Delmo

Genius.

Okay, i dont see the solution in that. Are you saying I should ignore my sexual desires?

Funny video, but it's somehow true. Im basically seeking a GF to statsfiy my sexual desires.

I was wondering, how do "I" if possible get to fully acceptance of death. The getting old or die fast without pain I come to acceptance of that. But on the other hand the slow and painful death I resist very hard when I think about it. My whole life is based upon physical survival and avoidance of death which I found very limiting in many ways. What methods can I use to overcome this? Or is that the wrong mindset to have?

This moment is based upon the past and the future is based upon the now. So in the end i cant really controll anything (z.z) I was thinking about that too, but as far as i know, it might take from a few weeks into decades of doing that untill I'd eventually overcome it. I guess i'd better start doing it now

I feel like I'm in a deep dream but aware of it as just "Reality", and i dont want it to end , i dont want to sleep agien afraid of losing this state, but at the same time the moments feels like eternity that id never lose. Have been so long since i felt so alive. Its like i have been in a deep dream for half a year, and now im fainly aware of the dream, I dont know how to discribe it, but i do know i'm having tears in my eyes while im writing this. I just feel love and want to give love. I dont know what to do with it, but as the same time i dont want to do anything with it, just enjoy the moments .

I can resonate with that. I do also believe I had the mind awakening at first, and after a few of those experience had the awakning heart. It wasent total awakening, it lasted from a few hours to a few days. Now I'm also concerned of the delucian, that I might have been just deluding myself to believe that I had some mystical experience, that was my thought when I was experiencing the heart awakening. But at the same time everything felt "too real" that even my sensation where involved. I was also aware of the ego defence mechanism that leo talks about, that it might have been just the ego trying to take back the controll for itself. I'm guessing that I'd need alot of contemplation to try and see if I was deluded or not. Now I think about it, it sounds very complex thing to do. Anyway, thanks for sharing the video! It was enlightening.

The goal of actualized.org was and still is to increase councisness of the human beings. And spiral dynamic is just a tool to improve your councisness. That is how I view it at less. Correct me if I'm wrong @Leo Gura

@WelcometoReality yes, I couldn't distinguish from the object around me and myself. Felt very connected with everything, the air, the ground, all physical object and feelings. But I didn't totally lose the sense of self, but felt like that is what I ultimately wanted, to emerge with the ones. It felt like I could connect even deeper with everything, and that exprince was just the beginning. I don't know anything about heart awakening, i believe it relaits to chakras, but I'll look into it.

Here have some love bombs <3 <3 <3 <3

@DesertRat okay, I got it. You are saying I'm deluding myself. Thanks for your concern

I have been following actualized.org for 2-3 years by now. Watched every weeks video so far. I did try meditation and self-reflection. I took it seriously but didn't had the discipline for a meditation habit. So I did it loosely when I felt like it. I had experienced that state before, like everything looks so beautiful and it's like I'm floating around a magical world. After i experienced it a few times. I had a big egobackslash that Leo talks about. Where I went back to my gaming addiction for a few months. Now that gaming didn't felt appalling anymore. I went back and watched self-deception part 1. While I was watching it I did some self reflection on the stuff Leo talked about. While doing it I got into that state. I don't know if it was some awakening experience or am just deluding myself. I didn't lose the "I" completely, but sense of self felt very "loosely". However it might have been mania, all I know now is that it felt awesome and i'd love to go back to that state of being. I'll leave this post as a reference for my future self or others who might have found it useful.

So I'm a bit confused after finshing spiral dynamic series. I believe I'm at 30%blue 50% orange and 20% green. What is the best solution here. Should I embody orange to the fullest or green? Or just jump straight to yellow since I do have like 10% of yellow thinking. And if I do embody tear1 in the spiral, how do I go about meditation and spiritual work since they are tear 2. Should I just ignore those for now and focus on fully embody the stages below?

Hello, i dont know if i posted this in right place but let me know im new to any kind of forums. i bought this life purpose course, i got all the content exept the woorksheets and exursises. Does anyone know where i could find them? Thanks for your help!