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I was playing piano the other day and it was really, really enjoyable, relaxing and meditative. I know how the experience can feel. If you get that from music, don't let your motivations halt you in your tracks. We all have a mixture of positive and negative motivations when we are pursuing goals. Over time your positive motivations will blossom if you are mindful about the situation. I've performed in front of a crowd and had applause and I enjoyed it, but I didn't need it. Make the applause and compliments real, instead of imaginary. Play for the love of expressing beautiful music in the world.

Hey. I use it now and again. It usually puts me into the 'doing' mode, rather than the 'being' mode. That said after my latest enlightenment experience, I've found that using it doesn't take me out of my daily heightened awareness. I have been able to re-direct the focus it brings into beingness, possibly from the additional concentration modafinil provides. A few thoughts on it: * I don't like to talk on it, I just like to get my shit done * I don't have any time for 'time-wasters', there is lessened patience, * It does help focus, but can occasionally cause that speedy agitation. (so I use half a 100mg tab) Am I sold on it? 'meh'. It's not the Limitless drug it was claimed to be. Is it useful on this path? Probably not amazing for spiritual growth, but might help you knuckle down on your life purpose.

@Pure Imagination Highly recommend: Being Human: An Entheological Guide to God, Evolution and the Fractal Energetic Nature of Reality

@Wyatt done

Fruits are amazing on psychedelics. Get your face right in there, juices sloshing everywhere. No spoon? No Problem!

Amen

@starsofclay Good luck man. I've started NoFAP about a year ago and it's been a tough journey but it has changed my life for sure. I haven't managed to kick the habits completely myself but even going for a few weeks / months at at time transforms my energy, happiness, and drive in all areas of my life.

Does that include my neurotic belief that Hell exists? Problem is, I've been there before. Robitussin DX is nasty stuff.

I'm finding it difficult to continue with my affirmations after having several awakening / enlightenment experiences. But I still try and do them because I feel like they help reprogram a better quality of 'ego mind'!

My friend and I went camping in the forest for 2 nights. The first night we "candy flipped" 200mg MDMA, then 320mg LSD 2 hours later. I was enjoying the heart opening of the MDMA and realised that I'm quite authentic in general because I don't tend to open up much more than usual on it. There's still some enjoyable body feels and conversations with my friend become additionally loving. When the LSD started kicking in, I was feeling quite unsettled. I had been contemplating Leo's video about the Paranormal. Before starting down the Actualization path I had a fear of Hell, because I was brought up in a Christian High School, and they drilled us with the consequences of not signing up to their dogma. I had been feeling quite comfortable in the knowing of God and Non-Duality but this really threw a spanner into the works and re-implanted thoughts and fears into my web of beliefs. So anyway I started freaking out a bit for the first time in a long while, even after some previously heavy trips . My friend guided me to lie down and I surrendered to the experience. The loving warmth of God started to wash away the fear and I started to calm down and relax into it. I arose 10 minutes later and proceeded to sit near the fire. For the next few hours some very interesting feelings and “knowings” started to arise. I started getting orgasmic body sensations. I was squatting in stillness near the fire trying to embed myself into the loving warmth. It was utterly orgasmic. I was literally making orgasm sounds. I felt myself sinking into nothingness over and over. I looked up at my friend and I was like “REALLY?”, “NO WAY”, he replied “I know, I KNOW”. For the next hour we literally kept repeating the same thing over and over. We were both experiencing the cosmic joke. There was this raw infinite energy just pouring out from within us. I started ripping and dropping heavy chains off myself to the floor. I was getting lighter and lighter. My awareness / consciousness was sky rocketing. I let out a primal growl and shock wave of energy exploded from within. I looked at my friend and he looked at me with a sort of sadness. He said “it’s all done”, “it’s all done”, It’s ALL done”. We were on a higher plane of existence, like how heaven would feel like. Looking him in the face, I saw myself plain as day in his eyes. It was as crystal clear as looking in the mirror. I had seen through the cosmic joke. THIS IS IT, THIS IS IT. It was the only way, the only way. I had to trick myself into believing I exist. I had to trick myself into fetching sticks and chopping wood. It was the only way, the only way. Because I am nothingness. Shit, I have awoken. I seriously couldn’t put this experience into words. I’ve experienced myself as God before on 10 grams of mushrooms. This was so different, so different. I honestly thought that I was done, that I was awake for good. That maybe that night I would just dissolve into nothingness. Of course the Ego is too sneaky for that. I am back, and I am so confused. I feel like I KNOW the truth, but it’s so, so hard to accept. I have imagined this entire reality, and now I’m typing to myself. Help…

