Psychonaut

So I know 5-Meo-DMT, 2-CB and LSD. How does DPT compare to those? I didn't really get it from watching the video. It's been over a year since I last did 5-MeO-DMT. From what I remember it just removed me from the equation and threw me into a watching state. I also often threw up on it, which felt relieving. Some unfolding of reality, were parts were slowly falling away until there was nothing left and then it got put back together piece for piece. So DPT is longer, has a different energy and will also take me into a similar state as 5-MeO-DMT with me still somehow being there and being able to think those healing thoughts?

Does DPT create thoughts and parallel realititties or are you in control of it? Fe. LSD and weed can sometimes create thoughts that are not true.

If you don't expose yourself to situations in which you might be tempted to give in and engage in sexual activity that doesn't mean you have "transcended" sex. You will never transcend the desire. You might try to delude yourself by thinking certain things like sex is bad and desire is egoic or whatever. But your genuine desire for the goddess will never stop to exist. Why would you want to transcend it? You don't have to act on it. You can acknowledge a beautiful girl and enjoy her presence without anything happening. If I am not attracted to beautiful women I feel dead.

I am. I will be lost. But I not that important, am I? Hard to accept though. I think I want to feel it. I know it is not real, because I can feel a sudden too large shift in my perception. Knowing it is not real and knowing that it will pass keeps me from killing myself. However I cannot get out or maybe I don't want to get out actually. The pain feels so real and so overwhelming that even though I know it is not real I cannot make it stop. All I can do is wait it out, do nothing too drastic and hope it goes away. It reminds me off the time I used to get panic attacks during the night. I would wake up in the middle of the night unable to breath. All I would feel is how I am suffocating. In that moment it doesn't matter what I think. It will be drowned out by the overwhelming sensation of death right in my face. Maybe what I am experiencing is a mild form of the panic attacks I used to get. Anything that reminds me off my dissolution just triggers a whole overreaction that feels like it is out of my control.

My hierarchy of sexual mastery is Regular masturbation up to 10 times a day with escalating porn extremeness Less frequently, about once a day, with normal porn No porn, just imagination. Cutting out porn will automatically reduce frequency. Maybe 1-2 a week. Ability to masturbate and skip ejaculation. This will break the habit loop of "sexual stimulation" -> "ejaculation" which is strengthened by masturbation. Regular sex with a girl. ~10 minutes Sex with girl. Ability to edge and draw out sex to about 1 hour. Enjoying the whole experience and spending time with a loved one. Sex with girl with ability to skip orgasm/ejaculation. This is a slower type of sex and more sensual. Sex is only at about 60% stimulation. Sex with girl with superior edging skills that allow to go at about 80% and sustain that for a long time without ejaculating. Requires awareness and slowing down in the right moment. Sex with girl and ability to dry orgasm. This is sex at a regular stimulation intensity, but the man can have multiple orgasms without ejaculating or ejaculating really hard after a few dry orgasms.

I think what one can take away from the alpha asshole is Not really caring about what the woman thinks, listening but not being put off center by whatever the girl throws at you. The ability to let desire and sexual energy take over and just fuck the girl. Not asking "Do you like this", just saying "I want to do this" and letting the girl reciprocate. A girl that wants you will most often say yes. This is a form of fearlessness, because you are exposing your desires and give the woman the choice to reject it.

I prefer when topics stay open so all the trash in peoples minds can be exposed and eradicated. If there is no willingness to change ways eventually people will just ignore something and become indifferent which is better than just shooting something down.

Why do you guys think it is a valid way to judge an ideology / thinking system based on the people following them instead of the ideology in its pure form? Youtube can be toxic just for the sake of being youtube. People can take only what they want from a belief system, put their twist on it and make it toxic...

