Revolutionary Think

@Leo Gura Is this what you mean by no free will?

This is precisely why I want to find a way to turn off my mind but, it's almost impossible. Since you're here I want to tell you about the frustrating process I go through when I lie in bed and I have one of these frustrating mind loops. I lay there in bed thinking of all the bullshit I was told when I was young. Study hard, get good grades, follow all the rules, get a degree and viola that high paying job and that reasonable life await you... Then when you grow up and you find out that these people are full of shit you want to beat the crap out of them. I think about all the jobs I applied to that were minimum wage and at my young age I could've easily done them and never got a chance to do them. I think about even now with a degree and a good amount of vocational education I still couldn't get that 3D printing job that would've made me so happy and even the crappier digital printing job that I was willing to settle for but, I didn't really want. Then I end up going in a mind loop I want to kick the world in its ass for all the BS it filled my mind with when I was young. I keep thinking to myself "you lied to me you no good son of a bitches" over and over again. Then even when I tell my mind to shut up be quiet and let me sleep I still can't stop thinking about those thoughts. I keep painting myself as this decent good guy who has been betrayed by greedy evil scumbags (even though you mentioned we're all the devil). Then I start thinking to myself did those kids at Sandy Hook deserve what they got when they were shot up with an assault rifle because a mentally deranged individual had access to those weapons then how could I be complaining about my life... but, I still complain about my life. Then it makes it worse and I think how can I live in such a sick, disgusting evil world where that is allowed to happen. As you said though it was supposed to happen because it happened. Even these mind loops I'm discussing right now might not be under my control and that's the mind fuck about these mind loops lol. If only I can end these mind loops somehow reprogram and rewire myself not to think about these things but, they are a part of my DNA that I can't seem to shed. I keep thinking of a way to get some sort of pay back for how shitty I was treated when I was younger and all the opportunities I didn't get to have because of the stupid job market. Things are improving in my life though but, somehow in my psyche I feel betrayed and feel as though I deserve some sort of compensation even though that's really a figment of my imagination and the Universe doesn't work like that. I guess the best I can do is not get frustrated at myself for having these mind loops because even my thoughts aren't mine. Maybe meditate more and understand that I'm not in charge let things happen with out an opinion. Bottom line easier said than done but, I'm so happy I have this community to share this stuff with instead of keeping it bottled up.

Ironically though doesn't that mean that enlightenment might be impossible because we don't have the free will to become enlightened due to determinism??? Since nothing is in our control...

@Leo Gura Did you ever manage to convince your mom to do some psychedelics?

Hey Leo about your recent episode I think Weird Al beat you to it.

Here's what confuses me watching Leo's latest video on psychedelics it really looks like he has a passion for coming up with ideas on how our society should be changed. I also do as well but, my ideas are different and I have some of them laid out in my blog over here http://bakshandehariel.wixsite.com/website. My question is why hasn't Leo tried to get his name out there a little more? I also am trying to do that but, it's extremely hard and in this low conscious society people tend to not pay attention to or outright ignore high conscious things. The only reason I knew about actualized.org and the YouTube channel is by random chance. I was looking for something like this for the longest time but, never knew this existed until I did. Basically my search for truth and meaning came by watching religious people debate atheists. It came from a sense of fear about what happens when people pass away/die. So I watched debates with mainly rabbis (because I'm Jewish) debate atheists. I always thought to myself if the atheists were right then that would really suck because life would be pointless. It wasn't until I saw this flyer for an Atheist Jew who died and had an NDE (Near Death Experience) that all of a sudden I was so happy and I said to myself g-d exist and there is good evil and an afterlife. I thought to myself after listening to his story it made a lot of sense and I'd become an Orthodox Jew. Now this led a to a lot of trouble in my life because as a Conservative Jew we don't restrict ourselves as much as the Orthodox ones. Then I heard that anything to do with technology, turning on a light, and driving we couldn't do on Friday nights and Saturdays in the mornings and near the evening. This was a gigantic restriction that was frustrating me but, it was extremely important in Orthodox Judaism and I couldn't see myself doing it. Anyway to wrap this up I ended up not going through with it because I just couldn't bare the brunt of all the radical changes I had to make in my life. After that I saw this thing on the internet called Jumpcut academy were they teach you how to make a living on YouTube from being a viral star. When I joined the program I wanted to introduce important life changing topics but, that didn't seem what people were interested in. I made one friend in Jumpcut academy who seemed to have a self improvement page just like I did who introduced me to the Self-Actualization videos and that's when I found this community. Finally what I saw in Leo was the middle ground I was looking for in the religious people vs. atheists debate. He wasn't as strict and dogmatic as the religious people and unlike the amazing atheist on YouTube he wasn't just saying that everything was meaningless and nonsense and their are no profound truths out there. I'm just wondering why me, Leo and the people here on Actualized.org aren't getting any attention out there in the public sphere. I'm wondering why Leo never decided to go mainstream and why he wouldn't have a voice on at least a cable channel or maybe even a local news network in Las Vegas so more people know that people like him do exist. I'm just wondering where other people who feel lost in our crazy and unconscious society who are looking for something like this will actually ever have a chance to find it.