Hey friends, I completed Leo’s Life Purpose Course around 1 year ago. At the time, I was deciding between becoming a classical Pianist, Iyengar Yoga teacher and Health coach. After many painstaking hours of rattling my brain I felt that the most appropriate life purpose was to become a Health coach because I felt like I could have a big impact on people, and I’m super passionate about it. It’s what I do every day, and what I spend all my money and time on. (Coaching/improving myself) It’s what lead me to start this journey in the beginning. I was always super curious about what methods are out there to improve my health, both physical and emotional, and now of course, spiritual. Essentially the plan was to do what I always do, use myself as a guinea pig, then report how “this or that” affected an average Joe like myself. Through YouTube or Face to Face/Skype etc. I’ve had this feeling for a while that it will evolve, from Health coach, to Life coach, to Spiritual coach. My current plan is to do the Bullet Proof Coaching certification starting this November. It's a coaching program that ties in all aspects of healing and super charging the body's mitochondria through Diet, Water, Light, EMF, Mindfulness, and all kids of different things. The company has helped me no end over the last 3 years. They are kicking one off in Australia for the first time so it has aligned nicely. Because of all my exploration into non-duality and the likes, lately I feel like my intuition is trying to tell me there is far more to healing (in all aspects) than the scientific paradigm can offer, and this has been making me question my next leap. I still feel like this will be a good stepping-stone for me even if it’s not exactly what my life purpose will be in the end. I’m not going to ask “should I do it?” because I know I’m the only one who can answer that, however certainly welcome anyone else’s insights. Cheers

@Visitor That's what I'm thinking. There are SO many techniques for healing in so many different paradigms. The current paradigm of healing i'm using costs a lot of money! New health tech to market, supplements etc! Oh my gosh there are millions of supplements! It would be fantastic to get into other paradigm's healing techniques. I feel very much drawn to it.

@Weltschmerz I've had the same issue since Leo's video. I used to be fucking scared of Hell going to a Christian High School. I've been able to put all that behind me but for some reason, probably because I trust Leo as my source of information, it really fucked me up thinking that Demons/Hell etc exist. I realise it's got nothing to do with him and just my quality of mind and web of beliefs that have re-inserted / re-surfaced this, but obviously it's difficult to deal with when you think "hey all possiblities are possible, so that means i could probably just be stuck in the hell that I keep imaging. I keep thinking i'll attract it by putting my worry and attention on it. I can't even watch Leo's video on Absolute Infinity at the moment because my anxiety has returned! I brewed some Ayhuasca the other day but it was fairly light strength. It was a really difficult mild trip because my thinking / ego brain was quite active and I kept going into negative thoughts and feelings. Every time my consciousness went into nothingness and tried to let go of my Ego to experience absolute infinity I felt myself grasping in fear of that potential evil that may await. It's fucked up because I've spent the last year getting rid of my anxiety and felt super grounded. I've been able to have many heavy trips without any issue at all as well. I'm going to trust this is part of my purification process since I had a really heavy awakening / enlightenment experience the night before that mild experience and I've been struggling living in this reality ever since. If anyone has any further techniques or advice on dealing with this it would be much appreciated.

@Principium Nexus Your words were really helpful, I appreciate it.

@Principium Nexus I have a sense of nihilism after that experience. I don't know how to continue operating as if I am a human on a planet interacting with other humans. It feels so strongly like I have created this entire perceived existence and that even evolution didn't actually manifest within nothingness, that perhaps I made up that story to give myself a perspective in which to operate as a self. Did I imagine all the Gurus of the ages, did I imagine Leo? How "real" is "mine" and "everybody elses'" existence exactly? Is "being alive" a thing? I can't tell if i'm going to deep on the questioning now, but when I was losing my mind I just could not understand how "ANYTHING" could possibly actually exist at all.

