Evilwave Heddy

So recently I've found myself addicted to one of these Facebook games(I had the app on my phone so it was just there to play). But I'd usually pop on for 15 minutes then leave it till later and pop on again..and again..and again. I did this everyday for the past week but stopped yesterday (deleted app) because of my previous experience with online games, mainly MMORPGS (Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Games). I had the struggle of giving up playing MMORPG's 2 years ago. Prior to this I had been playing them for 10 years or so. I played a majority of these games throughout the first five years but eventually stuck with one. I played this game for at least 3-6 hours daily. This for me was one of my worst habits. What was keeping me coming back to it? The sense of achievement. Being wanted/needed. I was in a clan which needed me. (as i was a pretty good healer ;)) I found myself setting new goals for myself after completing existing ones for example "Max my lvl" or "Complete every single quest". What I eventually realized was that after completing these goals I would get a minute or two of self achievement then I'd be working towards my next goal. Working my ass off for over 30 hours for 2 minutes of achievement!? Was I crazy!? Yes, but I didn't realize it. After I left my clan which I was in for approximately 3 years I found that I wasn't "needed" anymore. There was nothing I needed to come back to which made me feel...great. I still played the game by myself which I soon gave up on the more I realized the "goals" situation. 3-6 hours daily eventually turned into 1-2 hours daily which eventually turned into nothing. I basically flushed countless hours down the drain. Hours in which I could have done something more productive. D: Anyways, this app I've been playing for the past week is the same deal. I had for some reason set myself the goal of getting everything and getting max lvl. I'm sure many of you have been in similar situations? If so, how did yas overcome this habit? To add: I ask myself questions like "Why are you playing this?", "What do you hope to achieve?", "Why do you want to achieve this?".

Because you're worth it... hehehehe Anyways, what good would sticking a knife through your arm be? You'd only put yourself in pain for quite a few hours...

There is no harm in contemplating death. Everyone does it...and some people take action on it because they are weak human beings.

He has the black t-shirt in it too and a full head of hair.

Eat less calories...simple really.

Same position two years ago. Now I have a full time job and found living at home is better for saving money than moving out. I don't mind this job I have. I currently have plans to move out when I turn 30 and have enough money to move out for a year and live without living paycheck to paycheck. In that year i hope to find what I really want and really to plan for the future. Hopefully I can really grow and become waaay more independent than I already am. It get's me excited thinking about moving out and it gives me the motivation to grind my ass off for the remaining few years (until I turn 30). I'm also in a verh similar situation with my mother and father. My mother tries to constantly recommend shit to eat when i get home from work and I'm just like "yeah i dont need your help". They only care about you at the end of the day and I'm pretty sure they don't want to get news from the police that they found you hanging in some place. Anyway, I think the first step for you is that job. You need to honestly sit down for hours and get yourself a good job. From the sounds of it that job is a shit show. Leave it immediately and find another. Take a lot of time finding a job you like and you will eventually find one. (My current job isn't the greatest either, but it's something I think i can bear for another few year)

It's because you are thinking about what to talk about. You need to break out of this thought process when in conversation. I found myself a lot like this until i just started to ignore my thought process. Yes, i remained quiet as usual but the thought of "having" to say something dissapeared which made everything easier. I don't think i've improved in anyway in convo but i feel happier not worrying what to talk about.

No dude...this is part of enlightenment. You are almost there, don't give up. This will get worse over the next few weeks but it's best just to ignore it and continue your path to enlightenment. ps. Go see a doctor

@Aeris Yeah, I think "nature" is a wrong word for it.

@hikmatshiraliyev You have some explaining to do then. Good luck

You cucked yourself. She's not gonna contact him again because he told her he doesnt want to meet anymore. No, it means she's undecided about you. It takes time to develop feelings for people. Overall I think you just fucked yourself over on this one. You also called her your "ex"...but you only kissed once and you were never officially bf/gf. You have some insecurities you need to work through my friend.

Yall are a bunch of triggered nerds.

Keep jerking off, it doesn't cost you anything.

Mushrooms

"Heyyyyyyyyy, this is Leo..back from my holiday away from you sluts. I'm a crack addict now. I used all the money from selling the life purpose course to fuel my addictions. What can i say?"

You'll become a soyboy. Nobody likes a soyboy.

I always see 9:11am, it's like my sub conscious picks up on it and makes me look towards to clock/watch at that moment.

Set your long term goals, then set short term goals that you think will help you advance to your long term goal...you can even set shorter term goals to reach your short term goals. Completing these short term goals gives you that sense of accomplishment which keeps the motivation going for reaching your long term goal.

"Chemtrails" are a joke.

@Leo Gura I was beginning to question actualized.org after watching some documentary on Scientology, but hey, seems your aware of it at least....right?....please don't black mail me with my private intimate conversations! Please master!!

You could die.

Getting back into self-inquiry/mindfulness/self help. I got into it heavily about a year ago and got burnt out and took a break, but now I just need something to spark my curiosity again or some shit. Altough saying that, Leos newest video about Kriya yoga has gotten my interest and I plan on buying the book and implementing the techniques. Perhaps that's the spark I need. Maybe I just need to read more books....who knows.

I found that visiting this website (as much as I used to) wasn't doing me any favours, so I took a break from it.

Sounds to me that you miss your old self and not the old Leo. We all miss parts of ourselves from years ago.

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