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I would highly recommend you join several free SMART Recovery meetings. It’s very helpful for getting emotional support and helping you to reframe things and connect with others on similar journeys. It’s free, you can join via zoom. You may want to change the location distance to 1,000 miles to give you more options for online zoom meetings. visit: https://meetings.smartrecovery.org/meetings/ Sit in on one meeting give it a try 🙂 I really hope to see you there 🩷

How is this created in a human's psyche? It's relation to human nature? Is it about unresolved trauma and is it 'curable'?

@ArchangelG Thanks for suggesting Peter Ralston. Never heard of him before and like his no-nonsense sort of approach. It's also cool to find he did so many interviews with Leo which I look forward to also diving into. Thanks again

To put it briefly…Suffered a lot of trauma and found Leo's channel 6 years ago (actually saved my life) When his first enlightenment video came out, it basically shook my whole world…to the core. I have to admit these last few years I've been embracing stage Orange (materialism etc) all while keeping these challenging truths in the back of my mind. I'm finding it difficult to believe or subscribe to Stage Green… and no amount of watching leo's videos or Gaia or sage seems to quite get me there. So I feel stuck in a shallow place with no faith which has in a sense helped lead me into a bit of depression and biweekly alcohol binges. Not sure where to go from here…

Thank you, appreciate your recommendation. I actually feel I did embrace Green very much so in the past…It's dawning on me that maybe I'm in between Green and Yellow thinking I was regressing into Orange (but find no pleasure in materialism or status) in a weird space with a touch of depression, probably several unhealthy beliefs, very much a lone wolf now…starting but not finishing projects…trying to put concepts in different domains together…so I got quite the mixture going on here Anyway thanks again.

"Fuck love" is an interesting book you might enjoy…it talks about pragmatism versus emotions in regards to who you choose as a partner…

codementor.io. There's also companies like Custombuildapp that allows you to build your own app without software development skills…and for graphic design/branding Fiverr maybe? Good luck.

Used to be into tarot cards all of that classic Green stuff…and now bored with it. Not sure what's going on just makes me laugh.

I'm finding it challenging to become motivated by anything. I start projects and then get bored with it. Money and status isn't motivating. Relationships are not motivating…maybe I'm just in a depressive spell. It's challenging to find meaning. Even if it's just about having fun or evolving…it doesn't create any sort of spark in me anymore. I remember a few years ago having a reaction to materialism and thought I was transitioning into Green but I feel like I regressed.

I feel I have…it's been beneficial because I no longer have to work and there's no fulfillment with money anymore which is probably why I'm looking elsewhere… Perhaps I do need to dive more into that style of self-help. Thank you.

So a lot has happened. Basically I went out on a date ended up having sex that night and before I know it literally 2 weeks later I’m pacing back and forth at the marriage license office while this crazy dude is getting a marriage license. Before I know it I’m saying vows at some random quick wedding chapel in Vegas. There was no prenup so basically I’m a multi millionaire now. i no longer need to work and got a badass new car and a 6 karat ring ? Here’s what I’m now facing. Fucking belly of the beast. I have no excuses now I have to do my life purpose work now. my ego has been backlashing so much and I’m just trying to put myself together. what helps is visualizing and talking out loud to myself to work through some detrimental beliefs

Just a little rant that perhaps Simeone may relate to. I decided to put the gun to my head and just start my own business. It’s a media company and I’m starting with offering graphics. I need to completely build my portfolio. I do also have a demanding 9-5 marketing job. But during the time I have off of work, I’ve been working on building my portfolio. I put up a quick ad offering logos at a ridiculous low price and got 28 leads and 7 people truly interested. I’m almost complete with creating all the logos and I’ve felt a lack of respect from everyone. Perhaps it’s because I don’t have a portfolio or website up yet, perhaps because I discounted the price so low, perhaps because I didn’t ask for a deposit. I finished a logo logo and the customer was absolutely happy and excited about it. After he paid and I sent him the files, I asked for a review and we’ll i never got one- again lack of respect. I guess my rant here is I’m working my ass off creating damn high quality graphics for a insanely low price which takes up all my time outside of work and making it clear I’m doing it to build my portfolio yet these customers lack respect, leave me on read, wait forever after the project is completed to pay, don’t leave me a review when I ask and damn well deserve a good one. Im frustrated, trying to steer my mind in a positive direction and not letting it all consume me and try to keep moving forward even though it’s hard to see anything good.

