ValiantSalvatore

@Raze Thank you man, these articles & videos are awesome and dive right into the problem, I checked out Dr.Tians podcast a bunch of times thanks to you!

Yo I've been contemplating for a while to write a post and write about my current dating situation. I am quiet dejected due to a couple of things, especially not being able to hit my "edginess" anymore due to injury and just the maintenance of work life balance. I took a dating course by David DeAngelo (the vault of this has been taken down) and with the current generation I'd might say it's close to useless as a course. The principles are good, yet what I learned (I quit after 45 days & apps make stuff limited) does not seem to translate that well & my lifestyle options are severely limited, due to injury especially the fun & female attracting stuff type things are limited. Like martial arts, dancing, ball sports, freeletics & generally aesthetic sculpting of my body. I am stuck in a pattern that I can't really seem to break out of with texting. I stopped texting like a player as I joined a group of players, yet the right-wing & libertarian toxic mindset of some and the constant negative feedback & projections given by some members made me left this group. I joined the official game global Telegram & Facebook, to find a new place with potential feedback & help. Last weekend I went out with a girl I meet from Bumble, the meet-up was pretty good we stayed long & talked, drank wine etc. I liked her I did not escalate as I did not really feel anything, even when there was sexual attraction, the current dating patterns and just the sameness of girl who are attracted to me makes me partially disinterested in girls who like me. I don't enjoy as much "culture&travel" anymore and I lost my edginess and I feel internally not as strong anymore, there is a lot detachment of outcome, yet no spike to spark attraction. The girl texted back late, explaining her situation I invited her out after she explained & I am waiting for her reply. I did not escalate also as I enjoyed the chill vibe so much I was glad to be just there and talk, I was also afraid of rejection at some level as all of this dating stuff public without people that know me and being around people who know me. I notice how the blockade of not escalating is there due to fear of being ridiculed in public of liking girls and such subtle dumb jokes, I was bullied with this subtle gaslighting mentally bullying shit a lot when I was very young. I also don't find a girl I feel a strong sexual desire with & the girl I liked the most who said yes to meeting up deleted me today. When I was out with my date (very attractive girl) I liked the more hotter & sexier ones who were able to see lust&love can be the same type of energy & generally playing with desire. So, yes they are there I just don't meet them via app & socially currently also not through my current social circle, I am also heavily attracted to hot & crazy girls and some who are more devious & intelligent. I just don't seem to attract them and I am hypersensitive which does not make it easier. As this can make me loose stable yang/masculine energy. Some other things: I gained 7kg of muscles and can lift 100kg bench press & 150kg squats despite injury. An abnormal amount of girls deleted me as I enacted the player frame and I had to rethink & stop. I'll take some photos with my current gym partner for dating (playing pool & lifting weights) The injury holds me back energetically to express myself fully and restricts fast&intense movements - authenticity lost I lost a real desire & have a real actually extreme fear of being a player due to Andrew Tate also being multicultural and the internal collective guilt I feel I lost a serious edge on my warrior archetype & healthy stage red and assertiveness which a lot of girls love - I can't lie to myself here 10-20 matches deleted me with player text game Most girls flake on agreeing to meet-up Any thoughts & insights on what to do & what can help? It's extremely exhausting currently to do any of this, and I am heavily dejected to not fully being able to build the body of my dreams and loosing edge. My friends won't do game & doing it solo currently with working & studying is still mentally very taxing. I might do it solo, if I get my salary. I don't feel I can be me anymore and naturally get girls as the injury hamperes the authentic expression of my character and ambition immensely. Also if anyone is up for some level of accountability partnership, that'd would be the best solution to this scenario, as I am obviously still improving & I know a lot of theory I just can't practice it well due injury and constantly finding alternatives I am a littler slower on growing, yet I can give support quiet well. As long as we agree on some parameters of respect in treating each other well.

That is very interesting my main goal was to move there in terms of A.I, the video is dope showing Leo brings back the good motivation&memories. Thanks for sharing! Fascinating... and tragic at the sametime.

I wrote in a very general way, as I struggle to identify the issue itself, as there are multiple, if I'd condense it to a single or two question I would re-write it as the following: How can I develop the internal drive & edginess to be cocky&confident again and what is that for you, in that sense what helps you to create inner game? That is mostly it, fundamentally I feel the better my connection to god/consciouness/life purpose the better my abillity to get girls. I lost a huge edge as I love&prided myself on physical fitness and I just don't have this edge anymore. Going out is tricky, I'll go to social events and make new friends, yet there is this barrier of the "animal inside" that I can't touch very well. I do some of the outer, and integrate some of the inner, yet that edge is missing. I could also expect as much and I am already doing the right thing.