Against: William Davis - Wheat Belly David Perlmutter - Grain Brain Neutral/For: John Douillard - Eat Wheat I've read the two Against books, From experience I feel better off Wheat. I've just started reading Eat Wheat to be open minded, even though I have been quite paradigm locked in the Anti-Carb / Anti-Wheat paradigm for some time. He is making a good case about perhaps it's not so much Wheat that's the problem, but our inability to break down hard-to-digest foods & detoxify properly any longer. He goes into depth about the lymphatic system, gut health & microbiome. He believes that under certain circumstances Wheat can be quite healthy, if eaten at the right time, prepared in the right way, and using the right organic ingredients.

@sheenp24 Those guidelines are false. They exist to keep people eating sugar and vegetable oil, because it's good for business.

@Dan Arnautu Hey man. Personally, I don't buy into the grains are healthy belief. I've been off grains for 2 years and it's done wonders for my health. It's just my opinion based on my direct experience. Take it as you will PS: I don't eat foods that spike my blood sugar, hence the bias against it

Good. Your body will thank you for the intermittent fasting. Say hello to HGH, fat burning and neurogenesis. Throw out that nasty Vegemite, MSG is an excitotoxin that causes your brain cells to prematurely go through apoptosis, cell death.

Don't leave out the yolks man. Buy pasture raised eggs, and eat the yolks. They are nature's provided multivitamins, and the cholesterol will support your brain and body health. Your body creates way more cholesterol on it's own than you eat in a day. Throw out that oats shit!

The reason you crave sugar is because your body is sending signals that there is a famine. It does this when glucose in the blood surges quickly from carbohydrate intake, then drops off like a tonne of bricks. The only way to resolve your cravings is to stimulate the hormone leptin, the satiety hormone. Keeping Insulin low is the key. And how do you do that? EAT FAT. Read up on Nutritional Ketosis.

Hey! I just watched "Awareness alone is curative" again and have been thinking about it a lot. I realised that it was awareness that helped me quit smoking. I was always really aware of my coughing whilst in my yoga and meditation practice toward the end of my smoking days. I remember sitting outside my room smoking and looking at this cigarette with full awareness and just had this 'what the fuck am i doing' moment and just stubbed it out and didn't smoke again. The same thing happened with drinking, one day i just poured out my drink, an rarely touched it after that. Never really had the intention to stop drinking, it was just the awareness of how i felt each morning and how good i felt when i woke up without it. I've basically been able to remove most unwanted behaviors from my life using this awareness, but i am struggling with porn and masturbation. I have been on NoFap for around 6 months and have been reasonably successful in reducing the frequency of both. I've had some 2-5 week streaks over the duration. The last week has been one of my worst in a while (though contributed to environmental factors), and I'm questioning if I'm going about this the right way. I am being aware as best I can when my hunger takes over and I'm just off on auto pilot. I am pondering this question: (During my NoFap) Will I eventually cure my addiction If I am using awareness to dissolve the craving rather than using awareness during the act? Because awareness is really the key here for curing the unwanted behaviors, I feel like this should be a plausible alternative/addition if one can muster the will to resist whilst being aware of the craving until it subsides. At some point if my awareness is not enough to kill the craving, then I proceed to Awareness during the act. See the thing is that my life goes so much better when I am on NoFap. Despite the occasion tough craving, once It passes, the awareness of how good my life is , it's just ridiculous. I feel like this awareness of the quality of my life alone will eventually curb the cravings. What I am getting at is that I do not want to quit NoFap and just proceed with these behaviors when I feel like it because the quality of my life and health will decline so much. I want to integrate awareness and NoFap simultaneously. The one issue I have is that because I am not currently actively having sex porn and masturbation becomes the place holder, because whilst I acknowledge the addiction, it would be far less prevalent if I had a regular sex. The thing is that I'm doing NoFap because I am preparing myself for a relationship/sex as I was having some dick issues (Porn Inducted Erectile Dysfunction) etc. (Sorry if TMI :D) Any thoughts appreciated. Cheers

@Prabhaker So what would you do in my position?