Doesn't have to be truth just a place to find like minded people and get away from the nonsense I see on a day to day basis.

They can think what they want. It's a free country (at least where I live).

None of you might expect this coming from a guy and I've really haven't told this to anyone really except for maybe my therapist and my best friend but, yeah even at 28 years old the prospect of anything to do with sex and romance really doesn't interest me and I doubt that it ever will. When you guys think back to your preteens and early teens around I think 11, 12, and 13 did you all have the same feeling whenever you had sex education and learnt about puberty like that yuck factor. I mean when I think about it even at this age I'm almost 30 still a virgin and guess what happy to be a virgin and not ashamed. I just really think that it's just gross when I think about it. I mean the penis is a place where I pee from and it really disgusts me that it's the same place that holds the ingredients for life so to speak. I mean when I think about it I was hoping there could be a different way. It just seems like the Universe is playing a joke on us. The same place our body creates people is near (if you're a woman) and actually is (if you're a man) next to a sewage processing plant. I mean that's just messed up. It's funny when I think about how I grew up and anything to do with sex I just laughed at and saw it as some kind of joke. Then when everyone the same age as me were dating and were so interested in it I never really cared. I really just wanted friends that I could have a deep connection with and never cared about romance in any type of way at all. Maybe it has something to do with my parents divorce. It's funny this rabbi was asking me so when are you going to get married. I'm all like in a couple of years but, to tell the truth I most likely never will and don't care for it. I have bigger fish to fry. Also I'm kinda thinking to myself as crazy as this may sound that giving birth could quite possibly be an act of rape. You're really forcing existence on someone who didn't ask for it. Especially if that someone is going to suffer. For those out there saying we owe so much to our parents for giving us life I actually have a counter argument. First of all Leo says we don't even exist but, that's not my counter argument. Even if Leo is wrong and it turns out somehow we do exists think about this for a moment. We're going to end up dying anyway (unless some time in the future they come up with some special way we can be immortal) and we didn't even exist for the time that we existed I'm wondering in a million years of being non-existent that we weren't aware of were we suffering for all those years?? Anyway it feels good to put this stuff out there and be validated.

Leo said he knew some enlightened people so I'm wondering if an enlightened parent were to have a child how would that child grow up. Would that child be given a name or just told that he or she doesn't exist. Would they even want that child to have a personality or is that part of an ego. Would the child go into a meditation regiment and be told that all he or she sees around him or her is false and that they are part of a Universe where their is no such thing as good and evil. It's really got me thinking. Does anyone else have any ideas. I'm thinking most likely enlightened people would have no children because not having them puts them in a state of not existing but, ironically even having the children does the same thing. So many paradoxes in this enlightenment stuff because absolute infinity includes everything so that means we exist and we don't at the same time... This stuff is extremely confusing.

@YaNanNallari I was just responding to @Pallero who was assuming I had unresolved issues. And no this idea isn't on the forefront of my mind all the time I just wanted to get it out there because people just assume things about other people.

@Pallero Well, in my past I was really hurt by my parents divorce and the crap that happened to me as a child. I think it has nothing to do with the sex thing though. I just find it naturally gross and I'll give you an example imagine if someone felt it was amazing to blow there nose with all over your mouth and body and rub it on you. I just think semen looks too much like snot from the nose and it's made up of mucous as well I find nothing exciting about it. Also I just find it so strange that the same place we pee from as men is the same place that life comes from. I don't know it's just really weird and strange to me. Growing up though I was always different most of my peers were interested in sports and things like parties and I never was. So I think your childhood trauma thing is a plausible theory but, in this instance it doesn't apply to me.

Let's think of information as food and doing something with the information as activity of exercise. So here we have our schools filling up kids head with information to the brim but, never telling or showing them where or when to use that information in their lives. How to use the information productively or where it might benefit them. Their minds are full of Shakespeare, parabolas, literature, and polynomials. The thing that's missing is the time to actually take them out of a classroom and maybe have something like a field trip into the real world and show a person who has a job and show these kids to actually use the information in a way that actually makes a difference in their lives, brings them money, happiness and or makes the world a better place. The brain food is all there but, then the brain just keeps getting stuffed and stuffed and stuffed then the brain calories aren't burned off in a productive or helpful way. Then what we're left with is depressed kids and a high unemployment rate. ALL THANKS TO OUR IGNORANT AND INCOMPETENT EDUCATION SYSTEM!!

Here are my feelings in video form.

@Zane what kind of jobs are you searching for?