With that I meant the general classifications that exist within buddhism about re-birth and beign an once-retuner, arhat stream enterer etc. That these stats of consciouness stay upon death similar to when your body deteriorating deep down the state of consciouness is still there, even if it is overriden with pain etc. As far as I retrace the info correctly. (Similar to stories of Wilber turning of his brain waves & Shinzen not taking his medicine because of his thyroid issue) That is what I mean in that sense the cycle of re-birth and consciouness infused with structure-stages and the growth into these. I also recall correctly that you mentioned retreats, solo retreats & etc. can produce mini god-consciouness & or alien consciouness experiences, I don't know if there is a distinction between the two generally speaking it's pretty difficult in this technical area to have any clarity. I am pretty sure it was mentioned in the context of god-consciouness/realization I am still pretty much down to do the normal path and spice it up with psychdelic usage, the research & science of this convinced me that it's a super valid and under used tool, it's just not easy and in fact extremely difficult to navigate this space imo. There are plenty of things like even dark room retreats that produce DMT, that should make the use "mechanics" of DMT etc. a valid reference point for conscious experiences. I also presume society is more ready for it generally speaking otherwise we would not have the techno & psychdelic scene rising. Considering re-birth and what is written about it, if I recall correctly the ordinary path is already great. I'll legit would need to take a vacay to consume your content seriously just to get the patch download of the recent version, it's not easy to follow someone who works hard. Hope you're not to upset about this would be cool if there is a video about deconstructing buddhism similar to science, that would really fit the channel and might create a better comprehension of what you're teaching. As it's heavily psychdelic oriented and maybe retreats? It's a little confusing as on what to do practically besides psychdelics & thinking / self-inquiry type of exercises. Just read you blog post, hope you're doing well recovering! Wish you the best & a lot of rest! ❤️

There is still immense value if you "trust/believe" in what Wilber writes and just the general stages of enlightenment when I consider death. I dunno what you experience, yet I don't want to do it all over again etc.

That is dope. I presumed this after having had out out of this world type experiences and with the rise of A.I I just saw in his eyes fk we are to stupid in a sense, that convinced me that you might have gone deeper, that was my intuition generally speaking. I doubt any student took his techniques also to the n'th degree, anyway I have to go this is spot on.

It seems to me they somehave have changed and he also never truly talks about his opinions there is a lot of holding back, I watched an interview where they talk about A.I & non-duality and teaching an A.I consciouness and so forth. I don't have time to get into this and also to explain, it's simply an impression I have about him, I also don't really comprehend what the difference is between non-duality and god-consciouness is especially after reading Wilber used the term also briefly, I felt Shinzens true experience has been hold back due to him having an enormous amount of experience of meditation & traditions and psychdelics etc. I dunno how much psyches he did, yet they apparently did a lot in the 60's. I also don't know his exact position it was really just an impression of oh shit there is something way beyond what I experience in that sense, that was my impression of Shinzen also, due to rise of A.I. How come? For me they worked in the same direction psychdelics have it's the difference is psychdelics are the directer path to me and less involved with effort. They both facilitate the process of each other regardless of what I experience. Meditation deepends psychdelic trips and vice-versa. Are there even any tools besides psychdelics that work for you personally to something you call God? For me almost everything works which is a huge issue to focus on one thing. Which I did often it's simply intensity of practice similar to a breakthrough trip.

I dunno watching some recent Shinzen video his scientific mind seemed to have changed at the idea of consciouness, especially with A.I & all the shamanic practices that he did. He is one of the few people who's very honest to speak with these experiences about and non-judgemental and what works works mentality, but I can't verify it. Dunno at times why he get's such a bad rep here. He basically validated one experience for me on psychdelics and I did psychdelics attending his retreats online of course. It's close to an anti-integral perspective I dunno, it is what it is. He also at least did cannabis and LSD and clearly says these things gave conscious experience. I dunno how tf this opinion even formed.

I did this and tracked this for 2-3 months, as a 20 year old guy if you can physically exhaust yourself and stretch yourself as well as and go through the rough period of sleeping like this and meditating as well as eating mostly light food. You can reduce your quota, yet it all depends I am a tall guy weighing 90kg's and I could reduce my sleep to 6-5h per night, while I felt the best around 4-3, yet I felt so high on this little amount of sleep I did not know if I built muscles also during this time, yet I certainly gained strength. I could barely pull this off consistently maximum was 5-6 days, yet I was training like an insane man and not going through life doing work and also did meditation 1h-45min a day, there are so many possible parameters, and I used a technique that helps tremendously when I am stressed out and sleeping in sleep cycles. Watching this video and what the guy did I'd test a bunch of stuff, if I could afford it as I really value my time and I looked into the science of it mainly videos. I still prefer sleeping 7-8h, yet I would look into some stuff the biggest issue I had with subtle lethargy and energy like I would be fine cognitively, yet subtely so exhausted from self-studying, reading, exercising studying for bachelors. This quantified self stuff, there are some tricks I bet you can do with mattresses & light & room temperature and air quality and exercise regmie, this is what for me had the biggest impact. My matress was very bad and cheap as I lived in a dorm. Sex drive was also an issue, as this kept my up at night and masturbation did not really help, this also gave me the biggest energy boost during the day when I did not sleep at all, and somehow fixed a lot of stuff when I worked out. With that sexual energy itself is meant, which is obvious. The stuff is so sublte it's not easy to put it into words. My goal was to implement a siesta sleep cycle of 6h30 of sleep, I would give it a shot, yet I personally felt the best around 3-4h of sleep, yet exercising was very difficult then as my body craved more sleep then.

