Principium Nexus

Ego death is so frightening because since we grew up we were recognized with this imagine of self. Looking in the mirror or just doing stuff and living feels like one identity but actually there is non or many that seem to work like one. Breaking this illusion of unity can feel both psychological and physiological odd. Breaking down from the one into infinite self until this fullness is recognized as the world around us.

For a while now my perception of distance and separation has been altered. Where it comes down to is that where ever my awareness is my body is experienced there too. Up close I can feel my physical body, sensations on my skin or internal. When I look in the distance I don't really feel that it is far away. It feels like my awareness is projected towards what I'm experiencing and this is a somewhat weird feeling. All these changes from our surroundings are experienced on our body. We can only experience them on our body, sight is a tricky one because we think we experience it in the distance but actually do this on our retina. So whenever I see something I associate it with my own body where it is percieved and therefor my idea of distance fades. Basically we never experience anything further than our body. The universe is somewhat projected on the outside and the edge of our body can therefor be called the edge of the universe in some regard? I think it semi towards egolessness, anything that tries to interact with me is still seen as foreign. From my own understanding I think this is a new way to perceive the world and if you understand this insight you can experience it too. Can anyone relate? I want you guys to really think about the concept of distance and separation from the self and the outside world.

@phoenix666 Yes this also seem to occur in extreme sports. For example in baseball or quick action, they say time slows down and they get more control over how they act. I think when we become hyperfocused the intervals in between strech out and we create more perception of time. Due to this fact, if we take this to our everyday lives, how would this mindfulness or focus contribute to out whole perception of our life? A monk/person who is very mindful could therefor have experienced much more time in between than someone who lives in a choatic and less mindful environment. Stress and hypertesion are imo the main factors for a short life, whether in real seconds or perceived vastness.

I will write an interesting post soon about some amazing insights I have had and what this means for us human beings... In the meantime, enjoy your day

@Serotoninluv You only have to understand how waves propagate through space and time. How they interact, how they create ripples and that reality is created where these waves collide. You don't need complex mathematics to grasp how this is done, look into nature and you will find all your answers.

@Nahm The odd thing is that my sense of scale is sometimes very strange. I can feel like a giant sitting in this vast amount of space or I can feel extremely small. Depends really on my perspective.

@Nahm Your jokes lack content ?

@cetus56 Yes it's like becoming aware of being aware which sort of ironicallly speaking distance me from being in the point of experience itself? You could compare it to the movie effect, watching yourself do things. @Nahm How is your balance in general? Sometimes I get disorientated too because space itself feels void or infinitely large. Knowing that there is actually infinite space im between your screen and where "you" are sometimes feels like throwing a ball of awareness into a bottomless well. So far it hasn't really be a problem and I can function normally. @Maxx Yes I actually never really have internal chatter and actually experience the world in emotion and feeling. My speech and writing are sometimes also not that great because I'm not really used to express things in confined concepts while their true ground in boundless.

The posture is only as important as you believe it to be. If it helps you getting in a better trance, then it useful to you. Any pose that helps you get confortable and relaxed is a good pose.

@Shir I agree being a virgin doesn't mean you are bad. It is true that you have no/less action experience, but in general if you are good with dancing or rythm in general and read which spots give great satisfaction then you already have a good understanding how to do it

