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@Christer you present a very interesting question. "Now you see it, now you don't" - Alan watts God is always playing hide and seek with itself While I don't believe that you can lose progress in the highest picture, I certainly do believe that you can have moments in your life where you are less connected to spirit. I also believe that you can feel this internally. It's like a compass. Looking back at my own experience 6 years ago as an18 year old I was more elevated spiritually than I am at this particular point in time. I did not know what spirituality was about, and I had no experience with it. I had frequent lucid dreams, the sight of nature could absolutely enthrall me, and I had this fundamental attitude about life that everything will be fine. I remember moments where I was just sitting in my room contemplating life, and I was overwhelmed by gratitude. I also remember one night where I was looking at my parents and I suddenly felt this incredible love towards them. Don't get me wrong, I have always loved my parents, but this was different. It was existential. It still puzzles me to this day why it was so much stronger than usual. Anyways, I went for walk that night and I had my first satori experience. I saw that reality is absolute love, god is real, and that I am all of it. everything changed from there. I started reading about spirituality, got lost in concepts, and that connection I felt was soon gone. Sure, I have grown a lot since then, but I don’t feel the same connection as I did years ago. I am more lost in thoughts, pessimistic and so forth. Maybe it's a part of the path? I am sure it is. I don't think the idea of getting closer to any "goal" is particularly helpful tho, just accept where you are. But I do however believe that you will have moments life where you are more conscious.

@Raptorsin7 for me it depends on the meditation technique used. I've recently had some emotional release with mantra meditation. While mindfulness in my experience is wonderful for increased presence and focus, mantra meditation has much more of a purifying effect on me. It's like my nervous system instantly knows how to ultilize the silence into some sort of release.

@Dumuzzi nice to see that you have actually gotten something good out of it Do you believe its possible to awaken Kundalini gently and slowly? If I take small steps in my spiritual practice? Also, what about psychedelics? I have read that they can trigger Kundalini awakening. I have some experience with psychedelics in the past, but never tried them when I have these symptoms. I have got my hands on some 5-meo-dmt, but I am actually more scared of the possibility of Kundalini awakening, than the drug itself.

So recently I’ve been doing 20 min sessions with mantra meditation. And yesterday, I felt a slight discomfort in my session. I started breathing a little faster than normal and I got slightly nauseous. I did not think any more about it and I went for a run. Later that night I noticed that I was still breathing a little faster than normal, and the nauseous feeling was still present. I just surrendered to the feeling and went deeper into it. And suddenly I burst into tears for no reason! I was literally curing without any particular emotion or memory. It felt like I was releasing old stuff but unable to figure out where it came from. I hope that this is a sign of healing and progress, but who knows. I know that meditation is known to surface old emotions, but wouldn’t that release normally happened in the meditation itself, not hours afterwards? Any thoughts ?

@Dumuzzi what you say about inner compulsion to follow it is very true. I been aware of that impulse within myself for a while. Its such a wierd thing. Anyways I have read a lot about the downsides to Kundalini awakening, but people never mention what benefits they have gotten form it? Sometimes i get the feeling that Kundalini really doesnt benefit people in any way, except maybe increased energy. But that people are just forced to accept their situation, and therefore it is much easier for the psyche to considered it a positive thing. And that since it is such a mysterious and "spiritual" phenomenon, it must be something valuable and good. Correct me if I am wrong In what way has Kundalini awakening been worth it to you? Do you have any real tangible benefits that you can point at ?

@Dumuzzi wow this sounds heavy. I really dont want to go down that Kundalini path. But at the same time, I dont want to give up on the benefits meditation has given me. What do you think about only meditating for like 10 minutes a day? wouldnt that be too little to awaken Kundalini?

A I N G A. pronunciation: "aiiinga". reapeat it silently in your mind. find your own rythm and play around with it. the key is effortlessness, this one should NOT be accompanied with hard focus like many other meditation practices. say it as silently as possible, but do not try to make it silent, thats effort. Let it calm down naturally. Do not bother focusing on your breath, just focus on the mantra. Ive had experiences where i completely lost tack of space and time with this teqnicue. It really does affect your mind different than mindfulness. Not saying its better, just different. Do not overdo this one tho, you can get some pretty bad headaches. I recommend no more than 30min to begin with

he gave me several. How old are you?

you could for example try out some of the trancendental meditation mantras. Ive used one of them in the past, works well. http://minet.org/www.trancenet.net/secrets/mantras.shtml As for now I am actally using a mantra i got after initiation with an enlightened master in India : ) Its wierd how I actually feel that different mantras has different effect on my body-mind. Might be all in my head, who knows

these days I do mantra meditation for about 30min once or twice a day

hey guys, When I meditate is usually have some Kundalini symptoms going on. I have jerks and spontaneous head movements. It’s been like this for about two years and I’ve gotten used to it. Yesterday though I went deeper than what i normally. do. My body forcefully wanted to lean forward into a 45-degree position, and after sitting in that position for a while, I encountered what I can only describe as an extremely intense vibrating feeling. It felt like every cell of my body was about to explode! This was way too intense for me, so I quickly got myself out of the meditative state I was in. Now, ive had virabting feelings before, but this was something else. Could it be just another Kundalini symptom? It’s kind of bothers me because I don’t want Kundalini to awaken at this point in my life. Does anyone know what this is? I’ve been meditating for 5 years and I’ve never experienced anything close to it.

Been posting about this before, but seriously... have any one else ever experienced prolonged dizziness from their meditation practice? I think I might be an odd case Basically, it feels like I am sitting in a small boat. I doesn’t just happen I meditation, but also when I am not meditating. Been struggling with this all year and after I quitted my meditation practice, I finally got better, but it lasted for weeks. I have now started again, and the same kind of dizziness is manifesting itself. I also experience spams, so does this mean that It could be something energetic going on? Some kundalini symptoms perhaps? Or could it be that my meditation practice is creating some unfortunate neuropathways in my brain, thus leading to dizziness? You know, one could always say. “Be still, keep going” But the problem is that this dizziness is interfering with my studies. It makes it harder to read. Done a lot of medical tests as well. Everything is fine. Been meditating for 4 years. Would love to get some intelligent input on this, as it is quite annoying. And tbh, a little scary. Thx <3

@Hellspeed thanks for your elaboration. My problem now is that I am dizzy 24/7, not only in meditation. It is now 5 days since my last meditation session and the dizziness still persists. Have you also experienced this?

@Shiva interesting, sounds like you are on the right track! Was it with psychedelics? @Tony 845 I had my sober awakening 4 years ago, it was life changing. fall asleep again after a few minutes. I dont think my nervous sytem was ready to embody it. I had no prior spiritual practice. Been asleep ever since

@Hellspeedhmm, I am not sure what you mean by " awaken the limbic system»? Do you even know what it means? too me they are just words. I did some more research last night, and maybe this is a symptom of kundalini syndrome? Apparently, Enlightenment and Kundalini awakening are not the same thing, and I’m not really sure if I want the latter one to happened, as it can be really intense, disorienting and even scary. one could put it this way. Kundalini awakening is the liberation of one’s life-energy from the narrow confines imposed by fear and conditioning. It heals and enlivens the whole body with glowing vitality. It elevates one to a higher level of functioning and flow, in harmony with the universe. Enlightenment is the liberation of one’s consciousness from the narrow confines imposed by the illusions of the mind and delusions of the ego. It replaces mundane misunderstandings and false beliefs with pure awareness and true insight. It awakens one to the knowing of absolute truth, understanding the essence of all being.