Sheeba

So, I'm studying something at a university which probably doesn't have to do with my life purpose, and I don't know what my life purpose is. But, I'm interested in the matter which I'm studying and I find it interesting. Besides university, I'm developing myself and doing a lot of different things in life. So, is it a strategic blunder to spend 5 more years at university studying something I study only because of knowledge? I am having a dilemma because I'm not sure if those 5 years are well spent and if I can afford to spent those 5 years like that. Even intuitively I can't figure that out, do I want to spend 5 years doing that.

Bought it and I love it! I would pay 3 times the price!

Student of comparative literature while working in a vape shop 7 days a week

@Mad Max Thank you very much!

@Tron I can totally relate with you on this one and I'm in a situation right now which feels almost like yours From my perspective, there has to be an underlying reason why you want it to work out even if you logically know that it is unhealthy. You want something from that person, something like love and attention, or validation that you're worthy, or proof that you are well-composed individual who can be in a healthy relationship, or anything like that. I know that it is easy for me to say this and that you probably know this already, but on a theoretical/logical level I also know a lot of stuff on a theoretical level, but emotions and feelings prevail and I understand how irritating this ambivalence is... The only shift in me which brought me some peace considering this problem was only when I personally got sudden realisations (which are snippets) of what I was really doing and really wanting and how petty and unhealthy I am. I hope I helped even a little bit! Oh yeah, another thing: Meditate! Every day!!!

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I'm a a newbie in personal development and in last few months I have finally started to see some changes about which I have felt good and motivated and I have finally started to create things for myself and not for other people... But, after watching Leo's latest video 12 hours ago I have been ultra "depressed", unmotivated, feeling lost, feeling that anything I'm doing has no meaning at all...been feeling really petty and helpless... Even while writing this I feel like I will be interpreted in a negative manner, being called low-consciousness and a poor-little-thing searching for a quick-fix on a forum...

Haven't yet but I was searching for one a month ago and wasn't expecting any results because of country I live in. It surprised me one actually exists in my city and he has a nice looking web page. He has more than one program you can choose and I will contact him in about 2 or 3 months when I will have the money and more time. It's also nice that you can sign up for a free informational conversation/interview so he can evaluate which program will be most beneficial for you. Honestly, I don't know what should I even expect from him and he's not cheap (especially from my perspective as I'm a student with no steady income or a full time job) but I'll give it shot! If I remember this post I'll share my experience

In the ten last days I have been noticing and I have somehow "worked out" what is my monkey-mind trying to do about a certain situation. "It" is constantly trying to solve a certain solution and in every sequence of trying to solve it (which happens like 25 times a day) it's "purpose" was to quickly impose and force upon how should I definitely behave about that situation and which stance/attitude should I definitely adopt. And this is very neurotic and by my judgment so far it's not doing me anything good. So, is really the best solution to try do your best not to think anything about that situation -- because the monkey-mind is somehow encouraged by me on a subtle level with me being assured that I would solve something with...a lot of thinking? Thanks!

Should then I even pursue them and give myself into them?

Background info: 19yo male, student (first year of college, human science); have been watching Leo's videos for 2 years, doing self-actualization actively for about 3 months only (books, meditation, watching Leo's videos more seriously and not as a quick-fix); not rich intimate relationship history I'm becoming more and more aware how much my codependency is a baggage for everything I'm trying to do on a daily basis. It's a mood killer, and even when I'm trying to accept it and to be more healthy and surrendering (and not neurotic) about it, it's hard for me to grasp my higher levels of functioning. I'm in relationship (let's call it that) and I'm currently (last 10 days) having spikes of negative and petty feelings because of distance between us and lack of communication (like it used to be) through text messaging. It's not the first time I recognised it and tried to work on it and it really is going for the better comparing it to how I was feeling 6 months ago; I'm on a path which I'm feeling great about and improving day to day. I'm not impatient about getting out of codependency mindset and I'm not searching for a quick fix but rather for some useful content (books, files, videos, audios,...) which would help me do good on an identity level and mindset change. Thanks!