My girlfriend was also virgin at 25 and held the same believes as you which is completely understandable. Women want a relation that is preferably long lasting and don't want to get used, so sex after marriage seems like an idea that both will be bound by law to stay together and will live a happy life after. Thus it sort of eliminates the possibility of something shortlasting or 'being used'. What we are actually looking at is a trust issue or you held it because of culutural/religious believes. You can only start to trust someone if you try to get into a relation and be there for each other. If you really fall deeply in love sex after marriage seems unrealistic, you have human urges that should be explored and also strengthen a relationship, when you hold yourself back for years (don't know how quickly you will even marry), than this will affect your relationship in an somewhat negative way. Most guys even though they really respect you need to get a sexual confirmation that you like them. When you postpone sex for a longtime, they will start to question if something is wrong, because they do love you and dont want to lose you. Realisticly speaking sex after marriage, if you really in love is not easy and will only be something you put up to yourself because you hold a certain belief of being used. I would advise that if your dating someone get to know them really well, see what character they have and if it is something you are looking longterm for. If you are not sure if you really like him then don't have sex until you know for sure. Also hormones might exaggerate your feelings from time to time, which can make a guy look more or less attractive. If you are on a low know that it could be due to hormones and don't conclude things to fast, likewise when your at a high, if you give it some time you get a good picture what your feelings are. Also lets focus on "The One" topic! I think this doesn't really exist and have a good reason, so waiting and sitting till one hops by is not the best choice. -We all are constantly changing, our physical appearance and our psychology and worldviews change as we age. You held certain believes that may apply at this time to your perfect guy, but over time we change as a person and then we think it was not the right person. The mistake is that we keep searching, each time we find someone that resonates with our current state and then after a while feels like your moving apart again. The human psyche takes time to adapt, even in relationships its not all roses and moonshine. Commitment or other fears might kick in from both sides, but slowly challenge after challenge you begin to strengthen your relationship and that person will become the one. It is all about mutual effort! You can only receive what you put in and only effort will make it work. If things do feel bad, give each other some rest, but do talk about what is bothering you. I'm going probably little bit off-topic, from sex after marriage to relation advice haha. The point is, start dating, look for someone you like, if he resonates with you and you like him in general only have sex if you fall in love and you had decent amount of time to get to know him.

I have these 2 assumptions, I am the universe, my ego creates separation through concepts that I am a human (which a certain perspective is valid), but we are much more and part of the larger whole, we are nature itself. Nature always finds the most efficient way to let energy flow. Electricity through the highest conducting medium, water through rivers and valleys, trees optimize the way they grow to harvest the most sunlight. Psychology to me works in a similar way, given the context of where one lives in the psyche searches for the most efficient or easiest mental energy flow. Where I want to go with this is to explain that we already know what to do without letting our mind over-conceptualize. Animals do this, why can't we do the same? Children who are often so joyful and amazed in awe are born without concepts and think mostly in feelings when they are young. The older we get, the more rigid our thinking and worldview becomes. Black and white thinking, putting everything in a box and label it.. What do we gain from this? Aren't these the main causes of wars, conflicting ideologies, hate, depression and anxiety? If we were to abolish all this over-thinking, wouldn't we become more happy if we can embrace we don't need all this material stuff and live in a closer relation to nature itself, our real mother as to speak. Nevertheless, my own conclusion is that we or I want to seek a closer relation to my feelings, those of others, to come closer to my true nature and self, which is after all our very core and strength that thrives in all our actions.

Sometimes I'm so addicted to learn things especially theory that I forget to apply it. Endless specialisation, in theory you have deducted every fact, cross checked if its true regarding the larger context, but because the whole context is never rich enough you keep expanding and expanding... For me it's a joyful process because I'm very eager to learn but if it is affecting you in a bad way, like priorities are not right or you start to suffer because you need to know everything beforehand of going to something or doing stuff, then find a proper balance. I'm slowly finding more interest in listening to my environment and my body now. After years of intense study of chemistry, physics, math, astronomy, pharmacology, psychoeconomics, all new theory feels like another story or 'theory'. It also makes things looks to predictable and if you don't like the idea of having no freewill then studying these things will not help you gain control. I would recommend anyone to start listening better to their feelings, their body and trying to feel those of others. Meditating more, some minor intellect to serve survival and practibility. Master your feelings (emotional/physical) and you will always know what to do.

Is it possible be never racist or are we always (unintentionally) discriminating something or someone? Can we avoid being racist by being objectively as possible?

Infinity means endless and much more. Time is an illusion of mind, but if we were to presume that it goes on after we die, infintely, then there is infinite time to resurrect in some way. Nature comes in cycles, our planetary solar system has it's own major clock and old civilization tried to map out the momevement, a complete cycle of this clock and its characteristic attributes. I think the mayan calander does a great job on this and through this knowledge of knowing the solar systems current phase of the cycle they could predict and forecast major events on earth. Now to come back to infinity, the same way our solar system cycles, so will probably things on far far larger scale. I take this to the ultimate level, does infinity cycle? My assumption is it does, because thats how nature seeks balance and reproduces and this would mean the universe is on repeat. There could be infinitely many variations before it finally completes its infinite cycle and starts all over again, but the moment is present. Nothing is lost all is preserved in the light of god, the wave through space of time. I come to the conclusion that if these things hold true this could be the millionth time or even infinite time I write this down again, live this life and die before arising from the 'death' again. Now I'm not sure about this, this quite philosophical and mix of this idea and enlightenment. If one would be enlightened, could he/she transcend to a state of oneness where one would be living in all realities at once? Like avatar he would know the minds of his 'ancestors and future offspring' and they would act as one force through time and space to accomplish something far greater, untouchable and unable to see for a normal human. Probably ungraspable, because it's almost like timetravel and not, because you live in every time. Yes I know its far-fetched but a cool idea to think about. One can only achieve when he tries to believe.