What video games are you playing & enjoying? I do the same and it helps me to boost concentration briefly. I do it mainly during very intense periods of a game, helps me to focus. Although, it's a sign of anxiety feeling into it and not holding the breath, can cause me to face memory &feelings that are unpleasant/Baby-Schocks and trauma. I have some toxic mental impressions I can't get them out of my system at times, when I am gaming a competitive game. Like guilt trips in video games and the mental warfare even in chess etc. I hold my breath and click away at times to disguise my intention, as I seriously notice others intentions in-game etc. Even in Chess I play a subtle move to not evoke for example a potential mistake (I am not high ELO in any game, I have a very competitive ego which can be positive & good, yet I coped a lot due to much emotional b.s etc) You could re-frame it as a positive signal, similar to stress seen as positive creates more positive results. Hold it and see it as a concentration thing. Release it and go with the flow . Notice the contraction of the breath and the other held fear mindfully. Focus on different sensations to positively distract yourself, for e.g a positive emotional or image. Look for what works I tested playing competitive games after meditation retreats. It's odd it's more a quality of conscious intention & decision making, instead of pure mechanics & reactions. Same goes for gaming while tripping totally different experience.

I am currently at disk 18 out of 20, and I listen to it in the morning when I meditate and sort of suck in all of the lessons and take notes afterwards and write down the essentials. I was yearning to write a review and write down a few key insights I had while watching the programm and I am surprised how well he explains some fundamentals, especially beign more natural and authentic and I am also surprised on how non-scummy the programm is and how well it fits into healthy personal development and not the atrocity of current so called "masculinity crises". I had an insight yesterday after downloading the worst possible audiobook to listen to and I see the difference a bit more between healthy stage orange pick-up and unhealthy stage orange pick-up. I deleted the download of the audiobook after hearing Donald Trump is a good man, as it was not neutral anymore and how often he quoted Ayn Rand and Marcus Aurelius I thought well it could be a great programm, but it fundamentally lacked the nuanced level of non-judgementalism, and this is why I liked Owen Cook's programm a lot more. As it entailed real work and he revealed some flaws what he has done, what I saw in the pick-up community, and I was disgusted with the level of right-winged attitude and drug abuse as well as immaturity. What did I like about the programm? (Key lessons) He pushed beign non-judgemental Becoming aware of the identity of being a pick-up guy, and why this identity can be damaging, as it ruins authenticity even at deep levels of mastery How indifference and being unstifled is at the core of being a natural with key confidence Fun and entertaining presentation and character Paralells to philosophy and practical "wisdom" about game Felt more like a personal development plan instead of being some toxic lame PUA Insights into his own life and story that match the programm, so I know the authenticity and originality of the program and it does not feel as shallow The importance of presence and doevtailing with yin&yang principles and a tiny bit of eastern philosophy that drove me personally to PD Revealing more about how impactful social skills are in contrast to looks Quiet encouraging material in itself How a connection to god and a life purpose fixes mostly all of ones problem The connection I felt towards working on my life purpose and generally personal insights I drew from watching and listening to program How having a dense reality can be damaging, and that the ideal guy is both masculine presence and depth, unwavering and beign able to change some attitudes and mental positions The advantages and why some dense and rigid guys can get laid, but they are fundamentally delusional How the work that Leo teaches has some references from the good stuff from Owen Cook Teaching from cleanliness and moderation, no drug abuse, no alcohol and mostly drinking water Showing flaws of chads and "chode's?" also the pushing for authenticness How beign at a deep level of mastery can hinder beign together with other PUA's as they ruin ones game (I just found interesting) The difference in drawing