Revolutionary Think

What about all the stuff about Muam and being a cult? Have you heard of it?

@ashashlov I have so much to say about this I don't know where to start. I think that no matter what happens in the begging years of our lives we're going to go through some damage (unless we're extremely lucky) whether it's physical, emotional or mental damage. Remember nobody has a say or a choice when it comes to when they are born (time period), where they are born (geographical location) and who they are born to (family, parents, culture etc.). These are all the default settings. As for young adults and kids who's brains aren't developed I tend to find it sad how I felt the opposite when I was younger. Anyway you read my other post of what I was going through when I was young so no need to repeat it here. To summarize it I saw older people around me who were supposed to know better and guide me through life actually doing the opposite and damaging me with the things that they did. The way I see young people treated sometimes these days is absolutely atrocious. Sometimes when young people are in a damaging situation with abusive parents or guardians and they bring attention to it with them all they get is more abuse. It's truly a hostage situation. From what I see Today it's very sad we have a bunch of unenlightened children ruling the world and making up the rules. Basically we have the nuts running the nut house. It's really interesting how sometimes I see it as a chain my father resented his father and I resented my father (but, I'm getting over it). The funny thing is when you draw attention to the things that are wrong and not working (which in fact I did Today) and when you open yourself up all of a sudden people's ego mechanisms dash into hyper drive. They don't want you to talk about it and they try you to immediately change the subject. Then they say that you're victimizing yourself but, in reality what you're trying to do is get to the root of what's not working so you can bring people together to address it and work on it. The people though they DON'T want that they want to shove it under a rug close their minds and pretend it doesn't exist and the more you try to expose it and bring it out into the light the more insane the people become. The more they do things like try to censor you, silence you and point fingers at you as if you're some kind of crazy pariah while ironically they are the ones that are losing their cool and can't stand to be speaking about certain things. Have any of you ever noticed that?

I did a few open mikes here and there but, nothing really stuck. Maybe I should keep at it although I really want to start a movement. I learned about this forum through a mutual friend of the JumpCut academy I bought for the $1000.

It's not exactly the approval that I search for but, for a response. For a community that thinks about what I think about but, doesn't necessarily have to agree with me. Instead we can have conversations, and debates together with being cordial. I don't search for approval I search for engagement and engaging enough people so at least my ideas and philosophies can have a positive impact on the world. So thanks for your response.

Depends on what you're trying to accomplish or what your purpose is. What kind of effort are you putting toward it?

So what made your youth so very miserable and troubled. In fact how did you unmiserable and untrouble yourself

Day 5: I just had two profoundly different experiences with the University I used to attend. The first experience was with a program called career connect. Woke up early no traffic heading to the Valley and finding parking easily then being driven to the place we were going to have the orientation. My favorite part of the whole thing wasn't exactly the orientation but, it was the ride there. Being in the shuttle going down the freeway and while others were talking to people I mostly sat there silent staring out the window and looking up at the clouds. It reminded me of simpler times when my parents would drive me places and I'd sit in the car just not saying anything and just staring out the window. Those were some of the fondest memories I'd had of my youth. The best of the best was looking out a planes window and just admiring a birds eye view. So as I sat there we arrived at our destination got to say hi to all the people working there and got to know the inner workings of the cruise line they worked for. I also had a really friendly chat with a person who worked there and we kind of got to know each other. I had no problem speaking and socializing. I shared with him stories about my travels and it related to the industry to since it was cruise ships and that's about hospitality. Then on the shuttle ride back I felt the same way just looking out the window and enjoying that view. Today on the other hand the experience wasn't exactly that great. I went to an alumni reunion and actually the first person I talked to was a really nice lady who I had a class with and I enjoyed that class because I got to express myself. The problem was though is that I dislike these socially awkward situations. That's how the whole thing felt like though one big socially awkward situation. In situations like that I kind of retreat into my own thoughts especially when there are people there that I hardly know. It had some good moments but, not exactly that many. I had expectations for the event but, all and all I came out of it disappointed. It was a story of other people although I wanted people to know my story and my story was that I didn't exactly have a kinship with academia or my University to begin with. So many people feel as though they have some kind of relationship with the place they graduated from. As for me I just felt kind of a sense of nothingness. I wasn't raised in the typical growing up way I just wanted to get out of anything that had to do with school ASAP and find some work. Unfortunately for me my upbringing didn't make me the most social person or the most successful because of how turbulent it was. This experience really fell flat because I figured I went through this horrendous traffic to get there, paid for the parking, and looked forward to it. At last when I finally got there just to feel socially awkward and weird in front of people who I kind of barely knew. I think to myself sometimes that I was so responsible as a young person. I may have not had the best social skills, I didn't exactly make that many friend, and I may have not gone the extra mile that many times in my life ON THE OTHER HAND I was responsible. I did what I was told when I was younger. I finished my assignments, I came early and on time to classes, I got my work finished on time and sometimes even ahead of schedule. I was also well behaved and didn't start any trouble. That's why I have such a personal struggle and a very deep vomit inducing disgust with the adult world or as some people like to call it the "real" world. This world consists of things called jobs and this is when it gets real ugly. Most of these "jobs" that you will be accepted in when you're old enough to have one will be things that don't feed your passion and make you feel like an automaton. The other thing is nothing is more subjective than "getting a job" you're just a piece of paper either an "application" a "resume" or a "resume with a cover letter". I think it's so impersonal and dehumanizing. No where on those papers does it show your personality, the struggles you went through, the kind of life you had, and the passion and potential you poses. Nope your life is reduced to a piece of paper that is no longer than a page. The human element is completely missing from the equation as well when all the jobs need to be applied to online and you can't just walk in and talk to someone. Anyway I used to write stuff like this in a private journal. I think though that hopefully the majority of people on this website are cognitively complex enough to appreciate my musing and philosophies on life. Although I on the other hand need to understand one thing and it was actually good that I took that UCLA trail for the Peers program about making friends. I remember when I told the counselor that I had a long winded conversation with someone about philosophy and life but, then she told me that gets boring and it's unsustainable. She told me that friends are made by talking about common interests and my interests are video games, science, technology, chemistry, politics, geography, and travelling. That's a good piece of advice when I go too far down the rabbit hole with these philosophical excursions with others and in my writing. I'm more than happy for the entire world to be exposed to my writings and philosophies and to contemplate them once in a while. I think that's what the world needs more of what do you think @Anna Konstantaki?