The previous fwb technically only lasted 3 weeks. But we had sex 2 and 5 months after she ended it with the words "Get out of my life" #Classy. My response: "Okay". Following the breakup were 6 months of playing games on her part. The classic "I am not going to talk to you". Me: unfazed "The I have a boyfriend now" in her home country, which she broke up "He is an asshole". Me: unfazed. The "I don't want to have sex for a while", then I swipe through her Tinder profile with new pictures. Me a little hurt at first, made for a good poem. The "I need to get a prescription for this bladder-infection antibiotic on a sunday, because I often get a bladder infection after having sex (with someone else)". Me: utterly unfazed and indifferent. Pun at the end: This girl lived in my dorm and I practically saw her every day for 6 months. She was a blowjob queen and I actually enjoyed sex with her. I had given up on sex from my previous unfulfilling sexual experiences and she "relighted" the flame. It was a costly firestarter, but I am glad the fire is burning now.

@SageModeAustin I have read through this drama of a thread over a couple of days. First of all. Chill dude. It's just a girl. I know I know. This is like saying "just do it" and expecting someone to know what that means. However girls come and go, they literally do like leaves in the wind. Nothing you can do in retrospect other than to be a bit more conscious about what parts of yourself you show to girls in the first few months. Your experience with Brooke reminds me of my last girl. She had some issues, anti depressants and hard overreactions "like faking her suicide because her parents said something". She was unable to acknowledge the pain she was inflicting on the people around her. I started to write poems around that time to deal with all the pain this "relationship" was causing me. Here are a few lines I wrote around that time. Excerpts from a freeform-poem titled "A beautiful mind" A deep sense of love and compassion Pain too, so much pain and suffering But I will not close my heart I will not close down to the pain I will continue to try I will choose heaven every day I will leave the world a better place I will help the people that want my help I will leave the people that don't want to be helped I cannot help them I will continue to love them Even though I cannot help them I will focus on the people that I can help Someone else will do the job for the others I am not supposed to help In a way I extend my hand to everyone, friend or girlfriend. If they take it and let me pull them up, it is their choice. I think you should not actively try to change or help someone, or press too hard into the hurt parts of other people. I see it as a gift if they open up to me. But they are independent people and responsible for their own actions. We merge temporarily and of course I can infuse the girl with energy to strive for the better. But if she doesn't use it, I have done all I could. So have you. Relationships are a playground for rapid learning. It is not necessarily the most pleasant learning and it is often painful. Just hang in there. As long as you are aware of your emotions, acknowledge them and allow yourself to feel them you will move forwards. Relationships are not about thinking, they are not fabrications of the mind so there is not much point in trying to figure out what went wrong. Please don't blame yourself for a lost relationship. I lost my last one and was sad at first too. My current 3 months fwb relationship which might turn into a gf/bf thing is much deeper than my last one. So in a way you might be thankful in retrospect like I am now.

You got any resources/books?

I have read the whole trilogy. I think most points are valid, especially the woman's maturation. I am not sure I agree with how much he emphasizes female hypergamy. The book really trashes the grand story of hypergamy that has been battered into our heads by religion, culture and the government. I think it is better to let go of it before engaging in a LTR than to realize while in one that it is a fairytale. Mine was and still is in a way.

To me it seems women really buy into this grand disney fairy tale of exclusivity. I really don't know why. To me a girlfriend is not the special person with whom I have a much deeper and intimate connection than with my other friends. Is it just me that has deep friendships? Because the only difference between a friend and a girlfriend is the sex. I find it a bit offensive that exclusivity is a requirement for a deep relationship.

Get some women with self esteem, they know that you are a busy man and don't have time to listen to the yip yapping.

This set of emotions you describe is what most people go through after a breakup including me. She is having sex, 100% Is this a problem? Sit with the jealousy and feel it fully. Casual sex can indeed be engaged in so it serves as validation for being lovable/desirable Is this bad? Connection to a person takes some time to develop. Why not continue having sex with the girl? I love pain For me pain in relationships has been a huge motivator for creativity. I usually write poems when I am really down. You might try just writing down what you are feeling so as to acknowledge it.

At this age I would not stress too much about masturbation. Labelling it as an addiction might not be that helpful. Just be aware of what type of porn you are watching. Observer if it turns to porn that is not of your normal sexual orientation or too abusive. When it has reached this state it is time to reevaluate and turn the frequency and extremeness of the porn back a bit.

