Ananta

The mind is assuming "it" exists. Lol

Your welcome. All language is conceptual. The reflection of awareness is anything phenomenal, anything other then pure awareness. I recommend Self- inquiry to go beyond that which is an object, including the mind itself.

Says the ego.

This is true. I'm not in the hospital anymore, but yes, many don't wash there hands. They say they don't have time. It's the ones in a hurry that won't.

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Dṛg-Dṛsya-Viveka: wisdom of the seer and the seen https://www.scienceandnonduality.com/article/dṛg-dṛsya-viveka-wisdom-of-the-seer-and-the-seen "When Awareness is realized to be the underling Reality behind all states, the world of objects are realized to be merely reflections of Awareness."

You already have a recent thread going regarding this topic. Please continue to post regarding POCD on the already established thread below-

You are correct about hand washing! (I'm an RN) In the hospital "usually" staff don't wear a mask (you are right), unless it's a respirator, to protect against TB infected patients. I've washed my hands so much over the years they have a hard time finger printing me when I start a new job, because I've worn them away. Ppl die of the flu too, but mostly the sick and elderly. Time will tell, but this sounds similar to the flu to me, as far as it causing death. Also, If you don't live in China I don't think you need to go around wearing a mask.

My opinion, this is exactly what you should do. Hard to move forward when you are always looking back. When you forgive, you forgive for you, for you to let go.

Actually, it did not. I didn't get into spirituality (started with Eckhart Tolle) until 2009.

I suppose so, although I just knew I didn't want to think of it anymore. So, it's not that I set my mind on healing. I was just done thinking about it, regardless of what could happen. It's been about 15 years now. Also, I didn't want an outside source to get me thinking about it, so I didn't go to neurologist, unless having a problem and I refused MRI's for many years (I think it was 8 yrs), hence the surprise when I finally agreed to one and was told the lesions were noticably shrinking. My doctor said she doesn't see that happen often, if at all. I will say though that what I did was risky and not for everyone, since I stopped my disease modifying meds, but to me, having to inject intramuscular every other day was a reminder I didn't want.

Lastly, look what I found from Leo- https://www.actualized.org/articles/a-rant-against-the-pickup-community

From Leo (an article and video)- https://www.actualized.org/articles/a-rant-against-the-pickup-community

https://www.medscape.com/answers/913575-165741/what-are-the-dsm-5-diagnostic-criteria-for-borderline-personality-disorder-bpd#qna The American Psychiatric Association’s Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition (DSM-5), (in the US) can give you lots of info. Here's a part on mood re: BPD "Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (eg, intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)" As to your question related to mood, maybe its both.

When you get a new computer it's like a baby until you start downloading info, then after "x" amount of years it or your "cloud" has much more data to be able to access. So, same with you, as you age the more data has downloaded for you to sort through and to figure out what you believe and don't believe, what you like and don't like, etc. Spirituality is seeing through all of this conditioning.

This thread has gone on ad nauseam. Time to lock it up.

Lol, no, but thanks.

I was diagnosed in 1991 (21 years old), so at first I was scared to death and had a lot of issues with it, etc. Even went on disability for 10+ years. One day I decided to not think about it anymore and have a positive outlook about it. I even stopped my disease modifying injection. I was sick and tired of it all. So, that's what I did and I got better over time, with less and less disease relapse and now rarely anything. I even went to nursing school and have been working ever since. I can't explain it more than I have, but that's what's happened.

Doesn't sound like Bipolar, but could possibly be- Borderline Personality disorder- "A characteristic of this mental illness is sudden, intense shifts in mood - such as anxious to angry, or depressed to anxious - usually without the extreme highs seen in bipolar disorder. These are often "triggered" by what seem like ordinary interactions with other people. " What some don't realize is that you have to have had at least one documented episode of hypomania or mania, that lasted several days minimum (usually weeks), to even be considered Bipolar I or Bipolar II. Trouble is, many don't recognize the symptoms of hypomania. Mania on the other hand, is more severe, therefore often noticeable.

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@Spaceofawareness Nice post! To me, ego does exist, but it's not real, its illusion, but I've loosened up a bit about expecting others to say it just like I would say it. Also, I only mean it exists in the sense that its experienced, but it's not a separate, volitional entity. It is like you said, more a collection of thoughts, memories, feelings, etc. that points to a little "me" or small self as being real...but, that's all a trick like you said.

I thought maybe "thought stopping" techniques would help, so looked on the internet and this is just one website of many. https://www.verywellmind.com/stop-technique-2671653 I don't know if it will help, but I also thought maybe antipsychotics would help. Just an idea, since your desperate. You would have to talk to a psychiatrist about it. This too shall pass hang in there!❤

"The consciousness in you and the consciousness in me, apparently two, really one, seek unity and that is love." Nisargadatta Maharaj (I Am That) Love You❤

@VeganAwake Nice video and quotes, thanks for posting.