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@itachi uchiha It is recommended in the LP. Just chill the work is not purely about PuA one PuA book was also recommended in the booklist.

Alright... this is from a course I paid money from integral this guy taught fkings presidents so here it goes. This is still my map. No picture. Interest in or has don't ask my why or what I wrote down Consciouness Sexy body Playful Inner goodnes Animals Kind Conscienticous Enjoys staying in love Enjoys my presence Erotic polarity Femninity Adventure/Exploration Smile Spiritual Intuitive Improvement oriented Enjoyable/gentle Unique Clear purpose Hiking/Outdoor stuff Humour Quality time spent together Beautiful face is a human Subtle energy intuition Acceptant Having a deep souls purpose to me That would pratically be the ultimate for me to some degree. Anyway...

I created a love map that shows in detail what kind of girl I want and enjoy for example. Authentic, spiritual, compassionate, open-minded, into outdoors activities, enjoys beign sexual and some other traits. I will not reveal everything my first date hitted the exact spot for my love map. Did not work out unfortunately.

Hey there I just don't really know what to do at this point with the connection issue. The girl I dated now said something similar along the lines of spontaneity and connection is an issue and she had an issue with optimization oriented logic. Which at one point is sheer self-actualization. In my generation sort of all across and still in Gen-Z there generally is a meaning crises we talked written about how that was an issue. As well as she felt that she can't provide honesty and transparency which I find abit odd. As we played this cube game I am very good almost a master already at disambiguating power dynamics as I know how to thanks to Wilber courses and zazen, open monitoring oriented meditations for years now. As well as how we can combine as well as stage theory helped me a lot, yet green is very phony when it regresses back to amber. Yet, I find I have this issue currently with having neglected stage orange aspects of myself and it's important to nuture that drive. I don't know if she is Gen-Z or Gen-Y till now I don't have much success with Gen-Y and I generally feel more like Gen-Z with performance oriented stage orange expressions instead of Gen-Y who sees more of the success part. Anyway, she gave me the feedback she is not into optimization logic, okay uses an app that profits of that sure, okay all good. She tells me she is more spontaneous and does not think to much about it. I agree also that I can become very stiff in social situations because of past experiences and constant bias with racism. My nervous system is very sensitive and I am just unsure what to trust. I don't know if any women reads this it's similar to having a gut response when I feel a certain sense I know most likely what will happen or what kind of emotion is in the whole room. I often feel when I truely would connect I would feel more like her lapdog for instance and get friendzoned and I can't yet seem to strike a balance. I am usually very spontaneous, yet my psychlogist, my last 3 dates. All women tell me that this structure oriented thinking is horrible, the point is it's inevitable. I function better in society it makes me more happy I generally still am very spontaneous and flexible. I just don't bend over backwards as well as I would make time for her I find it weird that I get this feedback as I am the guy who in my friendgroup who usually travelled and visited different places the most am spontaneous as fuck I change direction almost instantly and just explore an area. If I would not have this issue with my leg I would do some free running kind of stuff, it's difficult to nuture my value of playfulness and spontaneity because of my issue with my leg. So, this would be more present as I don't fully feel it currently thanks to the issue of my leg also and this might be a lifetime of an issue. I used to do sprints and just run wild etc. Any feedback to the issue with my dates and them saying I lack spontaneity and flexibillity? Is this more a social thing as I made her laugh and we had fun or is it more emotional or even already at a beign level? What can I do to work on it I attempted as well as possible to connect to her emotions, THEN SHE SHOWS ME DEPTH often I connect instantly then she is gone, gone, gone. I instantly sense depth. I could just hug her and enjoy beign with her she kept biting her lip during the conversation. It was very similar as to with the first girl I dated, yet she had more empathy for negative things. Depth there we are not physical next to each other I can't escalte/show what I feel I might be better of to initiate a meeting in person if I already like her instead of via zoom etc. We could just walk in a park etc. or go for coffee as I like those activities. Any idea as to what the issue is? Is it me? Is it projection? Is it her? Is it both? Is it beign related as she was into Yoga? Was I to serious and not casual? I sometimes have so much fun I forget to ask what she wants in a relationship.

