Psychonaut

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I don't know I really don't know where I'm at in these models. Probably 5 or above.

I went for a 90 min float once. It was cool. That's all. I don't know. I sometimes get more just from regular meditation if I want to go real deep. My next 2 floats are both going to be 120min. I just hope I get more out of it. To me it feels like people that don't do regular meditation would gain most from it. Because they can't achieve that state of calmness in their everyday life so they seek it in the float tanks. Just another reason to dive even further and deeper into the float tanks.

My adblocker blocks the link so it's BS. Adblocker knows.

Slack is cool for programming related communities. Let's see where this goes.

Get up at 10. Hit snooze at least 5 times and have to get up when my third alarm clock kicks in which is really loud. Go back to bed and scroll through Facebook for at least 30 minutes. Eventually get up and shower quickly. At this stage I'm usually too late already and my alarm reminding me to go to the bus rings. Grab a snickers on the way out. Run to the bus station. I only catch the bus every second time. When I miss it I'm 20 minutes late to work. Coworkers don't even say anything anymore just give me a dirty look. Get back at 5, plant myself on the sofa and watch some TV. Order some pizza and drink some icecold beers from my small fridge on the coffee table. Eventually get bored watching TV and go to my PC and play some games. The division is fun.

Just leave the table if they switch on the TV.

@Rasmus It's not like you have to respond to those threads or even read them. Mostly I don't. You can drastically reduce time spent on here if you just open the forum once a day and quickly look at the topic headings. If you don't see anything interesting just close it again. That's what often happens to me. For me this forum is a valuable asset. There are lots of good people on here and I get new ideas from different people.

The point of anything is nothing. You are right. We are going to die and in the grand scheme of things it probably doesn't matter what we do. On the other hand that also means that you are free to do whatever. Make the best of what you have and try to have fun even though life is pointless. Don't stress about the future come back to the present and enjoy what we have here right now. It is actually very special. It will be gone for you in less than 100 hundred years. In a few million years it might be completely gone and earth will be uninhabatable again. Just like the millions and millions of other planets around us. Failed experiments at creating something special. They are just rocks and maybe a some water. I think the key to fixing "feeling depressed" is changing your perspective and the way you approach life. Right here right now.

I don't know you. Do I want to get to know you? That is the question. You should make it easy for me to answer that question with a firm YES. Demolish the defenses you have put up and show people your real self. Not the tuff guy. It's just an act.

https://www.erowid.org/experiences/exp.php?ID=92932

@The Son Aren't we braindead zombies already and just haven't realized yet? It's all just an illusion.

I started my my nofap journey 4 weeks ago. Lasted 2 weeks, then I got into a situtation where I always masturbate. Well I thought, can do it once no problem. Had lots of fun. Anyhow I went without masturbation for a few days. Then started again at random times. Couldn't really enjoy it, because I didn't really want to do it. I had a massive change of surroundings in week 4, removed the bad feelings about masturbation and fell into the same routines. Everything the same. Not as extreme as when I initially stopped but I see it going the same route within 1-2 days from today if I continue. This PMO thing has a very addictive personality for me. For me the main points that make it an addiction are: The effects are very short lasting and totally not worth the effort. Not worth the effort searching for new and exciting porn. Not worth the effort to even watch the porn. Not worth the effort to spend time masturbating to it. It has severe negative effects. I become more perverted because I will masturbate to everything and anything. Random girls I found attractive on the street. Always searching for things to get me off. Girls notice it, I become a freak and a pervert. The absolute worst thing is that by watching the porn I watch I have changed what turns me on. This is really sad. Things that other people find sick and would even kill and rape me for have become okay and normal. I continue to do it even though I know it's damaging. Like the smoker that knows that he's going to die. It is so dumb. It is so unbelievably dumb I can't believe I am doing it. When I want to stop and I do it again I feel bad about it. At least I know how addiction feels now and by labeling something as bad it doesn't really help to quit it. I guess I can feel more compassion towards smokers. I still don't know how to help them, but at least won't tell them stuff that I now know doesn't help. Guess I have to start again. No relapses allowed no matter the cost. 0% PMO.