state from (yin) and being in state from yang, and why the yin state drawing can be problematic -> drawing state from enviroment instead from within (yin/yang / feminine/masculine) Generally the idea of presence It teaches princples and not tactics and tricks and lines and mentally frames it for the audience that way No ideaology mostly teaching from what works and no pushing of an agenda Explaining why socializing is not linear, and why for example computer programmers have an issue with due to beign in logic mode all day, they feel left out inside the club, it takes a while to get out of logic The difference of holding state in a dynamic enviroment (I dovetailed with open-monitoring style meditation) and just beign in state (more concentrative kind of meditation) Having a fundamental identity aboue value is very important How having a mindset of beign a value provider and that everyone is my friend creates that reality The shocking truth of about self-fullfilling prophecies The importance of not giving away your power, and how to do that with status, and why you should not give it to high status girls and guys Beign needy is the antithesis to success The social field can be an equalizer of skill and power (ex. higher up from work, yet no good social skills) The importance of playing your role and not believing in it as well as beign "tooled/fooled?" how playing along does not make you loose state To have and be the center of value Importance of personal boundaries How any negative believe will play itself out Importance in getting first-hand experience and not second-hand experience to ground yourself in reality Signs to realize which girl as a strong sense of reality for example (girl walks in a straight line, instead of is confused by all of the attention) Strong sense of purpose is important How flipping the script can be good and a self-crippling highwire-act (pimp mentality and she for example denying sex with the girl etc. -> playing hard to get) The level of depth could be missing for the close and you did nothing wrong I provide value and I am part of the world -> Move With The Current Of The World -> Presence provides depth to others Positivity accelerates growth Compliment girl on qualtities she does not posses to work on subconscious (david deida dovetail...) Jealousy is the seed of defeat you're giving power away Having a fixed minset and realities is not good, experience truth and don't be rigid and dense Don't go into flinch mode The issue of criticizing growth in others and providing negative feedback Creating "lordship" inside the club etc. Has plenty of nuggets for more advanced guys and beginners. What did I not like about the programm? Not mentioning trauma (could have been to much) Eventually to pricey (I bought 1-2 years ago the hotseat home programm, this is what I am left with 2 other programms, but no infield) No infield videos Relatively obvious, yet it's good to hear it and see it from someone who does it and just does not only use common sense without the real infield experience I can't 2x the videos the function is not available, I have to watch it in 1x A bit lengthy, and no motivation to go out and practice like setting challenges for the audience at home and framed mostly for the audience that sits there, the "real idea" of teaching it to the audience watching at home is missing, very strong engagement though with the crowd Older videos from 2004 (he recorded this in his 20's according to himself) All in all I'd say Leo's videos about game are plenty to further develop it as well as learn from it, without overfocusing on some black pill and red pill coaching, this is just normal and healthy personal development, and not some rip-off of ideal. It teaches princples and not tactics and tricks. It's worth the watch, yet eventually not the price, as I don't know what it costs. Leo's video are generally in higher quality and depth, yet this is good for practicality and seeing where those ideas generally come from. There are some other insights, yet I can't really test this as deeply, where I feel his intuition led him due to not having a spiritual practice and pursuing survival etc. But that is a different story. Listening to it gave me a very strong motviation as most of my friends are in the c.s field are not good with girls, and unwilling to get better besides in the most safest way. This was really a non-scummy way of getting better with girls. Most of my problems stem from lacking depth in my life purpose and a connection to god, is the biggest insight I drew from the course.