@Salvijus Thanks for the uplifting words! I currently do a metta/loving-kidness oriented meditation for 30 min since this is the most practical approach for my goals and I attend 8-10 retreat days I won't make it 14 unfortunately. I usually did 1h sessions, I'd rather would have done some of that Yoga with her because it was physically oriented and I could train my body for flexibillity and get a feel for that stuff and I can't do it yet if she is not willing. I listen to some Deida in the Gym I can't believe this stuff. I just like improvement and survival I am not willing to live like a monk as I do have material desire even if they are rather small. Even eating proper food etc. It's okay for now I just really looking for feedback here.

@Leo Gura That is a very good idea I can include this when I am done with my thesis and uni stuff and practice it for 2 months or 1 month and contacting a wingman for game that is a very good idea! Also, for day game I really want to observe a good wing first and see how he charms etc. For now I'll go with online dating and social circle and some night game, yet going out here solo is a bit to much the dude I saw on saturday in a bar just passed by my window 1h ago. He will pass by more often. I presume just social circle can work. Also, this phase of my LP will take a lot of time and effort. The new book I've started reading showed how much certain pictures matter etc. and basically it's all pics and some new tipps.

@Leo Gura Basically staying there for day game for one or two days or via online dating? Matching women in bigger cities and dating them there? I currently match the best women 155 miles away. I have also one date now there as this is a very international city. My friend says the same he basically has to drive. Driving there is okay. Also, I like driving. My car is okay, yet not made for long distances. The date is also iffy because she basically is 10/10... I was suprised by the match. @something_else My circle expands now 155 miles I am willing to drive dude 50 miles is a joke logistically I usually plan very well. Also the German Authobahn if I'd had a better car I could drive there definitely faster. Although I agree 100% it is a pain in the ass although my last date appreciated the effort, yet she just had to lead because I don't know every point in the city to go to even with good planning. I am not willing to make this a research project and distill every single bar/club option I see just walking through a city you'll find some good stuff and google usually helps. We went to a good restaurant as this was a 7h date. I was also very hungry since we went sightseeing the entire city. She showed me everything I just had no attraction to her because of clothes. I am not joking.

@Leo Gura Allright, I'll inform myself and get more into physical escalation. As well as do the physical escalation challenge. I doubt there will be a lot of going out and I'll still see what I can do. It would be great to at least have some people to go out with, I am asking. It somehow did not work for me when I see a face reaction I can't really interpret it till now, the last girl was not able to hold eye contact and she told me she had issue with that. So, there was no real way of me telling without more direct experience. I'll just see what I can do at this point. More info would really be good. As well as less demonizing for male energy I feel very guilty and I am currently torn as I can't enact it fully because of injury that I can't fix right now. I just don't know how masculine my energy is since I can't regard most other males that I know as masculine somehow after doing very masculine activities like zazen and weightlifting. I can be very present, yet tbh I can also just forget her in that state. I often feel it's more easy for me when I am in my feminine and everything is flow etc. So, I don't know I really have no freaking clue. @Illusory Self I don't like to give advise based on not having enough direct experience I could give you some common sense stuff, yet you would already know that I presume 100% so I just link this guy and hope he gives a good response! @flowboy

@Matt23 I'll just leave a song I am in a good mood. I'll just leave this here I woud love to converse more about this too since I can be pan/demi, yet I am mainly attracted towards femninity as a sexual essence. Have a good one!

@Illusory Self Sort of since we are in a similar situation. I just continued with the online dating course as recommended by the course. I also have an issue and this one guy inspired me a bit by mentoning to show up as your best self and be your best possible self and to not just be you. Last date I also messed up by not escalating at all. Also, I had 0 sexual attraction for her even though she was pretty I could not believe it that I had 0 attraction for her as I meet her in real life. She wore a unisex jacket that I have at home. Which is just plain bad wardrobe... IMO. From the course and books I have been reading and sort of quality infos I filtered for now initiating some level of touch like holding hands, holdings hands sort of across the table at the first date sounds a bit to romantic and puts . I don't know if this was at a bar as well as a coffe shop, restaurant etc. So I am making assumptions. I presume walking somewhere would be better I chickened out even at that last date so imagine and she was fine with me touching her. I even asked her in some weired way anyway..... The one guy in the course who inspired me today said that approaching women there is nothing else that makes him more excited than approaching women and he just did the online dating stuff to become a better version of himself. Anway, I am not invested into messing up your process. Thanks for posting makes me not feel so alone when girls delete me on apps when I test stuff. I don't even get that much dates. I sort of thought about a facilitating question to initiate touch. @Leo Gura What would for instance be a situation or for instance bet you can make to initiate touch in a high energy state for instance asking smth. stupid such as arm wrestling when at a bar. Dancing at a club obviously or just smth question that would initiate the process of physical escalation. Saying stuff like you have soft lips then brushing her hair away and kissing her. Does this work or is this a figment of my imgination/inspiration right now?