@Shiva True that! Those are indeed only ideas I have, we try to see it as a specific 'absolute' thing but actually its only our projection. Well said In nature fractals are very common and practically everywhere, from plants to rivers, mountains, clouds, you name it. We are even able to replicate these fractals using mathematics and create very similar computer graphics or simulations proving there is some kind of repeating underlying structures. What I think is that these structures play out to get the optimal distribution of energy in space. But yeah this is probably also modeling reality, anything in language is some kind of model or abstraction right?

What tips do you have for people being in a long distance relationship? Everything is welcome.

If you watch porn, stop doing that. It depaints sex/love in a twisted manner.

@Thesnakerising Hmm I see what you mean but trying to understand all the aspects that infinity brings does clarify our position and definition as human beings. For example what @Truth commented I find very useful because many masters or people who say they are enlightened talk about becoming infinity, become oneness, etc. Learning about their experiences, how their perspective changes feel valuable to me and would probably for most people who want to 'become' enlightened. Has anyone some names of (historical) enlightened people?

@Truth Yes, indeed! I do think we should attain enlightenment both intellectualy and in a non-dual way (meditation/being/non-thinking) and find balance between those two. The Intellectual should serve a pragmetic side, create meaning and also should be a means to find balance. Non-dual is to reside, to calm the mind, find peace in all the theory and get to the being. The balance point is found somewhere in the middle of these two and this is where I think realization should happen. When doing and thinking act as one force, great things can be achieved. But I also think that once enlightenment becomes a state of being for someone, one no longer is a man, because infinity is not limit to any bounderies. It's like the cosmic being has awaken, everything is alive, everything is you, the mind of god or the totality is present in the one. Big picture understand is Crucial, because most men cannot believe or don't fully comprehend the interconnectiveness of all. If you begin to see the larger structures/the fractals/natures play repeated in everything then you begin to see it. This is where the intellectual research side is important. Are there any people known who have 'fully' realized enlightenment? I would like to know more about those if you know any.

Yeah those are some great tips. And there is also a great app for Truth or Dare on playstore. Great recommend.

Someone who has a trained imagination or is very good at visualizing is able to travel through 'mental' space without actually traveling in physical three dimensions. Has anybody every thought of the idea that thought (visual/auditory/taste/touch) is a quality of 3D space itself and that it adds an extra layer of dimension to what is percieved? This is my new insight. What do you guys think?

Actually there is no such thing as ego at all... People have been trapped in this idea for a long time now. Trying to fight, kill, conquer, silence "it". There is no seperation between the you and "the ego". We are really complex beings and the ego is not something seperate but is like a quality of our pyschology. I think Leo once drew a circle somewhere with ego and non-ego as opposites. The whole circle is you and these characteristic on this circle define each other, duality of things. The ego only 'exist' in terms of constrast in the duality, but not in non-duality (which is the true nature without labels). See to clear it up all these labels on the circle that describe certain qualities fade gradual into each other, define each other and are what they are because of their opposites. You are the whole spectrum, the labels are not discrete, not seperated, not absolute, but relative, to who you are. I also think that naming something the ego and attributing all kinds of bad qualities of oneself makes it easy to distance yourself from it and say it's not yours. Just 'kill it', which you cannot, but works like a illusory self-defense mechanism or some sort of relieve. Anyways, labels will be labels. The end.

You guys don't try hard enough. ? I love this girl with all mt heart and are not going to lose her simply 'because LDR don't work out for most people..' I think most people don't really love that person then enough to commit and go for it? I know it is only temporary and could take 2-3 years, but in the mean time we would go on holidays together and stuff. Is there really noone who had a LDR, no fun tips to do, no nothing?

Exposure.