Arkandeus

exactly!

truth in love, in that which is right inside your heart

first shroom trip? take half a normal dose, maybe even 1/3rd of a normal dose there's no hurry, mushrooms won't be going anywhere, this is your mental health take a small dose and get used to the effects, get to know the psychedelic feel, and then you can slowly amp up the dose or perhaps you will be surprised by how special and insightful even a small shroom trip can be and you won't even consider taking more there's no reason not to take it slowly at first, you can always take bigger doses later on

every path to enlightenment is infinite, personal, intimate enlightenment requires being conscious of who you are, so it is molded around who you are you are the guru

you felt a truth in that moment its important to know every moment is true you want to integrate this truth into your daily life, but that's not the point your daily life has a truth as well, every moment has a truth that needs to be heard there are moments when your family will seem real, some where they will seem unreal, moments when id's seem silly and ridiculous, and moments when id cards seem serious and important listen to the truth of every moment, there is no conflict, there is no moment that carries a greater truth then another, every truth deserves to be heard, this is infinity keep listening to life

around the time that I awakened was the time that I experienced the most thoughts, that moment when I really questioned who I am my thoughts were racing I felt I was going mad ever since being on the path of enlightenment, involving meditation and mindfulness in my daily life it would seem that there is more space where I do not think, where I am, this space has evolved to form a galactic ocean and it sometimes feels bigger then the story of my daily life paradoxically I'm realizing I have not been thinking less, on the contrary, never have I paid more attention to my thoughts ever since trying to enlighten, there has been more thoughts, more focus, but in the right direction its as if now I think in a lethal way, multi-threaded, synchronistically, constructs of thoughts, dimensions of thought thought has revealed itself for me to be as physical as throwing a punch a thought is energy, every thought, every projection in the past or the future, it is all so much energy it would seem that I am running out, coming to a stand stil, it takes so much energy to not be who you truly are a thought is a projection in another dimension, when you think you are not here, its like a quantum leap, this is how far we go in our seeking I'm at a point where I naturally go thoughtless at certain moments, actually for most of the day no matter how you seek enlightenment you will get there every effort, every thought, nothing is wasted, everything burns every direction leads to home, eventually the mask will break every single moment of seeking is going on endlessly, every moment of the past burning now, even those moments in the future, the plans you have already made, the efforts you are already doing in a mental dimension, months or years from now, those plans those projects, seeking there now its pure rocket fuel being blasted, in every direction, till there's nothing left, too tired, no will to seek anymore, and then one arrives

here you are, coldly dissecting, analyzing this girl's life have you considered the effects of your attention towards the life of this girl? do you think if you looked at this girls life and believed in her happiness , would that actually make a difference? do you think you are not taking a part of this girls life? that you are merely watching images on a screen and there is large distance between you and her physically? whether the girl has a miserable life or not, would there be an effect if you made the conscious decision to believe in the happiness of her life? would that effect her life even in the smallest way I think so, and that to me is consciousness work to be conscious that life is now, you are not sitting on a seat watching life from far away on a screen, you participate, and your decision to believe in someone's life, in their happiness has a real effect its not about who's living right or who's living wrong, its about love only when we realize that our thoughts affects this reality and the people in it directly in real ways, will we have the power to stop our minds from dissecting life know that I believe in your life, in your happiness and your satisfaction

whatever you can be or become, who are you right now? who are you right now? you're a man, single, lonely, you are not a social master, you may not have very satisfying friendships now instead of asking what you could be apart from this and how look at yourself now, how could you accept who you are right now? yes you may change in the future, but this is you now, how could develop more love for yourself, as you are right now? there's really no problem in desiring to change, but change comes through fully embracing who we are now, accepting what we're being right now, when we listen to who we're being right now, everything will come together, change will come to you

a war is waged between men and women, a war 4 love

whatever you do its allright, as long as you keep being honest with yourself and this is advice for both genders, as long as one is honest, can seemingly conflicting desires come to harmony

you are right, the present moment is eternal, so what is now, is so for an eternity while it is now sex is also connection, I say do it, be who you are but don't start disbelieving in your heart, your heart is still here and it can be your buddy in this exploration if this is how you want to do this there is nothing wrong with wanting to connect sexually, even if that is your primary and sole purpose dont let society make yourself believe that you're a heartless bastard, don't buy into it sex is love

Im hoping the best for you

you are advising not to look for a relationship but here the most emotionally charged part of your message is when you describe your encounter with a girl and how you appreciate how well it went by no means do I mean to put any progress down, you are feeling better and more optimistic, thats the starsign honesty is required though for a real outcome I know how tough it is to face how deeply one longs for a relationship, its tough to feel how deep our love goes and you're right to take a step back if it made you depressed keep being sincere to the core

power is not to be sought, it's not be looked for, it's not a goal or an accomplishment only when we let power come into our life naturally, can we understand its message yes enjoy power when it comes to you, but don't chase more, don't make it the end of all what's the meaning of power not in a physical animal kingdom with hierarchy and scarcity, what is the meaning in a metaphysical reality, a collective experience and creation, with infinite abundance? once I gave up on power it came flooding to me I put love first, harmony first, peace first love is anything but boring, it is very powerful, power serves love love is powerful, supernova powerful connection to the entire universe, with you now,in this moment, all of creation I can guarantee you that an enlightened man and woman feels a thousand times more power eating their breakfast then some warlord or dictator will feel their entire life

one cannot understand sex if you're looking in present, past, future yes reproduction is involved but thats an element to understand one has to look in the eternity of the moment what if one moment of sex lasted an eternity?

