For the 2: I believe this is what happens in yourself. First, your body-intelligence, insticts, your guts tells you that "The thing you are doing right now buddy, is not right. You will die alone. Go and have someone that covers your back". Now this is good. It is healthy. You don't want to die alone right ? Then your Ego, your thinking mind tries to inject the thoughts: "Fuck it, I don't need anyone. I can do everything by myself. Fck relationships ".
NOW. The key factor is Balance my friend. I believe if you putting so much emphasis on one hand of the Counter , you will become unbalanced and sick. Well.. how to balance ? Try to listen your body.
Beware, I am not the expert at this. Just some food for thoughts.
Mehmet Ali