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@Matt23 Thank you, I do like these meditations. I have found that "praying" or meditating on someone elses wellbeing to be therapeutic, and I can try that.

@Leo Gura I wish I knew. I intellectually feel like I have love for my parents and my cat and my friends, but, I don't have a feeling of secure love in my heart when I think about those things. I feel more of a sense of sorrow - which I know sounds kind of sad, but it feels as if I don't trust the feeling of love. It's as if I don't want to get to close to it, because I don't trust that it will stay. But at the same time, I know intellectually that nothing is permanent. From another perspective, I can see that all of this is just thoughts and beliefs that my mind has made up. I can choose to continue believing that story, or to believe whatever other story I want to believe. But still, I just feel flat. Sometimes I think I love the feeling of freedom, but I also think that feels more like hope than actual love. But like when you say to bring to mind something that you love and to feel that feeling in my heart....I feel nothing. I like lots of things, like nature and butterflies and birds and rainfall and lakes. But do I love them? No. I feel more sorrow than love.

Hey, so I know this subject title sounds pretty basic, but I'm actually not new to consciousness work. I meditate frequently (though not daily like Leo suggests), I've done a ton of journaling and introspection and reading. I'm experienced with psychedelics and use them for personal growth. I've been into personal development for over a decade, but really moreso over the last five years. I still have a tough time when I think my actions are going to make somebody angry. Simple things - like, if I've gone on say 4 or 5 dates with a guy and I have to break it off, I'm basically terrified that he's going to get mad at me. Or, I'm going to have to quit my job next week (got a new offer somewhere else), and I'm terrified to tell my boss. I'm afraid he will be angry, hurt, upset, and generally won't be happy. I want to be able to stand up for myself and do what is in my best interest without fearing how other people will react. I understand that my thoughts create my feelings. I have tried to allow myself to feel inwards, as Leo has suggested, and to allow myself to be with the feeling, instead of trying to push it away. But it feels intolerable. It doesn't feel like I can stay present with it. Also, I understand intellectually that there is no difference between "other people" and "me", but clearly this is not something I understand experientially. I'd like to know it through my direct experience, and I believe it, but I haven't experienced it myself. I feel like I am living my life "small" because of this, and I'd really like to stop doing that. Advice is appreciated.

@WaveInTheOcean Yes, it's 100% next on my list. I've heard a lot about it and I love Gabor.

@Nahm But at the same time, I can see that I've made "more financial security" good, and "less financial security" bad. So I'm still very much (on many levels) living from a dualistic mindset. Then I also feel guilty for taking the new job full well knowing it's not aligned with my purpose. It makes me feel like I'm just delaying my life. I'm 37 years old now, so I'm not terribly thrilled about delaying my life even more. Though I also know that 'delaying my life' is just one interpretation, and that this could also mean I'm "setting up my life". I'm also noticing I'm making the interpretation that "taking this new job just for the money, with the intent to quit in a year" is disingenuine", but it could also mean that "taking this new job for the money will give them a ton of value in a short period of time and help them get started before I move on to my purpose"...or, I guess that my purpose can't really be separated from this job since, indeed, it is what I will be doing? I'd love to stop feeling so out of alignment. Part of it also my relationship with money. I have a lot of money saved, I make a lot of money at my job, I just do not really enjoy my life. But I figure if I can make a lot of money next year, buy a few investment properties and launch my online course, I could have some passive income that would help me start my business. You seem pretty smart lol...looking forward to your comments on my comments

@Nahm This is true, indeed... I guess part of me is second guessing my own decisions, as well. Maybe I'm projecting this onto others? Like, for the new job. I know I am not enjoying my current job. I also don't think I will particularly enjoy the new job, but it's more money. I know for sure that I want to quit entirely and start my own coaching / psychotherapy business. But I need more financial security first. Which is why I'd want to take the new job. I feel guilty for this.

@RobertZ Thanks for your reply. And just to be clear, since more than one person mentioned it, there is zero abuse happening here. I'm not exactly sure what I said that makes people think that there would be anything abusive?

@WelcometoReality You are correct, I feel like I delay the fear by fleeing. I'm spending so much energy trying to avoid the fear and it's exhausting. I'd like to feel more okay with my decisions, but I keep second guessing myself. I guess if I felt 100% certain in my decision (and the potential consequences that come with it) perhaps this would be easier....

Thanks! The first part of your post with respect to cholesterol and cardiology is based on medical "science" dogma. Have you watched Leo's video that breaks down science? Most of what we know about cholesterol and saturated fat is based on industry funded and industry funded sham science. Unfortunately.

Nice nice. I'd also highly recommend anything by Dr. Paul Saladino or Dr. Georgia Ede.

Can someone tell me at what point in the latest video Leo talks about carnivore? I know I could look it up myself but I'm in over my eyeballs deconstructing the myth of science....

Source?

The first part of your post with respect to cholesterol and cardiology is based on medical "science" dogma. Have you watched Leo's video that breaks down science? Most of what we know about cholesterol and saturated fat is based on industry funded, cherry picked sham science. Unfortunately.