@SOUL If you don't mind me asking were you always like this absolutely loving everything you do or did you learn to be like that?

So @SOUL do you do anything that brings you joy? Where you feel true happiness from doing it?

So @SOUL have you found your purpose? If you have how are you pursuing it?

@SOUL but, what about the how?

The one where I pretend to be my own twin brother? What's the name of the video?

What videos have you been watching and what do you think I should cultivate and what do you think I should do less of? Of course I'll take your opinion with a grain of salt or maybe even two grains of salt but, I think it's a good idea to know what people are thinking when they are watching to undo my own biases.

Yes I am in California specifically West LA. Also I've improved my video content a lot since I bought the JumpCut program that cost $1000 if you look at some of my old videos I'm wondering if you'd say my camera presence was as good. I'm glad that it has improved over the months and years though. Recently actually about a week ago something happened that bothered me. I was in a bootcamp for the program where if you did well you would get to get a mentor ship from the founders of the program. People told me I won and I was so happy that I won but, later it turned out that people thought I won because of a glitch and I really didn't win so I became a bit frustrated. At the time where I thought I won and people were telling me I won there was this whole shift in my brain where I thought all my dreams and goals would be accomplished because the people mentoring me who created very successful channels would be able to help me in a way that gave me that kind of recognition and my message would finally be heard and people would know about what I stand for. Anyway as bothered as I am that it feels like I have to go this alone again I'm still keeping at it and my stuff has improved. Basically @My_Name_Is_Mud my life purpose is to go "back and help out". Long time ago I was talking to a rabbi about my past and the struggles and anger in my childhood. He compared it to this there were a group of people riding on horseback to reach a certain destination but, they came across some very strong water currents. Some of them made it across and some of them couldn't make it across and they drown but, the most noble among them who made it across weren't satisfied to see their friends drowning so they went back into the currents to help the people struggling to make it across. So basically when I compare this to myself is that I was really struggling with stress and depression through my childhood. I'm glad to say that most of that is no longer with me. I'm still trying to make it across though as in do something and get to a place where I am happy, financially stable, and really enjoying life. Then when I do get there it wont be enough to know that I'm in a good place but, some young people out there are in a really crappy place and struggling just like I was. That's why I concentrate on things like the education system and divorce laws because I'm trying to help those kids "make it across" when they might be struggling with depression or even suicide. Although I'd never want to relive my past I think it's a blessing and a curse at the same time because maybe if I didn't go through all that hell when I was younger I wouldn't appreciate what I have now as much as I do and maybe I wouldn't even have the passion to help the kids who I know are in a bad situation right now. Also if you want to read more about my story you can look at the Self Actualization Journal I titled: Becoming a Hero.