@Matt23 Holy, I did not read everything. Yet, talking with my last date about her gay friend she explained it's still an issue even in a rather progressive region socially somehow. I do think empowerment overall is an issue. My aunt is homosexual and married so I am used to this since my childhood. Sorry that you have to go through this! I enjoy being in company of homsexual people alot 99-100% of the time makes my day! ----- P.S: Posting high usually is not allowed.

@unborn_chicken This dude is a diagnosed malignant and cerebral narcissist or not?

@Leo Gura That is good to know for the great filter. Thank you for feedback and advice!

Hey there I sort of want to make a results post with this online dating stuff I had to redo the challenge because I stopped it after 12 days or so and I am now in day 4. So, far I've matched with 24 girls in 3 months+ and I had only 2 dates. Tomorrow I'll have my third date also virtual. One date was in person. Do you guys have any videos or ressources of how to convince women more consistenly. I've sended gifs and attempted to be humerous and this worked with the 2 dates I'd had it was really odd, I was making all of the mistakes asking to early for a number and they were willing to go out. I don't really know why I was very authentic with one women and that lead to a date I continue to be authentic and this works just sending memes and gifs and asking directly for stuff to create tension. What else worked for you? I only dated 2 girls out of the 24 women I've matched. I deleted one girl and 2 girls deleted me. Additionally the ocassionaly weird stuff. IIRC. There are some more questions, yet for now I am just gathering data and learn about online dating / meeting women. I am using okCupid as a plattform. Most my conversations revolve around their interests and what fascinates the women I ask for a virtual date after 2-3 messages. The ones who have never done it seem the most interested so far. Some prefer to meet in person, in the course I've did apparently the women flew over to this guys house etc. So, if any of you guys for instance made a women drive an hour to meet a man whom she is interested in I'd really like to know how'd you worked that magic. My profile currently is not that good and it takes a lot of effort also in my opinion. TLDR: What worked for you when you convinced matches to meet? Where did you meet?

@Leo Gura I can see the point and I'll remember that. When she replies back it basically means there is some level of interest or not? I can see the stressor with the pictures, unfortunatly this has to wait now I asked a friend he will be taking new pictures with me pretty soon. I'll most likely buy a camera on black friday etc. I checked the day game link for a wingmen the nearest city seems to be 1h30 away which is still somewhat okay. I will text more friends for going out and test test some stuff from a book I bought that seems quiet good, when I am out. Another with the issue of convincing. For instance one girl liked me she writtes me a super long text after I tested some stuff and I asked her smth. that was in major disagreement with my profile. She replies and stops replying after my next reply and I usually ask for a date/number 3-4 messages in exchange. This is sort of what I mean with convincing some seem to be lazy and just want to chat and the attention it's almost impossible to initiate a date with these women. 3 months into dating so still quiet new.

@Vzdoh Thanks! This is good and honest advice I did not try inviting for drinks and coffee. As well as the pics with social life and cheerful personality or hobbies I know that they are important, yet I miss those.

@Leo Gura Same. This is mostly about the results doing things consciously and motivating each other. I am unsure if anyone will even post. Highly doubt.

I feel a bit inspired now I thought about creating a results mega thread for learning game. I am a bit tired feeling like I am one of the few ppl. who tests things out alone and thought this might give people more info into what works and what not. As well as to give some emotional support for people who are new to this as well as to discuss more conscious as well as authentic/original strategy. I am also new to this so shamelessly I am looking for support here and inspiration. Unsure how well this will be received this is not about posting your lay count. If you get laid etc. Great! Also, guys could post what did not work and support each other and review ressources which would contribute to learning game more deeply and draw distinctions how conscious a ressource or video is. I am going to give an example post for what I am currenlty doing. Medium: Online-Dating via okCupid Time frame: 3 months+ Messaging: 20-35 girls a week Matches: 26-30 in total 38 likes currently Received 4 numbers Initiated and went on 3 dates All dates lasted longer 1h+ Using visualization techniques for inner game This just an example you could name a different medium bars and clubs, sports club, a gym, caffee, book club, supermarket, social circle etc. How many girls you approached and numbers received what worked and did not work. Don't post your lay count as I presume this would derail the thread. You can post if you got laid and landed a gf. Yet I presume this opens a different can of worms and an individual thread for personal questions could address the issue more in depth. Ultimately, the goal is to create a support structure for results and to inspire each other and not fluffy life advice exchange without taking action. As well as to find your dream women/girl for a deep intimate relationship.