@The Professor I was wondering if you could replace meditation with floating meditation if you bought your own tank and could float everyday. I think the benefits are not exactly the same but I am not sure. You can most likely reach far deeper when meditating in a tank. But I think it is also important to meditate with the external stimuli, to be able to stay calm with lots of things going on.

@Epiphany_Inspired I have actually measured my shower's water temperature once. It was 15°C which for me is perfect. Refreshing but not too cold that I have a feeling that my limbs will fall off. Now that I'm in Bangkok I miss my cold showers. This is so funny. I only started this a few weeks ago and now I miss something that others would never want to do.

I'm paranoid. I'm very paranoid on the internet. I don't know how to let go of it. I use a VPN to access the internet most of the time. Change the ip addresses and countries. I will always use a VPN that is encryped if it is a public wifi. There was a time when I had switched of javascript, because it can easily be used to track users. I know how websites can track you just by the version of your browser, the version numbers of the plugins you use, the screen size. Literally everything can be used to track you. The way you write can be used to make a profile of you etc. I have different nicknames I only use for a certain type of website which I will never use on other websites. All the names I use on here I will never use on another website again ever. I showed this forum to a friend of mine and he saw my nickname. After a few days I changed my name so he can't find my posts anymore. He wasn't really interested but I wanted to be sure. I change my name on here every week just because I can (the forum allows you to). I don't know why. It frightens me to see that some people use a real photo of themselves on forums. Can be used to match your forum accounts to your facebook and find out your real identity. The real problem comes when my paranoia carries over to my normal life. When I buy food, what if this is poisoned. When I talk to people I sometimes think about how information I tell them could be used against me. There are things in my head that I know that I can not talk to anyone about, so many pictures and videos and just horrible and really fucked up stuff I have seen on the internet that still haunts me. I know it's just thoughts walking past my windows, but I don't like them.

I do meditate. But I think I haven't been meditating really recently. It's more like I have just been sitting there for a hour, but not meditating. Today I decided to do a "serious" session of meditation. Was cool, after a while it felt like my body was melting with the chair and flowing into the floor. Afterwards I showered like I had never before and music I listened to sounded brandnew. I reread my post. Funny what the thought machine can produce when it is bored. Hahaha

Thanks for introducing me to some new cool music.

@Ivelina I'm mainly looking for something to keep me fit and stretch my body and make it more flexible. I can't even reach my feet with my hands anymore. I can only get to 10cm above ground . I like simple things without lots of bells and whistles around it. So I guess I will look for Hatha or Ashtanga Yoga classes in Bangkok.

Now I'm in Bangcock for a while ;-)

I'm also interested and I could go to classes. There are lots of places here. Going to a class to begin is definitely advised right? My plan is to go to classes and when I like it and I'm confident with it integrate it into my morning routine. I don't have to go to yoga classes just to do yoga, it's just to learn how to do it correctly?

I recently moved and realised how much crap I have. I thought I had little compared to others. I have been sorting out my stuff for literally dayssss. Before moving and after moving. I have a whole box of electronics I need to sell on ebay, one box of electronics that are worthless, bags and bags of paper and just stuff I decided to throw away. I think it's good to give everything a second thought before buying it and think if you really need it. But I believe you will just accumulate stuff nevertheless because your hobbies change and then you dont need the things anymore. You think you will get back into the hobby but never do and then it just collects dust and looses worth. So my question is: Do you have any habits of actively working against just accumulating more and more and more and more and more stuff. I think there should be a routine of purging your stuff, just like we meditate everdyday to purge our mind. We should keep our house in order aswell.

Yeah I don't even know why you are talking about this with some random strangers on the internet that you don't even know. Shouldn't your wife be more trustworthy than us?

Alcohol is shit. It switches of your brain. Why would I ever want that? Weed is okay for sex. LSD is great, I absolutely love using it to gain new insights. What makes it so fun is that it has a learning curve, you need to learn to deal with it just like life. Also the effects are highly random which keep it interesting. The people I have taken LSD with are the ones I value the most.

I often just sleep 5-6 hours a night and then I need to sleep in the afternoon. If I can sleep 7-8 hours then I usually don't need to sleep. Sometimes I also have to sleep after a strenuous working day or when I did physically taxing work. I'm not going to try to drag myself through the day when I'm tired.