I'm not even married my parents went through a divorce. Specifically it has nothing to do with the marriage and the divorce. I specifically disagree with the way in which when there are young children involved they have absolutely no representation. My story is too long to talk about now but, I felt as if I was in the middle of all the fighting and the schools, and the legal system were paying no attention to me and I didn't like how I never got any kind of counselor or therapist to talk to while it felt as if my life was falling apart. (I'm an only child mind you). If you'd like to know more you can private message me. This is the link to my YouTube channel. https://www.youtube.com/revolutionarythinking

So what are you currently working on as of now? Have you come across any roadblocks?

Glad you could chime in. The problem is though that "doing something about it" is very vague. It's not exactly that I haven't been doing anything but, what I have been doing hasn't bared that much fruit. Don't get me wrong I'm a great public speaker and an all around confident person. I've done things like go to toastmasters and talk about the education system in a speech at toastmasters. Also I went to the poetry lounge which is an open mike that poets go to in Los Angeles and I made an entire poem about my frustration with the education system and I got a standing ovation. I created my own blog and I created a YouTube page a long time ago and released one of my masterpieces. I know my talents I'm a funny, passionate and interesting guy that thinks different from other people. Now the problem with speeches is that they don't stick. As in I go I give some kind give a passionate talk about something that affects people I get people who agree and people to talk to me afterwards. Then I give some of them my contact information and they hardly ever get back to me. To create some kind of sustainable movement I need people who stick not people who just talk to me in the moment have a conversation with me and we are all happy and passionate about what we talk about then after that I never hear or see them again. That's what bothers me the most. I've also invested into myself a bit I bought an online program called JumpCut Academy that helps you realize your dreams of becoming known on YouTube and making a living from the way you monetize your idea or message. The problem is though that my message or idea isn't really as gimmicky or pop culturey as some of the other messages that will get more attention or brand deals because of it. All I know is this if I could get 5 or 6 like minded people around me and we could have a plan for social change and make a strategy on what to do with our message that would be the best but, right now I only have one other person who is helping me and that person has been my best friend since we were young in school. The other thing that I noticed is I'm good at helping people with their problems too because I tend to look at things from a rational and logical perspective and that helps people as well. I'm also glad that you put that disclaimer in because you know you don't have all the answers, I don't have all the answers, and even Leo doesn't have all the answers. This might be the case but, maybe you can be something more than that random person on the internet. If what I said here really resonated with you then we can chat in the private messaging and get to know each other a little bit more. You'll be surprised that some of my pen pals also started as random people on the internet as well. I had friends as far away as Israel, Japan, and New Zealand as just Facebook friends but, I spoke to them for so long online and got to know them so much that when I visited those countries I came to visit them. Was it a risk yes it was. Let me just say though that when I did decide to visit them I had a blast I had the best time of my life exploring their countries with them, asking them questions and getting to know them. A lot has been said that online friends aren't "real" friends but, when I went to visit my so called "online" friends they were as real and as amazing as can be. I think the most amazing thing is skype because with Skype the friends aren't just a picture and words on a screen you can see them and hear them so that makes them "real". Anyway I figure we're both here on this forum for a reason and that reason is to improve our lives in any way or form possible if you're interested in beginning a friendship let me know. It just gives me some faith in humanity that people take the time to respond and be helpful to other people. I also wanted to share this chat that I opened up on another forum about the topic of schools and happiness. http://www.sciencechatforum.com/viewtopic.php?f=10&t=32399

@Annetta what's the song about? Never heard it before.

@Leo Gura Now that we are having this conversation. (Even though I wished we could've had it earlier.) I think even in the movies and film's the hero at least makes one or two good friends that help him along his journey. Was this the same for you or did you have to go it all alone with only books, meditation, and learning good habits?