Today I started at the new company and I am sort of surprised and not how well it fits to my current level of consciouness the higher and lower end, and me being most likely in the experimental spectrum. I was originally assigned to a Java Project, yet my team leader assinged me directly to a machine learning position. I legit found pure gold, we are very similar the day today shocked me on a level of consciouness and truth, that left me just to say the world is a truly godless place, and the country I am living in is becoming more godless. At the end of the day someone stole my bike worth approx 700-600€ I take it to the gym, I notice the more humans come together in a disabonded non-friendship oriented place the more godless behaviour is just ready to be taken an as a proper risk-calculation. I was not very angry, just surprised how a long day can end so abrutply with my bike stolen out of nowhere. (I had 3h of sleep to 4h as I went a bit into "degen mode"). The company also has insane benefits imo for a student, I have 20 days a year of working 20-17h per week and I get a 8,33% bonus pay for vacation for each h worked per month. The irony of it all is the leadership is good, the people that work there are godless sheep dressing as humans to roleplay their foul agenda, I did not speak a lot to others, as I was not in a very good mood as I was lazy, theoretically I should be exicted, yet it has been bothering me for a while how "godless" this place has become and the issue of consciouness itself. The level of power that is exercised by 12 y.o man childs in my opinion who chimp themselves into power, glory and fame, for me this is not really mastery I saw a couple of people who have been more interested into this, working as software architects. I can even get a bike from the company as mine has been stolen lol, so I don't really know it's like a huge circle jerk of human apemanship, I have never seen after changing my value to the value of Truth so much "Untruthfulness" & I don't know if this stems from me and or not. If I would be working with full-throttle, I'd be damned, it's insane how sensationally oriented humanity has become even myself. The constant stimulation of sorts even in a chill enviroment is insane. I'll talk to the guy tomorrow who will help me with my account for the company and talk about these benefits more closely. I hope I don't have to pay, yet that'd be great to have one. I have some new "hope" for the work that I am doing although I get into pretty nihilistic, death contemplation states when I see how "godless" creation itself is, and how much energy it takes to get into the flip-side of "god-like energy" not god-consciouness etc. Yet similar to energy on LSD etc. I get mild tastes of this during the day (obviously I also meditate during the day in motion etc with micro-hits etc.) It's still amazed me how dramatic and tragic this journey is and how much drama exist, because of rationality, fake common sense & anti-holism. I was very surprised by the leadership of the company mentioning holism and big-picture thinking I liked the leader a lot and my intuition did not guide me wrong, I am just concerned after reading thick face and black heart this morning ironically, how bad the value of leadership is developed in younger generations, and how "multicultural" my existence is and what that does of a more "consciouness state" -> True Holism -> Not Andrew Tates Hoe'lism -> can be created by sharing from a place of conscious contemplationts of these values. i was surprised how deeply the guy contemplated the values and how bad the guys&girls administered their concerns, it makes it obvious why barbarism existed and how intelligent people can only have 1/2 brain cell, greed, dogma, confusion & hatred etc. All of this. Some value suggestions were good, and he reframed them. As this was pretty obvious how this was a concern. I am not in a position as them, so I am glad here. Anyway I'd wanted to share this story. It's irritating to me how humans just seem like more or less conscious tools to me. It baffled me that my psychdelic excursions causes 0 interest to manifest myself for the larger whole, when it's so heavily fragmented and most could benefit from healing. Yet doing shadow work for years I know how fking hard it is to weekly and monthly accepted negative facts & behaviorus about oneself and internal & mental self-talk etc. ---- Also the level of criminality recently has been bothering me, and how "godless" this can become if stuff becomes to liberterian I am a bit afraid that I hoped today, that if an A.I is properly coded it can kill a fking human. I was pretty disgusted with how ruthless some of this "godless" attitude can be.

Same, I don't feel I am there, yet it's more seeing progress externally rewarded. I contemplated this map today for a bit, I don't really know how to go about it. As so much pd is internally derived, yet at times having external gratification and means is quiet nice. (the topics was different though https://integrallife.com/sex-identity-gender-beyond-wokism-and-trumpism/#) might still be interesting...

I finished Disk 19 and will write the last review when I am done tomorrow with Disk 20 most likely. The main distinctions and reviews was fundamentally about Value Takers & Value Providers -> icky jucky feeling v.s feeling of value Authenticity and difference in ego -> easiest reframe is activity of self is larger than external ego gratification -> I get the girl haha I show my friends I am so mature look at me getting laid (ego state) Flaws in authenticity and shadows are seen as quirks, yet the ego creates mistakes (non-functional perception in itself imo) Stories where girls where cravings this state from guys from Owen Cook personally after he had his first realization of "ego as processing unit" Some authenticity again from Owen about his work and a finally good bye, the last disk is only a testimony Minor mentioning of trauma and that personal trauma is universal trauma and accepting trauma/shadows etc. is better than to deny it, you basically own it Self-Amusment as a principle of anti-neediness I will at best write some other reviews about and insights about the other two programms I have, I don't know when, yet when it's there it's there. Most of this stuff is paraphrased and written from my own knowledge base I concatinated over the years of doing PD, so it's a little different from the course, as I see earlier and later problems with this etc. --- Looked at the last disk, was interesting to see that there apparently was a self-actualization movement in 2004, and he merged it with pick-up, a lot of good testimonials that seem relatively honest, yet biased towards the guys doing the course in person.

No, it was a telegram group they re-opened, yet I left and I had some insights after watching owen cook's blueprint decoded as to why they behave like this. Fundamentally, they push state by criticizing and making fun of others, it's very obvious yet how it hampers proper positive feedback not so much. A study owen cook mentioned how positive feedback is more empowering. Just speaks volume to why I liked the guy who invited me to the group, he was ultra positive when being out and moved more into positive feedback. Each approach I got better, yet I barely go out. The repute of this is still extremely low and I see also why, many are on drugs and insecure and cold need some baseline form of therapy, the level of projection, immaturity about masculinity and toxicity against women is unreal. 0 respect mostly and just tough love to push ones own state imo.

