Girzo

Cool to watch. Thanks for sharing and thanks to your friend for creating.

I even think that Enlightened people could be more prone to become alcoholics or obese for example, because they are so detached from normal life that they keep those unhealthy habits as anchors to keep their bodies alive, to have at least one physical desire. Just a crazy idea.

I know this loop of "stressful work > masturbation > stressful work > eating junk food" so well. For me the solution was to change my job. I don't know any short term solution that will work for you until you can switch your job to something more healthy, OTHER THAN mindfullness practice. It can be very helpful if applied throughout whole time you work. From the beginning to an end. And don't beat yourself up, there's no point in that. In the end it just worsens the condition. I have fallen into this trap many times, please don't repeat my mistakes.

What I am 100% sure is that you will make it through. There's not a single situation that is permament - everything passes - you can trust in that. If you want some advice then that's what I can tell you: Don't try to keep yourself present, just notice that is the only option.

It hasn't helped me much, but it was fun to explain it to my friends. We were traveling by train for few hours, during that time we talked, did some tests, read a little and ended up figuring our Enneagrams. Descriptions were so accurate it was scary. But what do you do after you figure out your personality type? How to apply it? Maybe you can use this knowledge to choose a suitable career, partner or place to live. I haven't done any of that yet, so maybe that's why it's useless for me. Does anyone know any other uses of Enneagram and other personality types?

I was eating and thinking about a friend. I was thinking about her perspective and then literally saw that there is no her, there are only facets of this infinite grey-mass blob. Which quickly transfered into my own experience - "there is no me". I was sitting there, eyes wide open, nothing has changed, but everything has changed. You get it? I was sitting with my mouth open and looking around, it was it. I wasn't very impressed, it was a very subtle thing, yet not missable. Then mom told me to park my car into driveway. It was like a good joke. There is no me, there is no car, there's just Reality. Duration of the experience - 3 seconds deep, 10-15 seconds somewhat deep, 2-3 minutes good meditative state. According to ten Oxes story I don't think it was even a tail of the Ox, but still something. Let's continue. For few days I had been lacking sleep a little bit, like a 1-1.5 hours lacking every day, so it finally got me and I fell asleep as soon as I sat on the couch. When I was waking up it was like a psychedelic trip. Everything around me was dense, it felt like I had to swim through the ocean of thoughts. For 15 minutes every relationship between any object was understood. Sadly, the memory of this experience fades with every hour. I suspect it's because of the same mechanism that erases dreams. This is sad, because it was one of the most profound experiences in my life and I would like to remember it. It felt like being at the core of knowledge. Why did I call Infinity a grey-mass blob? Because that's how it feel to me. Imagine someone you care about in some kind of scenery. Now this picture is loosing it's color and contrast, while simultaneously the objects in the scene get ripped layer after layer, you start to see person's skull, etc. until finally there's just One. I won't call it a thing, it's just One. It's not how it literally looks like, because perceptions don't change at all, but if it had to be translated into visual language that's how I would describe it. Additional insight: I think that psychedelics like AL-LAD or 5-MeO-DMT take those subtle Enlightment experiences and make them gross and that's what so sweet about them. Having written it down for my personal journal I thought I might as well share it with you.

Maybe it will help you. I spend a lot of time in front of computer and have an improper posture. Which is really a pain in the ass if you want to start yoga. So, looking for solution I found Big Stretch Reminder program. It's very simple and interrupts you every 20 minutes to do some stretching. So far it helps.

@Elton by having direct impact on someone with wider reach. Think like grey eminence. For example, you becoming a Donald's Trump yoga teacher would have an enormous impact on the world.

Reality is twisted enough. I don't see a problem with possibility of some Master going there on demand or in sowe weird, non-understable way being there 24/7. Talk about frying someone's relative brain seems inappropiate in the light of possibilites of Absolute which can get as parodoxical as it wants.

I thnik it's not desired to use them non-stop. For me, music or these beats don't really help. But it might be interesting to test them on psychedelics, I have to try it.