@Lorcan I'm 28 years old turning 29 in September but, me and you are on the exact same page regarding the education system. Take a look at what I wrote in my self-actualization journal Yesterday. Your entire life with this stupid system that you are in that from the beginning you're told what you can do and what you can't do. In school everything is lined up for you and put together for you and all you have to do is follow orders and if you don't follow orders you suffer the consequences. Everything is done by threat and by force like if you don't do your homework and get good grades you'll be held back in school, go to detention, or the principals office etc. After you follow all the rules all these stupid brainless idiots give you is a piece of paper and coax you to go to college. Even after you're done with College you just get a piece of paper. Then after that there is no more detention, no my principals office either. If you mess up you end up penniless and on welfare but, now there is a caveat you're just expected to know what to do with out any guidance, help, or anybody who's going to make you do something. In addition to that the job market is a gamble that you've never exactly been prepared for. Then after that it's funny how many older people I talk to and how stupid they are that this goes way over their heads. A lot of people tend to agree with what I say and support the things I want to do. The problem is that I don't know how to get people and mobilize them to really do something about this disgusting travesty. The best I ever get is a bunch of people who agree with me then make me feel good in the moment but, in the end it doesn't mean shit. I could just imagine now a child who is in elementary school exactly the way I was putting his faith in this stupid evil system doing his best in school and then when he's done he's just going to get a dumb piece of paper while the rest of the world is just waiting to eat him or her alive because the idiot school didn't prepare them for life just a bunch of random trivia. The parents and the community at large are just as stupid, ignorant, and brain dead. The just repeat the same exact shit like parrots "get an education get an education". While this child can have some really good intrinsic talents and passions that's going to waste in a shit community, ignorant parents, and a stupid excuse for an education system. Those kids are the ones I want to be a hero to.

@Salaam this is a poetry piece I did talking about the things I wanted to do with my life to become a hero.

Day 4: To some extent I'm bothered that I look at so many of these videos from Actualized.org and after that I really don't know what actions I should be taking to make the dream I envisioned for myself a reality. The good news is though that it's not all just video watching and no action I've started a meditation habit. Now I'm kinda bored when I meditate but, I just view it as an interesting time where doing nothing is the best thing you can do for yourself. I always enjoyed aviation so whenever I hear a plane or helicopter in the sky I just wish I could be there. In fact I've always fantasized about living in the sky or being a part of the sky. Living on the ground seems so bounded but, being part of the air and the sky seems so carefree and free in general. I have this symptom where I think about all the terrible things that happened to me in the past and think that the world owes me compensation for it. When I think back to how I should've had better parents and how I shouldn't have lived with my grandparents. How much my middle school was a dump and the teachers were fascist and how I didn't deserve that. How I didn't deserve to have such a bad experience in the job market and how most of the jerks never got back in touch with me to hire me. Then I at least think thank goodness I graduated with no debt and I had the chance to travel internationally. In fact after I got the chance to travel I thought to myself that's kinda like compensation for all the crap I had to go through in my past. It's still not satisfying though my mind keeps going back to those episodes where I felt betrayed by my parents and society at large and then I go on these rants in my head about how much society sucks and how I deserved so much better because I didn't break any rules and yet this big fat stupid asshole of a world treated me the way it did. I guess that's where meditation comes in so hopefully I can get rid of that part of me that just yearns for an explanation of the way I felt in my past. The best thing though about looking back at my past is that I'm happy I don't live in it anymore. I'll never be the person to look back and yearn for my childhood. It's funny how Leo talked about the earlier the midlife crisis the better. I've had an early life crisis in 5th grade when my parents divorced and I had to live with my grandparents and told myself life shouldn't be this way. I had another crisis in University where I lived with my dad and my dad told me to go live with my mom. I honestly hate it that I have to go through so much bullshit to become successful when I think to myself all the resources the country I live in has. How much money is spent on the "system" how many millions of dollars go to things like the military, the education system, and other programs etc. but, if I just had a tiny fraction of that money I'd know what do to with it and make an extraordinary life for myself and others. I have this amazing message and this amazing passion to get it out there and I'm more than willing to put the hard work into it. The problem is that the is no guide/blueprint on how to do it. That's the worst part of all. That's what would bother me so much about older people and why I'd think that these ignorant stupid morons are all full of shit. Your entire life with this stupid system that you are in that from the beginning you're told what you can do and what you can't do. In school everything is lined up for you and put together for you and all you have to do is follow orders and if you don't follow orders you suffer the consequences. Everything is done by threat and by force like if you don't do your homework and get good grades you'll be held back in school, go to detention, or the principals office etc. After you follow all the rules all these stupid brainless idiots give you is a piece of paper and coax you to go to college. Even after you're done with College you just get a piece of paper. Then after that there is no more detention, no my principals office either. If you mess up you end up penniless and on welfare but, now there is a caveat you're just expected to know what to do with out any guidance, help, or anybody who's going to make you do something. In addition to that the job market is a gamble that you've never exactly been prepared for. Then after that it's funny how many older people I talk to and how stupid they are that this goes way over their heads. A lot of people tend to agree with what I say and support the things I want to do. The problem is that I don't know how to get people and mobilize them to really do something about this disgusting travesty. The best I ever get is a bunch of people who agree with me then make me feel good in the moment but, in the end it doesn't mean shit. I could just imagine now a child who is in elementary school exactly the way I was putting his faith in this stupid evil system doing his best in school and then when he's done he's just going to get a dumb piece of paper while the rest of the world is just waiting to eat him or her alive because the idiot school didn't prepare them for life just a bunch of random trivia. The parents and the community at large are just as stupid, ignorant, and brain dead. The just repeat the same exact shit like parrots "get an education get an education". While this child can have some really good intrinsic talents and passions that's going to waste in a shit community, ignorant parents, and a stupid excuse for an education system. Those kids are the ones I want to be a hero to. This is why all the stuff that Leo says isn't counter intuitive for me. Mainstream society to me was a plague. Really ignorant people running around like ants with no purpose or passion in life. The system at large beat it out of them and replaced it with a disgusting, corrosive, and idiotic pop culture. The ignorant stupid people sometimes ironically are the antithesis of what you learn to be in school yet, they are the ones making all the money. I guess that's why there are so many few people like me throughout history that changed the direction of humanity and the world for the better. The majority of people didn't do anything and there is a slightly larger minority that did the opposite and made humanities time on the world worse. I just hope in the coming months and weeks I muster up the will power to take action to fulfill this idea to give hope to all the people out there who want to do something more with their lives and change the world. I know I have the potential I just have to find a way. I will find a way eventually it's just a matter of time and being persistent.

