Psychonaut

@Vanish Acetone, that stuff is toxic and if it will go up you nose you really don't want any residue. Don't do it. There has to be an easier way.

Why is it that when you allow yourself to have some pleasure that it feels much better when you have worked for it? When you believe that you deserve it? Why can't I have pleasure without needing to earn it first? You probably know this feeling of doing something you really like doing after a hard days of work and it feels great. Then you do the same thing for a couple of days and its just meh.

But removing the stick and leaving the carrot doesn't seem to solve it either.

They are happier than you ever could be.

@Barna I never said that I didn't like the pain , but where can I get that 5$ oil burner? I don't quite know what that is either. @Leo Gura God's enema, cracks me up man, hahaha

A follow up on plugging. I tried it for the second time. Must have been about 25mg. I was lying in my bed on my back in relaxed fashion. If I wanted to impress you I would say I was in savasana most of the time. About 1hour. For me plugging 5-meo hurts my ass. It is different kind of pain than sticking something up there or being fucked in the ass. To me it feels just like the pain in my nose but its in my ass. It also feels different from washing out your butthole with an enema which I did before. When the water is up in there I can feel a pressure and that it wants to get out. I feel the same thing when I plug 5-meo. The difference is just that the enema shoots about 200ml water up there and plugging 5-meo was only 2ml. I shouldn't be able to feel that at all. But at the beginning I can feel it straight away. Like my butt is screaming "Nooooo" and I want to shit it out. It might be an extra challenge to relax for some people. For me it is easier as I can lie on my back and am naturally and energetically in a more relaxed pose. I would not recommend this ROA for beginners, especially not if you have never stuck up anything your butt. If you use this prepare for your sexuality to be challenged. Especially if you are a "masculine" male. It will hurt. In your butt. Sex only becomes rape if you resist it. If you surrender it is just sex. If you think you might have problems to relax start with snorting. You also need much more gear for plugging...

I tried plugging 20mg 5. It works rather well actually. But it is quite an effort, I think it might still be worth it. I'm going to plug it the next few times. Compared to snorting it it feels smoother and easier. I liked that I didn't have to worry about meo running down my nose and could just lie down and relax. When snorted I spend the first 10-15 minutes rubbing it in and sit leaning forward. When plugged I could just relax and lie down. I also didn't have to worry about passing out and breaking a glass bong when smoking.

Weed highs are much stronger and blissful for me. They are pretty trippy almost acid like. I have found I get much more out of weak drugs, even 1 glass of wine or a bottle of beer is very noticable. I need really little excitement or stimulation to get off. Even some nice Indian curry can feel like having sex with food. It almost feels like I live in some parallel universe where existence is celebrated. Sometimes I still get ripped back into reality. Mostly by egoic people that stimulate my ego. But after meditating or cleaning up the garbage that has been left behind I'm back to normal madness. Normal madness being the dream in which I can't fly. I am playing many characters that all believe they are separate entities which take the play very seriously. These actors can't figure out why they exist and are running away from the fact that they will stop existing once the play is over.

@carlos flores I had been meditating for about a year. I think a meditation practice is very helpful so you can deal with the things that come up in a useful/healthy way. Having some awakening experiences on other entheogens is also helpful so you can relax easier.

Has anyone tried any techniques to last longer and even orgasm without ejaculating? I would like to last longer with women and not it be over after I ejaculate. When masturbating I can just switch to a different girl and it's easy to have multiple orgasms even if I ejaculate. But with a normal girl it's harder, after orgasming I'm done, My brain is like "I have already impregnated this girl, no need to do it again."

@Leo Gura I'm not sure about the rectal administration. I'm reading conflicting reports where some say there is MAOI activity in the rectum and it has to be combined with an inhibitor and other people are just plugging it. The only reason I'm intrigued by this ROA is that I wouldn't have to sit for the duration of the trip to prevent Gods juice from running down my throat and giving me a bad time as soon as I lie down. If that is your powder than you might want to try to make it even finer. It seems like there are some small lumps in it. I have found that if I spend a couple of minutes cutting the powder with a knife on the mirror till it is like powdered sugar it absorbs much quicker into the nose. The bigger lumps dont get absorbed that well or sometimes not at all.

@outlandish Martin Ball just refers to it as 5. It could mean anything.