What you are looking for are Ken Wilber's works. Start with anything you like, they are all quite good. No Boundary for example was really fascinating to read.

Congrats on your decision!

@Elisabeth Wheat is problematic, because it's plain energy that's hard to digest and lacks nutrients. And that's a problem, because your body has evolved in such a way that it can't, by itself, reuse or synthesise all the molecules needed to sustain perfect health and body performance. Every organism has evolved to consume certain types of food that were accessible at the time and it turns out people are incompatible with wheat just as dogs are with chocolate.

Oranges are so sweet and juicy, because they have been cultivated by humans for more than 4000 years.

Extracting 5-MeO sounds like a bad idea.

I don't think of myself as Enlightened at all, but your questions are interesting to answer. Yes or no, depends on how you look at it. From one angle everything is there, from another - nothing exists. You don't need to be Enlightened to notice where phenomena go and from where they come. It's like a separate insight that can be grasped, I think I've grasped it. No center, no left, no right - no up, no down. There's a perception of 3-dimensional space, but it's located nowhere. It wouldn't affect the Absolute. It would affect how everyday phenomena looks like, but in the end it doesn't matter at all, since you have never existed and never will. Quite literally. Enlightment doesn't protect from brain damage, if that's what you asking for. --- I would like to know that one!

@John Iverson this line of reasoning has helped me in the begining to grasp this "you and me are identical" stuff: Sit in silence and try to locate yourself, you will be trying and consequently finding nothing to finally figure out, if you are diligent enough, that you are this Nothing. You will also come to conclusion that other people are Nothing too, therefore you are all the same, because if there was at least one diffrence between you and them, you wouldn't have been Nothing.

@RawJudah I am speaking from my own experience. Starting meditation habit took almost immediate effect on me. You may suck at it and not be able to meditate for long periods of time, but it doesn't mean that it doesn't work at all. 20 minutes is not that much to pull off.

I understand this part less in naive way, more like when you find out your True Self, then your desires stop being egoic, but start to come from the Self. So the desire to move a mountain comes from the Self, not from "you". Self is everything, so it doesn't have any problem executing it's will, either by the work of living beings, or some other mechanism, not by ostentatious magic trick, because there's no need to amaze anyone with it. That's the power and that's the miracle in my opinion, seeing people working collaboratively without any disturbance from the ego. But everyone is free to believe whatever he/she wants to believe.

Meditation habit! At least 20 minutes daily. The MOST important habit. You will feel like another human being just after a week. The thing is not to do it mechanically. For starters, I recommend guided meditations, like Leo's or Mooji's ones

I like it, because you can always rewind your thinking to a certain point and tackle problem from different angle or explore another path.

If the work offers you enough free time to contemplate and meditate, then I don't see why not stick to it. Totally other thing is when you are working 10-12 hours daily without a hope of it ever getting better. Then it's almost like chasing success, but worse, because you are chasing survival.

20 minutes daily, I am 5 days in, it's my longest streak in row. I am very bad meditator, but I am at peace with that, which makes me very good meditator? Does it?

@Wad Morld Yes that true that man should choose a woman that chooses him too, but I think you go too far in putting accent on looks, status and charisma. There's still a lot to improve beside that, it's your confidence, sense of humour and being okay with sex, for example. You see, you have said "I went out partying" and nail the point here. @Hardkill 's weakness is that he is not getting enough exposure to women, that's what he needs to fix. Almost all of us who struggle with geting girlfriend need to fix. Hey @Hardkill, if you really believe that Asperger is a problem, why won't you look out for a girl with this syndrome. She for sure wouldn't mind anything connected with that disorder, because she would be very similar to you. Personally I think there's no difference. I have never been diagnosed with Asperger, but I struggle with all the same things as you do. But good luck, maybe one day you will find your perfect piece of advice.

The only three options that have ever worked for me are shopping mall, city centre and music festivals. I find clubs a bad place to do pickup. It's probably just my personal bias, but some clubs are terrible. Library doesn't work, yoga classes too, people there are +35. At least in my country.