Revolutionary Think

I liked that response for so much. That I don't even want to give it some kind of lengthy reply. I'm just so honored that you GET IT! Usually when I'm online I find myself disagreeing with people and getting frustrated at how they just "don't get it" that's not the case with you. You actually summed it up pretty decently. What's next? Your guess is as good as mine I do have an idea though. I want to create a family of choice instead of a family of blood. Like making friends with people who share my vision and doing creative spontaneous things with them. It's like my life is a video game. When you beat a video game the replay value exists in doing the side missions and exploring the things you ignored because you were way to focused on beating it. Having that job at CLEAR was like beating the video game because I always wanted to save up a ton of money and do something I love. Now I finally have the time to think about how to create this family of choice that shares my ideas for living a free life of spontaneity and creativity. I may not get it right at first but, a lot of things are fun because when you mess up you learn along the way. I was actually a bit hesitant about putting up this post because I thought I'd come across jerks telling me that if you're so fulfilled why are you back online, no you need to do XYZ, or saying something equally as pathetic. I'm glad though that you found it and responded the way you did. It gives me hope that not everyone out there is a mindless zombie NPC with no critical thinking skill and/or a sense of nuance and I can and will run into people who I don't look down on or dissapoint me. So thanks for that my friend.

Wow my life has been a journey. When I was young I felt ignored and unheard in my family. This has lead me to seek validation from strangers. I've ended seeking validation and agreement from life in general and especially online my life has never been better and it's the ULTIMATE LIBERATION! It started after COVID most jobs that I applied to I was landing. Before in my life I had trouble with my job search so this lead to a lot of frustration and hate at the world and in life in general. I went online trying to spread my ideas, philosophies, and life stories everywhere. It didn't end well. I got disappointed, frustrated, angry at so many people and systems. Until the day it finally happened for me. As a young kid I always loved being around airplanes. I applied to this job at LAX with and got an airport job. I was so happy with seeing the planes take off and land and just living in the moment and enjoying my job and my sorroundings. This lead me to slowly wean off of external validation. I already had facebook deleted a long time ago. Then I got rid of Instagram, Twitter and all the other ones I can't even remember anymore. The only one I kept was YouTube and I go on there in moderation. When I finally hit a goal of having a job that was worth it and I didn't hate. Then I started realizing how much seeking validation, agreement, and want to be known online harms you and destroys your mental health. I keep certain people at an arms distance. Unfortunately I no longer have the job at the airport anymore for reasons I don't want to discuss. The old me would've probably gone into a rant of why I didn't deserve to lose it, life is unfair, screw those people etc. but, the new me knows it's a waste of time and that something better will eventually come along the way. I am so happy now that I DON'T CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ANYMORE! I know that people all look through life through their lense and their opinion of me is none of my business. When I talk to myself I get expert advice. I know it's not enlightenment but, it sure as hell fees like it. I trust a very discerning analytical voice in my mind and now that's good enough for me and I don't take a ton of things that I used to take personally, personally.

