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@Basman Found this one too

@Yimpa you mean their suffering or ours?

@Schizophonia if you REALLY want to help start by seeing other people as humans, not as a machine to be fixed.

@Yimpa what a fucking cycle uh? How did you break it? Not that I expect it to be a quick thing, but whatever helped you in your journey I will be happy to hear. Because I truly believe that it's a way of running away from oneself.

Where is the thread at lol

@Yimpa it's just what I watched growing up, both of my parents take care of their parents. My grandpa died a month ago and my dad was taking care of him, my mom is taking care of my grandma now too cause she is very old and can't walk. She also took care of my grandpa who died from cancer years ago. It's a pattern of everyone taking care of the other and no one taking care of themselves. I think it also comes from strong stage blue values from Brazil. I like to think Im integrating Orange but my blue roots run deep and like I said before it's all unconscious. @Ulax Im gonna look into it!! Thank you @universe Aww thank you for your kind words, consciously this is how I think, but the unconscious patterns take over where Im not paying attention. One day I was swimming in the ocean and I notice a thought arise "How ridiculous that you are swimming in this beautiful water while your parents are back in Brazil" it was the first time I noticed. I think it might be a daily thing to remember that the better I feel the more I can help them. Appreciate your comment Universe

I would think they are stage Orange. The motivation/ Value is money

@josemar my dad doesnt want to come and we are getting my moms visa, but she is complaining a lot. Im hoping to go to Brazil int he end of the year, I think that will help a lot. Thank you!!

@Schizophonia A little messy your message buddy but thanks for the input, also if you are tired maybe don't post, we are all going through the journey of being a human and trying to improve ourselves. I'm being vulnerable here, comments like yours don't add positively to the situation.

OMG!!!!! Can't tell you how happy I am for your videos Leo, much gratitude. The need to be right is the sign of a vulgar mind."--Albert Camus

@Yimpa thank you 🙏

@Nemra appreciate your comment! So my public is in Brazil, not sure if Patreon is a thing there but I will start recording videos in English for my channel and build my public here is US too. The only trap I can think of is my pictures leaking, but like I mentioned Im only taking sensual pictures, not showing anything. I'm also into Shibari, it might be my niche on OF, I thought about talking about psychedelics, which is my main passion but OF rules don't allow talking about them. Not everyone on Only Fans is selling pictures of their body, there are creators teaching people things, like Shibari.

Here are some of the pics

@Michael569 thank you for your comment Michael. I agree on many things you said, but like I mentioned before I think the spiritual community became the new religion. If you are spiritual you cannot do this, you need to dress in a certain way and only show the side of you that will be accepted, like the quote on your signature, there is fear when I think about expressing who I really am, because it might not be accepted, but in the end it's me with myself, the others don't really exist. So as long as Im doing something that feels good to me Im good with myself. There is so much to uncover, to deconstruct and get rid off. The repression of the feminine is huge still in nowadays society. I see many women who post here totally in their masculine, very mental. You mentioned tantra, it's a practice of mine and something I study deeply, tantra follows the wisdom of the body and says that all is one. My light and my darkness, my cute side but also my wild side. When people talk about tantric practices everyone thinks that it's slow cute sex, but the full expression of tantra is liberated and allowed to express everything, it's rough sex. Maybe it's where Im at in my journey right now. I was watching the new video yesterday I did think about that, but I don't think my pictures make me less valuable. I love the quote: If a work of art is rich and vital and complete, those who have artistic instincts will see its beauty, and those to whom ethics appeal more strongly than aesthetics will see its moral lesson. It will fill the cowardly with terror, and the unclean will see in it their own shame. Each person will see me in their own lenses, some will judge and some will appreciate, but none of the opinions will have anything to do with who I really am.

