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@Harikrishnan It's called Saturn return, it happens when you are 12yo, 24yo, 36yo.. If you read your chart you can know exactly the months that things will be shaken up lol mine is coming too, the last one at 24 it was when I moved to US. Astrology is very ancient, I used to be very skeptical but after seeing similarities in people of the same sign I started studying more deeply, it's fascinating.

@OBEler That makes sense, I think it's easier for us to let go of control, Eckhart Tolle says women have less ego than men in one of this books, we are more oriented towards community and the whole. I also didn't break through tho, I think my ego is very strong, at some point I was super scared to higher the dose with 5meo cause I had done 5 times and was up to 4o and still I was extremely resistant to it, my ego may be way too strong lol I even went to a lecture with Martin Ball and he recommended me Salvia, to break me open and make me more susceptible to 5meo. I think it goes way deeper, I just scratched the surface, I just dont have the courage now, it was so mindfucking at the time.

@OBEler I don't know if that would be the best approach, most addictions come from a lack of connection and self love. Exposing it would just make him feel more shame which would make things worse. Or maybe Im just thinking with a woman's mind. Its a delicate situation, really sad. I think we all can relate with self destructive patterns, it's so normalized in society nowadays. And also we are all addicts lol it's just that some of us have good addictions.

Bringing this back!

Just found this, its been 6 years since those 5meo trips, time to trip again lol

@OBEler I think when I got in the spiritual path my idea of awakening was becoming a nicer person, peaceful, more sweet etc. I'm still very heart centered but Im kind of an asshole now and it came after that specific trip. I think after years of being a people pleaser and growing in a repressed culture my authentic self just came out of me bursting out and breaking things, 5meo unclogs the pipe, all the fakery fades away, there is only raw pure energy passing through the vessel, everything we are not is carried away with the current, I called it sacred fuck it, it gave me freedom to fully express myself, and myself was not the way I had idealized so the difficulties were because of that. The biggest realization, of extreme loneliness, of god playing with god, was very depressing at the time but after integration was what changed me the most, to live from inside out, and not from outside in, before I would tend a lot to the people around me. Like when Im having a high dose of mushrooms, I dont want anyone watching me, cause they will most likely want to bring me to the hospital or think Im going insane.. lol but if Im by myself I know how to handle things, 5meo helped me notice that I spent a lot of time of my life trying to attend and tend to the external things instead of actually living it. But if there isn't anyone else but me, why would care about how people are seeing my experience of reality? I think 5meo helped me immerse myself into my own experience, to live from inside out, first I check with myself, the world comes later. Before I would be like, "oh pay no attention to the mess, oh sorry Im like this because Im under construction, oh it's ugly here because the house is being renovated" (the house being my own experience), now Im incorporating more of my shadow and not expecting it to be nice, or beautiful, Im more accepting of my raw authentic energy that wants to express itself. I had so many judgements (still do) about this authentic energy, it's basically shadow work, God encompasses everything and wants to express itself the way it wants, the beautiful and the ugly, and the pipe gets clogged when we just want to be love and light. I think I understand other people better because of that too, from accepting myself daily, it's been a wild ride, Im not an easy person to deal with and I don't have many filters, Im intense and the work after that experience has just been to let the current of raw energy pass through me, without picking one or the other, to anchor authenticity, I think its our goal here, but we are trapped in copy and paste/monkey see monkey do/groupthink/blending in because of survival. It feels good to write that cause Im still trying to integrate that experience, it was a complete mindfuck at the time, only now Im able to fully appreciate how much more of myself Im able to anchor in this reality. English is not my first language I hope it was not confusing. You've tried 5meo right? Would be curious to hear your insights on solipsism.

I recently I started coaching someone who uses ketamine daily, he is already getting treated professionally, we have had three sessions so far and part of me just wants to suspend the sessions as I see is out of my area of expertise, plus it has been a very challenging experience for me so far. I mostly work with women in group and one-on-one settings but recently many men are reaching out, after years of working with women I've noticed men are way too different, a whole new species lol different motivations, values etc. Women tend to be more vulnerable and open and it's easier to understand the root cause, the core of issue and their whys, now men.. they put so much effort in maintaining their image, they pretend to be someone else so most of the session is just me trying to see through the "fake image" to get to the core, any tips on working with men? I dont intend to change my focus, I do love working with women, but I would like to be of service to the men too. Thank you for reading!

This is such a precious talk thank you. Solipsism is one of the best feelings and also one of the worst feelings, it came to me in a 5meo trip and I wish there were more videos about it to help integrate, at the time it was so disorienting and it thought I was insane, it took me some time to get back on my feet but looking back now it was what cracked the egg open. I felt like my reality was a doll house, I remember next day putting gas in the car and being hit with the realization that my apartment ceased to exist when I left home. Whenever I smoked weed after the experience my visual field would change and it seemed like everything was made of plastic, my room sometimes it was like a perspective drawing, I was truman showed very hard haha It's extreme loneliness and extreme freedom, we think we want freedom but true freedom is sooo scary. I let go of so many layers of old mes at the time. I miss the feeling, there was another 5meo trip that a guy here from the forum tripsat me and coming back out of the experience I looked at him and I didnt want to talk, cause I knew that as soon as I spoke division would happen because of language, and I saw that there was only one person in the room, there wasnt me and him, I was him and he was me.

Yeah the conclusion after reading all comments is a no no. Leo made me undatable lol Another issue is that conservative men are highly scared of psychedelics, which is a tool I use frequently in life, most of them are not only close minded when it comes to using it but also of having a partner using it.

Thank you everyone for the responses, it really helped me

That doesn’t respond my question but thank you for your input

I lived in California for 9 years and moved to Florida over a year ago, and it seems like the majority of people here are Trump supporters and Im finding myself in a difficult place when it comes to dating. Im a moderate and grew up conservative in Brazil, Im not super into politics, but I do know the basics and voting for Trump IMO is just a sign of low intelligence, Im no radical and I respect everyone, I do have friends who voted for Trump but I just avoid talking about politics with them, Ive also noticed that most people who like to talk about politics are the people who know the least and are very biased, the conversation is all about judging the opponent and defending their point of view, black and white thinking. I love Jonathan Haidt's content and all sources I can get about politics that can show me the big picture and/or an impartial view of the whole, so don't get me wrong thinking Im here to just pick/defend a side. This week I stopped talking to two guys because not only they are Trump supporter but they do believe he is making good moves that will benefit evryone/them, and in a way it will (they are success/money oriented which is very self serving), but it's a major turn off for me, and I want to know if Im being too extremist or radical? I actually tried dating them before and eventually we had a conflict of values that set us apart. Im generalizing but it seems to be two kinds of men out there right now, the toxic masculine Trump Supporter or the soy boy beta man too trapped in spirituality and no groundness in reality.

can we bring this back? Is anyone organizing the trip reports here on the forum, loved reading them a while back!

@Leo Gura when is the course coming outttt