgement and expectations are too high patience is needed,and acceptance so that we can tackle challenge on a comfortable pace

I will describe my personal feeling of oneness for the purpose of expanding imagination! to me it feels like relating to the energy that moves people and things, when people walk,when do an action I feel related to the energy involved, it's like my own energy is right behind them. it's like a connection deeper then the conscious mind, I don't relate to their conscious actions, I don't feel they are mine, individuality is recognized, but the energy used to do, it feels like I recognize that energy. it's a feeling like ; ''wait, that person is moving out of their own free will, but it still feels like I'm moving them'' it's really in terms of the raw energy that moves the body, the organism, when people walk I feel like I'm behind their back pushing them, when they look out to something it feels like I'm looking out to something. its really a raw organic connection, separated from our identities on the level of the conscious mind another thing is familiarity, no place looks ''strange''. everything feels familiar, yet new. its been awhile since Ive seen a ''stranger''. everyone is starting to look so familiar, so welcoming, as if everyone I see is my cousin,and I suspect the next level is that I'll perceive everyone as I see as intimately as a brother or sister,but I'm certainly not there yet. the strangers on the streets that I used to see like one year ago, they're gone, they're nowhere to be seen, there's not a single stranger like that anymore, when they used to feel so distant and dangerous, and separated from me...not in my reality anymore I used to be scared of spiders and disgusted by flies. no more really, spiders are recognized in their dimensional beauty and flies are like black specks of love flying around. keep an open mind!

do you go around murdering people, abusing them physically or mentally like a sociopath? No? if you don't do that then you gave this world plenty already. freedom for others to be themselves, kindness towards others. you don't owe anything more then that,you can just be yourself this stuff is simple, the more we realize what we we're not, the more we realize what we don't know, can we appreciate what we are and what we know

keep up the meditation practice every day,no matter how short, it's literally training to stay conscious during such moments

yes, as you love discussing abstract concepts a process that helped me was to and even now to some extent always challenging my own thoughts. investigate everyone one of your mind's ''insights'' , your mind's ''claims'', your minds ''conclusion'', simply try to everytime prove them wrong. this pretty much makes you always conscious of your and over time will lead you to big realizations about your mind and consciousness. it is not be a seen as an hostile campaign against your own mind, it is simply always playing the devil's advocate, so that you can adopt several points of view in your mind and always be in touch with the truth. it is a very open-minded and neutral approach to be able to constantly consider the viewpoints opposite to the ones you hold and balancing between the two. so it would go like this : you pick a flower and think to yourself : ''oh what a nice flower!'' counter thinking : ''is it really a nice flower? is it only a nice flower because I rarely see a flower and thus I find this one exotic? is it only a nice flower because I don't know much about flowers?'' you think : ''oh I'm intelligent!'' counterthinking: ''am I really intelligent?haven't their been people more intelligent then me, scientists, artists? by what standards am I assuming my intelligence? who's setting those standards? you think : ''what a bad day today....'' counterthinking: ''is it really a bad day today? aren't there people having proportionally worse days that make this one good? some people have days where they die, how does that make your day look? haven't I had worse days in the past? is it only a bad day because I think it is a bad day? ''I'm nice''... ''am I really nice? there was that one time where...'' ''I'm enlightened!'' ''am I really enlightened? argument, argument...'' it's best to apply this at big decisions or insights instead of every little thing at first. it is one of my major exercises in abandoning thinking and disidentifying with it as I could constantly prove my own thoughts wrong , it is very frustrating at first. it automatically puts you into the position of being conscious of every single thought you have because you will judge and evaluate every single thought instead of letting them flow freely

the ego makes socializing feel very empty. imagine a dog wearing sunglasses, how awesome is that? imagine a dog getting drunk and telling weird stories? how fun would that be! imagine a dog small chatting to you, talking about the weather, talking about the latest pop song?how awesome is that! I've noticed as I grew spirituality that I can see people as they are, they're amazing intelligent animals. everyone is incredibly interesting why are bus drivers cool? imagine a gorilla driving a bus, how awesome would that be? its the same, humans are animals, and everything they do is incredibly amazing. we are literally animals going on about wearing clothes, driving machinery, singing songs, we're so so so intelligent. just the fact that you can communicate with someone is amazing, how amazing would it be if you could talk with your cat? thats how I feel when I talk to someone sometimes ''wow this creature understands me and I can talk to this creature, its mindblowing''' before it was : ''oh this individual is averagely intelligent and not very interesting,how boring'' when the ego drops, you can see the world as it really is, amazingly interesting no one was a fool,I was the fool, beauty is in the eye of the beholder and so is intelligence the ego makes everything uninteresting because it survives on standing above others, it is necessary for its survival to downplay the amazing side of other people. the less ego you have the more you can appreciate people. and I can say that people are infinitely amazing

