Lorelle

I had a huge realization today. Fitting Leo's video about Fake Growth I noticed how I tricked myself the whole time. Basically I am at the same point where I was 1,5 years ago. Being honest with myself: the whole time I've done personal development, I just stuffed myself with information. The books I read: I always skipped the "digging deep exercices". I just read stuff and tried to behave that way. But I never went deep down. Now I'm not sure what to do next: I thought about reading all the books again, watching every video again and really do the freaking exercices to make REAL CHANGE. The problem here is that Leo says, that you need to get your life purpose as soon as possible. But I am afraid that this is not authentic because I tricked myself so much. So I thought about leaving the life purpose aside for a time and start from skratch again. But the life purpose would place everything into perspective and would give my life a direction and it would guide me towards the things I need to work on. So I'm not sure how to start over. What do you think?

I have a hard time finding out what impact I want to have on the world. When I am very very honest to myself, I don't care that much about other people. I do a little, because I chose to. But deep down, I don't care. I had this idea: At the moment I just want to improve myself. I think when I master my own psychology, then I will have the natural tendency to help others doing that too. I have several ideas on how I want to impact the world, but they are not really meaningful to me. It's nice, when it works, but I don't care if not. I'm not emotional about them. Do you have any advice?

I am 20 years young and all my life people told me that I am mature. That's what they see on the outside. They see that you are open for learning and deep thinking. That's kind of rare these days I knew I was ready to start again when I attracted the guys I could spend more than 3 hours with, without being bored or annoyed by their problems. Use the other sex as a reflection, on what you need to work on. Be patient. Focus on yourself.

I can tell you that it took me 1,5 years of personal development to be at the point where I am able to be in a relationship again.

@A way to Actualize Thank you! I think thats the point. When you first start that journey, you must be selfish to find out what you truly want. This is nessecary to turn off the logical, what society wants, voice in your head. But basically I started with an impact statement that means a little to me. My mind is not used to thinking in terms of "what I want to see in the world" so I start to get it used to it. Maybe the impact, I want to have will change over the time. But I need to get used to worldthinking. I appreciate you all and this forum.

Thank you guys I simply started with my life purpose. It will morph over the time anyways, so just see how it develops.

Thank you @FindingPeace. That helps me a lot.