Revolutionary Think

Day 9: Well it seems like their true colors presented themselves after Leo talked about spiral dynamics. Very often on the internet I felt that a special type of person was missing and that person @Leo Gura is the one who made this community. After all the debates that I watched between religious people and atheists constantly attacking one another I felt lost and alone. I was always wondering what the truth was what happens after death. Does anything in this world that we do actually count or is it all just meaningless in the end. Watching a bunch of debates between stage Blue and stage Orange wasn't going to solve that dilemma. If blue was right I had to live a life of neurosis constantly worrying about my every step if I didn't please the one true god. If Orange was right then it was still depressing to think that it's all just a meaningless existence and if you're in dire straits you could end up with no one caring about you or thinking about you and then disappearing into the ether as if it was all just one big scam. I am glad I came across this community and I'm glad we seem to be living in a world where stage Orange will eventually turn into the other ones and I can be on the vanguard of that world. In other news things are improving exponentially in my life and I welcome the future with open arms. My torture is slowly coming to an end and slowly but, surely I will have a voice and my story will be known to others who will have the same struggles I did and I can help those others. I'm looking forward to embracing a new paradigm.

Hi Everyone, This community seems like a great place for me to unleash my full potential so with that being said I'd like to open up to everyone and I have nothing to hide either. So growing up in a place like Beverly Hills in a high rise seemed like a good enough kind of life for me when my parents were married. Young doing my homework and playing video games with out a care in the world. UNTIL one day my parents got a divorced and that's when all the pain and suffering started. My parents were fighting a civil war 2 factions (families) that hated each other basically and I was unfortunately in the middle of the war that I never signed up for. To make matters worse middle school was a complete hell hole the students were OK but, the school was extremely boring and felt like a prison. Some of the teachers there were also a bunch of slave driving fascist. There was a point though in 8th grade where we had a community and we brought up things that would bother us and what we'd want to talk about. I talked about my frustration with the school how boring it was and how uninspiring the teachers were and I had my fellow classmates clap and cheer me on. It was at that point even though I was shy, reserved and kept to myself I knew though that I had a passion for public speaking. If there is one thing I'm not scared of it's giving my opinion and letting my feelings be known. So as time passed by in my life I knew that something was fishy about older people. The world is such a big, amazing, fascinating, and interesting place yet older people are stuck. Their lives seemed so boring and meaningless. Also they told me that I would look back on my life and enjoy when I was younger. Nothing could be further from the truth being young was a prison sentence I was basically at the mercy of societies stupidity. Any stupid idea, law, or practice that older people came up with younger people had to be the victim whether they liked it or not (e.g our stupid education system, and our divorce laws). To this day I think the education system is a government enforced scam. I was always wondering why we never learn about really important things that's going to help us when we get older but, instead we learn about stupid shit that we can use on a TV game show. Then when you tell the "older" people in your life why they're wasting your life on stupid shit like what happened in medieval Europe they tell you that you need that information. The worst part of it is that your parents aren't even on your side they believe the system even tough the same exact system has made them miserable they believe that it'll work for you. The system all went to crap for my generation during the 08 financial crisis/meltdown. For me I wanted to be out of the soul sucking education system as fast as possible but, unfortunately during Community College is when the crisis happened so no matter how much I worked with the career center to find a job all that time and effort I put into it didn't work. I also realized that the stupid system I'm in is working against me rather then with me. Growing up it always felt like I was living in a bizzaro world. The people you trust to help you in life and guide you like your family and your education system are the same exact institutions that are sabotaging your life and making you feel miserable. The only solace I got from all of this was video games where I can escape to another world and not have to care about the stupidity and ignorance of this one. I would escape to video games because I couldn't trust people they just didn't get "it". Now with actualized.org and Leo I think I've found you people who get "it". So basically after I graduated University with a Degree in Communication Studies I worked for my uncle in a factory where I was basically doing customer service. At first the job was interesting and later it sort of bored me to death and I felt like a robot. I knew I had passion for changing things in the world but, I never really knew how I could let it out there. No strategy guide or help from people. Now what would make me happy is video games that made me feel like a hero. Especially video games where I took down a dictator that was oppressing the people. Right now though I think that the education system is oppressing young people and destroying their dreams like it did with me. So that's why I decided to dedicate most of my time to creating a blog and a YouTube page that shines light on this subject. I successfully made it on a podcast talking about this problem and even opened up a petition to do something about it. https://www.change.org/p/betsy-devos-bring-mentors-to-high-schools-to-help-students Sometimes I have these fantastic amazing ideas jumping into my head but, don't know what to do with them and have no one to share them with. I'm really glad I found this community and I look forward to getting to know all of you and unleashing our full potential.

Near the last part of this he talks about what the ego is and does

@phoenix666 Interesting ya I know that on an intellectual level but, I'm still human so I still have things that bother me. What gave you the idea of doing the MDMA and where did you get it?

@MisterMan I think you mean says the problems. If there weren't any problems there wouldn't be an ego there would just be what is.

The bad side of blue that makes a Jewish Rabbi into an anti-semite WOW.

@Leo Gura agreed nationalism is an illusion of the ego. It's created by people the ground doesn't have a name it's humans that say this/that soil is ours etc.

Nice new quote Leo what made you change it from the Socrates one?

Sometimes they use science to back themselves up.

No problem.

The question of no destiny and consciously creating your future. Skip to 23:40

@Leo Gura I think for your next topic maybe you should talk about the same things Dr. Joe Dispenza is talking about. He seems to be onto something here. Healing yourself by the power of thought alone. Letting go of past negativity.

I do it for about 10 minutes hardly feel anything but, I get the urges to yawn and stretch often.

I got the same exact problem I hate small talk. I found this article that I can relate to a lot. https://www.elitedaily.com/life/why-you-hate-small-talk/1461552

This post is for @Leo Gura and anyone else who has read the authentic happiness book. I just got it Today any major chapters that I should be seeking specific attention to?

So I was thinking ego sucks because ego gives you expectations and when those expectations aren't met you feel some suffering. The thing is thought that even when Leo said he had an enlightenment experience (at least came close) he said that even after that there were still things that "peeved" him. That's what bothers me what's the point of getting enlightened if you can still feel the emotions of pain, suffering, and hurt. That kind of sucks. Also what's the difference between ego loss and Alzheimer disease like losing your memory. If you lost all your memory forgot your name and everything you went through in life is that also like ego loss or is that different. Without an ego too isn't a life purpose also attached to an ego or are the two mutually exclusive?

Interesting. My main goal is not to suffer things.

To anyone like me who struggles with negative thought loops. This video seems like it's a great help and explanation of how to get out.

I'm talking about autism not being a problem. The problem is societies attitudes towards autism.

Can someone autistic still self actualize and become enlightened?

Why aren't more people bringing this up in the public sphere?

@Leo Gura I'm in Los Angeles near the Century City shopping mall. It'd be pretty cool to hang out with you.