tashawoodfall

Just in all the different areas and ways of life.

had the best night ever...don't think i should write about it anymore lol love you guys

I learned a lot last night. I realized I was seeking validation and using sex as a way of building up my ego or self esteem. Having sex tied to my self esteem is a bad idea! lol Anyways long story short the guy it was planned with stood me up so a cop was the next plan and he didn't get off of work on time.. i woke up in the morning thirsting for that self esteem boost, hit up a few guys, looked myself in the mirror and started figuring out what was going on. I texted them never mind and had a few cool insights.

Just watched Leo's video (haven't seen it in a long time) and got so many ideas from it!! Need to watch the Dirty Talk one too and run to the store to get something he can tie me up with lol and a new lingerie outfit i'm thinking something black and sexy

well i'm gonna make a playlist tailored to this guy and go to fredericks to get something he'd probably like.

Yes!!!

@STC can you spew your negativity somewhere else. Stop following my posts. @John Flores So amazing its nice to know I'm not the only one It felt to me like a release going on in my head...like i'd figure out something and it would release the contradiction.

totally get that..i had an experience yesterday where i got super horny out of nowhere I got my toy and i had an insane amount of orgasms and the strange thing was I got insights during it...

today is wednesday so its on tonight with #3...whose extremely hot! omfg lol tonight I will be focusing on talking dirty..gonna look up some things..he mentions he likes it rough so i thought that'd be perfect. I asked him if a hickey on my neck would bother him he said no with a cute emoji

I knew that from now on I won't drink more than 2 drinks because I need to remember everything and be able to focus and learn.. So I decided I'd have sex on wednesdays and sundays. I set up my schedule to allow this. The next guy on tinder was extremely fit and his face is perfection. We set up a time for him to come over to my place on sunday. He asked for directions via text and I told him how to get to my door... I get a text from him saying "outside". I open the door and his beauty and sexiness strikes me! His smile is so genuine and I know exactly what he's thinking because I was thinking it too..."wow you're hot as fuck" This time I'm wearing a pink and black lingerie piece under my robe...the first guy got the red one.. I also made a playlist for this... I was straight up honest with this guy. I told him that I was just looking for a one time thing and in person told him I'd like to master sex. I make him a Jack on the rocks. He starts drinking it and we are both seemingly a little nervous. He's talking really fast and asking me 101 questions. I'm pretty relaxed but I was hiding the fact that my knees felt like shaking lol because he was so damn hot. We got into the topic of personal development...he mentioned enlightenment and I was shocked. I asked him if he knew the truth. We talked about it a bit. He mentions two books and it shocked me because those were the exact two books I had right next to my bed so I went into my room ro show him like tf? you just mentioned these two books I happen to have out! In my room the candles are all lit on the wall hanging decor thing above my bed...i have a condom on the dresser anyways... He starts making out with me (so sexily!) while taking off my black robe. We make out for a long time while I'm feeling his sexy muscles...his arms, lats and abs... I push him down on the bed straddle him and we make out more. I remember saying lol this is funny now "I would suck your dick right now but I'm not gonna risk my health" I direct him to the condom. He gets up my back is facing him... He jumps onto me and starts taking off the lingerie and sucking my nipples. He ends up looking deep into my eyes and then gives me a hickey on my neck and lightly grasping my throat. He starts fucking me...he turns me around and starts spanking me. During this encounter I decided to focus on my sound...specifically my moan. He pulls out and starts putting on the condom! I'm in shock! I thought he put it on! He tells me he got tested 2 months ago. He starts fucking me again...I get on top for a while finally had an orgasm..I do reverse cowgirl...he gets back on top and after sometime we have an orgasm at the same time. He goes to the bathroom. I'm extremely happy and walking him out. I give him a cold bottle of water he says I'm a really good host with a smile and then I follow him to the door. He turns around and gives me an unforgettable look...He tries to say something and then says never mind. I tell him thank you and give him one last kiss. I delete him on tinder the next day.. The song that was playing and reminds me of him: Name: Tyler

well also if it inspires other girls to get rid of their 'woman conditioning'...and be more free

you're actually not doing me any favors. You're trying to press your opinion on me without keeping an open mind here. A lot of what you write makes me think you are talking to yourself... limited experience? Who are you talking to? Little rogue opinion? Again who are you talking to? My life is not your business and your opinion is not mine... We are just in totally different head spaces so lets agree to disagree. If your intentions are good in a sense that you are trying to 'save' me from losing my value then I appreciate that

lol I don't think the world is ready for this...i'm on #3 right now but not sure yet if completely sharing is the best idea

This seems like a perfect example of what was talked about earlier of woman conditioning.

The type of man I would make my husband would be in a much higher perspective..He'd most likely be a master in sex and be mature and secure and I think he'd be really lucky to have me Interesting that value is tied in here. Also Troll? lol doesn't make sense...If you said something like whore or slut I'd get that (coming from a certain mindset of course) but Troll? Have you considered that this may be you projecting?

"Deeper intimacy through monogamy"....I don't agree. I think there is a higher love to have for even a complete stranger...

Planning on looking into enlightened sex... Not sure if this relates but I've had the experience of being able to control the length of my orgasms and where its located (with my mind)

connecting with yourself..inner being while having sex i think can be even more powerful than connecting to someone else during sex...it's still giving but way more intense..in my experience (mind you i've had 2 long term relationships and understand)

@Prabhaker I'm loving all of this info! Keep it coming Yeah trying each sex position is an awesome goal. I need to go get a book with pictures of all of them lol Wow missionary..makes so much sense!!

I think theres a lot of conditioning involved in this monogamy idea...the question of passion or connection and how that relates to better sex...I don't know maybe I'm looking at sex as more of a relationship with yourself it's not even really about the other person...if that makes sense...

I'm still early in this adventure/master plan but I can see how beneficial this will be for me. Mostly psychological than anything. It's making me question who I am, my strong value of freedom and other values I can't yet put into words.. The sexual attraction to these men is very strong mostly because of how sexy and good looking they are..I'm also realizing that I am capable of having men like that...In the last encounter he was extremely good looking..extremely seemingly interested in who I was as a person went through all my books spoke about enlightenment and I can't seem to forget the look on his face he had when I was walking him to the door..He wanted to say something but then said never mind..I was straight up honest with him from the start and told him my intentions. went on a bit of a tangent there lol Tonight I have plans with a man thats extremely hot! lol damn! I'm finding that if you really put thought into your intention like for example plan the lingerie...the candles and music playlist..the little things like finding out his favorite drink and serving it to him...giving him a bottle of water before he leaves lol the certain positions you will do and in what sequence...focusing on a specific...how you sound...how you look...how you feel...etc.. I guess just trying to use certain techniques and keep improving each encounter.. This is changing me faster than anything has..

@Elton yeah go for it maybe start with pickup so you can land the sleepations lol and make sure you're emotionally ready

@Shin yeah i watched that one a while back all i got from it was to take care of my body and be sweet lol

@Prabhaker Amazing insight thank you

yeah that feeling i think you need to embrace and allow/fall into it and be mindful with it and maybe try to figure out what specific thought/belief is causing it...and have that breakthrough keep staying out of comfort and it'll magically disappear and feels amazing/very freeing