very interesting, thanks for sharing In my personal experience of masculinity I just go straight to the point, that's my motto, I like to act how it is

I meditate automatically throughout all my activities in the day so the drive to sit down and meditate has become for rare cases when I feel I really need it, I need more guidance or answers for me a structured meditation has become more of a sacred happening, I don't chose when I need to do it, those moments come by their own, so even this structure is now part of the flow for me every single moment you have meditated, you are meditating now the past is now, it is your ally once a man or a woman meditates, he or she meditates always

sort of weird to me whats attractive about not knowing if a man is attracted to you or not? there's always this strategy in pua that says not to act too invested in a girl, not to display too much attraction towards her to me these are games I'm not willing to play but they seem to be effective so Im a tad curious, what's attractive about not knowing if a man likes you?

yes you have a chance mate

a man can fail his performance and he should be allowed to live

just be, its all inside, do a small meditation here and there if you want to accelerate the process but this stuff will all surface naturally it just needs space to come up, by being sober you're giving space just by you wondering how to integrate this, you are giving it the space, the attention to the process, this is plenty you haven't done anything physically but you did something innerly, a new desire, giving attention, intention to make something happen, this is where its at, this is the steering wheel this is what moves reality from the inside

between my ayahuasca trips I had about a year or two of integration

you're trying, and I think the universe doesn't ask you for more

the dream has many layers love is a deeper layer, its a collective dream, we're all connected you have to understand who you are in order to know more truth if you want to understand enlightenment you have to understand non-enlightenment enlightenment is timeless,past, future, present, it means you have always been enlightened its not that you hit a point and you suddenly become a divine godlike being , you have always been divine so we as beings of infinite energy, infinite creation, infinite intelligence,infinite love, we collectively incarnate on earth and we arrive here and we're not enlightened so to speak, we don't remember shit now if you were a godlike being why would you make yourself forget your identity, your powers? the quickest way to enlightenment is be fully human, being fully present to who you are as you are, give attention to life as it is, do what you came here to do, fulfill the reason why you chose to forget why did buddha enlighten and 99,99% of the earth didnt at his time? was buddha just smarter? were other people dumb? no , non-enlightenment has meaning as well, which explains why buddha didnt do power plays to convince anyone, anything buddha did was always about love and consciousness and personal growth a gigantic display of miracles and superpowers to force people to awaken doesnt accomplish anything, people are already enlightened beings, they're dormant for a reason

so I will share my latest findings on the synergy between male energy and female energy, especially in how the two meet and how the two expand together straight down to it we have a penis and a vagina, how does a man attract a woman and how does a woman attract a man a common convention and belied in todays sexual culture is that this is wrong, in my opinion it is indeed so that a man penetrates a woman, and leaves the woman with his penis inside her, but this convention will have us believe that a woman is not whole, that he has space inbetween her legs, this might be an unconscious belief in many, I used to have it I guess a woman is already whole, and so is a man no cell can merge with another cell if it is damaged, a cell merges with another cell if it both are whole (this is pure intuition on the cell talk and if I get called out on this I'll take it) a woman being hole, a man being whole, they are both attracted to each other, now what happens next? the man gets an erection, its hard, its energetic its powerful a man does not walk around with an erection, and when he wakes up with an erection he does so because somewhere he is looking and desiring women in his mind, consciously or subconsciously so this where a lot of guys have to put their egos down if they want to follow me here, an erection is a co-creation between a man and a woman attraction between a man and a woman creates this space, an erection is powerful, its like condensed space, the condensed attraction co-creation this would mean that an erection is not entirely a man's, it is but not entirely, and this is where the ego is put down a this is where a woman is not being filled up a man penetrates a woman and shares this space and energy with her, that she co-created as well now how does that work when you can't get it up for a woman and you find yourself jerking it off to other woman in your mind to get an erection going? the woman in front of you did not awake your erection right? now this never happened to me but I will adress it, this is by default a unconscious relationship to begin with, but even here a woman is a receiver of energy, and beyond the ego the woman you have in front of you represents the entirety of all female energy as you know, she is every woman you know,so even if you think about another woman, she is that woman, she is female energy, they are both one female energy, this is energetics beyond ego so details aside during sex this co-creation of attraction energy, the man receives this energy created by both, awakens this energy physically, literally brings this electricity of love attraction into physical space, and shares the physical manifestation of that energy with his woman the woman is not filled up, she is penetrated, widened, stretched, perforated, new space is created inside her, through her man she experiences the physical manifestation of the love attraction energy co-created by the both of them, she receives this space that is hers as well sometimes, this new co-created space evolves into a full belly with not only new space but new life moral of this whole thing, if we want to find love we have to understand that we are already whole, we stop looking for love, as that is the understanding of being whole, and love finds us there's nothing to gain inside someone else, we are amazing as we are on our own, when we realize that, the world will reflect this wholeness, the reflection being a partner that is whole as well! you're both whole together and even more! so the very act of looking for romantic love is contrary to romantic love, let things flow, if you look you're convinced you're not whole,if you're whole you dont look, you just be its tricky, like a divine illusion, so to find love we have to give up on love?hmm no just realizing that if you want someone else to love and live with you, you have to love and live with yourself, you are the divine mirror!you are that someone else