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That was epic ?

Do you genuinely enjoy being around others and interacting with them? If yes, then stop putting all this pressure on yourself and just enjoy your interactions. If no, realize that being Mr/Ms popular isn't going to fundamentally change anything; you'll need to change yourself for that. But the first step would be to get rid of the neediness and start taking baby steps towards improving your interpersonal skills. And merely reading about this stuff doesn't count. Take it from a long-time theory junkie- it doesn't work until you apply what you read/see. I'm an introvert, so I don't generally go out just for the sake of meeting people, but instead, for some activities, like a book club, billard with friends, volunteering, etc. That way we have something to do even if we run out of things to converse about. Find out what works for you and do it. Cheers!

Psychedelics. They work 1:1 for a very small fee.

The thing that frustrates me is when teachers say, "There is is no process to become enlightened since it isn't a destination, but the Truth of who you already are. Grasp it, Now!" And then many of them turn around and criticize anyone who advocates the use of psychedelics to explore altered states of consciousness. Well, what am I supposed to do then? I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't.

Your high yield technique is to record yourself speaking in English, review it and correct your mistakes. 2 months are more than enough for IELTS.

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Have you tried nootropics?

Leo, How has becoming conscious of Infinite Love changed your everyday spiritual practices? Has It changed them at all? One enlightened master I conversed with (who also spoke about Infinite Love) said that he weeps with tears of joy for hours and often yearns for God. Secondly, an egotistical question: How does Love change one's interpersonal relationships and the way in which they interact with others? Even if a conscious person tries to do something for the Absolute Good, others might view it as an act of arrogance/hatred and as a result, from their perspective, nothing in the relationship will have changed. Cheers!

@Leo Gura thanks for sharing your insights with us. Your point about God imagining all of Reality and imagining the past and the future is basically the Law of Attraction taken to its ultimate conclusion. Is that accurate? Since God has infinite power, it only needs to think and things gets done.

It does feel like hell. Thanks, @kieranperez for those insights. @abrakamowse very insightful. Thanks for sharing. lol

@Leo Gura please, could you elaborate a bit more on this? Last year, during my Bufo trip, after the peak subsided, the ego came back and I panicked and almost started to convulse. After watching a video recording of the trip, I was surprised at how exorcism-like it looked from a third-person perspective. I haven't experienced this on any other psychedelic or through any other spiritual practice. Is that what you actually mean?

I personally never resonated with Mooji. I have friends who do. It's okay to have preferences. It doesn't mean that you're outright rejecting the spiritual master and their teaching. Being more loving and open does not mean that you have no preferences as an individuated self.

Yes please

It's the bubble's survival strategy.

Could you please elaborate? Another Kundalini master told me that it was a result of energy blockage.

I have felt this pressure in my skull on 5-MeO and LSD before.

A very tricky subject indeed.

Among the great things which are to be found among us, the Being of Nothingness is the greatest. - Leonardo da Vinci

At a Bufo retreat last year, I met a girl who had never done psychedelics. She said that she used to do coke at parties, and that's as far as her drug experience went. After her bufo trip, she said that she felt as if every cell of her body had gotten dissolved in love, and it blew all her silly notions about love and happiness out of the water. Cocaine is an ego enhancing drug, 5-MeO is the exact opposite.

During deep sleep, the ego is fully surrendered. Ego death is a misnomer. However, there's still ignorance, since an ordinary human being doesn't have consciousness of being the witness. My two cents.

@Leo Gura what do you think about Bodhisattvas, monks/saints who (claim to) have made a vow to not attain full Enlightenment until they help every human being that they can? I'm (open-mindedly) skeptical about such claims, because I'm not sure whether a modern day Bodhisattva would want to be reborn as a monk; wouldn't they rather be someone like Sadhguru or Peter Ralston, so that they could serve others without limiting themselves to a religion or a medium of teaching.

Viel Glück

Being Mindfulness Letting go True not knowing/Emptying the cup Contemplating: Who am I?

Letting go. Being. Mindfulness. True not knowing. Asking who am I?

@Adam M Thanks for the brilliant insights. All the best for your trip!