I´m not sure if what I wanna talk about is exactly the same feeling as yours but I also had the experience that I just could not make myself do the things I was convinced would be good for me. Sometimes I would be very, very scared. So much that I could not possibly make myself do the things that I thought would do good to me. I guess this is the point where we need a little self-acceptance and unconditional self-love and allow us those seemingly "strange" reactions. Maybe the thing we are pursuing is - for some reason we don´t know yet - really not good for us or we are somehow not yet "ready" to do it. Or our minds and bodies just need some time to shift - and we have to be patient and try the thing we want again and again until we stop "backsliding" and the limits of what we can bear extend.