Today after my meditation session I noticed how deeply I contemplated the value of beauty and impermanence after a family member of mine died, and I was stuck and depressed. I am out of this headspace since January approx. and I am glad I will start working in a higher consciouness company, most of the recent issues are gone I can laugh at Andrew Tate looking at bottom g videos, and the irrefutable truth of status at play and how toxic most human apes are, after leaving a PUA group that started to act with his hatred and racist bigotry against blacks subtely and macho guys who are compensating for their lack of masculinity with masculinity. I left the group due to the highest value guy leaving who was only toxic, and not racist. This bias was also heavily spread through lower SD nations and the mod of the group cancled all of them, till the group got nuked, as the most succesful guys were multicutrual (black - most lays) & one blonde guy (most game). This made me aware of the power of lower SD stages and how dangerous and damaging these mindsets are and the truth about men having status and power. Even if self-deceived. I noticed till now how 90% of the advice given by PUA's simply did not work for me, and how it felt like to be treated by toxic feminity as well as girls telling me, they want to be chocked and their hair pulled and dominated, as I am very masculine apparently, especially when I meet people face to face, it's a very subtle form of masculine maturity also for example I sub-consciously developed by not smashing plates in the gym, working silently enjoying silence and diving into the strength and depth of this silence (masculine qualities), instead of screaming like some overcompensating street dog. I also did the opposite at times sub-consciously as I thought this was manly, yet I legit self-deceived me, after reading a more conscious book, I realized that what I am doing is a feminine quality and not a masculine (working out in silence/ instead of screaming etc.) It has been bothering me and I am still figuring out how to exercise power physically and mostly getting rid of "street dogs" and my arrogance when I intellectualize and read a lot. I noticed how much hatred can be created on this meritocracy and "having it earned and deserved" type stage orange thinking, and how beautiful it can feel to simply earn things and have breakthroughs and accomplishments (as well as how discriminatory and hypocrtical the arguments of these people are). When I am coding&doing mathematics recently and self-studying etc. I noticed how in the recent year or two especially the value of holonic beauty has been the core driver for working not only hard, yet coming from a deeper place of fullfilment and satisfaction, when doing the work and feeling frustrated with the endless possibilities and alternatives. I also notice how this is a core motivator for my in the gym, to work whole and to not focus on parts and mechnical "edginess" which is even a yin quality (feminine/starting at edges - ever wondered why edgy guys seems so feminine?). I noticed how this also got me through the painful work recently, yet I had a professor with really really high standards about beauty, and also that I feel I attract more holostically oriented girls when I focus on beauty, may they be good looking and/or not. I've recentely just come to the conclusion of how important and rare it is to generate a strong foundation of masculine strength with yin balance, and how juvenline and immature this forum has been, and my initial gut feelings about Leo and my totally opposite experience, especially socially. The online-dating course I did from Eban Pagan, was really good in figuering out, how to become better with women and hanging-out with players who also appreciated more the holonic "material aspect & immaterial" of beauty, how good they are with women. It was sort of funny how often they banged the same chicks, if they did not get laid and she just comes back. I also see the issue and discrimination parts of it, and the stupidity of guys in general. I've meet a couple of millionairs/6-figure guys and I saw how "easy" it can be to be socially proactive and create new friends, I invited myself into groups without beign needy and beign a cool guy that provides value. Making friends with all, beign neither nor above anyone. I am quiet good at this. I've always had this quality going for me, of being like-able and sociable. Even online when I use the camera girls start turning on their camera (even when my online-dating is whack) and start to become curious and I get compliments the whole time, that it made me wonder, how long have I been missing this more spiritual quality, when I was cycling as a kid or working out and studying, travelling, meeting friends, girls, having sex etc. The biggest joy I had out of feeling whole and healed in a sense and not like some "deficite". I've often received these compliments without having the acutal quality of beign a player etc. I also notice the flip-side of it, and how difficult it is to generate all of this as it does take time and some people just don't like you and that is 100% fine, I never cared about this, even to the contraty objections of people who love to project and can't see that higher SD stage realization. I noticed as I gained power and was beign authentically me and gained skills and was working in congruency with my LP, how deeply others appreciated me for beign me, and me them for beign them. Even when I was slightly dissatisfied with my friends. I made new ones, almost weekly and this still continues to happen to some extend. Till the more "unholistic and ugly" people start to corrupt the process with hatred and justifications of subtle hatred. Self-Love is the answer even with pride having self-love is important and to be beyond such things generally speaking, it's also difficult to attract more conscious & kinky let's say girls as there are far and few between them, and I fundamentally just found one from a country I did not think it was real & I might share the story another time. The point is it's not easy to recognize some of the truths of the "game of life" and how a holarchical perspective just fosters faster growth, yet with a lot of pain, a lot of it. I really yearned to share how focusing on the beauty of things allows depth for me personally unmatched, and I realize also why RSD and Game is mostly dead and why Owen Cook does more social type of stuff now, due to the toxic nature of PUA's & how very good social game is all it takes to be good with girls. Anyway, this what I yearned to share. There is more, yet I am integrating a lot of this slowly, and if it took my 6 months to be at this space, I will grow fast and be patient with results.