do you really feel nothing if someone gets punched in front of you? ever saw a video of a skater landing on his nuts on a rail or something?these are the types of things that get people feeling the people themselves as onlookers. you also have to keep into account that your senses are dulled and you have a belief system that your conscious is related to your body. and what you believe becomes reality. which is why certain people can be ''insensitive'' to others and some are very ''sensitive'' and there's a whole gradient between these. if you stop believing in this, you will slowly have experiences that will show to you how your consciousness is everywhere. usually after a decent time of upholding a meditation practice you can see the aura of consciousness. it is something that I see all the time now personally. it is sort of like a small flickering, it is not colored,its impossible to describe nearly,but once you see it you know its consciousness, but it shows how things are clearly being made right now,nothing is solid. a table isn't just made out of wood into a form just to keep its solid form. every second the table is made again and again and again and again and you're the one doing this. everything happens now

Where there's a will there's a way. This is basically what you can boil spirituality down to. I remember reading somewhere that your higher self sets up the challenges in your life so that it always seem like you have no idea what to do. Like the challenge is just out of your means, basically like it feels like you can't quite picture how exactly you will tackle the challenge. you can't dissect it. This is done purposefully as to make you exercise your consciousness. It is different from making a plan and trying to realize that plan in life. Sometimes the things you want or encounter are so big you don't even know how it's possible to attain or overcome them? Yet this is a perfect setup to make you exercise your willpower, which is a main function of consciousness. If you don't know how to get where you want to go, maybe you want to become a famous singer, maybe you want to travel the world,maybe you want to meet the love of your life, but you just don't know how, you don't see the entire picture, so all you have is your will. You keep going, trying to achieve what you want, driven by your willpower. the lesson is that just by your willpower things will fall into place naturally. you're not supposed to know how exactly things will fall into place and when, but by the power of your will events and probabilities will order themselves to manifest what you want. your challenges are always set-up in a way that you have to will your way through them. they're not setup in a way that you can go : ''oh I have to do this, then that, and like this, then I will get what I want''. Where I'm trying to go is that if you feel like you don't see the full picture, like you don't see how you're going to get where you want to go. this is very normal, it's part of the process in trying to make you exercise your willpower. just by believing in yourself, by going on, even though you don't know how things will fall into place, you are practicing quite literally the manifesting ability of consciousness. and the more you do it, the more you will see results. it's not only normal, it is how I believe every challenge to be set-up. so if you feel like you're falling short, don't be afraid,it is a very normal feeling. most importantly don't let it discourage you because you're supposed to feel this way, lost, almost ignorant. one can put it this way, you don't work within reality trying to plan things from within working with the tools and means you're aware of, you work from outside of reality, changing probabilities of events, with processes and means that you're currently not aware of. not at this level at least, on the level of your higher self you're perfectly aware of many probabilities and you can freely navigate them, to practice your willpower is to tune in with that power

nothingness or letting-go-ness, these are just labels, don't let them confuse you, what you can expect in spirituality is always more vitality, more energy and more happiness. that's what this comes down to. spirituality is not something outside of ourselves, it is a part of us; it is natural to us. labels can make things confusing but the feeling of ''nothingness'' is native to you, when you're trying to imagine how something feels always imagine it feeling good and joyful. if you feel like letting go will let you lose control realize that's an ego trick. spirituality will always empower you, so imagine that letting go will make you feel even more in control, if you like to feel in control , letting go will give you that feeling of control in a way you never felt before. it is fear to trust that makes you feel like you will be weaker, fear of the uncomfortable, there's always a tuning period when you try to let go and trust where you're sorta uncomfortable and seemingly at the mercy of things,but it's a normal transition, you always end up more powerful then before. never believe in a weak spirituality, spirituality is here to please you, to make you comfortable and more joyful. how powerful is it to let go and still rock at living life? realize that perhaps you're afraid of your own power. I've had times when I felt scared of how the world felt,I felt scared of others, till I realized I was afraid of my own power, my senses were so intensified that I almost didn't recognize them, and almost felt like I was living in an hostile world. when I realized this was my own power, that I was afraid of my own intensity, all the power came back to me and I felt at peace with my surroundings