@Leo Gura Do you agree with Harris?

I'm starting a deep philosophical topic that anyone who had a traumatic or less than average childhood can relate to. So when all of us were first born we really came into the world with absolutely nothing and the slightest stimuli would set us off either laughing or crying for any reason or sometimes no reason at all. As time kind of passed by our society, parents, (religious institutions) and education system took hold of our psyche and our very limited understanding of the world. All depending on where and when we were born. If you think about it you really trust your parents the most and in most societies when you are under the age of 18 you are basically their hostage for better or for worse. At a very young age our parents interpret the world for us but, then more things start coming into the mix like the school that we go to. Now I'm thinking that actualization has to do with positive things and positive habits that most parents instill in their children at a very young age like being nice to people, not lying, not being mean, and being happy. As you grow older though sometimes you may go through a de-actualization process. I like to say that it starts in the education system because the education system is chock full of people with ego's in fact I think that the education system is an ego building machine. It's all about competition and one upping your fellow classmates and always getting that good grade no matter what or it goes on your record and this record represents you. For me my de-actualization process started in middle school and I could even feel that something wasn't right. My personal de-actualization process began when my parents divorced and put me in the middle of their fights. The fights would be about money and things like that. Not only was that de-actualizing but, the attitude of my middle school teachers as well. Being treated like just another number in school instead of an autonomous individual. Having teachers who hated their jobs and would announce it to the whole class. Being depressed and frustrated that what you learned in school almost had no bearing to what actually happens in the real world. Not only that is de-actualizing but, all the dogmas society puts into your head at a young age that if you don't do well in school you're basically useless as a human being and such. What is also de-actualizing is going through a culture that doesn't care about actualization and just goes through the same exact routines times and time again because of it being a "time honored tradition" even though it wasn't exactly a contemplative tradition that asked itself why it does these rituals. Then when you are in your teens and young adult years that is some serious de-actualization happening especially in the west with all the corrosive culture around you (not to mention where I live the epicenter of celebrity nonsense) everyone's role model is some rich celebrity that doesn't know what they're doing with their lives. This culture is highly competitive, materialistic, and based on what your status is. Sometimes this de-actualization leads people to pharmaceuticals, doing hard drugs, getting stuck in bad habits, and having a sense of hate and disgust for the rest of the world and humanity. I think there is a light at the end of the tunnel though. Sometimes you get older and you have the fortune (because not everyone does) of stumbling into something like this. Even if you didn't stumble upon places like actualized.org you can still be lucky enough to go through some kind of process of re-actualization and hopefully undo the de-actualization. You can do this by journaling, getting therapy, and letting go of dogmas just because you realize they are not helping you. Sometimes you re-actualize by relocating to a better place and a better community with more like minded people as well including less dogmatic more friendlier and warmer people. So what do you guys think? Keep in mind that even though I am watching Leo's content and engaging in this community I think that these de-actualizers in our life are all around us no matter how old we are and no matter where we are and the best we can all do is be vigilant about them.

@Salaam Thanks and this is a video I did on Democratic Schooling.