Timotheus

Interesting, thank you. You are probably aware of this, but just to make sure, I wanted to push this ad absurdum, using controverse language, I am NOT intending any of these things. But I have to admit that some sarcasm and cynicism leaked out.

I knew it!!! All my suicidal tendencies actually have been the Truth yelling at me to awaken! It's so simple, we all just have to kill each other, nuclear anihilation HALLELUJAH! So this makes Trump one of the most conscious person on this planet. I bet his Level of consciousness is even over 9000. Man, what a relief to hear this, we are right in the middle of a happy ending.

@LRyan You're welcome

This is on point. Recently uploaded. Synchronicity at its finest.

@LRyan I've had glimpses of no self. I cried my eyes out, felt a gratitude I never felt before, felt love for the first time. It felt like it was worth all the suffering in my life ( wasn't that little). Yet, daily I have thoughts on taking revenge on people, imagining some violent, bloody actions, torturing people, enjoying my hatred, thinking about destroying people's lifes etc. I can if I want emotionally disconnect from anyone I want. That's just some examples, but ime all of this wears off over time, there is no more need for this shit, because more and more you can just have peace NOW, what more would you want? I call it wear off, other people call it integration or dealing with the unconscious.

@Blissout Was thinking the same. A time will come when they want it to end. Then they will have the "tools"

@Leo Gura What you define as Enlightenment would, if I'm right, buddhists describe "just" as stream-entry, but isn't ultimate enlightenment the cessation of all suffering? Is this only possbile after the body died?

@Shin +1 Can be pretty hardcore but I too find it to be quite effective. In me it can cause the fear of dying, but that's what we're here for, aren't we?

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Inspiring and insightful to read this. I'm happy for you. Stuff is getting more serious for me too and I am too still distracting myself from dying - oh yeah I couldn't finish working off my bucket list Nice quote!

“There is an ecstasy that marks the summit of life, and beyond which life cannot rise. And such is the paradox of living, this ecstasy comes when one is most alive, and it comes as a complete forgetfulness that one is alive. This ecstasy, this forgetfulness of living, comes to the artist, caught up and out of himself in a sheet of flame; it comes to the soldier, war-mad in a stricken field and refusing quarter; and it came to Buck, leading the pack, sounding the old wolf-cry, straining after the food that was alive and that fled swiftly before him through the moonlight.” “He was a killer, a thing that preyed, living on the things that lived, unaided, alone, by virtue of his own strength and prowess, surviving triumphantly in a hostile environment where only the strong survive. ― Jack London, The Call of the Wild <3 Gives me chills

@Saumaya Thanks for the reply, happy to hear that.

@Saumaya Thank you. Are you free from any form of suffering? Is there love on the other side? Do you regret anything? Any fears left?

I find mind reading and clairvoyance to be very real. Late 2016 I would have called anyone stupid believing in these sorts of things, but my mind and life got so fucked the last year... omg. I even find myself developing the ability to read minds. One time I tripped with a friend on LSD I could certainly read his mind. Not to mention all those synchronicities that have happened and still are happening. Not much longer than one fucking year and all of this happened, wtf. If I only knew how to develop these abilities on purpose so that I can predict the stock market

Would you say by seeing through, that there is any chance of being "stressed" or any similar sensation/emotion? Do you just see the fear of death as illusory or does it vanish entirely? What about minor forms of fear, like nervous breakdowns, cause you have difficulties with time management?(from my experience I can already say that I don't "care" that much anymore, but never say never) I could imagine that some reflexes remain, like a shock of the body after a sudden and loud noise for example.

@Nahm❤️

Probably not ---------------------------------- @CuteCornDog Sorry, had a bad day myself, being quite pessimistic. I don't know how you are doing in your PD work or wether you are meditating or anything like that, but I can or could have related some time ago to some of the points you made. I can tell you that in this position it can be quite a grind, but you'll get some glimpses, which will make it very clear to you that it's worth it and that you'll have a better time.

To me this definiteley put a different flavour into it, which makes stuff more clear for me on an intuitive level, allowing me to sense more peace and presence. I think he's quite an intelligent guy - shocking to see what drug addiction can do to some people's lifes or to better put it, what lack of love and connection can do. I can highly recommend his Youtube channel Zen Bitchslap.

@Nahm ?

@Shin Maybe you are just trying to make the winter responsible ? I've been struggling with depression for years, but I've always found the winter the most beautiful even though I also see a tendency towards depression during winter for many. I guess it's actually been proven ^^ I don't know, if there would be more snow and ice, then it would be perfect. The cold, the darkness, the white it all has such calming and peaceful qualities. When I had a bad day as a kid and there was snow, I've used to let me fall into the snow and watch the sky and all the problems disappeared.

@NahmIs this the same as self inquiry and or surrender? ? Man, life is too simple ?

@Nahm ^+1