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I'd like to make this topic about multi-dimensionality. What is behind that feeling of true acceptance? If you walk on the street and you a homeless person, many feelings may rise up inside see. Most people I witness in such a case, stray away from the homeless person in an almost scared fashion, they try not to make eyecontact with the homeless person. I used to do the same somewhat in the past,now though as I consciously practice acceptance there's no fear when I pass by. Through this process of acceptance though I found out that we pass by someone homeless we get scared, homeless people remind us of the reality that people do end up living on the streets, that is the reality of our society. People are mirrors for us, they reflect us. You can't help but feel worried in some way if you see a homeless because you're scared it might happen to you. unless you can consciously come to peace with the fact that there are people who end up living on the streets, almost rejected by situation. This process of acceptance is very interesting, to be ok with someone being homeless is like being ok with you yourself being homeless. It's like its impossible to separate yourself from what you try to accept. If you accept something happening to someone else it's like you accept it happening for you. If you reject being homeless you will endlessly feel conflicting feelings when you see a homeless person. This is why I try to talk about multi-dimensionality. Our inner psyche works in immensely expanded ways and we get much more out of the physical illusion then we think so. If I want to be at peace, I have to be at peace with being homeless, because I know for a fact there are countless homeless people. Even though I've never been homeless in my life, I have to be ok with being homeless, I struggle with feelings of being homeless. Because we are all connected. this is multi-dimensional You can be as rich as you want,but if you don't accept being homeless, you will always be worried about losing your money No one is just ''rich'' or ''poor''. you can't be at peace as a poor person if it bothers you that there are people richer then you. in this case a poor person has to accept others being rich, a poor person has to accept being rich and having a lot of money even though he does not have that money if he wants to be at peace with his poor life. in this case its reversed. acceptance and peace is linked to multi-dimensional facets of your physical life,you have to be able to accept things that are happening beyond your private physical life, we are truly mirrors in that regards, each person's issues is your own, this is very expanding consciousness work. I can't be at peace when I walk on the street and see someone in a wheel-chair disabled, if I don't accept seeing the life of a disabled person as a valid life with its own richness. In that sense when I see someone disabled I feel disabled and I have to accept being disabled even though I'm perfectly healthy. many times I've had worries about my apartment catching fire. It was one of my fear. As I'd leave home, this fear would hit me: ''did I forget something important? is some electric appliance misplaced in a way that could cause a fire?I should go back and check'' many times I turned back to check inside my home if everything was ok. to get over this fear at some point I just had to say : ''well if there's a fire, so be it, let it burn,I'm leaving'' My apartment never toke fire, still in my inner planes, I had to experience my apartment burning down in order to be at peace. this work of enlightenment will lead us to places beyond our direct physical reality. in a psychic sense we work within multiple dimensions and probabilities. I also started making more progress in my enlightenment when I accepted the possibility of not making more progress, the possibility of failing. how paradoxal is that? I always had trouble figuring this out but it makes sense if we view ourselves as multi-dimensional beings. I have in my inner psyche, multiple realities, ones where I fail at progressing spirituality, ones where my apartment burns down and I'm homeless, ones where I was born disabled, realities that have nothing to do with my direct physical reality but they're a part of me and I personally guess it's needed to be able to progress spiritually to contain several realities within yourself. I really think the concept of multi-dimensionality is key in spiritual work. we all have many lives, that we lived before, and that we will live, beyond this current one. at the level of spiritual identity we are conscious of all these lives at once. our spirit is multi-dimensional, to practice this is to connect more with who we are

keep in mind that suffering that you seek out and discipline through is not the same suffering. it is a different form of suffering. suffering that you expect is much easier to handle suffering that comes out of nowhere when you're trying your hardest to go after what you want and make your life better, now that is intense, I would almost call this the ''real'' suffering but take this lightly. it is very tricky, but to seek suffering can be a way to run from suffering. if you can expect it hurts a lot less.this is not the case always of course disciplining can be of benefit spiritually, I have gone through such periods as well.

this is information I know from Seth and Bashar, two channeled spiritual entities

from what I know by 2050 we'll fully be in 4th density and we'll be ready to join the galactic confederation, so also ready for contact with advanced spiritual civilizations

