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@Leo Gura seeing the UK election result, i am not very optimistic about Bernie getting elected in the US. It seems like the results depend much on the collective consciousness of people. They do no get the leader they need, they vote for what they deserve. As majority of them are not progressive as Bernie and Corbyn, they are most likely to reject them as we see in case for Corbyn.

@Nivsch Not a good joke

@LfcCharlie4 i agree on the new labour point. But i hardly doubt that labour will elect a left or left leaning leader after Corbyn as they might interpret the election result as "a failure of the left". So they might elect a leader who can be centre to centre left. It would be a terrible thing if they do it because what i think britain needs is more social justice and equality and the left is suitable enough to carry out the task. I don't like Tony Blair. He did a terrible job to drag Britain into Iraq war. I also wonder why historically the british people like the torries more than they like the left. Since 1900, torries were in power for more time than the left/labour party. Seems like they as a nation quite conservative and traditionalist ( i am assuming that, because i am not a british and don't live in Britain)

@SoothedByRain i think labour failed to understand the mood of general people. They were more interested about brexit and the future of it. I think labour should have come up with definite policy on brexit to take a firm and straight forward plan rather than beating around the bush. It would have given people a clear picture on labour's brexit plan. Another thing is that the "leave" vote was rallied behind the torris but the "remain" vote was scrambled among different party lines. Labour, Lib dem & SNP should have formed an electoral pact among them before the election. I think if that had happened, today the result could have been entirely different as then we might have seen labour coalition winning or at least a hung parliament. It would deny conservative party run rampantly to do whatever they want. But the reality is, Britain will leave the EU without any delay. I do not know what it would mean for UK in upcoming future.

@tenta did labour at least won in your constituency?

@Leo Gura well i feel real and important to me

@Serotoninluv i can understand what you are saying. I thing i am trying to achieve more than i can at a time. I should just try to go slowly and put things on practice.

@mandyjw i will sleep on your advice. Thank you

@Inliytened1 i wish i can understand that someday

I can resonate with this. But i can not be at "now and here" all the time. In many times i have observed myself to pull out and wandering on the future or in the past. It happens when thoughts occur about things that are "high stake". Things like i think that are essential for me to be in a certain way. Thinking about those things strongly pulls me away from " now and here". Yeah it happened. But didn't happened for long and ultimately wore off and i usually come back to "myself".

@mandyjw i just do not know how to do that. Sometimes i feel that i am drowning in thoughts and most of them aren't pleasant.

@SgtPepper i can not know what to tell what is imaginary and delusion. It feels like i am stuck in the very bottom of a sea.

@Inliytened1 those are some kind and practical thoughts and i thank you for that. Can you share some techniques which i can use to to have that mystical experience again? I do really miss it. I was not that much high in my whole life

@Serotoninluv are you saying that i am constructing myself every moment to who i think "i am"? But don't you think that is what we all do? We want something all the time. Whenever we get the something that we wanted doesn't necessarily mean that we will stop want something else afterwards. I personally do not know how to stop this " want" cycle.

12/07/2019 First thing is yoga, second comes work.

@Tanz Bill gates is at least better than other billionaires because he is trying to make a positive impact even if he is creating unconscious evil. But others are worse than that. They are deliberately putting a mask of a "good man" in order to save themselves of something like tax. They are just self serving evils pretending to help others but in reality, they are the ones who should be blamed for creating much suffering of ordinary people. It is also a matter of irony that their shady works are so deceitful that often people just overlooks/ don't understand them. But if one takes a closer look, their lies can be seen like daylight. That's what Hasan Minhaj has done through this episode. I just love to watch his show <3

I have watched this episode very recently and i must say that i am "shocked". Whenever i used to see news like " Billionaire X have donated Y amount of money", it always struck me like how generous he/she is, how much he/she cares about poor and deprived people. My perception about them has shattered after seeing this episode. It was so illuminating. I think a country should not provide it citizens the option of becoming multi billionaire in the first place because whenever a person touches that peak, he starts to act like a "know it all" person then tries to reshape the society in a way they think it should be by using their money and influence. This video also shows us that it is not enough to just have the good intentions. Even in the case of Bill gates, although he is very famous worldwide for his philanthropic activities, he just went on to dictate policies in a way he had wished for, which is definitely a corruption. Maybe he did it unconsciously, but it is not enough to somehow justify his deed. I think some measures should be taken by the government to systemically end the influence of rich people from public policies. It is not their right to decide the course of direction of a society. It should be the citizens who will take control over policies by following democratic rules and manners.

Mostly blue, maybe because i live in a predominantly blue society. Orange also disgusts me from time to time.

12/03/12 A lesson's been in my mind for few days. That is - more work, less efficiency. I think i need to plan efficiently with leaving some time for just to rest. I have several plans in my mind and i have started working on them. The problem is that i am doing everything here and their while remaining unsatisfied. There can be several reasons behind that. Such as: 1. When you focus on doing three or four different types of work in a day, nothing is really accomplished. You feel torn apart. 2. I think i am being negatively motivated. I am thinking like, "what will happen if i can not achieve this and that?". Well it is still a motivation but not a healthy one. It can harm oneself in the long run. 3. By doing so many things, i become so engaged and busy that sometimes i unconsciously and deliberately ignore taking enough rest or a day off. As a result, sometimes i feel like i am burned out. 4. Too much anxiety and fear can go on while doing so much within so little time. These are the reasons i can point out this moment. I think i need to come up with some solutions to pursue my goal and at the same time, not get burned out.

@Existence thnx for you analogies

12/02/2019 I am gonna go to campus tomorrow after 4 months. It will be a different experienced. Did i miss it? - yeah Was i fearful about it? - hell yeah! But that's life. Some ups and downs. Some good memories. Some bad memories. But this is how it is. You just have to deal with it and then, move on!

30/11/2019 I have been writing here after a long time. I was busy in past days. My first attempt to aquaculture has failed (or should i say, nearly failed) nearly two third of the fishes died within 3-4 days. It happened mainly because of sink problem. The fish likes to be in the hole and when it went through the sink it got stuck and most of them died there. Anyways. I was not really hoping to succeed at my first attempt so i am ok with it. It will try again and again until i see the ray of hope. I am also facing another problem. I have been struggling with my schedule nowadays. I am being unable to do what i planned to do before to achieve desired outcome. I am not sure about the solution. I am stressed and a bit anxious about how things are gonna turn out. I guess i need to stop and self reflect for a while about what to do next. I feel restless too. Sometimes you can get lost into chasing success while forgetting to enjoy life. Lets see what can be done.

Is Leo taking break this week?

@Preety_India your notion of relationships are quite simplistic. In relative sense, not always "good" people gets hooked by "bad" people in a relationship. Sometimes "bad" people gets hooked by "bad" people. I have personally witnessed this. I also think that it will be naive to catagorize people in good/bad dynamics. Good and bad are highly relative. People have got their unique ways of seeing the life and that's where their potential loopholes in personality lies. It's a very complex thing.

23/11/2019 A very long, tiring day... I have worked a lot today. I have brought baby fishes for my business and released them in my tank. Now i am hoping to do the process successfully. A lot of hope, excitement, anxiety and fear is going on, but then again, let us hope for the best. Hope i can prevail and fulfil my dream of becoming a successful businessman and escaping wage slavery.