@Letho Thanks I really appreciate the reply. Well the old me was full of rage anger and hatred after my parents divorce. I also hated school as well. All I can remember when I was young when I genuinely felt happy is when me and my parents went on a trip. I remember my first time having a window seat and being happy when I looked at the ground at an altitude I thought it was so cool. I also really enjoyed the hotel and having a taxi driver come pick us up and take us to interesting places. I knew at that moment I didn't need people to judge me, evaluate me, tell me where I am in life. It was just enjoying the moment I was in. After my parents divorced for 3 years we didn't go anywhere. I was so frustrated about that. I saw my cousins and their parents that were married take them to Europe and I never got a chance to go. So this demon was created in my mind. I started getting jealous and envious and talking about how certain people did or didn't deserve certain things. Everytime I saw a rich celebrity on TV I got mad that they had so much at their disposal and I felt stuck and trapped. I wanted to become famous because I thought that I deserved it more than them. Long story short it wasn't good and I wanted poeple to "know my pain" and "help me out". I started job hunting in the recession and had trouble getting something entry level and that infuriated me. Here I was thought I deserved fame, fortune, and an audience then the reality was a place like Walgreens wasn't even hiring me. The opposite of the things I wanted for my life were happening in my life. UNTIL! Post Covid the power in the job market was shifting from the employer to the worker. I worked at this electronic store a block away from my house and this dumb interim manager made a holocaust joke in front of my face. I reported him to the owner who was Jewish from Iran and my parents are Also Iranian Jews and I'm a 1st generation Iranian Jew in the US. The owner was so pathetic that he didn't get involved. Then I quit the job and the person who hired me called and said you can always come back if you want and I said no. That was one of the best moments in my life because I was finally the one doing the rejecting (for good reason mind you) instead of being rejected. Then I told myself that I spent so much time trying to prove myself to others instead of actually listening to what I want in my own life. I literally started by cleaning up my room throwing out everything that I wasn't using, then cleaning up my digital life like deleting all the extra junk on my PC. After that I told myself if it weren't for my parents, my family, my school, my teachers, and my location what do I like. I said planes. So for no reason I went to 3 airports in my area and I just walked around I had no reason to be there other than just kind of stroll. I don't know if it was before or after I did those walks but, I booked a cruise to Alaska because I've never been on a cruise before. I had a blast. I came back and just typed LAX jobs in my computer and lo and behold a company CLEAR came up. I applied, I got the job and did really good at it. Then the revelation hit me like a ton of bricks! I saw other employees that were lazy and unreliable. That means the entire time I was having trouble landing a job in my youth had nothing to do with me and it was all just a numbers game out of my control and so much of how we talk about a meritocracy is a myth. It's very hard to say that if I didn't land this job I'd have the same outlook because maybe I'd still feel like "I never got what I deserved" and I'd still be unhappy with life. I'm still human so losing the job stung a lot I'm not going to lie about that. The thing is though in the past I'd be all mopey and angry. This time it's different because I know I can replicate what I did to get that opportunity and get another opportunity. The BEST thing that's happened to me that that I evicted this super moralizing voice in my mind that keeps comparing myself to others and talks about how they don't deserve and I deserve. Sometimes I lay in bed for hours on end but, in the past it would make me depressed becaue I thought that I was failing and I wasn't getting the life I desired. Now that I finally got to see the working world and if I'm being honest how dirty, low, and full of crap it actually is when I'm laying in bed with nothing to do I'm thankful that I don't have to worry about bills because I'm living with my mom and a voice doesn't come in that wants success fame fortune etc. I planned a trip to Singapore for March. I am going to use it as a mental reset point. Also now that I feel so free and liberated I tend to observe life and behavoirs more and it's fascinating. I also drive on a lot of side streets just because I can. I love being curious and spontaneous JUST BECAUSE. When I was younger I said I'll to all the fun interesting spontaneous things when I finally get "there" not realizing I was there the entire time and didn't need this arbritary BS. I've unplugged from all these idiotic societal and familial expectations and I want to live the most creative spontaneous life possible even if I'm my own audience member. I hope that helps if you have any other questions please feel free to ask.

The Jewish state was created to protect Jews from BS like this. At least be reasonable and balanced.

I'm not Israeli

My childhood was terrible so therefore no. I am taking care of the neglected inner child who I was and I'm doing a pretty good job of that.

Anyway screw the entire conflict. I'm more focused on my personal mental health at the moment.

So I couldn't help but, notice that Kamala Harris does all this pandering with celebrities all the way from Bruce Springsteen to Cardi B. That's just shallow. Isn't the whole point that Trump is a celebrity and what does being a celebrity have to do with Politics and yet the Democrats keep getting these rich out of touch celebrities to endorse them.

It's kind of sad that ever since I posted this @Leo Gura has not responded and has just continued to put tons and tons of anti-Israel bile on his blog and on his forum. I think the points I made here still stand and are important to pick apart. Ever since the worst terrorist attack and the worst attack on the Jews since the Holocaust it's just been anti-Israel hatred over and over again. I don't think that's fair and I'd expected better from someone who fancies themselves as "enlightened".

Exactly Trump's celebrity endorsements are just as stupid as Kamala's I'm against both of them.

@Leo Gura seems to have a pro-palestine bias on his blog. It's pretty gross that it's not spoken about how Palestinian children at a young age are taught hatred for Jewish people and not just Israeli's. I know there are extremist settlers in Israel and I am not defending them but, I think it's gross when you condemn and pick on one side and totally ignore what the other side is doing. Show me one instance on Israeli Television where they are glorifying the death, murder and rape etc. of not just Palestinians but, Muslims in general I'd condemn it for sure but, in Palestinian society it's par for the course and they teach it to their children. I find it creepy, disrespectful, and unfair that people are so giddy to jump on the Pro-Palestine bandwagon the minute a conflict happens in that region. It shows a lack of nuance and critical thinking skills and it's distasteful.

I'm just going to put this here.

