Today I decided to leave my current job, work for myself and no longer working for other company as an employee. Honestly I'm really afraid, I'm scared because I don't have much money to support myself although my wife can support me but i don't want to be her responsibility if I failed on my decision. I have a good position in the company and recently I got promotion and if i leave my job I don't that much money to support me but within my state of mind I can't work properly feels much better to leave the job. From the regular basis I contemplate my death, I felt that what I'm doing now was all nonsense and it affects my work. I submitted my first resignation last month, but my boss did not accept it. Today I'm going to submit again another resignation letter because I could not work properly. I've been following Leo's videos and do meditations for 8 months straight day. Most of the people around me doesn't understand what i feel and looks I'm crazy. So I don't want to talk to them regarding about this path I'm taking because I'm just getting a mediocre information from them. Please give me an advice what should be my first Step to get into my purpose. How did you get out from the society system 9-5 job and get better?