@Lyubov Yes, it's important to include photos which show confidence, adventure, humour as well as social proof or some part of your personality that you cherish very much. I did professional photos and I am above average looking I usually get compliments about being handsome as well as good looking etc. I am 6'3 so in the height department I am doing well. My friend who has been doing online dating for instance loves chemistry and has a picture in a lab coat which works very well etc. I just don't know posting a picture with a stack of books or me meditating would also be good if I want to attract that kind of women as well as this is my authentic interest. Strong and confident body language is also important I just did not research that when I went to the professional photographer and overall they are rather weak for the price I've paid even with a discount because I know her. Also the thread got derailed. I've written to a friend he gave me good advice to send her my number so she has no pressue of adding me and one girl added me right away, because she stopped replying since people are busy. The dating coaches in the course hired professional photographers for their clients and gave some examples the course was in my opinion healthy Orange/Green/ medicore yellow more authentic advice without lying, cheating and manipulating etc. More personality pictures the suit worked very well in a professional shooting displays a lot of confidence with the right body language. Some people can just rock a suit and be authentic and playful. It's more about being a high quality guy with character and a life and displaying that uniquely. Worst pictures are topless etc. The point for me is just applying all of this stuff. The giving my number when she once responded and now is not responding etc. worked for one girl. Becoming a more well-rounded person as well as romantically compatible etc. is the overall value I aim to generate as a human being.

@Illusory Self I skimmed at a couple of videos seems very orange/blue like I've have some friends who are more like this I'll see what is applicable feels kinda inauthentic to skim content will dig a bit deeper. I do have some issue with this content somehow when skimming. I am not like this.

Don't know what happend to the forum my account exploded with matches after i added dont's. I deleted a girl on accident because I did not know what shibari is. I could have done hentai in rl. But okay.

