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Very similar to yours. I have done some research and calculation into that, it turns out to be more like 6 months to earn enough. Good work opportunities are in a summer-resort type of cities or big ones where you can find an easy night job. Those pay better and sometimes allow you to read books, listen to audiobooks, etc.

My ego was like: "I don't want to leave this place, why is it only 10 days??" @moon777light If you want advice, I can tell you to find a comfortable sitting position in which you can sit without a move for one hour straight. Maybe do some stretching before the retreat if no position is that comfortable to you. I had to sit on two zafus, otherwise, my knees hurt too much.

Heh, I have seen similar situation on my last Vipassana retreat. The mother couldn't bear for longer than 5 days and was ranting to the teacher that she constantly hears "anicca, anicca" in her head because of recordings with instructions so she can't meditate. Are you going to Poland? There's a great center there. Dhamma Pallava. Built from the ground as a Vipassana retreat center and it's a huge facility.

Have you ever seen 20 ml syringe? Good luck sticking it up your butt, I know you can buy an additional long, slim tip, but still. A few quotes from the link you have posted: (usually, 1-3ml is plenty, you want as little water as possible while still properly dissolving your dose) (1-5ml is usually plenty, depending on substance and solvent) Not even once does it mention using 10 ml of solvent. Especially to dissolve 10 mg of 5-MeO. You could use this amount to dissolve more like 200 mg. 1 ml will be plenty for up to 25 mg or so.

Maybe try some Hatha Yoga. When I had kriyas, I did a few poses. I had felt something resembling flames escaping through the hands and my kundalini symptoms passed away.

1 ml syringe. Do your research, read some plugging/rectal administration guide, because you are asking ridiculous questions.

I think it means pause before the Medulla and after the Medulla. ...om, om, om, pause, om at the medulla, pause, om...

Day and night game. Of course not. Every single one of the areas you have mentioned would deserve a course on its own. I am talking about the direct impact. Indirectly, yes, there could be some influence, as with any self-help course. When you buy a course you don't pay for the information that's freely available, but for the way it's structured and presented to you.

I just circle around/highlight certain parts and read only them when re-reading fast. Yup, I was pretty OCD about making any marks in books, too, but got over it eventually. There's just too much wisdom to write down everything into the note app. That's why I don't use the library anymore and buy my own copies, so I can scribe in them freely.

@herghly What do you mean by bufo? This discussion is not about bufo alvarius venom containing 5-MeO-DMT, but yopo snuffs containing 5-HO-DMT, which other name is bufotenin.

Yes, The Natural by RSD Max Berger. I am very satisfied with the results. This course is a full package, guiding you through every step and giving clear calls to action. It covers everything from having the right mindset, through teaching you needed skillsets, to showing everything LIVE in action. Two areas where it lacks are relationship management and sex instructions, but there's already a lot of information on these topics on the web and the rookie doesn't really need it. I had studied quite a bit of dating advice before doing this course with little to no results. So it was a gamechanger for me, as finally everything started to click after watching it. The System by Todd Valentine also seems like a good resource, but I haven't tried it personally.

Still, meditation/yoga can be your passion and you can make a business around it. @Shiva Great post.

@CreamCat He probably was sleeping that low, because of anxiety caused by the transition to doing LP. It's not like you can choose how much you want to sleep when you are being haunted by dreadful thoughts.

If I remember correctly, Lahiri Mahasaya (famous kriya yogi) has been recommending having a coitus only once or twice a month, not more. So sex seems not to be a deal-breaker, but still, less frequently = better.

Maybe try semen retention. This way you both masturbate and don't waste bodily fluids. Here's a quick read on the topic: https://www.nateliason.com/blog/multiple-orgasms-men Sorry if you are a woman, I have no advice then.

That's kind of true. Like, it's not enough to be right, you also have to be polite. Not because it will make them sad, but for a reason that they won't listen. Communication is a tricky business.

Why are you convinced that dreams are untrue?

@Peo no-one will tell you for sure, but you definitely can increase chances of your first trip being "ultra-deep".

So it seems given a choice one should choose freebase over the oxalate because it will be easier to convert to HCL or smoke.

It depends on what you call samadhi. Different people use different definitions, where they make distinctions between stages of samadhi or call those stages some other name and give the label samadhi to the highest experience. If you have had only single samadhi experience then it's hard to pinpoint where it exactly belongs. The whole thing is further complicated by the fact that these experiences come in many flavors. The one samadhi that had happened to me came in a "no-self flavor". That means I forgot my name, who I am or what I think I am and everything became one, then bliss filled the whole space. The concepts of me and mine became very alien, they were perceived like a costume that I could choose to wear or not. I believe it was a lesser samadhi, so others may give you a deeper, more accurate answer of how it feels.

There are not two different things, there is only God. And God is Nothingness. That's all true, far from crazy. It's a totally misguided question that misses the essence of what God is. But if you want to play this game then what kind of God would allow access to divine knowledge to a person that is sitting and doing nothing for 1000 hours?

You can dose it every week and learn for yourself that it looses magic rather quickly. I don't recommend dosing more often than once a month, but sometimes you have to do it, so it's not a set-in-stone rule.

You can have sex in a pure form. It's not a matter of the act, but how you approach it. The girl doesn't have to be a spiritual person in order for you to treat her as a manifestation of the Goddess. God is hidden in everything you can see and every action you can take. Bring mindfulness into sex. Be aware of your bodies, energies flowing, emotions arising. Try to transform it into meditation, without imposing anything on the girl, just treat her with the utmost compassion. I have heard that semen retention helps in getting more consciousness of your sexual energies, but don't know any other helpful technique. Here's a link if you are interested: https://www.nateliason.com/blog/multiple-orgasms-men.

Start again. If you are on a self-actualization journey you have probably changed a bit during that year.

Is an Enlightened master stuck permanently in Awaken perspective or can they jump back to identification with Mind and Body and all the things inbetween? I can clarify the question if needed.