I'd like to discuss personal responsibility. We often get flustered by events and people in our lives. I'd like to put forth a perspective that allows one to take more responsibility for the way we react to these events in our, and by consequence get more power. The more responsible you feel over your life, the more powerful you are. psychic power is gained by grounded awareness I'll take the example of walking on the streets and crossing eyes with a stranger. I used to be a very anxious person, I'd feel a lot of fear looking at people, I was afraid of people. Now that I progressed spiritually, my fear of strangers starts to disappear more and more, and I know within myself that I see them in an entirely different way, but what I now I encounter is fear not coming from me, but from others. So even though I fear people less, I still have fearful eyecontact on the street. Because people also have their own fears of others of course, and sometimes I can feel they fear me personally because I stand out more now. I have seen the evolution of my fear of people and sometimes I do have very natural and peaceful eyecontact with others on the streets. Where I want to get is that people's fears are my own. If someone looks at me with fear then I feel that fear, but I am responsible for resonating with that fear. I would have never been able to have these moments of peaceful eyecontact had I not gotten past my own fear of people. So I am still responsible for the fearful eyecontact that I experience now, even though I know that I've advanced so far and that it is initially the stranger that I see on the streets that actually fears me, I am responsible because I get afraid of their fear, and thus I resonate with it. In the event of fearful eyecontact both parties are at fault, the one that is fearing the other, and the one that is fearing the others fear. If am able to accept in my heart people's fear of me there will be no fearful eyecontact anymore and that is what makes a strong connection, to be able to go past your own fears but the fears of others as well. What I wanted to show is that you are always responsible for your negative emotions no matter what happens or where the source comes from. It is always a part of you resonating with something. Imagine a situation that frustrated you in the past. Something that made you angry or sad or disappointed... Next, imagine an enlightened version of yourself, what if you were super enlightened and you had attained high levels of peace and acceptance. How would you have reacted to this event. Could it be possible to have interpreted these events in a very peaceful way?or to simply not have cared? I know we're all able to imagine higher and purer versions of ourselves. Taking into account that the enlightened version of yourself that you imagine is very much real and possible to attain. Aren't you the one that is responsible for the negative emotions that you feel after a frustrating event? If you're able to imagine a level of yourself where these seemingly negative events don't affect you and provoke bad feelings inside you, then who's responsible for the bad feelings inside you? Not the event or the people Circumstances are always empty. It's easy to realize if you look back on your spiritual progress and look for things that used to frustrate you but now not anymore. One can realize : ''Wait a minute, if that specific event or process doesn't frustrate me anymore? then what was the real source of my frustration?'' What was the source of frustration, if not in the event or the people involved? it is truly a question that will help one advance spiritually

today I was getting money to pay the rent at a nearby bank, on my way out I somehow lost my wallet, looking back I know how I did it. Thing is my wallet was full with my rent, bank cards, identity cards, about 15 minutes later I realized what happened and started tracing my way back. I look at the bank, I looked in nearby trashcans if someone threw it in there, I couldn't find it. I was confused but still willing to trust where my life was guiding me. I the past I always used to be very careful with money, especially something like rent, I'd pay a lot of attention to a sensible situation like this but since living in the present moment it was my duty to let go of worries and trust the flow of things. I lost my wallet in the flow of things, I wasn't distracted, I was consciously going with the flow yet this still happened. I look at the police station to see if someone might've given it off there for me and I was lucky to find someone did. With not even a single paper of money missing.I would've been really glad just to have my cards but the money was also there. The relief is not describable. the money or the cards really don't matter,but I'm personally having a tough time lately which would've made this happening to me very straining. That one person that had the kindness to bring the wallet back, I don't know who that person is, their act of kindness rings for an eternity in my being. it personally inspires me to do better and be more kind to others!

you are open-minded if you are aware that your ideas contradict without your own identity being involved. if your identity is involved in an idea, the other idea will seem like danger to you, and you'll want to cast it away. If your identity is not involved, the other idea simply seems like the way someone else views the world, and even more, the other idea is not cast away, you still accept this idea as a possibility or a resource in the future. better said is like this : ''hmm, I don't agree with this but I understand this is the viewpoint of someone else with their own valid reasons to view it this way.And maybe someday I will actually agree with this idea or I will use it in my own personal way so I'm not judging it.'' the bad way is : ''hm, I don't agree with this, this idea is bad, and I completely reject it!I'm right'' everything is relative...if you imagine leo's spirit in a hundred years most of his current ideas will make sense to him or they will be obsolete as he will have evolved so much. the ideas are good for now, one must be always be ready to accept new ideas and beliefs.

nofap is extremely good for spirituality, I don't know why but it's like a cheatcode, if you don't fap and on top of that there are times when you're going without much sex it's like your energy just starts boiling inside. I call it a cheatcode because I have gone through very intense energy awakenings during such periods. just by not fapping. now the no-porn version is still a very valuable challenge. especially if you're trying to come off an addiction. no-porn is still very good because you'll start getting in touch more with your imagination. instead of using videos, you get in touch with your imagination in a very passionate way. to use your imagination in joyful ways is very good for spirituality. it's also very good in the sense that you can't get addicted to masturbating without porn. imagination takes a lot of energy, so you'll naturally follow your own pace of excitement. to open up a porn video takes no energy, and you can look around till you get excited. this doesn't work with imagination, if you're not excited, you're not going to look to make yourself excited with imagination as one can't just freely snoop around his imagination. imagination takes focus and energy so fapping with imagination is a very good spiritual practice as well. no-fap is the best in my opinion, but that is from my point of view, the best practice is always the one that feels right to you in this moment

it's an illusion but it's also reality nothing happens but everything happens. I am you, but I am not you paradoxes are fully part of reality, can we manage to, with our third eye, be aware of and see 2 or more different contradictory truths at the same time? and understand that they're not divided by their contradiction, but that they are in harmony within each other, for the universe is able to hold different realities at the same time, and these realities interact with each other