I struggle with the issue of aborting my self-actualization process as well as to continue working in a very structured way on my projects. I can't establish a sleep routine Monday-Sunday for like 3 years or so. I tried and tested different sleep routines and take decent care of sleep hygine. Although I often feel smth. is missing and I give into cravings of for instance watching pornography for hours on end because of a high sex drive. I often feel like I miss spontaneity and I crave it and sort of give into the desire stay up late and play video games etc or listen to music. While others for instance enjoy learning languages etc. When I exchange this for instance with learning languages, programming working on courses etc. I meet my criteria of enjoying self-actualization with enough spontaneity. It is still not easy to not burn-out as well as keep a social life intact. As well as my enviroment aborted a lot of opportunities for instance with language learning and I'd have to pay a school now or learn completely on my own. There are not many intellecutal people here more hard-nosed scientists and pragmatic people. After taking the life purpose course I was highly motivated to create routines and schedules as well as I did all of the exercises I missed updating my values because I felt that it was not neccessary to change them and I trusted my intuition. I do now update and review them as I review the content of the course. I was able to maintain some structure for 3-4month and then I completely break down because of sort of an overfocus and lack of humans to talk to. I do have the issues of for instance talking for 2-3h about a single topic when I meet a friend etc. Especially spirituality and I am usually very enthusiastic, yet I really really struggle with routine and structure although it feels very good to have routine and structure. People usually enjoy this energy and I often land in a sort of leader position which I do not like. As I struggle with the idea of power and feel very tempted by it. Is there another community that meets regularly online for instance for self-actualization purposes most of what I found on the net were accountabillity partners. I use mooclab and other online video stuff to monitor myself when learning and recently this work very well when I try to procrastinate. My sort of lowest desire from my lower self is to be recognized and sort of meet my status needs this can be a simple Hi or a compliment as well as a short positive interaction where there is mutual respect. I do not have this all to often because I can have a whiff of arrogance and I mostly use this in a humerous way. Although many do not share this kind of humour. As well as positive looks that are non-judgemental and non-needy. That kind of attention feels really really good. Also, I stopped educating myself sort of because there is a lack of people who share similar interest I used to send hours of voice mails between a friend of mine about society and politics and this was very very healthy sort of for my ego. As well as I really felt understood. There was also some toxic stuff, so I stopped and things just change so this is not an option anymore. My point is it is very difficult to make this short and percicse because I think a lot I could go in more depth here. I am just going to name a couple of example to explain my current abortion of self-actualization. -------- Ex1: I meet with people who are going to be PH.D's and scientist or at least master degree highly professional people. I could read endless theory and talk about it and have proper intellectual discussion while not taking this stuff so serious although these meetings only happen like once or twice a year. Since I am not fully included yet into that group. Also they don't meet that often etc. I could befriend them one by one etc. Most of them are introverted and have a lot to do. Being with them motivates me to continue with my self-directed learning about biology, politics etc. as I would need my meet to self-actualize with interests. Also, computer science topics etc. Nerdy stuff. As well as talk about practical stuff. Also, I don't have the space to invite people for the kind of activites people crave. Ex2: I read and study completely on my own I succumb to my desire to socialize and prosletyze about the stuff I've read when talking to my casual friends etc. They enjoy listening yet I don't feel nutured because it's like tallking against a brick wall and then the entertainment industry takes over and I slide back into procrastination etc. I neglect my feelings and become depressed. Ex3: It can get to nerdy and I loose myself completely and live like a hermit for months mostly talking to the cashier only saying Hi, Bye. Like an npc. Ex4: I go out and message people I don't care about my studies / goals and meet people who enjoy having fun clubbing, drinking, socializing. I feel guilty for doing it I still do it and have fun and I notice then again balance is an issue. Because I then crave it more. I've been going out since I was 14 this is normal in my citiy/country. (Or was). Ex5: I stick to a healthy routine, eat, cook, improve, work out, talk casually, do my projects and meet my friends. Even if you can't believe it this is very diffcult for me because I lack a variety of friends BUT! I can join multiple groups. Yet, I really focused on having high quality friends in the past years and there are 3 people who I deem as high quality. Even though they have their fuck ups. As well as stick to online communities, yet I feel this online stuff really fucks up the process. -------- The main issue I have is conflicting desires and I am unsure how to meet them. I could go solo into a bar since a friend of mine owns a bar and start talking to girls even two friends of mine just to meet the need for recognition. I know it's shallow, yet I would feel way better then sitting at home alone. Since I know the owners I do have social proof and could see if I could get some numbers besides doing online dating. This also could be to much for my mental to handle. I know the "boring life" where I study read learn and implement 8-10h a day meets my desire for self-actualization. Yet, I seriously lack having fun when I am doing this and I would do better if I'd had a girlfriend and could explore sex etc. Sort of as a desire / motivator. Which I am currently pursuing as a goal to meet women online and have a girlfriend. I also struggle to implement a structure. I just don't know how to fundamentally solve the issue of aborting self-actualization when it comes to my goals and projects with a solid structure I can work 40-60h a week with enough sleep and make enormous progress. I understand that it is fine to take breaks my psychologist is also worried that I overwork myself, yet I can't for fucks sake find a balance here. This craving to not be stuck in 9-5 is so strong I'd often feel I'd rather be dead. As well as I feel most of the time happy doing stuff, yet I can't somehow convince myself to do stuff and work on these projects. Any ideas how to solve this issue permanently? I can't find a solid routine that guarantees results. Visualizations do work writting plans does work, yet I feel so dry and often people abort plans which makes me just sad that I made the effort to even create one and look stuff up.So, I abort it at one point when it feels to dry. ------- The times where I was the most consistent I was taking cold showers and meditated for 1h and did stuff after work/uni. Otherwise it seems impossible for me to do this as well as working out 3 - 5 times a week. I really like to learn and educate myself, yet I feel I am ostracizing myself by knowing more and have issues connecting to others because I see 10k issues. I can understand the value of doing all of this for myself, yet I really like to do stuff for other people although there are some issues here too. One symptomatic solution is psychedelics to spice up my life and do some contemplative work, yet I will do this next year. I just don't know what to do here sometimes I just really crave attention and honest feedback for improvement as well as some small talk. As well as there are some financial issues that would give me simply more access to stuff. For example I talked to hot girl at the gym today and an old classmate of mine which was very good. I don't know I secretly crave attention and to ironically let go of power while being in power. I am just very lost here and I'd really need a serious community online.

