Ananta

That's hilarious?

Sorry to hear about this, its sounds like you are trying so hard too. ? Sometimes we have challenges that we just can't do much about, except roll with the punches. My career has been a major challenge also. I'm an RN. I couldn't hang with being a hospital bedside nurse. It was just too damn hard, so went into home health. Anyways, I feel for you. When I was at a college in the nursing program ppl were dropping like flies (getting kicked out) like crazy. Started with 43 and 2 yrs later there were 11 left. One lost her mind when it happened to her, she started stripping at a club and doing hard drugs. She died of a heroin OD 1 year later. So, sad because she allowed it to completely destroy her. You have gotten pretty damn far education wise (in a masters degree program) to just give up. Keep fighting, if it's what you want to do. Keep searching for ways to help yourself improve. I know nothing about that career, so can't help with specific ideas, sorry. However, I am curious, when you say this- "Even at the hospitals I volunteered, they thought that I've was becoming a liability to the patients I was assigned to help." Why did they say this? Perhaps it will give some insight to a behavior that needs tweaked? And this- "I've already been rejected by several jobs that I just recently applied for." Do you think it's your resume? Or a behavior ppl are seeing? I honestly am only asking to see if I can help. If you don't want to explore it, then I understand.

Jealously

Nameste?

Yes and no Yes, because all there is, is you. No, because dreams are illusions in the mind that occur during what we call sleep, so there is no conscious thinking. No, you didn't, because you didn't consciously choose to cheat and sleep with another woman, even if it feels like you did. When I was a kid I was plagued with terrible nightmares and occasionally woke up screaming. I definitely didn't choose those dreams.

Today is one week. My official weigh in and I lost 4 1/2 lbs this week. I'm sure you can't lose more then 3 lbs fat, so the rest must be water?? I was successful at cutting out sweets and junk for the most part, etc. This IF is super easy and once I got over being ill from the diet change it's been all good. I'd say I eat 1/2 normal foods and 1/2 salads and other veggies. I try to eat them together at my 2 meals. Also, portion control of course with my normal foods. Thanks for the help and motivation everyone!?

@iKokomo To get over nervousness picture your audience naked. At least that's what my public speaking teacher told us when I was in college. Lol. Didn't help me much though, because I'd forget to do it.? Anyways, ppl always sound more interesting if you talk like you're telling a story, if the material allows or stop and interject a short story or joke.

Okie dokie, was just trying to help ya out with this- " I have been rejected like 200-300 times so far." But, guess your happy with it.?

To clarify, I'm not saying anyone should do this, in any absolute way. I think I made my point pretty clear that I'm just saying it might increase the chance of a woman responding positively and therefore increase the odds of success, but do what you want. Doesn't matter to me.

Hm, that's what I use to think about cigarettes and vaping, until I realized it was killing me and it was just the addiction talking.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/dating-and-mating/201606/should-you-date-out-your-league

No, just ego wanted itself to die, so it didn't suffer anymore . ...6 months later I found Eckhart Tolle.

If you can do 20, maybe you don't really need it?

Thanks, I didn't, haha Someone brought in cupcakes to work today and left them out on our main table all damn day long. I didn't touch them, but damn, I love pastries, hehe

Sorry, but I don't know what a T- break is? Hehe. Do your eyes get a bit blood shot and slanty too?

He had a few posts after this thread on different threads. They are hidden. Try not to worry and distract from your own inner work.

Hm, another issue Arc is your weed usage. Many ppl can tell if someone's high and it's not attractive. Sorta like when a drunk hits on you. You just wanna tell em' to go pound salt. My parents smoked pot my entire childhood. No one can try to say they aren't high around me, if they are, cuz I'll know it.

Hostility, furious, resentment

Hate

@Hardkill There's actually 2 threads going on about this subject with him and I'm posting in both currently, lol. In the other thread I just recommended he experiment and hit on 1/2 of the woman in the 40 year old group and the other 1/2 woman 20+, since age is a thing with him. He can see if he gets more success with one group over the other, or not. Anyways, posting in both threads is making me dizzy. So, I will probably just post on the other thread now.

Ok, I got it, instead of always hitting on youngens, maybe split up your approaching. 1/2 the time woman at least 40 (your age) and the other 1/2 youngens 20+. See if you have more success with one group over the other.

Because this is real life and not a story book. I'm just keepin' it real. Sure, ask out whomever you'd like. I was just trying to give him advice that may give more success potentially with better odds.

I was depressed and my thinking wasn't rational, so "reasons" dont make much sense and never have to anyone, because they seem trivial. It was more of feeling of "I don't want to do this anymore. I'm done. I want out" and one day I snapped.

I wasn't speaking in absolutes (wasn't meaning to at least), but you seemed to be, when you said age didn't have to do with it. It can and sometimes does. I'm not saying, then or now, that it's not done or possible (my dad married a woman 20 yrs younger), but it's not the norm, imo. Some women are even creeped out by it (ie, dont want to date someone old enough to be their dad).

That's your opinion. I can say, I was never attracted to an older guy and I dont just mean looks. I just didn't find it appealing.