I do wonder about this - with respect to spirituality. I've come around to believing that humans are physically meant to eat meat (from my lived experience of doing the carnivore diet), but I do think from a vibrational standpoint that meat is probably a lower vibration than plants. From a spiritual vibration standpoint, fasting is probably best. But this is just what I think, based on....almost nothing.

I have tried the diet and did find it helpful. For the record, Mikhaila Peterson has had a hip and an ankle replaced and now doesn't suffer from depresion, anxiety, or rheumatoid arthritis. So, is it an awesome diet? No. But it did heal something.

Hi all I'm new to the forums and Life Purpose course, but am not new to meditation. I've been "practicing" for years on a relatively consistent basis, though not every day. I notice that I have such incredible negative thinking patterns. I have almost lost hope that things will get better at this point. Often I think that I just want to lay in bed and eat Cadbury cream eggs all day. I'm now 33, and tell myself that who cares...it's all going to be downhill from here. No matter what happens in my life I probably won't be happy. Etc etc etc. These kind of thoughts spiral and are incredibly difficult to stop. I've tried listening to them and doing nothing, I've tried countering them, I've tried ignoring them, but they pull me back and I believe them with such certainty that it feels impossible. I meditate and have monkey mind the entire time, unable to focus on much of anything and I have been trying for quite a long period of time (a few years). There have been a few times in my life where a meditation really moved me, it its few and far between. Has anyone else experienced this? im a former athlete and have been literally eating Cadbury cream eggs and laying in bed...no consistent workout, eating crap all the time....I think that's a pretty real distraction. Now hating my body and how I look is another big distraction from building my life. I can only think that focusing on holding a healthier lifestyle right now, and integrating meditation into that, is where I should start. My job is crazy demanding and high pressure (I work in medical sales), so I'm on the road a lot with an unpredictable schedule and this has been my reason and excuse. Heres what I'm going to do. I'm going to make a soup today, and eat a lot of it. Eliminate caffeine which is going to hurt my soul and give me temporary headaches. I'm going to buy a scale. I'm going to work out at least half an hour every morning, 15 mins of cardio 15 mins of something else. Every day before I leave the house for any reason (which is very hard when I have to leave at 5:30 some days). No alcohol except on the weekend with my bf if we want a beer. That's where I will start. But then my brain says "start tomorrow, you already had a cream egg for breakfast, just stay in bed today" and "you have tried this a hundred times before. What's different now? Nothing. Get ready to fail yet again". I sometiems wonder if me trying to lose weight hundreds of times over the years has eroded my belief in my ability to do so. I don't know HOW to do the inner work to fix it. /Tldr: @Leo Gura (I will be star struck if he replies!) and others - my question is this: how do I ACTUALLY change my negative self destructive thinking so that I can achieve the goals I want for myself? I try to meditate (and have for years) and end up downward spiraling throughout. Nothing really seems to help. I want to change careers, allow myself to be happy, and get a fit healthy body, among of course many other things. What do I actually DO to change my mindset. Just saying "change your mindset" doesn't HELP if I dont know how to actually DO that. Thanks everybody. -spin

@Echoes all that makes sense, my question is about the HOW. how exactly do I DO that?

What does that mean?

Hmm I'm reading this thread and wondering about my own negative beliefs Are about this: nothing works live tried everything losing weight is impossible without vast unsustainable effort my body is meant to be this weight, it is my set point i shouldn't have to modify my diet or lifestyle to have the body I want, it should come natural i shouldn't want my body to be different, I should accept it exactly how it is and don't try to change it, falling into the trap of marketing and media messages trying to make your body "better" is an act of self hate I should just enjoy it as it is So...now what do I do with all those limiting beliefs? Assume they are all false? I can certainly counter then as though I were giving advice to a friend. But then I basically forget like two minutes later and am back in the cycle of unawareness and replaying my Negative belief story.

Hi everybody. I just signed up for the life purpose course, after having listened to Leo's videos for probably about a year. I have a very demanding job, and it's new. I recently relocated to Chicago, from Arizona, I'm originally from Toronto. So there has been a lot of moving around, and not a ton of stability. Maybe needless to say, I'm not the best at getting things done that I start right now. However there are many areas of my life that I'm not very satisfied with. One of those things is related to the very persistent visceral reminders that I am not living in alignment with my life purpose. However, at this point I'm pretty certain I don't know what that is. So, I am here to try and figure that out. I'm here to try and focus on my personal development, and finish in that 5% that walks away with something really valuable. I think what I'm looking for is just a group of like-minded people. I feel like I need some support, to remind me what is important, and remind me why I'm continually going to have to refocus on finding with my life purpose is. Reminded me why this has to be the MOST important thing in my life right now. I've been going many many years in a circle, chasing I don't even know what, and I think if I don't nip this in the bud now, it might not ever get fixed. Nice to meet you all. spin