Move if you can to a better place with HC (higher consciouness) ppl and HC opportunities. I've meet someone from Sybira recently at a tech event. Who upgraded his LC's (life conditions) and had a general inclincation of HC content, fundamentally working as software engineer in robotics. Some places are bounded to be low consciouness riden with b.s. No matter how conscious you are it will affect you, even fantasy b.s which can be horrible to stomach if you like improvement and realness/truth.

It's a similar experience of the PUA group I left a couple of days ago, this red pill ideaology or what ever it is has nothing to do with truth, there is not even a decent conversation about power. It's mostly shock value and not even properly teaching or showing how to polarize properly without being some disrespectful snotty brat. These threads turn toxic and at one point it will turn racist/xenophobic at one point when the level of frustration is high, I never thought also this subcurrent of the forum would rub-off, yet it seriously does happen. I yesterday showed an example of how fast I can figure this out, and there is nothing civil about these discussions and amateur science. etc. I can't help but laugh at this Andrew Tate stuff, as this level of "stupidity" is just fascinating how stuck these worldviews are, yet it's generally toxic body of thought. It's the quickest and cheapest way to get better with anything to follow Andrew Tate, I can't believe people woreship him after openly beign "pro-trans" in this toxic right-wing manosphere. Like if the guy becomes the saviour of our world I would just laugh at the level of apeness of humans, it's incredible. There are serious social scientist posting papers and insights about these phenomena and red pill. I dunno it's not really good to learn a masculine/feminine polarity from him! I just will start watching Tate, I feel bad for these people, so I at least know what it's about and give these people the usual run of idc, but good talk bye. It's evident that most of these people. Smoke cigarettes and use and have used serious drugs cocaine, speed, and are addicts and like narcotics Have serious problem with girls and are misogynists Right wing leaning etc. I just saw this in a PUA group, and it's a similar pattern. I left the group due to the level of "dullness" of advice and help. This has nothing to do with beign properly conservative and wise in that domain, it's a bunch of polarzing b.s to make clicks and be rich. The guy is banned for a reason from major plattforms. It's an agony to read these threads and seeing generally speaking a lot of "low status" guys like him. It's like following gangster of the street. I dunno if I look like the usual "redness" and I see logic as a rapper signing his father to his own record deal I get the real feeling of again beign "self-made" with cooperation etc. and aid from others. The point it's flatout horrid to read the conclusions to what people come here and to contemplate to what it tend to lead, it's not funny and this sensationalist shock value should be stopped and banned, as well as these threads, yes it's a little boring, yet at least it would be more real nuanced personal development and positions about personal development. Not kids worshipping their Andrew Fate. Cmon this can't be serious.

Bro you're on my blocklist since 6 months .

What you're typing is the bottom of the barrel type people. You did not offend me. I don't frankly care about some over-aggressive little kid. Who projects his Jesus ideas to Andrew Tate and is stuck in some judeo-christian nightmare of a worldview. You're a joke bro, go have some fun with Tate. Or call me if you need a little help ;). You don't even know what a projection is. Nobody runs the real world like this, what kind of movie are you even on? The way you're typing your little PUA worldview most seriously have been threatened, maybe stop using caps like an offended little girl. Backstabbing your colleagous will get you that promotion . Beign a slave is a yin feminine principle, and being a master a masculine princple that is the joke. It's insane that people like you have freedom of speech and pollute your mind with the dumbest ideas possible. It's often always here the nietzschetype followers who legit have the most power driven worldview and could need a serious reality check. There is a difference in exercising power and dominating others. Also these philosophers are a huge joke, I don't know how you can't see this even as a kid and make these distinctions. That level of bitterness in you is unreal.

