Psychonaut

Oh you have just started living! Enjoy.

@Jay Brown Quitting cold turkey is an effective way, but it only works if you really want to change. If you really really really want to change. It's like all of a sudden your perspective changes and you see how terrible and damaging your previous behaviour was. I usually quit things cold turkey. But I am an extremist. I either really do something or I don't do it at all. There is no I do something a little. I always overdo it to a point where I am forced to quit. I have quit alcohol cold turkey, because of extreme emotional distress I got from it. I quit smoking weed everyday cold turkey because I thought this is kinda dumb. I quit fapping everyday cold turkey, because I saw the huge amount of emotional self harm I was inflicting on myself. @Anna Drug addiction is not a disease!

@Jesper I just thought of another anology, maybe it helps. Have you ever had a dog before? I have a dog. He regularly comes to me, scratches my arm and tries to somehow get my attention. Most of the time I don't really know what he wants so I might stroke him massage his back play with him throw a ball fill up his water bowl shake out his blanket and rearange it put a blanket for him in the sun so he can sunbath let him jump on my lap ignore him I don't know what he originally wanted, so I just do something and hope it makes him happier. Imagine you are my dog. You don't know what is going to happen when you come and try to get my attention. It literally is random. It could be anything. Now compare my interaction human-dog with your interaction human-human. Can you predict what is going to happen? I believe no and that it is pretty much random. That's why there is no point in thinking about it.

I'm not sure if I like the odds of you talking to women. It sounds like a 50/50 between being liked and not. How about she might enjoy talking to me she will really get into the conversation and we will have a blast she is really hungry and we go into a restaurant we casually walk along the street and completely get lost in a conversation she runs away screaming hysterically Notice how I made the negative reaction less likely? The positive ones are of course highly overdone, but I couldn't hink of realistic ones The best thing is of course to not think about the outcome before AT ALL. You might either expect too much or think about all the negative things that could happen and that somehow makes them more likely to happen. Or when they happen it affirms your thoughts of the negative outcome and thus make it less likely that you will take action again. Notice I don't use the word "reject". I think it is important to be aware of how certain words make us feel and substitute them with a more neutral word. When I hear the word "reject" I feel bad, or at least a little bit. Might just be me, I'm weird.

It's still okay if you are like 2.2 meters XD. But if not you are seriously overweight. The red lights in my head started to flash when I went over 105kg and I had to change something. I radically changed my diet about 6 weeks ago. Now I'm under 100 again. I couldnt believe how much of a difference it makes. If you eat shit you become shit and feel like shit.

@JohnOldman I remember doing a typing speed test like 5 years ago. I think I had like 80 keystrokes/minute. I just redid the test I have 50-55 words/minute ~270 keys/minute. Cool I improved a lot. http://10fastfingers.com/typing-test/english

I guess that's what I kinda wanted to say. If you get to attached to one thing you make it more difficult for the next thing. There might be a time in the future where people obsessed with self actualization realize that there is a next thing. Hopefully they dont beat themselves up for being so obsessed with something. What is that what you know? Nothing or something?

@Jay Brown I'm definetely not living in mediocrity XD. There are a few areas in which I am very success orientated. When you have success you are happy when not you are not happy. I believe happyness should be there all the time. I have found that after removing the attachment to the success I can be happy more often not just when I accomplished something. I have stopped beating myself up mentally if things don't work out.

I'm german. But not really as I have a sense of humor. That was funny? Germans and humor . We can be funny, I think. I don't know

@asgard94 Thanks you so much for making me think about what you said. You will probably never realise how many assumptions you made by saying 2x2=4 and I will not even try to explain it, because I would be wasting my time. Btw I think 2x2=0 is the correct answer

I'm also working on it. I haven't really figured out how to do it. But on some days I am invincible because I just feel fearless. Haven't really been able to pinpoint what exactly makes me get into this state. But I think it happens when I forget about all the possible ways I could fail and just start doing. Also not expecting much or even nothing helps. Once you don't expect to score a date or a girlfriend being "rejected" just becomes experience. Eventually things work out the way they are supposed to.

