Principium Nexus

They say the 'hallucinations' are different in each culture, but what if there is another dimension on top of ours but location wise like to our geographical space Would be a world on top of ours but only been seen with the minds eye. Just a thought

I don't know whether trolls are real, but check out this cool documentary about Nazca aliens. One of the best I've seen so far with pretty legit findings.

In exactly one week I will be flying from Amsterdam to Indonesia to finally meet the girl I have been dating and talking to for approximately half a year. This is the largest step I have ever taken to completely step out of my comfortzone. So I know here very well now from talking almost dayly, but I am still nervous how things will play out in person. I do have good faith and know that there is no doing wrong. Still I wonder if you guys have any good tips? Even if it's the usual advice. I'm glad to have any response.

I promised to write something after being back from holiday. Hmm where to start? So to recap, during the past several months I learned to know this girl, one who turned out to be even more special in my life than I could ever imagine. We first met on this website where you can talk to complete strangers, at that time I was very eager to learn more about what other people's interests are, what they think of the world, what they do, to better learn who I was and the world around me. What I found was that most people are not able to have a decent conversation or are willing to take some time to learn from other people. Still between all the trolls and perverts there are some people who I had a really great conversation with and even have some contact with those from time to time. However this post is dedicated to the girl I happened to fall in love with over the past 5/6 months and eventually took the step to travel half the world to go on holiday with her . I have always been careful to avoid any possible scams or some sort of catfish scenario's and luckily none of those are part of my journey. During this time until now I have always seen how important trust and being open about anything that is on your mind is crucial in completely opening up, breaking any boundaries and pushing personal comfort zones with care and feeling. During the time I first met her I was going through a very tough time, strong social anxiety, got out of university because it was to overwhelming and couldn't cope with all these feelings about where my life was leading to. I would say these are the darkest moments of my life and it was hard to see any light at all in the future. Somehow I'm very thankful for these phases, because without these I wouldn't be where I am now. I see depression as a forced psychological state deep from within the unconscious mind, that something, somewhere you have to fix/change the way you approach life. Some people will never manage to find out what their problem is or are to afraid to look within and anti-depressants can be a short-term fix, only covering up what is still fundamentally flawed. Luckily, I was getting tired of this refrained manner of acting and started to learn as much as I could. I wanted to know it all, learn why I am me, why the world is doing what it is, understand the human construct of mind, the game of psychology, preconceived roles, what generates joy, good/euphoric/sexual feelings by the way we speak or touch. What is timing, rhythm and feeling? How do we dynamically exchange this in any conversation or act. That's where I was after at when I opened this chat talking to complete strangers. I wanted to know the common thinking, how identities of people form, why, how and where. She was also having quite a hard time at that moment, being diagnosed with "borderline/bipolar illness" and we both helped each other a lot during these times. Sharing joy for silly things, talking about religion, philosophical things, human behavior, gender roles and much more. I'm so grateful to have found someone who is open to talk about anything, who I can trust with all my heart and who I can call my soulmate. Do I think any a soulmate or the one exists? No, absolutely not, but I willing to make this work with any means and that's the mindset you got to have. You can only receive what you give, if you or your (future) partner is not able to fully go for something eventually then this will be limiting and cause some sort of boundary (fear). In the beginning I was kind of afraid, things began to click and I was falling in love. I was afraid that I might not be able to give or promise that I could be eventually be there for her. This digital means of communication was after all so easy and with the severe anxiety I experienced I didn't know if she could ever handle that I couldn't do it. She was still quite emotionally unbalanced, with mood swings and sometimes some suicidal thoughts because of her situation*. Somehow I made a vow, if I could prove that I could love this girl unconditionally, throw away all my doubts and prove the universe that true love exists. Ever since my doubts have significantly decreased. I know that if I can be there for her and she for me, that anything else doesn't matter. We started to plan a holiday. At first we wanted to go to turkey, but because there is some political conflict we decided to go to Thailand. It was closer to her country and I didn't really care too much about my long flight or expenses. At first I was quite nervous, this imaginary idea/digital world of communication would finally materialize and it felt so exciting/dream-like and absurd. I took my flight from Brussels to Bangkok, which was my first time ever flying solo (to the other side of the world basically) and took the taxi to the domestic airport where she would arrive. After long time waiting, there was a long immigration queue for her I saw her for the first time . I was kind of speechless and tired (8 hours of waiting) but felt so relieved. It didn't really felt strange to me because I had been talking to her so much, still it felt so unreal . We decided to go to the hotel and get some rest after long time of travel (for me). Next several days we explored Bangkok, temples, boat tour, general sight seeing. It was fun and to cool to see all this culture, but I found the city pretty busy. After Bangkok we fly to Phuket, some great beaches, another boat tour and visiting islands. Further more we visited, Phi phi, Krabi and Kuala Lumpur. They have some amazing thai massages there, if you ever go there, check them out! We had a great time and it went even better than expected. I think out bond has become even stronger now and we will be going on holiday again next summer. This still is a long distant relationship, but we don't really care, we stay in good touch, share a lot and are very happy to have found each other. I hope this might be motivational for some, help you, as it did for me. Everyone seeking a relation, being in a relation. Remember to understand one another, talk about trust and the fears one has, take a leap of faith and there result unimaginable. Happy actualizing, break those boundaries downnnn!!!! Principium Nexus

Also like this ink art a lot:

This one depicts us as the universe, inseperable, timeless, but also reflects a mindfullness that comes with the human form. Creation and destruction, the ever going transformation and birth of the self, the now.