Hey guys, in Leo’s video about depression he makes the case that real clinical depression is rare. I’ve been researching to try to find evidence that this is true and am unable to. Does anyone have a study or article perhaps from a doctor that backs this up? Thank you...

Yup I know it’s a shot in the dark but I was hoping someone had some sort of material I can cite ?

Like cut them up and make motivating videos featuring leo and others?

About 5 years ago I had life changing experiences that I first want to briefly share. At the time I was ‘stuck’ in an abusive relationship. Long story short I lost my mind 5 times within that year which caused trauma that I’ve since worked a lot through. It’s never happened before that and hasn’t happened since. I got out of the relationship and got myself and life together (all without medication or in-person therapy). Leo/actualized.org helped to save my life and started me on a path to a lifetime of personal development. I vividly remember ‘coming back to reality’ in desperation and terror that I’d lose my mind and in a sense—myself again. I was shaking in terror and googling for help and that’s when I found Leo’s early videos which was the only thing at the time that gave me hope for life and change. My life has dramatically changed since then. Anyway, I’m now planning to explore topics such as tarot, lucid dreaming, astrology, spirit guides and psychedelics. I think this will help me embrace more of stage green. Reading bad trip reports sort of reminds me of what it felt like to come back to reality from a psychotic episode and the terror that comes with losing your mind or being stuck in a forever hell. There have been times where I was so lost in my mind that I had an irrational belief that if I fell asleep I would die. With all this at a certain point I’ve learned to let go and surrender to ‘death’ because that was the only way to sleep and even at one point I stayed awake for 4 days until finally I surrendered. I’m curious what this will mean when trying psychedelics. With my past experiences of psychosis, I’m very familiar with the terror that comes with losing your mind or—your self and with total surrender.

Fun fact: the dispensary I go to here in Vegas is called The Source ?

Survival reproduction and evolution/growth. That is the whole point of this whole shenanigan ?

Omg this is why we’re the same everyone’s the same. So what the fuck is this presence I feel ? time to smoke some weed and ?

spir·it·u·al·i·ty /ˌspiriCHo͞oˈalədē/ Learn to pronounce noun the quality of being concerned with the human spirit or soul as opposed to material or physical things. "the shift in priorities allows us to embrace our spirituality in a more profound way" ? I see now I actually did believe matter was more important than ‘spirituality’ ie materialistic. My reasoning now makes no sense because everything is from the same source and things are just mixed differently I guess ? like ice and water and steam. Yup I have no words.

I just realized I’m linking constant to real. Interesting ?

Defining real for me gets tricky because I try to be as objective as possible and my beliefs change so much, so I can’t consider them necessarily real. I don’t personally think matter is more important than spirituality but if someone thinks that a desk is in front of them but there is no desk/matter there... i think what I’m trying to say is there are two reals ??‍♀️ Matter and beliefs

I guess it depends on what you define real as.

But for example when having a visual hallucination...isn’t that different from seeing what’s really there? ?. I’m talking physical reality not beliefs/perceptions. Or how about hearing things that are not there ? ma·te·ri·al·ism /məˈtirēəˌlizəm/ Learn to pronounce noun 1. a tendency to consider material possessions and physical comfort as more important than spiritual values. "they hated the sinful materialism of the wicked city" 2. PHILOSOPHY the doctrine that nothing exists except matter and its movements and modifications. ?

Yes I plan to start off with a mini dose. The insanity zone isn’t all that bad especially if you’ve gotten rid of religious beliefs...because having those and losing touch with reality can be a very scary experience ?. Also it naturally happens as a defense mechanism when under severe stress for too long and when I say defense I mean the mind has pleasant beliefs that are irrational to the average person to stop the pain and instead experience bliss... I’m actually excited to witness another reality and think my beliefs are primed to experience ‘truth’. I’m also looking forward to coming back and reflecting. There’s very little if not nothing.. I can’t handle and overcome ?