@Salvijus haha so true! That's why I created Only Fans, I would already post everything for free on IG. Appreciate your comment, you mentioned Buddha but Buddhism is a every rigid and strict religion, it represses the feminine like many others. I think it's silly that we are all here on earth because our parents had sex and still when we talk about sexuality everything is seen as bad, ugly and disgusting, like the full expression of sex needs to be only for procreation, or in bed only allowed to be love and light and all vanilla. I do like taking the pictures, it's not something I do just for the money, I started a month ago and am already in the top 8% content creators, I haven't showed anything, there are some pictures of my boobs but that's it. I don't intend to post super sexual stuff, just keep going with the content I was already creating before but now I'm getting paid, which of course gives me freedom to do more of my work, my youtube channel is growing, I have 11k followers already and IG 37K followers, I hold online women circles (I have a whatsapp group with 500 women) and will start holding mushroom sessions here in Miami so it's not like Im only focusing on OF. Another fun fact is that I became "crazy" after a Vipassana retreat, I got out of there wanting to fully live the human life, all facets of it, then the pictures started. Since I was a child I like to be naked and I've always been very comfortable with my body, maybe this exploration is an integration of stage Orange. I think what Im really questioning is the repression of the feminine, I do believe that the toxicity with sex comes exactly from this repression. Like to be spiritual and divine I need to be like virgin Mary, I cannot be whole, only some parts of me are acceptable. I've also been studying about Mary Magdalene and am shocked how much she was connected to her sexuality. Even reading the book The Religion with No Name that talks about the open air churches of Dionysius, where women would hangout in the sun naked working with herbs (some of them psychedelic).

Can you all please like my comment there so we get leo on Lex Fridman podcast https://www.instagram.com/p/C0sMK61LavB/?igshid=N2ViNmM2MDRjNw==

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Half a gram is not a microdose. You are not supposed to feel high at all, start with .2g and try to find the sweet spot for you, if tou are feeling something you need to lower the dose.

@michaelcycle00 Albinos are very strong, even is low doses. I'm sorry about your current situation Michael, psychedelics tend to reveal our minds and if we are in a bad place mentally they tend to show all sorts of things. It's a pandora box. I noticed that you described yourself with a lot of labels, social anxiety OCD etc. Be mindful that those labels were created by men, the pharmaceutic industry and society benefit a lot when you take those labels for yourself, they are extremely disempowering. Drop them and see that the feelings of sadness and anxiety are all part of life, we are here to experience the full spectrum of emotions, picking and choosing which ones we want to feel is what creates suffering. There is nothing wrong with you, you are a human having a human experience, feeling human emotions, maybe you don't have depression, maybe you are just going through a difficult phase, it's completely normal. When the whole society is sick it's good to contemplate beyond ourselves, our environment etc. Like Jiddu Krishnamurti said "It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society". Any healthy person would feel what you are feeling. I've been given so many labels, depression, generalized anxiety, ADHD etc. The more labels the more I enjoy it. It shows me I'm not adapting to this shit show. I've seen many ugly things on ayahuasca, body parts, vulgar things, evil witchy stuff. I just observe them, no judgements, it's the mind of god. You are unclogging the pipe, the first experiences will be dark, then it becomes better, you uncover the essence of your soul, once you meet who you really are you wont' have any more questions about your divinity. It's easy to recognize the divine when everything is happy and beautiful, but it's more difficult to recognize in its dark face. It's easy to embrace our good qualities, but it's difficult to accept our flaws. This work you are doing is a path for wholeness. Focus on your breathing, it's the best way to disconnect from the unconsciousness of the collective. Mushrooms will take you under earth, and they are very mind twisting. For me they are often dark, so I enter the experience aware that I will be doing shadow work. If you want something more loving and supportive I would suggest ayahuasca, not by yourself of course. LSD trips tend to be better for me too, more extraverted and creative. Creativity is the best medicine for depression, it gives a more broaden and colorful perspective on life and its infinite possibilities. About your parents, they are not narcissistic people, they are highly traumatized individuals. Once you give attention to your inner child you will see them as they are, just two humans struggling to go through life. To heal yourself you need to be away from them, but everything in its divine time. Sending you love.

Ketamine?!

Such a good thread for newbies like me who dont understand much about politics/wars. Thank you! Just saw this "In response to a severe attack by Hamas on Israel, the US has directed the largest warship in the world towards the Eastern Mediterranean to bolster Israel’s defense capabilities. This move shows a robust US stance to deter regional conflict escalation, coupled with additional military aid to Israel, demonstrating massive support between US and Israeli officials amid broader diplomatic engagements aimed at halting Hamas’ aggression." https://www.instagram.com/p/CyMFus0J6Sp/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link&igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==