I have gone floating 3 times for about 2 hours each. I found it extremely easy to meditate in the tank and reach deeper levels of meditation. Flotation tanks are prime ground to learn how to relax. It is ideally completely dark and sound proof. You are stuck with your mind. You can meditate while focusing on your breath with the only distraction being your mind or just watch your mind without any external distractions. I'm definitely planning on getting a zen float tent or something similar once I have the space and money for it. Saying that yogis or other enlightened people didn't have floating tanks is the entheogen discussion all over again. You can use everything that is at your disposal or not. I will go for the functionally more effective approach and use everything.

@electroBeam Do you even know what a fucking psychopath is? A psychopath is driven by egoic desires. These desires will be fullfilled by any cost. Including manipulation of people and generally amoral behaviour. Manipulation is a key trait of a psychopath. Have you seen any manipulative enlightened person? Also saying enlightened people don't have empathy is just completely baseless. They can choose to express it. But most often than not you dont really know how to help people, so feeling super empathetic all the time serves no purpose. Also I did the psychopath test and scored 3 points. 18 points would have been a psychopath. On a scale of potato to enligthened I'm super enligthened brah. So you can draw your own conclusions from there.

So from my current understanding the ego is the crux. The ego is part of the self. The self is much more expansive than the ego. The ego can be nurtured and trained to be more effective and reduce the bullshit to some extend (AtheneScams for example). This can be done with knowledge, books, life experiences etc. But the core issue is identification with the ego. Meaning that you believe you are the ego and that is what you are. The issue with that is that the ego is just a fraction of the self. Whatever people do is to get closer to the self or get a glimpse of the self. They don't know it, but that is the underlying motivation. The self can be glimpsed by reducing the ego through the use of drugs, altered states of consciousness (meditation), opening the mind up with books radically different to your world view or strong external changes etc. The ego will resist this with all its might and force. Our society is build around preservation. It is build around preservation of the ego and the core belief that the ego is worthwhile saving. It is not. Mediocrity, entertainment, news etc all to keep the mind busy and unwilling to address the root issue. Identification with ego. It is not identification with thought that is the problem it is the patterns of the ego that is the problem. The mind is a tool, it can be highly effective. But like any tool it has to be maintained and used by a responsible person. The ego is not responsible. To fix the core issue identification has to be shifted to the self. The big issue is that this is the same as killing yourself. The ego has to completely and ultimately surrender and accept that it is nothing that is part of everything. I don't know how to do this in a loving way other than to decimate the ego by reminding it that death is lurking around the corner or obliterating it with insane amounts of entheogens. And I am not sure if this is the right way for everyone tbh. It works, it is worth it, it is permanent and I would never trade it for anything in this world. But it is like turning a knife against yourself and continously stabbing yourself until you die.

Will this course help me find my true life purpose that has already been set out for me? The state of being of surrender and following what I already know I have to do but am too afraid of doing? Or will this just create a supercharged ego that believes it has a life purpose onto which it will hold on for a long duration. How do I know if the life purpose I have found is not just an ego fart to impress others and look good? And finally will this life purpose be a disturbance on the enlightenment path? What if my life's purpose is enlightenment and that is the only thing I want?

@Leo Gura Is the point of these exercises to create a "self" that thinks it is "no-self"? You can't think yourself into enlightenment

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I have played around with ASMR. Sometimes it works sometimes it doesnt. When I'm really stressed it will relax me a lot.

Please describe your feeling a bit more? I get a feeling of insanity very often. I am not sure if you are experiencing a similar thing but just express it as fear?

The less shit is in your brain the less shit will be added to the already existing shit. Because the shit in your brain interprets the happenings of life in a shitty way. So the shit in your brain produces more shit. If there is no shit or very little shit then your experiences will not be turned into shit in your brain. The idea is to purge the shit out and then stay aware.

I have to strongly agree with Az here. MEO is not a magic pill without any sideeffects. The sideeffects are severe. Especially if you take too much. The shit that will come up is just baffling. It will bring everything up. Everything you have been suppressing. This has to be done gradually. Lean slightly over the edge every time. The experience should feel productive but it will always be difficult. That way you know you are making progress. Meo will not make your problems go away. It will confront you with them and you have to deal with it. It's not like an acid that washes the problems away. It is a tool that brings the issues into the light. Only when all the issues and problems have been brought into the light they can be dealt with and the healing process can begin.

What happened to the sense of your body? If you got the shitty meo did you make sure that you cut it into a fine powder? Or is it a very fine powder already?

Music is a divine gift showcasing the creativity of the artist and beauty of live. Music is not entertainment, it is art. Art serves no "functional" purpose in a rational mindset. Yet it is still there. Appreciate it or let it be.

@Leo Gura I have to start on page 69?! Yes sir!