Ananta

I agree with you.? The white shirt usually looks like it needs ironed.

Good luck with that.

I'm being 100% serious actually. Why would you want one? You Said you're helpless. It was just a thought, since you say you can't work on yourself and no women like you. You could just buy a partner. Why not? Sounds like a perfect solution to your problem to me! Guess you'd rather be alone.

Consider a mail order bride. They have them in various countries.

No, I actually don't, but it's not what I think that matters. It's what you think. I also don't hate you. Not gonna lie, I get pissed at ppl, but I don't think I actually hate anyone. What I do hate is when ppl act helpless. It drives me nuts. So, I might hate the behavior, but not the person.

@Blackhawk Fine, back to the psychology of just agreeing with you. You suck and your worthless.... Now what? But, I have a feeling you really love the back/forth argument of "get some help", "no, I'm hopeless, worthless, etc"...."no your not", "yes, I am"..."no, your not".....ad nauseum.

Looks like I hit a nerve...good. You haven't tried any "real" help in at least 5 years, maybe longer... I get that your issues are severe, that's why you need professional help!

You have been saying this ^, since I got to this forum in 2017!!! Time to look in the mirror and really be honest if you're putting your best foot forward in trying to help yourself. No one here can do it for you.

Damn, it seems you use this forum like a dating app. ?

@Blackhawk All you use to do was ask for advice/help, but then you never took any of the advice and it pissed ppl off, because it became clear you just had a victim mentality and just wanted to complain, but with an audience that would feel sorry for you. So, your new tactic is to still post the same stuff within your threads, but first saying that you're "venting" or something like it and saying you "don't want advice", so that you can say what you just did if your called out. If that's truly the case, then post in a journal and ask for no comments/replies to that journal. Otherwise, I call bullshit. My biggest gripe with you is that you do nothing to help yourself, but complain that your situation hasn't improved. It's not going to improve, because you have communication/social anxiety issues your not working on. Also, you can take my posts as me "hating you" (childish) or as constructive criticism. Your choice.

Okay. I'll play along. You suck and your worthless....Now what? You don't want help from ppl, therapy or medication (that's been proven time and time again). You aren't interested in any self improvement or ways to change, because you say you can't/won't, whatever. Basically, for years now (this and your other prior account) you just moan, groan and gripe about how bad you suck, with absolutely no interest in self-improvement. To be honest, that's fine, don't, it only hurts you, but WHY come on here and waste people's time? Alot of these ppl haven't followed you and don't realize they are wasting their time...until they they've wasted their time. It's really not fair to them, because all you want is for someone to agree with you and say you are a complete waste of a human, so you can victimize yourself. Which of course isn't true, but you are convinced and can not be, not convinced, so maybe everyone should play along, because for YEARS ppl have tried to uplift you and give you advice (you never take it) and if anything you've gotten worse!

Only problem with this is that one has to first have the knowledge that the choice exists AND the Self-realization to make it happen.?

Or this...

2 min 43 sec video, but the key is to do Self-inquiry. You can look up other Self-inquiry vids by Swami sarvapriyananda, if interested.

Hi, Lets break this down a bit. "You" in the first sentence are awareness (or consciousness, etc) thinking you're a human, because "you" are awareness plus (+) a body/mind. Another way to put it is that he is saying awareness/consciousness is entangled with a body/mind object that it thinks it is! Or you could say that the body/mind is superimposed upon awareness/consciousness. Either way, "you" (awareness) think you are just a human. For the second sentence I presume he means that since awareness is identified as a body/mind and has forgotten its true nature (as awareness), then thoughts are mostly limited to the well being of this particular body/mind and not universal love which encompasses all, such as the love of God. Just my take on it.

Yep, so, if one fights the illness or doesn't fight the illness is also 100% God's will. It just doesn't "feel" like God's will. It "feels" like your will.

What can lead to suicidal ideation is catastrophic thinking. Ruminating over thoughts that lead to more and more catastrophic thoughts that things are so bad that the only way to make it stop is suicide. That's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you can't stop this thinking on your own, then get help. When you do make sure the person your speaking to knows 1) that your serious and 2) you need help now!

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Thanks, here's a pic right after I got it done, so it's still a little pink, lol.

My last tattoo was of a tribal style lotus flower and Om symbol ? on my ankle. This is the pic I took to the artist of the flower.

Sounds lovely, have fun.

I left for 3 months. I just came back today. well, right now actually. Needed a break after some 3,500 posts! Wasn't sure I'd come back, but here I am. ?

I'm sure you'd qualify. Good luck!

Pray...see what happens.