I want to give you a nice wallpaper but instead I dont wan't some fancy picture to be the motivation for something it doesnt resemble. Stop telling yourself you need movation for anything! If you know it will give value to your life, just do it! I think the opposite of restraining from gathering symbolic representations/books/movies/audio will bring you closer than any of the previously stated. If you cut those out than the act of doing or pursuing enlightenment comes from within and not from an external source, which is limitless.

Update: It has been going far better than expected, we still have some days left but I enjoyed every moment. When I'm back ill write more

What would you do? I think it's very useful to do this exercise, knowing or trying to understand how our other half thinks/acts is great to emphasize for each other

Shared wonder and awe in a symbolic manner.

Everybody thanks for the tips, I think they will find good use. Today I will fly, so everybody have a nice holiday. I'll back back in 2 weeks

If you follow the path of a guru for example, who abstains from family, friends, possesions, etc. Then your life will be kind of lonely. But both loneliness and enlightened living are open to interpretation. Would being a loner feel bad to you and doesn't enlightened living come in many forms? Why would certain ways be praised higher than others? Why would these specific ways 'achieve' more?

You know guys, sometimes my head really spins of all this thinking ? Does anyone like donuts?

I want to go to Burningman atleast once in my life. So much love, art and a cool alternative society.

@Max_V Those are withdrawl symptoms, if you manage to push yourself further, you will gain greater self-control. I know it is overwhelming, thats the energy you are cultivating. If you learn how to focus/control this then you will really empower yourself. Cut away the neurotic tendencies, show yourself you are in control. It will be rewarding.

@lens Do you understand that everything you think are just theories and concepts. Even that science says there will be a heat death or that the universe will never end is but an idea. The truth is we don't know. You can worry about made up things or you can acknowledge their existence, look what is useful and everything that makes your life worse you let it pass. Don't become to caught up in these things, I clearly see that's where you should mainly focus on. Practice meditation to calm the mind, let these assumption fade for a while and just feel what it is to be alive! Breath, feel the cold/warmth, be present.

@Max_V I think keeping a break of 7-10 days should be sufficient, but going for longer periods can be much more challenging and therefor you will learn more.

@Joseph Maynor Yes they dont care, they just feel and go with the flow.

@Spiral Was this message for me or somebody else? I practice nofap time to time and see clear results, but I cannot imagine to do it for a very long period (more than a month). If you have no partner then okay, but in a relationship?

@ajasatya And main goal is to hold focus for sustained period and learn how to control this?

@ajasatya Eveybody will figure it out when it is their time. In the end we cannot help anybody but ourselves, I hope he doesn't hold to tight onto his believes because thats the largest trap of them all. Btw do you know any good reads about zen practice? I'm becoming more interested in it and would like to read something about it.

@Dodo I enjoy all the traps as much as the epiphany I was completely wrong I think we can derive some meaning from all this speculation, which is a whole accomplishment on its own. To make something practical from something that does not exist in the first place at all ? Who said magic does not exist?? We are all magicians but fail to see it!

@Dodo Yess you did a good job at explainig and it makes sense. All truth here is relative, but talking about that some absolute truth in turn exist is also relative hahaha. To make it easy, you want truth, then shut up and just be. But wether its true or not, does it matter anyways? As long as we have fun and have a good story to play, nobody cares if the play was real or not. In the end we all enjoyed it ?

@Dodo I'm not more advanced than you in anyway, maybe i'm more caught up with conceptual theory and therefor walking through my own constructed maze. In the end I think the maze feels rigid, it all seems logical within it's framework, but once you get outside you see that the only thing holding these walls up was the fact you was your own believes. They were all grounded in nothing, a bubble floating on its own. Comfortable, manageable, but far from the truth. The whole vastness of infinity can never be confined to a finite form. That's where you @Dodo, transcend the maze and watch other people walk around from the inside. You know everything is grounded in nothing, so you begin to see theory/philosophy is just another level of the maze. Then the idea of being finally outside of the maze is again another layed. Until @Dodo fades away and he is set 'free'. I like to refer to the maze as your own house. You can decorate it to your own liking and enjoy how you build/transform it as long as you live. Sometimes there is a earthquake, psychedelics or some life-changing event that turn it upside down. All the items have to be placed accordingly again, some are broken and have become obsolete. What is important is that we understand that we live inside that house, the house is our identity and comfort. Outside there is the unknown, excitement/fear because we are not in control there. The control we have over our house is also eventually an illusion since everything can change any moment. But for the time being, lets enjoy that house, until we move to the next one somewhere after we die. Lets do it conciously, understand we are our own creator and aim to build to most epic house or the most humble one. Whatever you like, your heart knows the best