Sorry, I can't find the 5-MeO-DMT mega thread. I am blind? Type and dosage. Freebase . Measured out 20mg and split with my friend. Dosage would have been around 10mg, perhaps 1 or 2 either side. Unfortunately I thought I had bought 0.000 scales but I was wrong. They were 0.00 scales. It was 3 small crystals each. It was in the Light to Moderate dosage. My Experience. Similar to DMT, shortly after taking my first hit, my world started to dissolve into white, and I didn't feel grounded anywhere particularly solid. The lights in the room got incredibly bright and became hard to focus on anything. I went back in for a further 2 hits, but didn't hold them in for too long. At this point I felt quite an enjoyable warm loving feeling emanating through my heart. I lied back and immediately started to feel my consciousness expanding and propelling me forward. My theory mind kicked in and logically I told myself, It's OK to let go. I felt a relaxation as I started to expand outward at a fast rate. Not long after this time, I felt my ego kick back in, there was a struggle of ego trying to reassert itself. A negative thought spiral proceeded for a few seconds which I felt quite fearful of (the Oh shit i've done it now feeling), but I was able to surrender again after as my awareness noticed there is no where to go, no struggle to fight, and again my body relaxed and I started to expand outward. The remainder of my experience was quite difficult. My ego continued to reassert itself every time I let go. I felt the incredibly strong distinction between mind and no mind, or duality and non-duality. Despite the struggle I just found it was perculiar the feeling of this interchanging energetic state. Opening, closing, opening closing. My eyes started flickering wildly like it would in REM sleep. The resistance was causing vibration through my body and my eyes. My ego clamped back in hard as soon as the substance starting wearing off a bit, although It had basically already done that for the most part of the experience, just temporarily letting me get a glimpse of the energetic state that could be had. When I came out of the experience, I did not feel have a sense of "that was fucking bad", it was very much "hmm that was quite the learning experience". But certainly during the experience it was not something I would call fun. My friends Experience After my experience my friend went in. When I told him about what happened, he decided to add 1 small crystal extra, which would have bumped him from about 10mg to 13mg. He did not experience any resistance, and he was not "aware of himself as Cam" like I was as "Chris". Therefore it concluded that It was "probably" a dosage issue more than a resistance problem. Neither of us are new to this and we both bring in a decent quality of mind, but I probably am a bit more logical and "thinky" than he is. So perhaps there was an element of "letting go" that he was able to do and I wasn't. My opinion is still dosage because he was launched like a rocket ship where as I felt more like a plane, the speed of my expansion didn't seem to be quite as rapid from his description. His memory of the experience was far more limited that my own. He also went through a very violent energetic release via body movement and vocalization. Conclusion. I remembered back to Leo's video where he used the HCL and said "Just get the freak out out the way with the low dosage". This was certainly a dosage that I think was a little low. It compared to when I didn't quite take enough DMT, and I'd be completely aware with ego intact, yet i'd have an incredible array of fractals spinning above my head. The feeling was not incredibly comfortable but not enough to freak me out entirely on that occasion. An hour after that experience, we increased the DMT dosage and I had a full "out of body or ego death" experience (not sure if the two are different). I, Chris, certainly were no longer present. There was an I experiencing, but It was not "me". The feeling that I have after the experience it that of incompleteness, that I didn't quite get what I was looking for. After reading every book on the market and watching every video on YouTube of 5-MeO-DMt I was expecting something really special. I decided not to go back into the experience right away (we only did it a few hours ago). I feel like Trusting that it was the experience I was meant to have, and prepare myself for another launch another day. It's funny after having a direct experience with god on 10gram mushroom a week ago, how much my Ego has concrete it self back in and now it feels like a distant dream. Question Is this quite common? Do you think it's the dosage or the resistance that didn't allow me to expand infinitely? Would you have gone back in on the same day, or given yourself a breather and fresh mind? I'm not in a hurry, there is no destination to arrive at, I just want to get a taste of the Truth sooner than later. Cheers

@pluto Changa eh? I've seen it around but haven't thought to experiment with it as yet. That is certainly an interesting concept for 5-MeO. Not too much of a fan of extra crap in my lungs though. Certainly looks like there are far more advanced implements for smoking on the market than what I am rocking.