From my observation of LTRs in my family, friends and acquaintances LTRs don't seem to further the betterment of both individuals. Here are my main sticking points: These are things I have observed, not all occur at once. But with all points I have a major problem. It rubs me the wrong way to the extend of angering me and I am a calm person. Very calm. So calm. People stop working out, become complacent I only want to be in an LTR with someone that works out for the sake of working out. The motivation should not be based on attracting someone else or some narcissistic motivation of gathering attention. Female arousal tanks, the man gets frustrated. If he watches porn and masturbates its a complete waste of time. If no masturbation occurs he will at least be so horny that he can ravish her unconstrained once in a while The man cares about what the woman thinks of him, constraining him during sex. From my understanding and experience of sex the sexual beast that is male desire has to be let go of for the woman. There might be bite marks, there might be a too rough spank, she might be crying on orgasm. But it is all part of it and she wants it this way. Couples in LTRs have no clue about how attraction/desire and female arousal even works. Their understanding and awareness goes merely skin deep. There is a huge difference between rubbing genitalia in bed and having your woman dissolve in your arms while you are fully present and fully feeling through her. Noone would buy a used car without knowing anything about cars, so why enter into an LTR if you are clueless? The man gets walked over and the female takes over control because the man has no spine. Their are certain phrases that some men say that just make me want to pummel them into the ground until they get up and stop that whiny shit It's not really a big deal. Hope someone can relate to me.

@Leo Gura New videos on sexuality would be appreciated my man! Early on you had quite a few, but I wonder if we could lift the topic of sexuality up a bit from the sticky mud it has been vegetating in for quite some time now.

I call this phenomenon the "spiritual salt shaker": Whenever someone thinks he is being super spiritual and is super helpful but just vomiting words all over the place. Basically someone is bringing out their spiritual salt shaker and using it until the food tastes only of salt. Noone gets anywhere or is helped in any way. SSS = ?Spiritual Salt Shaker?

@Jack Walter Leon I love Hitler more than Trump and even Putin. Mähhhh mäh mäh mäh. He was an expensive sacrifice, but at least people are a bit more critical about the state in Germany. I'm proud to be german, we are the best. Better than everyone .

Why did I read through this

One question remains. It has been bugging me for months, even years. Every time I watch a new video by Leo this question returns. I cannot find an answer to it. It seems to be the one question that keeps me up at night. It's the one thing that I cannot share with her when she asks "Honey what is bothering you?". "It is nothing" I can't find an answer to myself. Where is the video where Leo lets us gaze into his otherworldly eyes of pure consciousness. My girl does it for me, I do it for her. I want to see those eyes gaze deeply into mine. No lips moving, no sound being uttered. I want to just stare right back at myself. Where is the video were you show yourself? 3 hours of no distractions in pure presence? Pretty please, you don't need to say another word. It's fine, you can let go now and trust me. All is good in the hood. All is well as I can tell. Shhhhhhh shhhh. It's fine. It will feel like falling asleep. I will be here holding you when you wake up. I have been here all along, now you have found me. I have always been there, have always been you. You have always been. You always will be. Shhhhhh please don't say anything. Shhhhhh smile in my face. Breathe in, breathe out. Can you feel it? Feel it, flowing through you. Feel it more. More. Come on. Feel it through and through. Now what is it that you wanted to say? Was there anything? Nothing? No more words? Good.

Nithyananda is a troll. Me and my friend used to exchange youtube videos of him and laugh our ass of at the shit he said,.

In my experience to fully let go of something I need to see its emptiness and it looses its power over me. Demonizing something will not dissolve your desire to engage in what you are demonizing. When it is time it will fall away like you have shed a layer of skin. Then you are free of it and it won't come back either. Stay aware and trust that were you are now is where you need to be.

It is beneficial for the feminine to have you think that sex is a commodity. Turn the tables so that you are the one gracing her patch of grass with your combine harvester. It's not her allowing you to do so after meeting her list of demands. Neurochemically speaking sex is interesting. It is a cocktail of many chemicals. Comparing it to drugs, is like comparing a three course meal to a candy-bar. Sure there are some addictive chemicals, e.g. but sex is not about that, it is much more. Most people don't go deeper than skin deep or don't even get to the skin part lol.