Sure the higher does not include the lower, and all that exists is scientific evidence of competition and growth. If you consistenlty pursue self-interest you'll be outright outcompeted, the biggest strength of survival of tribes and nations is cooperation you get that? Maybe contemplate an ant colony, there are not only preadators in the universe as life forms. Their life is also finite. Bro stage turqouise LC's don't even properly exist you realize that I am seeing someone build it right in fron of my eyes it's funny. The technology for this does not even properly exists, you can only do so much, as an individual and these communities do not properly work. I've seen one of the most fantastic pitches in the universe from a guy who left the forum, about various things. It's insane that most guys don't even have the desire to pursue higher LC's. If I would ask you what a holon is you could not even explain to me integral thinking. It's very evident how academia just screws with some peoples conditioning and school even. Any average stage orange expert will most likely put this sandcastle worldviews of yours into the ground. Also this "semi-conscious" strong left-leaning anarchy type self-organisation vibe is something a young 20 year old goes to the first time he/she realizes systems in systems in systems and meta thinking, it does not work if there is no cooperation for this, maybe read some books about anarchy. I like a lot of self-organizing ideas, they usually don't work. If you want to enslave yourself into a system without creative opportunities and nische building your choice and gl. A lot of these ideas will be implemented within an A.I, it's quiet interesting and most likely neccessary. The entire world view of yours is based on social darwinism and is outright childish, to simply dominate and outcompete, you'll be the biggest looser at the end while the ones who cooperate and have better social skills will just win out. It does not really matter. Talking to single-minded type people who fan boy anything just shows me a lack of dignity of oneself, especially Andrew Tate. The point is all of these high level intellecutals are legit at the leading edge, and solving world problems, while you see kids like Andrew Tate run around causing chaos, maybe neccessary, yet it's a big hinderance to actual growth. For sure someone get's value out of this, but seriously no matter how smart if you are not looking at him for stupidity and lols and letting yourself be inspired by the stupidity of humanity, I don't know it's like watching a good reality tv show seeing Andrew Tate. The joys I experienced during meditation retreats etc. How shallow this guy treats sex etc. He does not even properly exploit pleasure otherwise he would push it. Also funny side note Ralph Smart and him grew up in the same town, it's interesting to see the guy now, that the toxicity is over and just materalism is at a rampage again. Anyway I am out of this no matter what you reply to me.

I know this from the PUA group who went toxic about a man doing this, the point is with the new sexual diversity spectrum this has all become so difficult. The guy has a lot of yin energy he would even admitt, it I bet I could be personal with guys like him, I have a knack for dealing with corrupt people who're full of shit, and I could get him to talk that'd be so funny, I never really hated him. The followers are 99.9% the issue. He is misguided about what the world really is, when I watch him I can see parts of my guilty self lacking in wisdom to be of "serivce" to humanity. In a twisted sense he means well, I fundamentally have a similarity with him being half/half american/german he american/english and I can see the damages of beign with a single mother, it's hilarous to watch and sort of see how he sort of has this genuient interested in understanding the world, and eventually even women, and I bet it did not work for him. Also growing up with a single mother who is white and most likely has some strong liberal ideals, otherwise she would not date a black man, besides in an f*ed scenario or just beign at least modern stage orange. I just feel bad for the guy, if he'd actually just become a healthy player without sex trafficking it would not even be that bad, yet he rose to fame through hate & sensationalist type of media polarization. I also see the damage simply of "sub-optimal" parenting and how early I realized this, the guy most likely has strong yin enery, otherwise he would not be as creative and "beauty" oriented, even when he dives deeper into the masculine many become way more soft. That does not even have anything to do with sexual orientation, the content the guy produces and how he ripps of others who are looking to make quick money is just sad and manipulation based on shame & guilt. It would be funny if he would just convert all of these people and his real agenda, was to free muslims from the rigid perspectives about gender I would hype the guy to infinity .

I don't think you understand evolution. That is why diversity exists, so you don't have to play the same game over and over. You can play a different game and create a different game, that is also why new marketing segments open, and yes it's also a game.

People like Tate are so depreived of positve attention just giving him the benefit of the doubt is to much, he thrives on this and he has a guilty inner child wound 100%, I bet he had some good character traits at one point, yet beign honest and rich is not easy. He does not even know what he is doing, for me this is just evidence of how damaging history has been for black people, and how far this goes, especially the denial of it's affects and how people like him have to survive in order to gain respect etc. He is basically jailed by his desires and attachments, without providing real solutions to real problems, most masculine healthy guys do some sort of calisthenics that is very dynamic and have some type of yin energy etc. Most developed guys all have yin energy qualities in them. The deeper you go into the masculine the deeper you understand and can go into the feminine, I bet Tate even realizes that that is why he is also so toxic, he is more like a toxic feminists than some masculine guy at times, as he just can't stop talking and yapping about his stuff and it feels like he comes from a place of toxic feminity at times, than toxic mascunlity. I dunno I like bottom-g more. This guy is a joke man. He is like a girl prostituing himself as a guy, I don't envy him I just find it comical to what realization this guy comes that is the only thing I appreciate about him, stupidity realizing it's intelligence it's hilarous in a sense. Serious question, is the guy straight? I don't watch much of Andrew Tate, I don't know if this has just been cut. It's similar to what Wilber describes, yet he would not be in denial of it's shadow it's kind of funny. Dude this guy is so funny I can't at this point hahahahha, sorry. Genderbender Andrew, bottom-g was not lying