Peter123

Hi guys, I am a 23 years old college student, been interested in personal development for about 4 years now and I became in love with learning. If you met me you would never assume I am fighting with the following issue. I am sitting here wondering how should I put previous 23 years of my life into few sentences and to make the point very clear. So my story is (OR the story I am telling myself?!) that I feel like I have no family whatsoever and even though I am working hard and changing things extremely slowly, this one issue is like taking pointless ten-ton bag around with me. Basically I come from a very disfunctional family, my parents hate each other (literally) and they live together (you can imagine) and my sister is long gone in a different country. As I said if you met me you would never say I deal with this issue, among people I am very social and fine, however when I come home, and not only when I come home, I can get extreme feelings of loneliness.. especially when I see all the people hanging out with family doing this and that... and even though I am working hard on my self-reliance and made significant improvement, this one is still one of my BIGGEST fears - of loneliness - because I basically have no place, no home, that if something went wrong I can safely get back to (yes, we have a house, but I feel very disconnected from my parents). I started taking life extremely seriously because I have to change it, I believe this situation can teach me something very unique and I think I deserve more from life, however I am strugling with this issue very hard. Its very hard to get the point across obviously, and as I re-read it, its like 1/1000 of what else I would like to mention too, but its extremly difficult as you can imagine. Tl,dr is that I feel strong loneliness due to disconnection with my family. I dont even know what is my question, perhaps do you have any tips on dealing with this? Thanks.

Hi Laisa, I am sorry to hear that but much respect for putting the time in and turning sh.t into something more valuable. I always look up to people who go through the-not-so-pretty-things and make it out even stronger. Maybe sometimes I just feel way too sorry for myself? I am trying to be as honest as possible with myself but its hard to say. Anyway those feelings sometimes sucks. I will check the video and I agree with your opinion on the past. All these things take time but it will be worth it. All the best to you

This is very well said thank you Loreena for helping out

Thank you guys for your words. I do not want to sound like I own world problems. There sure are people way, way worse off than I am. I pretty much made huge improvement, I, although not as specificly, but roughly know my purpose, have vision of my ideal life, know what I want.. But this is the biggest challenge for me I think right now. Also I am at home only on weekends or around holidays since I do live in student dormitory (and indeed it is super helpful), but this is one of the issues as well. I have been like this since highschool and pretty much lost every friend in my hometown so when I get there I am 90% of the time at home with parents, although its just two days I always get back with so much negativity. Its very hard to explain and I pretty much know what I need to do, it is just that these feelings of loneliness are eating me alive. I have been improving my relationship skills too - and I still have problems to connect with people on a more deeper level. It might be part of that I live in different city etc. or maybe I just tell this to myself. OH I wish I knew, theres lots to be learned. But again I feel like this disconnection from family is the bottom line here. Anyways I wont solve this here online so maybe I am just asking for advice from people who can relate - how do you cope when moments of loneliness arise. And by the way, I am not native english speaker so please apologize my grammar mistakes.