On that note I'm not saying that I support the settlers and some of them are religious finatics. They are although a far cry from Hamas and Hezbollah that actively want the full eradication of Jews and are willing to indiscriminately target and murder civilians. If the Palestininians actively condemn the actions of Hamas and Hezbollah and want a peace with the Jewish state that they can be at peace trade with them and be civilized with them etc. I'd be more open to criticizing Israel. When I see them though doing the exact opposite and their entire culture is based on hatred and not contributing anything positive to humanity. You're damn right that I'll be supporting and backing Israel 100% of the time because the Palestinians never showed one iota of acting in good faith. Once I see good faith on the Palestinian side which doesn't even exist I'll be more open to talking about criticizing Israel but, if I don't see that I'm with Israel 100% of the way!!

I said Israel isn't perfect. Are you also willing to acknowledge injustice on your side as well. Or is this just a one track mind thing for you?

I'm sorry but, what you said doesn't make sense. Let's say there was a group in Mexico that demanded the land back that it got from the Mexican American War ok so we give them California and they use California to launch rockets and missiles at the rest of the United States. Not only that but, they get help from some Muslim country in fighting us. Then the Native Americans on their reservation start getting the idea of wanting to kill the white man and start entire education systems to educate their children to die for this cause. If you want to talk about terrible behavior Russia is also not interested in decolonizing or in this case de-sovietizing. Also if you haven't noticed Iran's government doesn't exactly represent their people they way they torture and kill all those who speak out against them. I'm wondering if on your blog right after 9/11 twin tower attacks that you'd actually put on documentaries on how bad and evil America is and that Bin Laden was justified because we're not interested in giving land back to the Native Americans that we stole from. Then you would say America deserves it because we're not interested in decolonizing and all the US bases we have overseas are a colonization project at that time you'd put stuff highly critical of the US right after 9/11. I'm not saying Israel is perfect far from it. Yet, when we live in a world where we see so many people in Iran rising up against their own government and their government using the blood sweat and tears of the Iranian people to fund a cause that they shouldn't even be a part of in the first place... We critize a teeny tiny state the size of New Jersey for oppressing people and having too much land. I'm sorry I'm not buying it. When there is so much corruption, and devilry all around the world they first target that people love to hate is the only Jewish state. To me at least be fair. I think this obsession is because Israel tends to end up in the news a lot and then people laser focus on one of the tiniest countries as the source of so many problems. Far be it from me to say that they are perfect. Although I think there are so many other countries acting far more nasty and cruel to their own populations with a history of far more brutality and barbarity and yet people LOVE to pick on Israel.

What country wasn't? The United States, Canada, and Mexico all hurt their indigenous populations.

So let's keep working on that hypothetical. Let's say you give money back to the bank in 2005 and the bank used that money to buy rockets, rape your cousins, and murder your children and parents. I wouldn't trust that bank. Also the minute you were born the bank got a bunch of it's banker buddies together and tried to kill you immediately and you protected yourself in self defense. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Israeli_disengagement_from_the_Gaza_Strip#:~:text=The disengagement plan was implemented,the August 15%2C 2005 deadline.

@Scholar At 2:56:56 on this video he says he wishes he could go back and take out all the immaturity and other such things from his work. When I first stumbled upon him because mainstream society, the schooling system, and my family were pissing me off and getting on my nerves I was actually looking for a person who was more like me and noticed these things as well. Then I found him and enjoyed what he had to offer but, every time he'd use insults and profanity I was saying to myself that something wasn't right and it turned me off. Fast forward to Today I think in the past if he was challenged or disagreed with before he would double down and start attacking people for being foolish, not enlightened etc. Now though I can see the difference he was open to another point of view and didn't get mad and use insults. All other poeple I've seen with big positions of power and large followings always get defensive, angry, double down etc. for him to admit it's wrong and work on it to me shows true character. Cult leaders and corrupt people in general always attack and double down. People who actually care about others and try to do good take time to self reflect.

You're free to do what you want Just keep making quality content and don't underestimate the knowledge and wit of the people who are your audience. In fact in the last video I was very happy to hear you admit that underestimating us and not having respect for us is something you regret. It shows that we're all growing. Keep doing what you're doing.

I'm not wasting my breathe or rather fingers on this convo anymore. It's always a sisyphean waste of time. I just expect someone like @Leo Gura not to just look at things from one point of view but, rather multiple points of view. As for me the less I argue about Politics and the middle east the happier I am. I've come to realize when people have deep rooted biases they never ever want to change their mind or steelman an argument they are stuck in the mire of their own point of view because of childhood, personal reasons etc.

In this instance I agree with you Hamas TV is trash quality stuff through and through. This one seems like a decent documentary but, it has violent scenes in it. It's also 11 months old.

In fact Palestinians can't even get along with themselves let alone getting along with Israelis and the West.

Sure take a look at this BS. It's absolutely vomit inducing.

I don't know. Should be interesting though.

For all of you who want to actually understand at a deeper level.