I really felt like me, free of everything and just being when I was able to masturbate to whatever fantasies were in my head. Without any judgement, nobody around, just myself. I like to just be and some of these simplistic animal kind of needs allow to just be. Just being able to be without all the crap in your head is a really great feeling. I enjoyed it a lot.

Do you never sweat during sex?

It's very convenient if you can buy everything in the store and don't see all the work that went into producing that product. All the technological advances that had to be made to make production so affordable that everyone can buy it. Take Aluminium for example. That is not something that is just lying around on the ground. The process of extracting it from Bauxite uses a lot of energy. That's why you really want to recycle all the alumnium cans. I'm grateful that I don't have to do all these things myself. I also don't have to live in a tent and fear that some creature will kill me during the night. I can enjoy my life worryless. Aren't we blessed? I think we are and I'm happy about it.

Maybe that's what turns them on?

Violence is a thing of the ego to defend itself. Animals use violence to defend their position in their group, even kill other males because they might become a risk to their survival. Imo it is better to go the other path. Let go of the anger. Become invincible to judgement and "stupid people" don't annoy you anymore. If you beat someone up for whatever reason you have not become any better at all. You have started a freefall into a deep ditch. The next day someone else will annoy you. The list of things that piss you off will grow and grow to infinity. If you let go nothing annoys you, nothing touches you if you don't want it to. You are at peace and will be happy.

I don't know.

I only watched about 10. All the meditation ones. Then some on free will and critical thinking. The meditation ones had the biggest impact on me. The other ones are nice, some new ideas, but not as essential for me... yet.

I'm looking for books related to nutrition. Not focusing on some form of diet or fitness program or anything. I would just like to know what my body needs, how the whole nutrition thing works, how the food gets processed. So I can make my own decisions on what food I eat and when I read the labels on food I know what all the stuff that is the box does.

A friend of mine used to say that to me and it motivated me. Sometimes insulting people motivates them more, sometimes it does the opposite. I don't know. I like using that sentence .

Try it! Do it fa***** . I was sceptical at first. First day I had to really really fight the resistance. The shower was cold. I didn't want to step into the cold stream of water. I hardly showered that day. But I didn't turn up the heat. I said to myself. My water boiler is broken. There is nothing I can do about it. I either shower cold or I don't shower and stink. The second day was easier, a lot easier. On the third day I even started enjoying it a bit. It is very refreshing. I never shower long. Remember, suffering = pain * resistance? Showering cold is a very good example of it. Once you don't resist the cold your suffering becomes less and less. In the end there is only the sensations of the fresh, clean, cold and refreshing water running down your body. The smell of your shower gel. No pain, no suffering and you can enjoy showering cold. Same goes for showering hot. Now that I am more used to showering cold I feel some resistance to shower hot. It feels like my skin is burning. It's weird. I know that my skin doesn't burn. I have to let go and then I can also enjoy showering hot.

Do you know of any public swimming pools in North Bangkok? I really want to start swimming again every day . Or anything else I could do for sport. I heard Thai Boxing is big thing there.

@Rufus Thank you for your input. I have also thought about it a bit over the past few days. It could be an addiction it could not be. It really depends on the day. Sometimes I have music on all day. Sometimes I don't feel like it at all. Like today. I think listening to music is so special for me because it is one of my oldest hobbies. Music is still beautiful, it is still exciting and can make me very happy. Yes and often I would prefer listening to music to other activities. But it's not like it is the only thing I do. So it might be a dependance or an addiction. So I just acknowledge the fact, let it go and enjoy the music. @bazera When you listen to music outside you remove one of your senses: Sound. You cannot be fully present if one of your senses is occupied with something else. I have realized that there are far too many interesting things outside and if I don't listen to music I notice a lot more things. Sometimes I still like to listen to music on my earphones, but not always like I used to do.

Nice to see that there are some people from Bangkok on this forum! I'll be going there next week for a few months. I have never been poor moneywise and can't really imagine how it might feel. But I am looking forward to reading your journal.

I believe it's a joke XD.