Day 8: Well I decided to make a YouTube video about my life so far to remind me of what I've been through and where I'm headed. I think in most people's lives something happens to throw off their equilibrium. These things mess up their sense of what is normal and what they are used to then things can take a turn. For instance if one's family goes from being rich to being poor the young people in the family would probably not know how to cope. Sometimes when you share some of these things with some people the ignorant ones tell you to be quiet and stop complaining and that's just life. It's only really intelligent and quality people that you can trust and share these things with and their relate to you and try to help you. In fact in a more enlightened world people would most likely try to address these things and fix these things. So I'm glad to say I made a video about those moments in my life and some scumbags gave it a thumbs down. To this day I got 4 to be exact and those people who gave those thumbs down are being a veil of anonymity. It's amazing how some people open themselves up talk about what bothers them and they are not happy and instead some people put them even more down instead of helping them up. I think those people should be avoided like the plague and are lower than pond scum. Sometimes people's true colors show themselves on the internet and those colors can be extremely ugly. So anyway hopefully in an actualized community even online people are more than trolls and imbeciles to act that way. So here is the video.

I have to admit I've been one of those people who's watched the videos and hardly done the workshops. I want to open this up to people and ask what workshops they've done and how effective have they been in your life?

@MsNobody To each their own and if you feel sex is sacred that's an opinion and I can respect that. Fortunately we live (or at least I live) in a free society where just because someone feels that they like something doesn't mean they're going to shove it down someone else's throat (except for maybe the stupid public education system that's shoved down all of our throats). Anyway you worked with CAD for three years and if you don't mind me asking were you working with it for 3D printing and getting paid for it? Also what CAD software was it I'm using Fusion 360.

Look Leo if I could live in a world where we'd just eat for taste and not for survival and in a world where we didn't shit and piss I'd opt in for that world. If I had it my way I could do all sort of things like fly and transport moleculary because that would be awesome. Shitting is quite gross but, at least it goes into the toilet and not on your hands or body. If taking a shit meant that we had to touch our own shit and rub it on ourselves before we could flush it down then I really don't know I'd probably just opt for being sedated my entire life until I eventually passed away. Sex involves another body and their "business" and that to me is kind of icky. Then again I might be childish and juvenile but, Leo I remember what you said to that guy who told you if you never tried smoking and drinking how do you know you wont like it. Then you told him if he ever tried drinking his own pee how would he like that. That argument is a far too easy one to make no? If you never tried french kissing your own dog how would you know you wouldn't like it? If you never tried running naked in Antarctica in subzero temperature how would you know you wont like it etc. Think of the implications of this though. If there are tons of people like me who don't care about romance and sex think of all the other amazing things we could be spending our time and energy on. Chasing after scientific pursuits and creating really amazing art. In fact I got involved with 3D printing and I've become addicted to designing things in CAD software. I also love using my 3D pen to create things. Once I start it's very hard for me to stop.

@Markus Ya I guess as pragmatic things go nothing much. Just wanted people to know that people like us actually exist. I guess what I really wanted was a feeling of people acknowledging my position. I talked to my professor about asexuality and I said it's not like people discriminate because people are asexual it's just that people ignore them. Then my professor said well some would say ignoring people IS a form of discrimination. So I guess it's not so much the topic itself that I want feedback on but, just to make the issue visible so people know that it's a possibility and they don't jump to conclusions and make assumptions. On a separate note I feel like that Today the voices of reason and centrality are being marginalized, while the voices of others who are highly partisan and dogmatic are being amplified. Take for instance the 2016 election I was on Trumps side but, not because I like his personality or agree with everything he said. I just thought he knew a lot about business and economics and that could help the country out. Although if you say you support a person like him people are quick to jump to conclusions and call you a racist and a sexist. Well if I had another option like if I could run for President despite my age I'd most likely tell people to vote for me instead of him. Since that wasn't the case though I just thought he could do something to help the economy and job market we found ourselves in. People make assumptions and jump to conclusions instead of taking something apart piece by piece and being mindful about it.

Alright just making sure you read the entire thing before you responded. Ya thought I'm still thinking of taking Leo's life purpose course. The problem is though that I'm worried that it's not going to provide specifics for me. What I'm trying to do right now is making big on YouTube my main purpose in life was to find a way to reform the education system. The way the education system is now doesn't really teach people life skills or how to make money. Just to repeat a bunch of information because it's on a stupid test and how to forget it the next day. So I wrote an article on what I think about the whole thing. http://bakshandehariel.wixsite.com/website/single-post/2017/01/03/Execution-of-Solutions

Seriously!? @TeamBills what you asked. What I said. So shouldn't that answer your question?? Well the answer is no. Anyway if you want to learn more check this. http://www.whatisasexuality.com/intro/

Did you even listen to what I said? This isn't a problem it's an orientation. I'm asexual and have no problem with it. I just wanted to get people's philosophical insights on what they think about the way I feel. This isn't a problem to be solved. It's the way I feel and I have no problem with it.

I came across this video online and he comes up with proofs for how the Torah and Judaism are true. Anyone care to debunk this?

If someone can respond with something debunking him I'll email it to him and let's see if he stops these kinds of fear mongering productions.