@Leo Gura I already applied your advice in advance and took pictures with a professional. I then filtered the pictures with female friends I have. Eban Pagan also mentioned he first got into dating through online daiting unsure he says it for marketing purposes or not, the online course I am doing is from him. But, yes I miss some more fun and adventurous pictures for instance with a group of friends at a table and travel/vacation pictures or something that shows intelligence, confidence, adventure etc. I have one stupid picture with a cat which was also recommended. Also, to put the top pictures infront obviously. I am considering buying a camera, since many people like my pictures etc. I receive compliments for my pictures that I take usually. Just to shoot some solid ones at a vaction etc. Also, if I find any pictures with a group of women for instance that is good if they are casual ! According to the course. I can also impress her via insta that way. To display artistry, taste and presenting my world. Without having to do that in person sort of. I'd have way way more matches in a larger city 140k people live here and the area is quiet large by land for Germany. This is also the stuff that I am working on in the 90 day challenge for the course. I am technically receiving results in advance. Which is good, yet I can be quiet impatient. @Nos7algiK Yes, I agree the point is I don't have a 10/10 picture collage which would made a girl fuck me, the only women in the course talked mostly about the pictures one more introverted and sensitive guy talked about how the pictures do not matter as much mind this course was released in 2005. So, it's very old I am really testing principels here that are timeless also with okCupid. I'd really have to learn that I am very direct and this has sort of worked in the past. Yet, I never gamed. I will make a female profile and see which guys standout also to see what works as messages and which messages are generic nowadays. My meme game etc. Is not very good and my instant messaging also not. I mostly create tension via imagination I presume and taking my time to reply, because I am busy it's also important to communicate that. I mostly bust a women when she only has one picture for how lame and disinteresting she is and this gave me a couple of matches which is good and ask he if she is not more interesting etc. The ideas mentioned by you are very good and I am still contemplating how to implement adventure/myterious/normal person (human) with some bad boy elements. Via text and pictures so there is an overall theme. For instance when I move I can stick with the principles and learned how to attract girls online. Also, for instance I update my profile and text as well as add something new and take it out of the profile apparently this places you ontop of the algorithm for matches. The issue is my instant messaging game I am not instantly witty, I have my days, yet I offend people a lot like a shit ton based ony my viewpoints with spiral dynamics politics how stuff is constructed etc. So, I don't know if you have some advice for instant messaging when she is online I am all ears!

@Leo Gura God, I payed for this course now I'll see what I can do the course gives completely different advice about messages. Also, said mixing it with socializing I'll do some game, after I upgraded my wardrobe. Asked a friend already. God, you are literally going to kill me. Watch me land a gf tomorrow I'd laugh at the irony.

22.10.2021 Posting early Going to the gym Received respone from one women Will finish dating Procrastinated whole day Wrote a couple of messages to girls saw an awesome interesting women Short reflection: Was super insipired today about business and finances just to learn about it and to plan and include multiple subjects it's so boring to do one thing for instance just programming in one language or just programming or just design etc. Yet, I find myself stuck in a rut doing this one thing for to long. Does not inspire me to take action. I thought about the times where I was the most consistent and they included cold showers in the morning and 1h meditation sessions. Somehow that gave me the mindset to just do stuff regardless if I have a craving for variety. Felt also for some reason very confident today texting girls and was more in a playful mood. I'll include some variety in my schedule and see if this works better for instance 4h thesis, 2h kotlin 1h break 4 thesis smth. like this. This stuff does unfortunately take a lot of time with a single thing. I miss some stuff. There are some downward spiral topics that interest me with Hanzi Freinacht and the apparent warfare with stage theory itself. I don't know I love this time of the year very introverted and people usually gather around OMG at the campfire. I am going to meditate only for 10-15 minutes today and go to the gym visit a friend with some alcohol and relax. I am definitely going to take some courses on finances my Prof sent me an article where there is a free course for some basics. I already invested and made some money. Which is good. Going to invest in some media stuff, the stuff with my family really took a toll on me and I am slowly sort of creeping myself back into a more healthy super functional and active life. Sometimes I forget that there are differences lol.